Name: my own by sa:sha
Duration: 3 min 14 s
Description: song about a fleeting love <3 from me to you

if i wuz ur bf

outside of da club

JULYYY!

allinyourhead/jinkies [prod. shriekindreamer]

i think im happy

Produced by Connor Barkhouse and Russell Boring

Diary 4/4/2017

* i was so depressed last night i wanted to die. 
Why do i constantly ponder heartache? How long will i long for Joie and regret that August night. She said she forgave me but i still fucked up and asksd for an open relationship after i cheated. God what the fuck. Throw a hint a nigga way. O Joie you lied to me. You told me you would forgive me if i cheated on you in Miami. Before I ever thought of cheating. I was like 'ha nah neva no way'. 

In Miami you said you would forgive me if i cheated. Not saying i deserve your forgiveness just that i know you still have it in you. I know because i choose to believe you were open and honest with me then. Just like the Ocean and the Earth we have our cycles. It hits you all of a sudden like nothing. Just like you fall in love you fall out and in agaih. You dont have to believe me but i think there was more to us than you give credit. I think it was special. It doesnt matter what i think, though, you have to see the value. I feel you remember. You say you dont. Ive never felt anything realer than what i felt with you. 

I know whats in my heart. Only i decide who comes in and out. And even though you werent 100% real with me and i was not 100% faithful that doesnt negate the love we shared. Cuz we only human. I crave that type of realness i got when i got introduced to ya. But i feel like since october 1 youve just been done being vocal to me. No thanks.  (Dont send)

Only you decide who let into your heart. Dont act like you TRIED TO MAKE IT WORK. That annoys me. Once i was out of your heart, that was it. Im not gon beat myself up because you told me you would forgive if ever i were to cheat on you that night in Miami. Im not mad at you for changing your mind when i actually did cheat because i said i would never do that to you and i lied too. 

Water under the bridge, sorta, because when you say you offer genuine friendship i imagine dialogue and respect that just aint there for me anymore. You wont pick up the phone or even tell me you dont want to and thats been the case. Thats why your friendship seems fraud. Because when im frustrated i think of the times you gave me truth i needed it and now whether youre aware or nah you dont gimme that. Its

Im sorry if you feel guilty for breaking up with me honestly because i miss you like shit everyday and i woulda done anything to keep what we had. At this distance there was so little i could do or say or see. I dont regret it but it seems youve tried hard to forget who you were before October 1. You walled me out and started treating me like a stranger

TEEN VIRGYN

5. For Joie

Madeitall(2 - I'llgo)

Tracklist:
man in the mirror - goshpixie
Heart Stop - Weiland
Talk Words - Bickle
BLACK MICHAEL JACKSON - Jean Dawson
Secrecies ft. Sam Austins - Billy Lemos
RX ft. Amidi - Kenny Mason
Wild Animals - Liv.e
Die Hard ft. Blxst - Kendrick Lamar
no desert - clearlew
THANKFUL - 454

week 21 - pixie pack

this in mi room, 1st song i've posted in 7 years. <3

https://youneedgenie.bandcamp.com/track/p-o-v

produced & written by genie

my own

sa:sha

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