drowning

Lyrics:

CHORUS

I want
Something special
I know
You won’t
You don’t 
Want that with me
Will you
Come by
My grave with flower petals
I know
You won’t
You don’t 
Think I’m special
You want
Something special

VERSE

Happy anniversary
Life was never worse for me
Sitting in the dark
Writing songs cus you’re hurtin me
Nothings gettin better
Every seconds like eternity
Every fucking day
I’m breaking more and I am certainly 
Fucked up
You never gave a fuck
Don’t tell me that you love me or you miss me or you’re stuck
And if you really do
I hope it fucking sucks
I hope it fucking sucks
I hope it fucking SUCKS

VERSE

I’m so fucking low
Cus I stopped getting high
 every day I wake 
and all I do is cry
Do you do the same?
Do you feel the pain?
Does is break your heart or even worse your brain?
I really fucking doubt it
What you know about it?
Depression really eating me
But I can’t live without it
I hate my fucking name
Cus all you did was shout it
You treated me like shit
And it’s stupid I allowed it

CHORUS

I want
Something special
I know
You won’t
You don’t 
Want that with me
Will you
Come by
My grave with flower petals
I know
You won’t
You don’t 
Think I’m special
You want
Something special

Happy Anniversary (something special)

RIDING ON BLADES (ft popularreject) prod by sharpe

backyard beetle - answers (prod. heydium + ayoley)

seejayxo - https://soundcloud.com/seejayxo

Crizzy:

She fell back into a habit, 
If she see a bottle grab it, 
Down it, 
Take it to the throat, 
Like its a fountain. 
I bet she drown in, 
Every drug that she was found in. 
Oxycotin,
Bottles pile on her mattress. 
Her mama saw it, 
And she called a single number, 
She said, "Oh god I'm really worried for my daughter". 
She start to stutter as her fingers growing number. 
She has an addict in her house without a father.

But what, 
Does it mean. 
Sitting all alone, 
In a place, 
She never seen.  
What, 
Do you need, 
Some help, 
Or a baggie,
Full of seed. 

And they sent her off to rehab, 
They ain't knowing how she'll react, 
They're just praying she don't relapse, 
Say she promise do she mean that. 
And I can tell by the way that she looks, 
She don't care about the measures that they took. 
They shouldn't judge from a cover of a book, 
But they know that she had never understood.

Seejayxo:
She a bad bitch
Out in LA
And she poppin now
Just like she said she would 
So I can't even hate
But her daddy probably 
Bought her everything 
That he ever could 
But she she still miss the xans
And I can't even blame her for that 
She just get ashamed
When she talk about her past
I be getting faded
Knowin I can't take you back
Knowin this my last sack

She need love from a real one 
White girl lines till I feel numb 
This just how I live
It's sincere love
I just want real trust
Tell me where the fuck I'm finna find that
Bitch I got pills in my side bag
Pop another one I'll be good for the flight back
Shit I got a show I'll be right back
Please don't relapse we can fight that 

Crizzy:

And they sent her off to rehab, 
They ain't knowing how she'll react, 
They're just praying she don't relapse, 
Say she promise do she mean that. 
And I can tell by the way that she looks, 
She don't care about the measures that they took. 
They shouldn't judge from a cover of a book, 
But they know that she had never understood.

Rehab w/ seejayxo

Out on all platforms 
(Prod. jxsie beats)

Lyrics: 

(Yami.. aye)
I thought we’d always last forever but you only stayed for two years
Now my life is kinda always feelin a nightmare
Deep thoughts, remembering the times you where right here
But you couldn’t stay long, now my eyes cry tears
Never thought that this would ever be reality
Finally fell in love then you left, what a tragedy

(Yeah) you held my heart so close then you broke it
I never feel alone but I feel so hopeless
I’m hearing all these sad song
Wonder what I did wrong
Honestly, I can’t stop
Playing back our memories
Pushing back the clock to when I had everything
Guess I’m feeling heartbreak at age 17
But I don’t want this

I was being patient 
Tryna give heart to someone who won’t break
But it’s too late
Now I’m kinda feelin nauseous
Getting sick of love
Cause your messages hauntin me
(Now I can’t sleep)
(Feelin so sad, kinda lonely)
(Drowning in my tears, cryin outa whole ocean)
(Who knew heartbreaks happen on a daily?)
(Scream out loud hoping someone where can save me)
(Yeah) it’s crazy how you said you cared but then left me
Stranded, hard to manage my emotions
I’m copin but it’s still hard, I can’t focus
Hoping that my love for you starts eroding
(Yeah) You moved on, now I can’t stop writing sad songs
In my bedroom, shouldn’t text you
I lost every bit of hope when I lost you
Why’d block me?
Still sending messages, I’m sorry

Maybe you didn’t care that much
Who would’ve guessed that heartbreak sucks?
I don’t feel enough
I’m still missin us
I can’t move
But I don’t want more time
It’s takin too long
How can you feel fine but I’m broken?
It makes no sense, movin on in an instant

heartbreak sucks

Fall In Love (prod Malloy X Haze)

To clarify:
I fucked up heavy and now I have a fear (she finds someone else/she's currently looking for someone new) that I shouldn't have. So I made a song about it. I feel a little better now but it still sucks feeling this. But I live knowing I shouldn't. I messed up, I'm in the wrong, I deserve it. Ez
- Dedamin

Oh
Fears they’re setting in
I can’t avoid it, it’s my fault, it’s settling
You might be looking for more, he's better then
I hope he’s close and does you right, sorry again
Yea fears they’re setting in
I can’t avoid it, it’s my fault, it’s settling
You might be looking for more, he's better then
I hope he’s close and does you right, sorry again


My fears to lose you
I’m scared a better guy will come and choose you
I just hope you’re okay
I just hope you’re okay
I just hope you’re okay

Are you searching around?
Maybe I’m dreaming
It is been stuck in my head
No use complaining
My soul is fading
This fear is raging

And when you find another I hope you tell me
I won’t be upset nah, I wont be angry
I’ll understand
Is it all planned?
Maybe she’s looking
Maybe she’s looking
Do I even wanna know
My skin's feeling cold

Happiness is what you need and I can't conceive it
I know that I'm useless I am garbage no "deason"
It's true
Can't deny it you know
It's true

Yea fears they’re setting in
I can’t avoid it, it’s my fault, it’s settling
You might be looking for more, he's better then
I hope he’s close and does you right, sorry again
Yea fears they’re setting in
I can’t avoid it, it’s my fault, it’s settling
You might be looking for more, he's better then
I hope he’s close and does you right, sorry again

*Voice message to a homie* (Might write down what it says soon*

4/8

Losing Interest? (prod. TERMULA)

My cover of Juice WRLD - 911/OD
I do not own any of the music or lyrics in this, all credits belong to Juice WRLD, his label, and people who helped make the album.

911 - Juice WRLD (COVER)

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