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Lyrics 



Reason to live 


I die a little every day,
there is left only one way.
Am I more than my disease?
Oh please - 
give me a reason to live.

Can't stand myself anymore,
What am I still waiting for?
Don't fit in and don't go on,
no time to be happy,
cause I have to be strong.

I die a little every day,
there is left only one way.
Am I more than my disease?
Please - 
give me a reason to live,
give me a reason to live.

This war I will never win,
how can I be who I am?
Despair is tearing me down,
it's not the hard task, 
just doing it on my own.

I die a little every day,
there is left only one way.
Am I more than my disease?
Please - 
give me a reason to live,
give me a reason to live.

Not living, just waiting,
the illusion of control,
I need a miracle,
a miracle 

I die a little every day,
there is left only one way.
Am I more than my disease?
Please - 
give me a reason to live,
give me a reason to live.

© Sarima 


#music therapy #sentimental #sad




Reason to live

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Lyrics 

Never told you

Never thought how difficult it could be
to tell you things that concern me.
Maybe I don't want to hurt you. 
Fear of your reaction? Too.
No way I want to put pressure on you.

I cry 'cause I am here and you are there.
A text from you changes atmosphere.
I would walk through fire for you.
I never, never want you to go.
When you ignore me my heart breaks in two.

I don't doubt you know me - you do.
You are probably aware of all of this too.
Maybe you wish I had the courage to
share these words I never told you.

Sometimes your cold, harsh words hurt me.
With every single fiber I'm sorry.
I desperately need a hug from you.
I'm proud of what you've become too.
I am aware that I don't deserve you.

I don't doubt you know me - you do.
You are probably aware of all of this too.
Maybe you wish I had the courage to.
share these words I never told you.

Unspoken words hang in the room
like soap bubbles that threaten to burst.
I won't risk, cherish every piece.
A simple 'love you' lets me survive weeks.

I don't doubt you know me - you do.
You are probably aware of all of this too.
Maybe you wish I had the courage to.
share these words I never told you.

© Sarima 

#music therapy 

Never told you

First recorded in October 2023.
From the EP The Mist.

It's a song about turning 41.

This new version was mixed and mastered by
Woods Studio Norway Mixing and Mastering 
www.soundcloud.com/woods_studio 

LYRICS

As forty one summers flew by. 
Damn your age and the blink of your eye.
As all presumed miscreance followed by recompence.
Now. 
You're half done.

The pretender who should have been king.
The same man who could not do a thing for himself.
Or others, not following? 
Hard pills to swallow in life.
What a world.

Look... it's boredom or love on the rocks.
There's no way to avoid aftershocks.
It's either earth shattering, else its a tiny bit... dull.
Choose your girl.

The fantasy life of your mind, 
Can only replace certain parts of the world.
We all have to live in it, hard to find give in it.
Relax.
Have a whirl.

Now you... hold your hands out to me.
Like we've still got the time.
I remember sixteen.
Seems like yesterday, right?

Was there much money where you grew up?
Were there many reasons to aim up?
Was there bread in the bread bin and laughter and music and songs?
Sing alongs?

Were your twenties a wonderful time? 
Or did you spend it trying to make sense of the world.
A drunken, embittering, withering, dallying, fool.
What a world.

Now you... hold your hands out to me.
Now we're all on the slide.
Do you remember sixteen?
Bet you had quite the time.

What has become?
Face the rising sun.

What has become?

Much more to come.
Face the rising sun.

Now you... hold your hands out to me.
Like your right at my side.
I remember sixteen.
It was yesterday, right.

Down we go.
Down deeper we go.

Forty One [2024 Remaster]

First recorded in November 2023.
From the album Sparks.

It's a song about someone called Eloise, apparently she has a garden of love..

This new version was mixed and mastered by
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www.soundcloud.com/woods_studio 

LYRICS

Nor blanket of kindness, nor blanket of snow.
Covers me whole. Makes no inroads from...
The giant black smoke stack that bellows and blows.
Oh, how it blows. 
Blows out and blows.

Oh, please, oh, please.
Save me from me.
Eloise, in your garden of love.
Oh, please, won't you please.
Save me, from been me.
Eloise, in your garden of love.

The choices I make must sit right in my head.
Eloise. Come with me.
If I make the wrong choice, I'll wish I were dead.
Eloise, we could be...
So happy you joined us, though you're rather late.
Honey, please, Set me free.
Now eat everything that we put on your plate.
On my knees, work with me.

Oh, please, won't you please.
Save me from just me.
Eloise, in your garden of love.
Oh, please, please, please.
Save me, save me, save me.
Eloise, in your garden of love.

Now I'm walking and talking.
And barely forestalling this breakdown.
Won't come free.
Eloise, in the garden of love.
I walk and I talk.
And say all the words I'm supposed to say now.
Alter me. 
Eloise, in your garden of love.

Some sort of third verse that explains the first two.
Eloise. Follow me?
The storm in your mind can't contain what you do.
Eloise. Follow me?

Oh, please, won't you please.
Save me, only me.
Eloise, with your garden of love.
Oh, please, please, please.
Save me, me, me.
Eloise, with your garden of love.

I'm walking, I'm baulking.
I'm right on the edge of a breakdown.
From the fee.
Eloise. Eloise  Eloise.
I can't walk, and I can't talk.
I can't alter the words that you say now.
Fancy free. 
Eloise. 
In your garden of love.

The choices I make must sit right in my head.
If I make the wrong choice, I'll wish I were dead.
Eloise in your garden of love.







Eloise [2024 Remaster]

Lyrics /dezz/

I'm staring at the cars, getting on with the day
I guess I have the time to say
I'm sorry things had to end this way
Til we meet again, on another day
If I could go back to happier times
Even if it was a small slice of our lives
Anything is better than this
We just keep falling deeper into the abyss...

The stars, they shine
As life takes another lifeline
The poison strikes from the inside
We can't hide (but...)

I don't wanna feel like I did back then!
Don't wanna lie, don't wanna pretend!
Really, I'm just living a lie
But I remember everything...
Do we have to go through all this again?
Mental games that destroy our head
Are we really living, if we're already dead?
We'll still remember everything...

I hope... That fate cuts the rope
Just let us go, let us live free
Life is cruel, breaks so many rules
And if you think happiness is real... I guess it makes us bigger fools

It ain't real, it's all a lie
We look into the devils eyes
Beg and plead, for an empty prize...

I don't wanna feel like I did back then!
Don't wanna lie, don't wanna pretend!
Really, I'm just living a lie
But I remember everything...
Do we have to go through all this again?
Mental games that destroy our head
Are we really living, if we're already dead?
We'll still remember everything...

I REMEMBER EVERYTHING (DEZZ  Vocals&lyrics EEL Guitars&ats)

Heartbeat in the dark, a whisper in the night
Empty streets and shadows, everything feels tight
A chill runs down my spine, a fear I can't explain
Something's in the air, a feeling of disdain

Heard a scream, a whisper, a name I couldn't catch
Lost in the silence, a feeling of a latch

Something's not right, a puzzle out of place
A shiver in my soul, a fear I can't erase

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

Left me here with nothing, feeling so blue

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

The silence screams your name, it's haunting me through

Empty eyes stare back, a reflection of my fear
The truth is hidden, but it's getting ever so clear
Every step I take, the ground feels cold and bare
A feeling of betrayal, a weight I can't bear

Heard a scream, a whisper, a name I couldn't catch

Lost in the silence, a feeling of a latch
Something's not right, a puzzle out of place
A shiver in my soul, a fear I can't erase

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

Left me here with nothing, feeling so blue

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

The silence screams your name, it's haunting me through

The whispers turn to screams, the shadows start to rise
The truth is coming closer, I can't deny the lies

A darkness in my heart, a feeling of despair
The weight of your actions, a burden I can't bear

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

Left me here with nothing, feeling so blue

What'd you do?

What'd you do?

The silence screams your name, it's haunting me through

What'd you do?
Oh,  What'd you do? 

What'd you do?

Casette Dreams

What'd you do

PAIN OR LUCK (DEZZ  vocals&lyrics EEL guitars&ats)

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Lyrics 

Danke für Nichts 

Ist dir bewusst, was du mit mir machst?
Bist heiß und dann kalt, ich weiß es nie.
Die Momente wenn du mit mir lachst
geben mir so viel, ja so viel.

Deine Worte, getragen vom Wind
hebeln den Verstand aus, machen mich blind.
Hoffnung macht mich zur leichten Beute,
will vertrauen - morgen, gestern und heute.

Dieser Ton, wenn Versprechen brechen,
scharfe, spitze Stückchen ins Herz stechen.
Ich sollte wohl weinen, doch muss lachen,
zu vertraut ist das böse Erwachen.
Beobachte das Erlöschen des Lichts.
Tja - danke für Nichts. 
Danke für Nichts.

Ich würde dir gern alles geben,
mein Herz, meine Seele, mein Leben.
In deiner Falle bin ich nur eine Maus,
willst mich nicht, aber lässt mich nicht raus.

Deine Worte, getragen vom Wind
hebeln den Verstand aus, machen mich blind.
Hoffnung macht mich zur leichten Beute,
will vertrauen - morgen, gestern und heute.

Dieser Ton, wenn Versprechen brechen,
scharfe, spitze Stückchen ins Herz stechen.
Ich sollte wohl weinen, doch muss lachen,
zu vertraut ist das böse Erwachen.
Beobachte das Erlöschen des Lichts.
Tja - danke für Nichts. 
Danke für Nichts.

Du nimmst einfach meine Hand,
bringst mich um den Verstand.
Doch wird es ernst lässt du sie los,
versetzt mir auch noch einen Stoß.
Wer sich in Gefahr begibt ist dumm,
kommt darin um. 
Kommt darin um.

Dieser Ton, wenn Versprechen brechen,
scharfe, spitze Stückchen ins Herz stechen.
Ich sollte wohl weinen, doch muss lachen,
zu vertraut ist das böse Erwachen.
Beobachte das Erlöschen des Lichts.
Tja - danke für Nichts. 
Danke für Nichts.
Danke für Nichts.

© Sarima 

#music therapy 

Danke für Nichts

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Lyrics 

One more time 

Just one more time - look at me like I mean something to you.
Just one more time - hold me tight as if you don't let me go.
Just one more time - let me hear your voice calling my name.
Just one more time - want to cry on your shoulder again.
Just one more time - please kiss my lips soft and sincerely too.
Just one more time - slowly stroke my hand and pull me to you.

The memory fades, you're so far away, 
I wish you had decided to stay.
It went too fast, I lack a conclusion.
Since then, happiness has been an illusion.
Just one more time. Just one more time. 
Then I'm strong enough to forget you were mine.

Just one more time - give me the feeling of being loved. 
Just one more time - want to dance in your strong arms with trust.
Just one more time - make me smile with your weird jokes and hide.
Just one more time - let's talk and listen to music all night.
Just one more time - let's fall asleep cuddling in front of the stream.
Just one more time - describe the green wedding dress from your dream.

The memory fades, you're so far away, 
I wish you had decided to stay.
It went too fast, I lack a conclusion.
Since then, happiness has been an illusion.
Just one more time. Just one more time. 
Then I'm strong enough to forget you were mine.
Just one more time. Just one more time. 
Then I'm strong enough to forget you were mine.

I miss you so much, but have to let go. 
You can't stop travelers, I have to know.
I am not part of your happiness. 
And you deserve everything, nothing less.

The memory fades, you're so far away, 
I wish you had decided to stay.
It went too fast, I lack a conclusion.
Since then, happiness has been an illusion.
Just one more time. Just one more time. 
Then I'm strong enough to forget you were mine.
Just one more time. Just one more time. 
Then I'm strong enough to forget you were mine.

© Sarima 

#music therapy 

One more time

Mental illness is no fun. Often difficult to understand for those not affected. What life feels like with depression, anxiety disorders, etc. ?
Here's my attempt to express how it feels to live and love with these diseases. 
Brutally open, vulnerable lyrics and music that fits the message. Different styles of music, different voices supporting my very personal message.

Love, Sarima 



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