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Angel dust. SIMBVSH  X HAYLIXROSE

WHAT A LIFE THIS IS

18.WHAT A LIFE THIS IS(prod.Yusei)

Haylixrose - In My Dreams (original)

a track I originally wrote on January 13th, 2019. Never felt like I had the ability to vocally perform, mix, and master this song but finally decided to say fuck it and just do it. Photo Cover Credits to Justin Blalock taken outside on his porch while chiefing on two different cigars. It be like that sometimes..

Lyrics:

Mind is tormented by demons that they cannot see
They start moving so silent to try to pass me
But I keep them on leashes to keep them at bay
You do not want to see if they are not behaved
I can say that they are [there] but you will not believe
Unless you see who they are so consequently
I just feel like a freak and continue to be
Maybe I should just let them roam free through these streets

I’m the Jesus of Devils, Blue Diamond embezzled
The color of BLOOD can be seen from my EYES
If you’re given the chance to get lost in my trance
You WILL see what’s to LIVE is also just to DIE
I don’t mind what you are but WE ARE NOT THE SAME
So don’t tell me you FEEL me or know ‘bout my pain
Now I tend to not care so they think that I’m mean
I am slightly INSANE ‘cus of all that I’ve seen
Had a BROTHER give up and PUT ONE IN HIS BRAIN
Had a mother give NONE now she’s losing her brain
Guess the PILLS and the DRINK can stop how you think
If GOD gave her the TIME do you think she’d RE-think
Well I DID and she DIDN’T so she is to blame
Why her son will not visit ’til she’s in the GRAVE
But she’s been DECEASED ever since I can remember 
LIFELESS PILL ADDICT yet FUELED BY HER TEMPER

   I am, I am, I am: Mentally Ill
   I am, I am, I am: Mentally Ill

I’m a GOD and a DEMON just searching for MEANING
But through all these people I can’t find a SOUL
To be up with me Dreaming, make smiles bright gleaming
Guess everyone’s stagnant, NO ONE wants to GROW
Rather MOLD, silently wasting away
Looking back at the PAST, thinking up better days
Cannot face, the MIRROR or WHO is now in it
Instead its TOO EASY to watch television
I’m DONE, I’m LEAVING this all BEHIND
I’m TIRED of watching my LIFE pass me by
And if YOU WON’T LOVE ME I’LL GO IT ALONE
Been doing it since the first time I LEFT HOME
Whoa, whoa, shit just got REAL
Can’t even remember when I had a meal
STILL don’t give a FUCK how these MOTHERFUCKERS FEEL
All that I’ve learned is I’m M3NT4LLY 1LL

   I am, I am, I am: Mentally Ill
   I am, I am, I am: Mentally Ill

M3NT4LLY 1LL

M3NT4LLY 1LL (prod. Hempen Widow)

I switched it up on this one. Vocals are mixed by me. Produced by waytoolost. Needed to give SoundCloud some love.

Protection(Prod. waytoolost)

T-MIC & SIMBVSH- HYPERSPEED [prod. PREMISE ON THE BEAT]

T-MIC & SIMBVSH- ¡ZOOM! Feat. Jerah Paige [prod. NEXTLANE BEATS]

18.WHAT A LIFE THIS IS(prod.Yusei)

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