Memento Lux (incomplete)

Chaos flowers for Sun Ra

An “in one sitting” improv after buying Albion Solstice.

I’m waiting for someone to notice I’ll am the Hans Zimmer for 1:100th the cost (or less) so I’m practicing every cinematic style. All of these are first attempts.

The vision for this is:

Indie Move:
Scene: A Misty morning with dewdrops and rainbows in the steam rising from dewy grasses. Waking with blurry consciousness but raw unattenuated awareness, hence the gentle flutter between sweet & comforting and disjointed where’d that come from. A subjectivist tableau of the experience of stretch yawn and window crystal spreading colours across the face.


(Done entirely with Albion Solstice by Spitfire)

Solstice

“Dreamland”

Preludes-Tableaux #5, no4. 

Background incidental music for a period film.
(Russia late 19th cent would be appropriate)

Hamadryad Scherzo

How To Dream ( incidental Dark Fantasy )

A symphonic theme song for a sci fi(concept)drama movie

Loom of Creation

Part of my composition practice is I make a. AI make a movie poster- then do a theme song or trailer music etc
This one’s getting weird, think “Guillermo Del Burton” movie. I asked the Ai for a combination of Pans Labyrinth and Beetlejuice as a movie poster and creepily- there it is.

With a folk noir pagan orchestra vibe, dulcimer waltz with a cello, you know something evils afoot, or ahoof
The movie and main character is “Manfred” the rest is up to your brain or visual people.

“Manfred Theme”

Us (credits)

Peer Gynt Inspired. Improvised symphonic music. Unmastered and unfinished.
But still

Erlkönig (intro)

Improvised one take per track done while sipping my 5am coffee- so don’t complain about my timing or I will haunt your dreams!

Written for a dead fledgling crow

Requiem for a Crow

Ozymandias

As an outreach worker I’ve watched BEAUTIFUL people die from a combination of:

1) a genetic disease just like diabetes or alcoholism 
2) actual poisoning by added toxins at levels which are intentional executions
3) NO ONE CARES ABOUT ACTUAL HUMAN LIFE!

I’ve been on the sidewalk doing CPR alone during the lockdowns, I daily work in the inner city with friends being shot or stabbed or assaulted, infections, mania, total insanity are expected. We see things which are hidden just an inch out of view which are so horrible it causes vicarious trauma and ptsd just from seeing it.
These things people walk by and ignore, if you bend down and say Hi you’ll find someone who, like you, was a child who had a first kiss and expected a life that was kind and beautiful. Instead their parents raped and beat them until they HAD NO CHOICE but to run away.
Young runaways are not just targets, they are commodities to be lulled into trust by people who will destroy their lives completely. 
MOST HOMELESS PEOPLE I HAVE MET IN 7 YEARS HAVE BEEN MUCH MUCH BETTER, KINDER PEOPLE THAN “NORMAL” PEOPLE ARE- but there’s always some bad apples and they latch on to the vulnerable and assault them more and take everything until one day much sooner than you’d think they wake up alone cold hungry and scared- and in withdrawal from whatever the evil ones addicted them to.
And addiction- it’s not a choice, not an opting out, not fun at all. It’s aspirin for trauma so horrific I would be banned if I explained how awful the things are which bring people to that cold moment waking on concrete.
It’s not about laziness, it’s about PROFOUND and CONTINUAL abuse, with no one to even say “it’ll be ok”, it’s being tragically assaulted all throughout childhood then raped and assaulted throughout adulthood and being given the only thing which makes you not want to kill your self before you’re old enough to understand consequences.

I’ve watched innocent beautiful children die in front of me, just trying to feel something other than self hate and fear.
(Luckily as I was present I was able to bring her back- a 15 year girl who’s ribs I broke waking her heart)

This song isn’t about them, and is.
This song is a Requiem, an honour and footnote in our Book of Life of the Lost to the Drug Poisoning Crisis.
I have watched as people I knew, who I brought food to, whose wounds I cared for on the street, who I had revised before and those who always had it “under control”.

This song is for all the faces I’ll never see again.

I carry you in me, those who once were innocent children happy with light in their eyes and I hope against science and logic that you are whole now, together with your belovèd on some level of the worlds we are far from understanding.

Forever be free
Forever be whole
Forever be loved

Requiem for Pandora

If you do not love me I shall not be loved If I do not love you I shall not love. I can't go on. I'll go on. Every word is like an unnecessary stain on silence and nothingness.

- my great uncle S Beckett

A quartet of chamber strings 

-Violins
-Celli
-Viola
-Bass

Habitus II (Chamber Orchestra Septtet Divisi)

Documentary of Antartica which slowly moves from twilight to dawn. Part One:”Twilight to Dawn”

Antarctic Dawn (Part One)

Twilight Zone background music

Done in the style of TZ and esp Bernard Herrmmann, an under remembered master.
Herrmmann did everything from Citizen Kane to Hitchcock to Taxi Driver.
It’s only a pale imitation of his great works- but fun to remember teenage midnights watching the old 50s Twilight Zone.

Dr Benway

The Impeccablity of Fire

Short Film Soundtrack- the loneliness epidemic

Short Film version on YouTube 

https://youtu.be/TKpodbkhLJU?si=9PY9emFJQXh5xQjm

art of loneliness

Sonor Sanctissima

Habits are curious creatures who makes nests in our mind which they return to after the egg has flown far away

Bone Rose

Minimalist underscoring for a dramatic feature

breathe and again

Cellular microtextural music:

Cellos tuned down a 4th
Small choral ensemble
Contrabass Clarinet
Bass Flute

Coriander

Sotto Voce

Tempest in a Ti Cup

De Novo (Starless Black)

Oxyrhynchus

MY SOUNDTRACK MUSIC PROFILE 
Music as mystic-art PLUS cheap bespoke Soundtracks.
The best of both worlds: 
“Is that [insert million dollar per score name here] ?” 
AND 
“They’re within budget?!” in the same sentence!

I CAN DO ANYTHING 
FIND OUT

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ I ᴅᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ғᴀᴄᴇʟᴇss ɪɴᴄᴜʀɪᴏᴜs
ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʟᴀsᴛs ʙᴜᴛ ᴀɴ ɪɴsᴛᴀɴᴛ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ɪɴsᴛᴀɴᴛ
sᴘɪʟʟs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴏɪᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ɪɢɴᴏʀᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʜᴀᴠɪɴɢ ʙᴇᴇɴ
ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ᴡᴀᴠᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ
ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴀɴᴅ sʜᴀᴅᴏᴡ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀʀᴇ ᴇɴɢᴜʟғᴇᴅ
ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ I ᴅᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs sɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴜʀᴍᴜʀs ᴅɪᴇ
ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɴᴛɪɴɢs ᴛʜᴇ ғʀᴇɴᴢɪᴇs ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅs sᴜᴄᴄᴏᴜʀ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅs ʟᴏᴠᴇ
ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs sᴋʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴏᴀʀs
ᴀʙᴏᴠᴇ ɪᴛs ʙᴀʟʟᴀsᴛ ᴅᴜsᴛ

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