See the Live Studio Session: https://youtu.be/6QB0eI0k-ds

I do not own the rights to this instrumental, produced by Emancipator. This is purely for creative purposes.

This song was written and recorded (mixed by Trainn Traxx) over 5 years ago in the midst of a long chapter of my life, and now this song finally makes sense. Today marks 9 months since I gave up drinking, the longest I've gone without drinking since age 11. Since then, everything that I've ever been passionate about has slowly come second to alcohol and sleeping to recover. Did I think I could keep raging my life away and somehow I'd become successful?!! Did I think that people found success purely from luck and that drinking had no negative influence?! Did I think that I could drink my money/time away and sleep it all off, and still accomplish my hazy goals?! Or was I just not thinking at all? I wasn't. But thank God, because if I would have become "successful", I may have drank myself to death. Thank God for my son whom has pushed me to look in the mirror for the last 5 years. For 5 years I've fought through guilt and shame because I was too scared to give up something that had been a part of me for so long. Today I am reborn.  Praise God.

Schmilly Shmill