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revealing hope (ft. Lil Lotus)

nothings gunna change [prod color hue]

produced @prodreaper 

lyrics:
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mistakes that we made 
can never be erased 
but we can try and try again 
cause i, i'm falling deeper than i did before 
i kiss the ground
i'm falling down 
i kiss the ground 
i'm falling now
i'm lost, i'm lost
i'm still lost 
find me, find me, find me, find me 

(VELVETEARS)
im lost
and i don’t think that I’m worth finding
i stay inside 
cuz the truth in the sun is too blinding
ya i wanna die
tell me something that i aint heard a million times
I’m not a pretty image u can paint in the sky
i hate to say hello because i hate to say goodbye
i swear ill cut a throat if i hear another lie
i swear ill cut my throat if i waste anymore time
i hate to say goodbye

hate to say goodbye w/ VELVETEARS (prod. reaper)

i'd prefer an unmarked grave

Look Me In The Eyes (ft. lil lotus)

prod @prodreaper

lyrics:

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you are fake and pretend
selling off the fake sadness 
while you're smiling, counting money from the reposts
but that's fine, that's fine

but you're not really sad at night 
you're just laying in your bedroom
while i'm staring at the ceiling, crying 
i'm always crying 
cause i'm just scared of everything that's coming

and i don't really want no new friends
all of you fake and pretend 
selling off the fake sadness
while you're smiling 
counting money from the reposts 
but that's fine, that's fine

heartless, pretend 
no heart, disguised in your lies 
you don't really care 
you don't really care

no heart (prod. reaper)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

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Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

no samples

@carsonconner

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now

I been staring at the sky till morning 
Connecting stars like dots to see your face 
really I'm just sinking in a sailors grave 
They acting like they know me so I hide away

Like where the fuck were you when I was down and out
Fucked up every day blacking myself out  
If you really loved me you would cut me down
Help me count the rings and then kick me out

I know I got problems taking pills now 
I know I got problems with my head now
I know you don't love me cut that shit out
No trust cuz girls jus fuck for clout now
x2

problems w/ carsonconner

ГАЗОВАЯ ЕБЛЯ - ТРУП КОСМОНАВТА НА ОРБИТЕ

GREAF

i'm sorry i misinterpreted our friendship [prod. greaf]

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

lyrics:
so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

wake up in my bed
with the thoughts stuck in my head
my wrists are looking red
cuz of all the blood i shed
texting you at 2
baby you know what to do
call me up again
i wanna hear your precious voice
let me haunt your dreams
with the time that we were teens
hear my final song
while you hit your parents bong
i know that you don't care
i'm wishing i was there

so tell me that you miss me
i want you to kiss me
drown it in the whiskey
love you till i'm dizzy
love you 
till my heart stops
in your hands
in your hands
the ghost of you
floats in the smoke
i'm a joke
every aching night
stay awake
burning photographs
tell myself
i won't ever relapse

do it for the fans
never switching plans
heart in my own hands
throwing up a couple grams
you never even cared
talking shit like i'm not there
but i see you in his hair
like the weed that's in the air
baby i know you've been playing me
you got me torn in my heart
watching it all fall apart
watching it all fall apart

no heart (prod. reaper)

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