Maybe I'm a bit naive
there are things I want 
and things I need 
a little Jack or a little Jim Beam 
a little kiss here and a little you'll see 
You're a little bit bad 
and you're exactly what I need 
follow me...yeah


You take my hand 
we start dancing slow 
we're just groovin' to the radio
I smile at the smile in your eyes 
where is this  gonna lead?
we say we really don't know 
Nice try...
we both know that's a lie
we know.... yeah 

 Pre-Chorus

You can only hold off the morning 
for so long 
baby, you know 
the moon is long gone 
oh ohohhhhoh


Chorus

Sunlight tearing at my eyes 
like daggers 
Guess I lost 
last night's swagger
the only boom boom  I'm  feeling
is the pounding in my head 
wish I was dead

Bridge
Black bird sitting on a Boulevard wire 
He's been watchin' mocking my desire
singing "you know better... you know better "


I can't say I planned it 
love has always been a hit and miss 
I can't say I went looking for this 
 That Blackbird is gonna have to 
save his judgement
For another day 

He don't know that I know
when his love goes sideways
He just flies away
Yeah, he just flies away 

 
Pre-Chorus

You can only hold off the morning 
for so long 
baby, you know 
the moon is long gone 
oh ohohhhhoh


Chorus

Sunlight tearing at my eyes 
like daggers 
Guess I lost 
last night's swagger
the only boom boom  I'm  feeling
is the pounding in my head 
wish I was dead

That Blackbird is gonna have to 
save his judgement
For another day 

He don't know that I know
when his love goes sideways
He just flies away
Yeah, he just flies away 


Last Night's Swagger

There’s  a kind of pain,
You shouldn’t survive 
I search the lines  in your face,
 to see if your  lyin’ 
The words “ it’s  over”   hang in the  air
You can hear a pin drop, 
from way over there
My  heart stops cold ohh no no no 
I can’t breath in here 
 
You said, I held the keys to your heart 
but now you want em back
I guess  10 years down the drain is fine
You just wasted my sweet time 
I could go on and on but, 
You’re already gone, gone. gone, gone gone...  gone 

Heart death by a thousand cuts
That vacant look in your eyes,
cuts like a razor
You say you found another lover  
Like you’re doing me a favor 
What the fuck ?
 
Take my heart to the Undertaker 
Take my heart to the Undertaker
Tell him, send it back to its maker 
I can’t use it here anymore
That’s for sure 

I don’t wanna be 
Livin'   a flat line
I don’t wanna be  
Livin'  it half blind
It’s time 
Take my heart to the Undertaker  
Take my heart to the Undertaker

It’s past midnight when, I pull in the drive 
another 2-shift day, another day survived
My high beams light up the front yard,
Like the 4th of July

My feet stumble as I get out of the car
I look twice, there you are 
Leanin  up against that old oak tree,
that's hardened and hollow, 
 just like me   
You look like a shadow 
of who you used to be
 
now, you’re sayin  you  don’t love her 
 It was all  a big mistake 
Sayin whatever I dish out you'll take 
Sayin you’ll die right here 
If I don’t take you back 
If I had a heart
I'd have a heart attack 
boy,  let me be clear 
You don't have a prayer here
 
I don't have a heart, but
I don’t want to be a  hater,  
but here’s a little advise 
because it's true
There’s no one to blame but you 
You’re a victim of your own devise

I’m  saying this straight, 
from the heart  I don't have
I don’t wanna hear it man, 
I don't give a damn 

TELL IT TO THE UNDERTAKER...
Take your heart to the Undertaker
Take your heart to the Undertaker

I don’t wanna hear it man, 
I don't give a damn 

Take My Heart To The Undertaker

[Verse 1]

Walking through memories
Under those stars you used to know
Whiskey kisses, love burning low
You can't hide from it, darlin'
Those embers still glow

[Verse 2]

Heartstrings playin' guilty pain
Thoughts of her, like drivin' rain
Ghost lovers of the past
Secondhand smoke
It clings, it lasts

[Bridge]

An old flame 
You stirred up again 
Like a Hurricane 
Let's give her a real name
Secondhand Smoke  
She's just secondhand smoke (smoke)


[Chorus]

Secondhand Smoke 
From a fire you’ve been 
tending all night 
It’s something you can’t deny
So don’t even try 
Secondhand Smoke


She's just secondhand smoke
From a fire you’ve been 
tending all night 
It’s something you can’t deny
So don’t even try 
Secondhand Smoke
She's just secondhand smoke


Why play with smoke when you can play with fire?
 Baby why?


[Verse 3]

 I'm haunted by her face
Like a melody that time can't erase
Her silhouette dances, in the moonlight's glow
Secondhand smoke
don't wanna let go
Secondhand smoke
 don't wanna let go.



{Verse 4]

I'm the fire you been tending all night
It's something you can't deny
So don't even try 
Secondhand smoke
It's just secondhand smoke

Why play with smoke when you can play with fire?






Secondhand Smoke

[Verse]

I thought we soared on the same breeze
Thats what you made me believe 
don't you see?
You took a flight pattern that we never talked about
You pretend not to know
what I was upset about


[Chorus]
Why were your dreams more golden than mine?
Did they shine a richer hue?
Or was it all about what I could do for you?
You smiled while you lied...
You smug self-centered narcissistic man-child 

[Verse 2]
You painted your dreams with neon light
I painted mine in candlelight
I painted with you and me, us and we
You painted with me, me, me 
You were a no-show 
Now I'm stuck in the no show afterglow


[Verse 3]
You chased stars and I chased you
Can you see me in the rear view?
Your promises fell like autumn leaves
all the pretty words in colors to 
mesmerize me

[Bridge]
You thought the pretty words would go to my head
but honey, just like you and me 
the falling leaves are dead

ohhhh  
the falling leaves are dead
The falling leaves are dead


[Chorus]
Why were your dreams more golden than mine?
Did they shine a richer hue?
Or was it all about what I could do for you?
You smiled while you lied...
You smug self-centered narcissistic man-child 


Narcissistic Man-Child

In this life you learn
that everything comes and goes 
Life has a life of its own
there is so little you can control

Of all that I have seen
the one thing I know for sure
valley high or valley low
I'll never let go of the things I know

Because...

What I know
I know didn't come easy
what I know
I know I didn't roll the dice
What I know, I know
came at a price 
That's why I'll never let go 
of the things I know 


Anything worth knowing, 
comes the hard way
Anything worth having is hard fought
and hard won 
Every stumble made me think twice
that's why I'll never let go 
of the things I know

What I know
I know didn't come easy
what I know
I know I didn't roll the dice
What I know, I know
came at a price 
that's why I'll never let go 
of the things I know 

Don't ask me how I know the things I know
Don't ask me how I know the things I know


THE THINGS I KNOW

Why does a shooting star fall from the sky?
How does a bird just spread his wings and fly?
What secret does the ocean keep?
Why is the man in the moon wide awake while we are all fast asleep?

Why do the waves crash on the shore?
Why is it when we have enough, we still want more?
Why do people do what they do ?
Why is it hard for them to simply tell the truth?

Oh, tell me how
Oh, tell me why
Please tell me why

Why is a smile so hard to fake?
Why is a compliment so hard to take?
Why does betrayal feel like a knife to the chest?
Why did it come from someone, 
you would never ever suspect? 

Who decides when the thunder rolls?
How much rain can a red dirt road hold? 
Why do we pray to the God above?
Why do we fall in love?

Why do our hearts beat with the rhythms they do?
Why do we laugh, why do we cry?
Why do we ever have to say good-bye?
Why do I feel all alone?
Why did heaven call you home?


Just tell me why 
If you do
 I will go away, I swear to you,
Just tell me why

Just tell Me Why

Oh my friend...
 I see you're hurting
the tightness in your jaw is tellling
trying to hold it all back with a crooked smile
tell me what you want to say 
I could feel  your heartbreak from a mile away


[Verse 2]
The pain in your eyes
are telling tales of hidden hurts
Please tell me  the words you're afraid to speak 
I see the storm that storms inside you
Oh my friend you need release


[BRIDGE]

we've known each other  since we were 13
 with braces and bandages on our knees
the contents of your heart were always safe with me 
you know they're safe with me 


Chorus

Don't be afraid of the  dam about to break 
Signal to  the Dam watchman to  let it go, 
pull the lever, it's his  last day 
just breathe with me
Let the waters wash the pain away
Let the water wash you clean
Let the water wash you free


[Verse 3]

You've always been so strong 
never saying what you needed
right now you are barely holding on 
with both hands bleeding
let your heart be still 
Let your heart say what it knows
Let your heart say what it will 


[Bridge]
Pain's a shadow thats always in the shadows
from broken things left unhealed
But I know you  and there's hope
you are going  to be ok 
when you hold your head that way 



Chorus

Don't be afraid of the dam about to break 
Signal to the Dam watchman to let it go, 
 pull the lever  it's his last day 
just breathe with me 
Let the waters wash the pain away
Let the water wash  you clean
Let the water wash  you free

I know your tired
it's going to be alright
I'm here beside you now
You're not alone
together we'll figure this out 

I know your tired
it's going to be alright
I'm here beside you now
You're not alone
together we'll figure this out...

THE DAM (of pain)

I sit at the bottom of a blood moon sky
Staring at the stars both fixed and falling 
I wonder
Maybe even aloud
If this is all there is down here?

These thoughts are not new to me
I have thought them all my life
But I cannot seem to give them  a name  

But If I did
It would be high and unpronounceable
Spoken in a tongue known only by me

Written with letters full of music
Scrawled in all the margins
On every single page of my 
Book of Longing

Sometimes in a delicate script
Beautiful and deft of hand
Sometimes etched so deep
the pages bleed and beg for mercy
 mercy

Maybe the wind could answer by  
Threading knowing and 
blowing it through my bare 
and broken branches.

Maybe the Sun can answer 
in its final burst of color
as it sinks beneath the horizon 
Does he know ?
I don't know
but he took my questions  with him 
when he went down

The moon is giving me comfort  
that everything will be ok...
 with her long gentle silver fingers
on the oceans face

Maybe the stars are the only ones 
that know for sure
They will lead me to the truth
 If I allow them to

The North Star whispers to me 
he has spoken with the Creator
He insisted I must do the same

 I did as the North Star asked
and I waited
and I waited


The Lion sent word
through the Comforter

He said tell her
I have read every single page
in her Book of Longing

every single word
He read every single word

Blood Moon Sky

Inspired by The Screwtape Letters and 
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies
 Psalms 25

You say you've got demons deep in your head
is that so? 
They won't leave you alone
Let's invite them to lunch lets break some bread
Sit down at the table, let's examine the fables and lies they said


[Verse 2]
Pull up a chair let's hear them explain
why they wanted to cause you such pain 
No need to fear you are stronger than you think
Let them confess their dirty deeds through their teeth as they feast
One by one let your fears flee

[Pre-chorus]

Together we can stand as one
Facing demons till they're gone
every last one
every last one

[Chorus]
Face your demons one by one
pull the masks from their faces
look them in the eyes
Ask them why they fell from God's graces
The daylight exposes
this scurrilous bunch
Let's confront them at the demons' lunch

[Verse 3]
No more accusations in the dark
You've got questions, leave your mark
This won't be the first time they fall
Sort it out once and for all 

Pass the salt let's banish the pain
Seek the truth break every chain
Pour another goblet of honest 
Now you know what makes them tick
Understand they are powerless

[Pre-chorus]
Together we can stand as one
Facing demons till they're gone
every last one


[Chorus]
Face your demons one by one
pull the masks from their faces
look them in the eyes
Ask them why they fell from God's graces
The daylight exposes
this scurrilous bunch
Let's confront them at the demons' lunch


Hand them the tab
let the demons pay the bill
A hemlock feast for the wicked beasts
This will be their last meal

THE DEMONS LUNCH

I think everyone has been in this place at some time in their lives. God loves you. We are all in this life together. ; ) 

Lyrics-
I've been wandering
Searching for a place that feels like home
Lost on paths where I've gone astray
Now, I'm pleading...
Dear God, I'm drowning...
please stretch out your hand 
and rescue me

Lead me back to the path 
You always had in mind for me 


[Verse 2]
I heard the choir sing your name out loud
In a church where once I stood 
Praying now, please remember me
I want the good in You 
to be the good in me 


[Verse 3]
You are Love,
You are forgiveness
You are unfailing grace
I want to be among your people 
in this healing place

[Bridge]
Hearts I've  broken,  words I've thrown
You said I could leave it all 
at the foot of your throne

[Chorus]
I'm coming back to You 
Forgive me for the paths I've wrongly trod
I'm coming back to you, back to You
Because You are my God
You are my God

[Verse 4]
There is nothing in this world 
that can give comfort like you do
In your love I find my identity
of who I am in you 
Feed my spirit with your words of truth 
I hear you calling
Now...
I'm calling after You 
I'm calling after You

[Bridge]
Hearts I've  broken, words I've thrown
You said I could leave it all 
at the foot of your throne

[Chorus]
I'm coming back to You 
Forgive me for the paths I've wrongly trod
I'm coming back to You, back to you
Because you are my God
You are my God 


I'm coming back to you 
I'm coming back to you 
back to you

Back To You

Hot winds blow across the valley from the west
what spark lit this war of burning words, is anyone's guess
no North star to guide me on this black velvet night, 
There's no denying, embers of gossip are flying through this town tonight

Those soul disturbers whisper half-truths and clever lies
they'll drag you through the dirt 
they don't care who they hurt
Holding up a rusted lantern  to see into their eyes
They admit to nothing and won't dare apologize

[Bridge]

The embers from this war of words
won't die out anytime soon
 I should have known
I should have known 
those soul disturbers won't let any stones go un-thrown 

[Chorus]

I tell myself don't join in this wicked game
Don't let me be like them 
My compass is not broken, but I still can't find my way
 it no longer tells me where I 've been or where I'm going 
or what's it going to cost me, not knowing
What's it going to cost me not knowing?

[Bridge]

The embers from this war of words
won't die out anytime soon
 I should have known
I should have known 
those soul disturbers won't let any stones go un-thrown 

they'll drag you through the dirt 
they don't care who they hurt

My eyes are on the sparrow
Maybe he can tell me 
what he sees beyond the horizon
I don't know
He's not talking
He's the only one not talking

Maybe his quiet says it all
Sometimes it's in the silence
You find,  you have known what to do all along

HOT GOSSIP

Fia serves the sailors ale and laughter
at her father's tavern on the shore
Oak planked walls and sawdust on the floor...

As lively music plays, 
Young brash sailors pound their fists on the tabletops
She serves them cheese and salted meats
The sailors sing an ode in threat
to the devils of the sea

Chorus

Many a sailor has tried to steal her heart  
Her Father says she is too young
Fia holds a secret 
She hasn't told him yet
She's already given her heart to one

Radiant emerald eyes that flash like lightening
Fire colored hair, like the rays of the sun 
Her cheeks the color of a rose in bloom
her alabaster skin pale in the glow of the August moon

Aye, her sailor's eyes are stormy
with a fighting spirit much like her own
She knows that he must leave,
the drum beat of war brewing
calls him to the high seas 

The firelight flickers in his eyes
on the eve before he leaves
he says, my love, until I return, 
every wave that rolls in from the sea 
is a kiss from me 

She dances alone with the rain and wind  
on the sea sprayed wooden wharf
She dreams of sailing away with him
from the old Drogheda Port

 Chorus

Many a sailor has tried to steal her heart 
Her Father says she is too young
Fia holds a secret 
She hasn't told him yet
She's already given her heart to one. 

She sits watchful every night
at a candlelit windowpane
whispering his name under her breath
She prays to the God that rules the seas
she says...please bring back my love
safe and sound to me 

When the sun dips low
Her sailor scorns the mistress of 
the sea 
he says there is no other woman, 
on land or sea but Fia for me 

As the war rages on
he will not fight in vain
under his breath
He quietly sings Fia's name 
He will not stop,
until she's back in his arms again

Fia...

Fia's Secret

You walked away, no kiss goodbye, 
before you left for work
the screen door slammed much harder 
than it should
that's not good
From the kitchen window
I watched you hard kick 
the kid's ball at the tree
something's wrong and it's scaring me


Tell me what's wrong...baby
just talk to me

[Chorus]

Whatever it is, just say it 
whatever you need, just name it
If your hurting, I'll take the pain
Whatever this is will pass, but if it don't
 I'll smash the emergency glass
I need you to take a step back
tell me, whatever it is 
Just say it 
 
Don't walk away 
from everything we've known
we've built this life
with our bare hands
stone by stone
Life don't always come easy 
it's the price we chose to pay
anything worth  havin 
sometimes comes the hard way 

Tell me what's wrong... baby 
Just talk to me
 
[Chorus]
whatever it is, just say it 
whatever you need, just name it
If your hurting, I'll take the pain
Whatever this is will pass, but if it don't
I'll smash the emergency glass
I need you to take a step back
Tell me whatever it is, 
just say it 


[Bridge]
You've parked your heart 
in the tow away zone 
I know you too well 
your cover is blown
if you need time 
take the long way home 
but come home 
come home

Whatever it is, just say it 
Whatever you need, just name it
If your hurting, I'll take the pain
This storm will pass, but if it don't
I'll smash the EMERGENCY GLASS
I need you to take a step back 
Tell me whatever it is, 
Just say it

Babe...whatever it is...whatever it is 
Just say it 

Whatever It Is

When a woman has a choice to make...

Driving down the road, It's past midnight
The stars look down shake their heads and say 
She ain't thinkin right 
Wearing my heart on my sleeve and it's heavy
Someone better save me from myself already

Can't sit in my skin
 itchy foot itchin again
It's not where I should be going 
But I know where they keep the whiskey flowing

Somewhere off highway 90
Tennesse plates behind me 
Looking in the rearview mirror I see a fool
it's crazy what a lonely woman will do

[Chorus]
Damn... someone better reel me in
Before I throw my heart away again
My heart's been burned to a tender crisp
Someone better talk me outta this

Late night dive bar with the jukebox playin
Cowboys giving me the eye
I'm just sayin'
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining

Under neon lights where the devil plays
Sweet talk like smoke blowin'  my way
He's leaning in for a kiss
Someone better talk me outta this

You'd think I'd know better by now
I know how this story ends 
I've been here before
I know how this story ends 
I've been here before
His boots on my bedroom floor

I don't know why I'm here
I'm about to cross that line
I must have lost my mind

[Chorus]
Damn... someone better reel me in
Before I throw my heart away again
My heart's been burned to a tender crisp
Someone better talk me outta this

Start talking...
Somebody better start talkin
Start talking...
Somebody better start talkin

Someone Better Talk Me Out Of This

Friday night, she locks the office door
heads home up the 405
Staring at red tail lights, like a crimson tide
Playing footsie with the gas and brake
She thinks to herself.
How much more of this, can a girl take?

She's barely in the door
kicks her shoes off, 
picks the mail up off the floor
She already knows
what bills she can't afford
with a heavy sigh, she wants to cry

Ohhhhhh oooooooooooooooooo

She checks the message on her phone
"Hey girl, are you coming out tonight "?
She knows she should say no
She knows she should stay home 
and save some money, 
she doesn't have a lot
so, she texts back..."probably not"

Ohhhhhh oooooooooooooooooo
Ohhh

But she's feeling restless
Maybe even a little reckless
she's gonna go 
She thought it through 
Because this is what the cool girls do

While she does her make up
She has a couple of glasses of wine
takes her pen takes a hit
that should do it ...

She draws smokey eyes, lips stained in Tom Ford,  
blush from Sephora, heads towards the door
grabs her Birkin bag, the one she couldn't afford 
and slips on her Jimmy Choo's
because this is what the cool girls do

Driving East on Sunset
freedom doesn't feel so far away 
her front seat is her confessional 
She doesn't have to be professional
She can say what she thinks, if she's feeling off kilter
She doesn't have to use a filter
she looks in the mirror and says, 
I confess...'I know I'm a little high,
I'm just trying to get by '

10:45 she's on the dance floor
what she was worried about  
She's not worried about it anymore
She gets lost in the music 
She's flying high above the clouds
She doesn't want to come down 
In her view
This is what the cool girls do

Driving West on Sunset
freedom feels so far away 
her front seat is her confessional 
She doesn't have to be professional
She can just say what she thinks, if she's feeling off kilter
She doesn't have to use a filter
she looks in the mirror and says, 
I confess.....' I know, I'm a bit of a mess'

TWO AM...she heads back home up the 405
Staring at red tail lights, like a crimson tide
Playing footsie with the gas and brake
She thinks to herself.
how much more of this can I take?

Is this what the cool girls do? 

Are you a cool girl too ?

What The Cool Girls Do

He had a look in his eyes 
that took me by surprise
My pounding heart
wild and free, 
my trembling knees are rocking me

What's come over me ???
What's come over me???

That first kiss, set my spirit free
I am flying, flying
Two hearts, one heartbeat
 I've never felt a feeling like this
A feeling like no other 
All I know is I want another 
First Kiss

His lips on my lips 
soft and warm like the Santa Ana wind
In that moment heaven touched the ground
 I thought to myself, 
So, this is what the great poets wrote about 


I close my eyes
The taste of his kiss, 
I replay in my mind, I hit rewind
I want to feel that first kiss again 
Until the end of time 

What's come over me ???
What's come over me ???

That first kiss, set my spirit free
I am flying......flying
Two hearts, one heartbeat
 I've never felt a feeling like this
A feeling like no other 
All I know is I want another 
First Kiss 

I close my eyes
The taste of his sweet kiss, 
I replay in my mind
I hit rewind
I want to feel that first kiss again 
Until the end of time 

FIRST KISS

It's hard to keep your head up
when it seems love's sun doesn't want to shine
on this heart of mine
I was  drawing red lines and wasting time 
was there something I missed ?
I'm breaking pencils
crossing another name off my list

Too much this- not enough of that 
mis-matched like two lost socks
feels like I 'm sitting in an idiot box
completely incomplete  
where are  there directions
to get off lonely street ?

Chance encounter
at my neighborhood coffee shop 
You spilled your coffee on my sleeve
I lied and said it wasn't hot 
You smiled and said
beautiful you, beautiful lie
Would you like to have dinner tonight ?

Until you...
your love created  colors I 'd never seen 
with your heart wide open 
truth openly spoken
my beautiful beautiful  dream
that's come true 
I never thought I could feel this way 
that being imperfect is  perfectly ok 
Until you

Sometimes what you're looking for
is just around the corner 
and you find your precious gem
that maybe someone else looked over
hold on to your dreams 
because you deserve them 
To my own self be true
But I never knew this 
Until you

Chorus

Until you...
your love created  colors I 'd never seen 
with your heart wide open 
truth openly spoken
my beautiful beautiful  dream
that's come true

Until you...
your love created  colors I 'd never seen 
with your heart wide open 
truth openly spoken
my beautiful, beautiful  dream
that's come true 
Until you

your love created  colors I 'd never seen 
My beautiful, beautiful dream
that's come true
because of you

Until You

You said,
no one would ever love me
like you did
I'm so glad you were right
I've seen the light

You said, 
I'm nothing without you 
I know now that's not true
I am more than I have ever been
without you

ohhhh

It's okay ...
I believe what you didn't say ...

It was what you didn't say 
that is the crystal clear truth
You quote the bible like a Prophet 
but drink a 100 proof
You never said you were a coward 
a shape-shifter of the truth 
You never said you would do the best you can 
You never said you were
a one woman man


You said,
 I was the apple of your eye
Is that right ?
My My My
Boy... please...
Did you forget about your side piece?
cause you kept looking at your phone
When you thought you were alone
 I should have  known....

You said,
a lot of things
and now I recognize
big lies, little lies 
lies of every size

It's okay ...
I believe what you didn't say ...

It was what you didn't say 
It's okay ...
I believe what you didn't say ...

It was what you didn't say 
that is the clear crystal truth
You quote the bible like a Prophet 
but drink 100 proof
You never said you were a coward 
a shape-shifter of the truth 
You never said you would do the best you can 
You never said you were
a one-woman man

You said
no one would ever love me
like you did
I don't mind...
I'm so glad you were right this time

you said ...you said

You said
no one would ever love me
like you did
I don't mind...
I'm so glad you were right this time

you said...you said
You said...

You Said

When you love a beautiful human being, fighting with addiction. 

I've been calling you for days
now I'm knocking on your door
The bruises on your face, tell me more
than your words could ever say
 
I break down and cry 
tears I've wept a thousand times 
I see the demons you fight inside 
You've declared war with the bottle

I love you 
My friend....listen to me 
I hate to say it, 
you're not winning....

You line up empty bottles
like glass soldiers in a war...
You say you're going to quit
Another bottle goes down 
there's another to replace it

Time keeps slipping through your hands
In that empty bottle land

[Chorus]
Another empty bottle
You pour out your pain 
with the next you'll do the same
knee deep, in another bender 
You raised the white flag of surrender
Another empty bottle 
Another empty bottle

I always was your first responder, 
pulling you out from the burning ship of pain 
Cigarette smoke curls like an SOS
but everything stays the same

Pull you out, both hands burned
When will I ever learn?
I always wanted the best for you 
I tried so hard to stop this cycle
But, you didn't want to

I found you, passed out on the floor 
you can't remember the night before 
ohhhhh the stories 
you keep spinning
Another tale, another fall

I want to smash every bottle against the wall 
Those God-damned empty bottles
 take it all... They take it all...

You're a shipwreck on the shore
One foot in the grave
You've got nothing left
but the consequences of the 
choices you've made

I stand stone-faced on the parapet
looking at the wreckage
Telling you everything will be alright
I can put out this fire...

Now....we're both liars...

EMPTY BOTTLE

The bailiff says...ALL RISE

The Judge sits down
He's dressed in black
A woman on the stand
She's got a wedding band 
on her left hand

He says to the courtroom, take a seat
Nods to the woman, says Ma'am,
 you may proceed

Her lawyer is on fire

He layed it all out bare
he argued all of the ways her husband didn't care
Juror number 4 is thinking about now
Even God knows, he doesn't have a prayer....

He says...
This woman you married
She stands before me now
she says you disappeared her dreams
She testified, you took a knife to her dreams 
that does sound a little extreme 
but now, she wants to make you bleed

He says, sir...
Your word is your bond, 
How do you plead
How do you respond?

The jury's starin' him down
sweat running down his back
He's trying to put a lid on an anxiety attack
it's hard to make up an excuse
when deep down he knows the truth 
he knows, he knows...

He simply says...In my defense,
 I have no defense 
I'm guilty, guilty as a man can be

Guilty
Guilty 
Guilty
Guilty as a man can be


The Judge says,  "Im taking in to account,
 all of her dreams that died at your hand,  as the law demands
Son,  you used a knife
I'm going to have to sentence you to life"


The judge bangs the gavel
And the courtroom is rattled
He says "Guilty as charged"
the courtroom goes dark

guilty
guilty
guilty as a man can be 
guilty
guilty
He's guilty as a man can be...

He opens his eyes
to his surprise
his wife is asleep by his side
He realizes It was all a bad dream 
but he knew what he'd seen

He whispers to his sleeping wife..
I just wanna live my life with you
Your dreams matter to me too 
I don't wanna break your heart
I don't wanna make you cry
I just wanna love you for the rest of your life

I don't want to be guilty
guilty
guilty
guilty as a man can be
guilty
guilty
He's guilty as a man can be....


guilty guilty guilty...
guilty
guilty
He's guilty as a man can be...

GUILTY

She says, you say you're going out 
but you don't say where...
He says, I do it every night, since when do you care?
Something's gone very wrong in this love affair...

He says, I don't have time for this 
We've been through this before
He wonders if she'll ask him to stay 
She doesn't say a word
He stares right through her
He walks out and slams the door

[Chorus]
It can't be love when you're talking at me 
Your words cut deep
and leave me undone 
It can't be love that's causing the heartache
and making our hearts break 
it's clear....

If we're not in love 
Can I ask, what are we even doing here?
 
He said, your eyes used to light up 
when I came through the door 
now when I come home, 
you don't say a word, you just stare
at the floor 
Your silence is screaming 
You don't love me anymore


She said, You said, 
You said,  I was all you'd ever
need- 
and made that promise to me 
when you got down on one knee
I hear whispers all around 
that when you go out on the town
It's plain to see
That you need more...


ohhh it can't be love
When you're talking at me 
Your words cut deep
and leave me undone 
It can't be love
that's causing the heartache
and making our hearts break 
It's clear 

If we're not in love 
damn it, what are we even doing here? 
What are we doing here ???
 
it can't be love
no no no no no , it can't be love
Where were all the signs we missed ?
that it's all come down to this ?
 
 Words unspoken
 Promises broken ...
This can't be love....
This can't be love

This can't be 
Can't be 
Can't be 
Can't be love
It can't be...

HE SAID/SHE SAID

The storm is coming
it's been building up all day 
I felt it rumbling from miles away
I know it's going to rain sometimes
and now dark clouds are rolling in ....

I can't tame it
I can't stop it
I don't want to hide from it...

It feels so different now
From past storms. rolling through 
the difference is, my love, I've got you...

[Chorus]
The day you gave me your last name 
You said, you'd kiss me through the rain
I know you will love me through this pain

So let the rain beat down
let it turn everything upside down
there's no other place
I'd rather be right now

You know...
The parts of me that were broken 
had nothing to do with you 
You saw past the pain
You said, it won't scare me away
I'm going to love you anyway

Let the rain soak the ground
that I'm standing on
let it heal my soul, down to my roots
I don't want to be afraid of healing
I want to heal for you

For once in my life
I don't have to be the strong one 
I don't have to be the wrong one 
standing in the storm alone

I found safe shelter in your arms
the sweetest love to call my own
the most powerful love I've ever known

If it's going to storm
Let the thunder roll 
let it take or give what it will
when the storm cleared
You said... I'm still here

When I feel weak, and short on strength
You say, honey, that's ok
Take mine, take all you need
when things get rough
there's plenty for the both of us...
You'll see...

[Chorus]
The day you gave me your last name 
You said, you'd kiss me through the rain
I know you will love me through this pain

So let the rain beat down
let it turn everything upside down
there's no other place
I'd rather be right now

So let it rain, let it rain, let it rain
I can finally see the beauty in this day 

Let it rain...
Let it rain

The Storm

For clarity, there is no blogger or podcaster called " Grand Dam" on Instagram... yes, I was asked this question. Too funny  ; ) 

Lyrics below
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You won't look me in the eye
I understand why
Are you feeling uneasy?
Seriously....
You probably should be ....

Oh come on ... relax
pop a zannie for your anxiety attack
Calm down, I won't tell a soul
It's doesn't matter how I know

Your "Relationship" tips and tricks
is how you get your kicks
Giving expert advice on healthy relationships
Oh, how You raised the bar 
If your followers only knew who and what you really are

You keep riding that fake and phony pony
It keeps making you lots money, money

The C word... about now your feeling ill...
(cancel, cancel, cancel)
Take a breath ...count to 10 , Oh, never mind, I don't have time  
I want to lay out my intentions

[Chorus]
I won't tell a soul 
( you don't have one)
I won't tell your husband 
 ( is this your second or third one?)
I won't tell your boyfriend
 ( Does He know about your Husband) 
I won't tell your girlfriend 
( does she know about your boyfriend?)
I won't tell your enemies
(Your hands are full already )
I won't tell your followers
The " Grand Dam" on Instagram is a damn sham

did I say that out loud?
shhhhhhhhhhhh
It's enough for me to know, 
that you know 
that I know

Secrets have a way 
Of tracking you down in that crazy Internet town 
I won't be a player in your drama
I have no connection to your karma
Word on the street, from people who know
say this is considered 
a quantified shit show 
I dunno, I will say I didn't know
I'll steer clear
I'll say I had no idea

Full disclosure
yeah, your secrets I'll keep
But...I've been known to talk text in my sleep
That slaps
Do you trust me ?
Are you sure about that ?

Chorus
I won't tell a soul 
( you don't have one)
I won't tell your husband 
 ( is this your second or third one?)
I won't tell your boyfriend
 ( Does He know about your Husband) 
I won't tell your girlfriend 
( does she know about your boyfriend?)
I won't tell your enemies
(You got your hands full already )
I won't tell your followers
 The "Grand Dam" on Instagram is a damn sham

It's enough for me to know, 
that you know 
that I know 
That you know
that I know

I. Know.
Now, you know I know. 
I probably won't tell a soul

I Won't Tell A Soul

Everyone deserves a second chance.

Lyrics

She shuffles into the silent village at midnight
her back bent from carrying 
 her past, and everything she ever owned 
She prays for dreamless sleep 
feet torn, bruised and heavy
from the damp ochre clay, 
like shoes on her bare feet 


The kindness of strangers
 is what she hopes to find
 waiting, up ahead 
she knows it's not a sure thing
others have waved her on
they refused to see her need 

[Pre-chorus]

they didn't care, 
they don't care, 
they can see she's hit rock bottom, 
but she's not their problem 


[Chorus]
Freedom oh sweet freedom
from accusing eyes and tongues
that never knew the truth
and never wanted to 
Freedom from a life with nowhere to go 
trying to shine in the shadows
the only thing she ever wanted 
was to live her life as she chose
as she chose
she now breathes Freedom
Freedom fragrant as the tuberose

An open door, a candle lit
An old woman's face
her hand stretched out like hope
without a word spoken 
the chain of hopeless broken
she is invited in 


 Kind eyes and a knowing look says 
I've been where you've been, but
your story is your own 
on this journey to your wholeness
make my house your home

[Chorus]
Freedom oh sweet freedom
from accusing eyes and tongues
that never knew the truth
and never wanted to 
Freedom from a life with nowhere to go 
trying to shine in the shadows
the only thing she ever wanted 
was to live her life 
as she chose
as she chose
Freedom  fragrant as the tuberose

Freedom oh sweet freedom
from accusing eyes and tongues
that never knew the truth
and never wanted to 
Freedom from a life with nowhere to go 
trying to shine in the shadows
the only thing she ever wanted 
was to live her life 
as she chose
as she chose
Freedom  fragrant as the tuberose

Finding Freedom

When you scream at Ghosts....

I met a masked robber at an open bar at Mardi Gras
He smiled and said ” I’m gonna steal your heart”
I said, if you’re trying to get my attention 
That’s a pretty good place to start 
I'd never thought he'd break my heart


I fell hard and fast
I thought, this kind of love could last
But....damn 
How could I have been so wrong?
Different dancer,  same song 
by the time the fall leaves fell
he was gone


It’s too late to apologize
It’s too late to expect you’d be a stand-up guy 
I’m tired of asking why...
There is nothing you can say or do
You're a masked robber on the loose
but I need a mercy from you


If you ever loved me 
Why'd you ghost me?
I need your ghost to come back


I need the ghost of you to come back
Take back all the love we made
Take back all of the reasons you couldn’t stay 
Take back all of the memories we ever made 
Take back everything that reminds me of you
 keep looking over your shoulder, 
I need closure,
This Louisiana girl needs to bury you


I sleep on your side of the bed
Where your head used to rest
I know that doesn't make sense 
I still don't know why you left
This is the state of affairs 
you left me in 
Was I not worth an explanation?
 I still feel your breath on my skin


I still go to Welty's  on Saint Charles Avenue
Our usual waitress, Miss Olivia 
she doesn't ask about you 
a knowing look, she says, 
Sugar, are you doin' okay?
I can barley nod, yes
Because inside I'm dying 
She knows I 'm lying

I could tell her you moved to California
But the truth is to this day
I don't know where you are either way


It’s too late to apologize
It’s too late to expect you’d be a stand-up guy 
I’m tired of asking why
There is nothing you can say or do
You're a masked robber on the loose
But I need a mercy from you


If you ever loved me 
Why'd you ghost me ?
I need your ghost to come back


I need the ghost of you to come back
Take back all the love we made
Take back all of the reasons you couldn’t stay
take back all of the memories we ever made 
Take back everything that reminds me of you
 keep looking over your shoulder,  I need closure,
This Louisianna girl needs to bury you


I'm gonna bury you 
I'm gonna bury you

The Ghost of You

Lyrics below ; ) 

To every man that loves a woman like this...

Special thanks to Shay who gave his voice ( and sanity ) to bring my story to life. ; ) xo
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She's my angel, from any angle
she stands on her 
tiptoes just to kiss my face
She's my saving grace

She is
She is 

 Her soul is the deepest ocean
 I have ever sailed
when she walks in the room
I 'm a moth to the flame
All she has to do is say my name


She's a seer of the secrets
 I’ve never told
She's a protector, of the soul I never sold
She hears the words I've left unsaid
She's the voice that gets me outta my head

She is 
She is 

Her eyes tell me the truest answer
to any question, I have ever asked her
Because of who she is
She makes me want to be a better man 
And I hope I am

It would take this lifetime and the next
to tell you all the things 

She is  
She is 

She makes me feel alive
She's the love of my life
When my time comes
and the good Lord takes me home
 Her laughter is the last sound 
I wanna hear before I die
cause that's the only thing, 
I'm taking with me 
to the other side
the other side


She's the sun rising on the eastern sky
When the sun sets in the West
And the moon is high
I feel her heartbeat on my chest 
She is the only woman that ever put my soul at rest

She is 
She is 

She's got a few rough edges
and that suits me fine
When the world gets heavy
and I'm losing my mind
When I have my doubts 
and I'm feelin  down
I know
I'm not the easiest guy
to be around


She says Babe, look at me...
She cocks her finger like a pistol
She says, " who do I fight?
I feel sorry for the other guy"
She makes me laugh
Man... I'm glad she's on my side 

And she is 
She is 

She's the roof, that keeps the crazy out
she loves, me steady
holding nothing back 
on life's unpredictable course
she's always been my true north 

Oh

It would take this lifetime and the next
to tell you all the things 

She is  
She is 

She makes me feel alive
She's the love of my life
When my times comes 
And the good Lord takes me home
Her laughter is the last sound
I wanna hear before I die
cause that's the only thing, 
I'm taking with me, to the other side 
the other side

She said she's  gonna meet me on the other side
And she is 

She is

She Is

The chase is on
I see it in your eyes
You move in close
 But I’m fox smart, twice sly

You think you’ve caught me
You think you got me 
where you want me

Here's what you don't know 
here’s the twist
I 'm the shadow on the wall 
you just missed

Who’s the hunter?
Who’s the prey?
Guess you'll find out either way 

If you're  gonna play the game
You better  bring your game
If you're thinkin' you're all that
Take your aim
 If you think you wanna a taste of my kiss
Take your shot
But you better not miss

(better not)
(better not)
(better not miss)

You set the trap
But I’m too quick
Not going to step in it
I slipped right past it 

Do you think you're clever?
Do you think you're cool?
baby, I've already anticipated
Your next move
Boy, you know my Daddy 
didn't raise a fool. 
(no, he didn't nah, nah, nah)

Who’s the hunter?
Who’s the prey?
Guess you'll find out either way 

[Chorus]

If you're  gonna play the game
 You better bring your game
If you're thinkin' you're all that
Take your aim
If you think you wanna  a taste of my kiss
Take your shot
But you better not miss

(better not)
(better not)
(better not miss)

Have you figured it out yet?


Do you see 
Right from the start
I've been leading you right to me 
The chase was my design
You're the perfect lover
 I conjured up in my mind's eye

If you want a taste of my kiss
Take your shot
But you better not miss

Better Not Miss

Dedicated to my Dad, who by example, was always "showing me the ropes".  He said if you want something... go get it. No one is going to hand it to you.  I miss you Dad...thank you for all you taught me. 
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[Verse]
The current pulls me far and wide
No anchor to hold me down
But I don't mind
What I can't yet see
The ocean whispers
come explore the deep with me

[Verse]
Under the glow of the
 disco ball moon
The waves dance
They call my name
They say, luv take a chance
On life's great unknowns
I said, Okay...
The Great Unknown 
Is where I'll stake my claim

[Chorus]
How can I be lost, when I feel so free?
I cast-away all the things, I don't wanna be 
I'll go wherever the compass leads
Just like my Daddy did, when he sailed the 7 seas, before me 

He told me
my sails were always rigged for chasing dreams
my sails were always rigged for chasing dreams

( chasing, chasing, chasing dreams ) 
( chasing, chasing, chasing dreams ) 

[Bridge]
Sometimes the bitter cold, sea winds blow 
How I'll survive, I really don't know
 my blue skies, turn inky black from angry storms
when my hull is tossed and battered
and all my sails are ripped and torn 

[Bridge]
But I survived 
Why is it, that's when I feel the most alive???
I feel alive !

My sea legs are steady
I raise mended sails with my bare hands  
I have known since
I was a little girl 
my feet were never meant for sand
They were never meant for sand

[Chorus]
How can I be lost, when I feel so free?
I cast away all the things, I don't wanna be 
I'll go wherever the compass leads
Just like my Daddy did, when he sailed the 7 seas, before me

He told me 

my sails were always rigged for chasing dreams
my sails were always rigged for chasing dreams

( chasing, chasing, chasing dreams ) 
( chasing, chasing, chasing dreams ) 

The current pulls me far and wide
No anchor to hold me down
But I don't mind

because I know what it means ...
 I'll always be chasing dreams

RIGGED

Verse]
My foreign feet in a foreign land
I’ve never walked these streets before
But they speak of tales from long ago 
The sun paints gold on cobblestones
Oh, the stories they could tell
In Akrotiri

[Verse]
The ruins speak of ancient dreams
Lives cut down in a hot rush 
from burning lava streams
The legends say 
Lost souls still dance on the floor of the Aegean Sea
In Akrotiri

[Chorus]

With your history and your mysteries 
Red beaches and azure-blue seas
gray volcanic ash and sapphire streams
The people are warm and gracious
You can lose and find yourself in the beauty 
Of Akrotiri

[Verse]
The food’s a symphony on my tongue
 olive oil, fresh herbs, and feta bread 
Souvlaki sizzles on the grill and the wine runs red
They celebrate the living
They celebrate the dead

[Verse]

They speak of gods and battles fought
Of wisdom learned and lessons taught
The old men's misty eyes shine
As the young men recite 
chapters read and memorized from the Iliad
In Akrotiri

[Bridge]
Strings of a bouzouki hum through the night
The moon glows and the stars shine bright
I inhale the scent of Jasmine
I dance with strangers who feel like kin 
In Akrotiri

[Chorus]

With your history and your mysteries 
Red beaches and azure, blue seas
gray volcanic ash and sapphire streams
The people are warm and gracious
You can lose and find yourself in the beauty 
In Akrotiri

I’ve come a stranger to this sacred land
I leave...a friend
 I leave a part of my heart beating
In Akrotiri

Akrotiri

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[Verse]
 I gave my honey, a honey-do-list
Honey said "no-can-do, did you, forget about my fishing trip?
 I'll do it when I get back, you can count on that
I'll be back in a week, baby you sure look sweet"

[Verse]

I woke up this morning, made my coffee with Bailey's Irish cream
I have the house to myself for a week, every married woman's dream
I'm planning my day, full of nothing but me 
Maybe tidy up the house a little, maybe do some light laundry

[Bridge]

I’m thinking bubble baths, a little day drinkin'
Clear my head, with a little less thinkin'
Got my bunny slippers on and a book in my hand
But the universe
Oooh She had other plans

[Chorus]
When life gives you lemons you squeeze ‘em real tight
Add a little sugar and you’ll be alright
I bet you a fiver, I can fix this like MacGyver
 I can be a "fix- it" chick
I can get it get it fixed quick 


[Verse]
Oh No! The washer’s spinning like it’s ready to launch
I try to open the damn lid, but the lid is locked 
It might help if I set down my glass of Merlot
Let's see how this is gonna go 
 I'll watch a washer repair You-Tube video

I got this
(ay, ay, ay,)
I got this 
(ay, ay, ay)

[Verse]

I sit down to relax with a rum and coke
Oh no! The dog ate the remote
I poke her belly, to turn the TV on 
She looks at me like, Dog Mom? seriously?
 Thank God the last channel I was watchin'
was Crime TV

I got this
I got this

The garbage disposal is on the fritz
Honestly, I don't need any of this, 
I grab the broom handle, lodge it against the blades 
 I grind in a circular motion, with a firm hold
Just like a stripper on a stripper pole

(I'm just kidding) 

I got this
I got this

[Chorus]
When life gives you lemons you squeeze ‘em real tight
Add a little sugar and you’ll be alright
I bet you a fiver, I can fix this like MacGyver
I can be a "fix- it" chick
I can get it get it fixed quick 

I got this
I got this 
I got this

I Got This

At heart, I  am an emotionally honest, lyrically driven storyteller. I  love the written word. I love wrapping music around words in a musical story that is flavored with Indie, folk, country, classic rock,  jazz, blues, ballads anthems. 

 I hope you enjoy The Stories She Tells.  ; )

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