decisions laid ahead / the floor beneath my feet /
the path that goes where tread i'm laying tracks where stood yet steep /
this journey is a voyage that will start with one choice /
decisions that i face becomes a dialogue with no voice /
rather feelings and emotions with imagery inside my head /
the scenarios will pass i'm watching imagery project /
i'm watching landscapes pursue. / possibilities in quake. /
undecisiveness erupts and then the questions form a lake. /
i bathe in utter thoughts / i float in contemplation /
gaze inside my history and watch the future come and take it /
stand there so unsure / my hesitancy builds /
my guard will start to rise in case my emotions are threatened to be killed /
been that route before / a master of experience /
now nervous of the repitition that a history so often would become the nearest /
so near when / it's there / right upside my face /
i see my history / so clearly / but now it is just "time" i see will race /
catch another hour / a clock for good measure /
walk on sands of time regardless of any stormy weather /
appreciate the moment / acknowledge truthful fact /
i don't know what lies ahead but i hope i won't get too attached /
because i'm vulnerable when i do. / and then i live life mortal /
scared to death of loss that's why i now live moving forward /
erasing past experience / welcoming what is to come /
living in the now even though it's sometimes harder done /
not necessarily forgetting about the history i am now done with /
i'm just saying i now think clearly, and with the past - i'll learn from it /
i hope i won't take shit too personal / but rather live a life of ease /
flow inside the wind yet standing firmer than the trees /
as the leaves fall / so shall i with every moment /
for everything is born of nothing / and so 'nothing' - is the focus /
a golden opportunity of wealth of steady mind /
of serenity to find since the peace will come to shine /
as the clarity just blind. / feel this breeze. /
feel this wind / splash across the cheek. /
ride the tunnel wave / this life will only speak /
i sit here contemplate / on the choices that just peak /
and the possibilities that arise / aware of conscious thoughts /
aware that conscious ought / to be a central rock /
foundation that is firm / though sometimes manifested /
is a wrong decision made and consequence become just fully rested /
in to present moment. / cannot repeat the past. /
the "now" can not be revised and so this choice i make shall wrap /
around a conscious train of thought. / and solid rock decision. /
moving mountains speak, but first i oughta stop and listen. /
clarify the moment and let all the future show /
what might be to come even though i race to know /
slow the fuck down.
put that shit to rest. /
i'll be stiller than an ocean in the middle of winter's breath~

i propose another rap / illicit what was gone / 
bring my thoughts back and compose another song / 
hold the posture tall / and hope that it wont break / 
i'm really supposed to study but my patience couldnt wait / 
it's minutes after 8 / and its really almost 9 / 
i saw the watch tick and the clock doesnt lie / 
i stop once i try / caught outta time / 
i thought i was gonna grind but saw my focus gutted dry / 
quiz tommorow why / attention undermined / 
underline the facts i'm harrassed under time / 
deficit of a disorder / my attention brought to slaughter / 
my focus fades away faster than it could be fostered / 
i am the author of demise / my heavy eyelids wait / 
for the moment it could shut despite all of the risks at stake / 
i got a quiz tommorow / right now it's lookin bleak / 
battling the moment hoping not to be overtook by sleep / .

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amador