From my 2011 album “The Legend” (self produced)

The Legend

The Legend (Intro)

Song from my 2015 self created album #redefined

#redefined

Psychodevil

Song from my 2015 self made album #redefined

The Other Side

A song I produced in 2022, named Boundaries, dedicated to my first name and my journey of finding my own boundaries

Boundaries

LYRICS:

Feel it in my bones,
I can feel it in my feet,
No matter where I go 
All I’m feeling is defeat,

Not a single fcking thing takes away this chronic pain,
Not a single fcking day will I feel comfort again,

And how am I to deal,
When all I do is feel,
So much hurt I can’t heal,
And I swear that it’s real,

How did I end up with it?
Was life just that tough to me
I couldn’t handle it
So it attacks my body?

FCK!
So don’t you ever tell me to smile,
If you want me at my best
You gone wait a long while,

I ain’t available for your careless disposal,
People like you make it so tough to be cordial,

But I try
Give every fiber of my being,
Sometimes I wonder why when it doesn’t end the suffering,

Life is for the living and that I will do,
But I’m tired of giving,
Pack my bags, take the fck off to

Far far away,
Is the only place I’d rather be,
Mind’s astray,
Wanna end the pain and misery,

Wish I had my way,
Which I’ll never have but I can dream,
Do it for me,

Imma do this life for me,
The way I want it to be,
Slow and steadily,
With a heart so heavy,

And maybe that heaviness 
Pushes me to do my best,
Won’t give up,
But I won’t pour from an empty ass cup,

Don’t give a fck if you hate it,
I don’t care if I’m a bitch,
If you only knew the level of pain
I felt you’d also flip,

One day, some day,
Shit, maybe when I’m dead,
Is the day I feel the pain go away,
Bet,

Don’t wish this on my enemies,
Feel bad for those with families,
Can’t think of your well being,
With everything you’re doing,

For now, I disconnect,
And fck what is next,
Gonna do it my way,
Take it day by day,

For those who feel this pain,
Damn, I see you,
And fck those who think,
You ain’t speaking the truth,

You’re not alone,
I go through Hell every day too,
Come with me on this journey,
Fck this world let’s get away to,

Far far away,
Is the only place I’d rather be,
Mind’s astray,
Wanna end the pain and misery,

Wish I had my way,
Which I’ll never have but I can dream,
Do it for me (x2)

Far Away

LYRICS:

Spring is my season 
to blossom and thrive,
The summer brings warmth 
Fun and bountiful light,
Like the leaves fall I let go of things,
that don’t serve me in Autumn,
As I drink away my worries, spiced rum,

Soul gets hungover,
As winter gets colder,
What a year it’s been,
A new one begins,
Staying in bundled,
Through which we get humbled,
Then boom,
Spring is in bloom,

Spring is so beautiful,
So is the summer,
But my downfall,
Leads me to winter,

We have our seasons,
That gives us reasons,
Lessons, revelations, solutions,

Now’s not my era,
That’s okay,

It will be spring again
One day…

Not My Season

Hindi/English rap I wrote, featuring my broken ass Hindi skills (Jac: my mother tongue is Malayalam)

Beat is from a random YouTube video (don’t remember which one but I’ll be happy to credit once I know)

Mirchi

LYRICS:

Furious no more,
I don’t get mad, I get distant,
The trust is out the door, 
Sanity somewhat existent,

I don’t get mad, I disconnect and shut the door,
So much drama I don’t need no more,
Hard being C.ma when I see you haters,
Call me “ride or die”
When you bitches don’t try,

Playin with a heart and soul that started innocent,
Took me for granted but bitch I’m Maleficent,
I too got a gift for you, known as,
Karma, what goes around comes around,

Thought you could control and manipulate me,
But sweety,
Are you just jealous that you ain’t me?
Bada bing bada boom,
Makin no more room,
For your negativity,
Forget my generosity,

Gave everything I had inside,
To the point that I grew bleary,
You want me to apologize,
When I‘m not even sorry?

I’m everything I’m meant to be,
Unapologetically,
Stayin kind,
But don’t try to speak my mind,
You don’t know the strength 
That’s inside my heart,
Cause every single time that I fall apart,

I facilitate
A superhuman rise,
I close my eyes,
Open up my third eye,
Then I don’t feel like living,
In a world of destruction,
Tired of grieving,
My freedom and compassion,

I know how I feel,
Emotions too real,
So try to understand,
Or go fuck yourself,
And work on yourself,
Let me be myself,
Or be by myself,
Happiness is in the self, ri

Aftermath of disrespect ain’t pretty,
I don’t give a fuck if I get petty,
Aftermath of disrespect ain’t pretty,
I don’t give a fuck if I get petty

Aftermath

Singer and songwriter
All music produced by yours truly via whatever self taught music production skills I have :p

C.ma Sara

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