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Sufferin’ Thing 

I know
What a weird way to start a poem, but...
I only know a few things
I’ve taught my kids this, too

I know
In the dark times
When I feel sad
There’s a little point in space
That I’m just tryin’
To get into

And it can be just
Off the corner of my brain
Off to the right side of my ear
Or it can be in the smile
Of somebody 
I’ve never met

I know
Somewhere
Lost in the shuffle of papers
‘N pens ‘n poems ‘n ideas

There’s a person
With no face
No name
Feelin’ blue

And this song ‘n all my efforts
Go out to him 
Or her
Or it

Whatever it is
Maybe it’s me

I don’t know
Maybe it’s you

Suffering
Is a real thing

And every poet
Worth His weight

Not in gold
But in breath

In blood and flesh

Is doin’ his damnedest
G-rating or not
’s doin’ his damnedest
To help that 
Sufferin’ thing

It’s what’s made rocks fall 
Down the mountains

It’s what makes...

It’s what’s made tears fall
From my eyes

‘N maybe yours one day

If not now
Then when

If You don’t wanna give yourself

Go back to
Dreamin’

’s as plain
As the nose on your face
Or an open mic
On a cold winter’s day

There is a man
Or a woman
Or a thing
That suffers

And our hearts
Open up to them
And let them in

‘N fly like birds
Through the trees
Or wind

Sometimes the roar of the world
Gets so loud
I can’t
Hear myself think!

But in the midst
Of all that
Darkness

A cry comes to me
That says, “Help!  
Let me in!”

So I open up my ears
‘N my eyes
To see you talkin’
To see you breathin’ 
To see you singin’ ‘n lovin’
And it all feels ok

Somebody at an open mic
Once recently said
“We are not in it alone!” 
I think it was Anyah

“We’re all in it
Together!”

Not to help any one man
Or any one thing
Feel better
But to help 
All of us 
Feel better

We’re just doin’ our damnedest

And I don’t know
But every word
Every phrase in my mind
Starts
With a certain sound

I have heard
The heartbeat 
Of my kids
Before they were born

I have laid my ear
Against the Earth

‘N known that inside it
Is somethin’ good!

And it does take
A certain quiet sometimes
To ease
The burden of your own soul

And just as simply
It takes
Another man’s hand
Or another woman’s eyes
To ease
The goin’ off from there

In my mind
There are fireworks
Not for the Fourth
Or the First

But for every day 
That says
“I aaammm alive!
And glad to be so!!!”

And I am glad
I am not
Alone
‘N I am with you
‘N you are here
With me
‘N we are
Oh! sooo terribly old!

But it just goes on
Into somethin’ new
That I’ve never
Heard before 


Peace comes
When you let yourself
Out the door

And I have spoken of dogs
And they run with cats
And birds ‘n things

‘Cause there is some place
That doesn’t need fingers
Or strings
But just sounds 

Love has no face
It has nothing to do
With Time or Space
Or Mercy or Grace

It's just Is.

And I’m glad
It’s that way

And that I have
Friends to share it with

And a love
That will carry us on
Into a newww
Moment

Not tomorrow
But the next poet.

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See:
https://soundcloud.com/scottvanya/sufferin-thing-feat-hollow-gnome-on-guitar

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