Lyric ;

IT'S 4.37 MORNING

Its 4:37 in the morning. Can’t sleep. Another restless night. Not a bright start to my day. To wake up every fucking morning and think of her is a torment. Every morning I wake up and my first thoughts are, ‘Shit! Another day! How am I gonna pass this? I should stop thinking about her. She doesn’t care for me. 
It's not that I was dying to achieve it and am very proud of it, I just didn’t realize it would happen to me. I guess nobody does, so lost in each other’s love. One doesn’t really give it ample thought as long as the fake promises.
Sometimes, only sometimes, I imagine her smiling face and it makes me smile. I remember anything funny she said and it makes my heart lighter. But all this lasts only for a few seconds, because soon after I am overcome with unbearable pain. I just lie on my bed till the pain subsides and try to put on a fake smile
as long as the fake promises and lies keeps the other at bay.  
I realize she’s not here. Never will be again. At that instant, it feels all the oxygen has been sucked from my room. I struggle to breathe, literally. Sometimes, my eyes get watery. It makes me weaker, physically and mentally, every day of my life. Then I tell myself ,’Don’t worry, just get up now. Don’t think of her. You are a very good man. You deserve better. Everything will be alright,
The same story repeats the next morning. Every morning. I wish I could foresee what was coming for me.

Selira - It's 4.37 Morning

Just Your Friend To Talk With 
My heart is broken but I still have hope and My heart is now in so much pain, My tears are falling like pouring rain than We broke each other's hearts. We were torn apart. I know I never did show how I felt but Just believe me, every time I saw you made my heart would melt. One day we might get back together. 
I can no longer sleep a full night. I can no longer to fight. It's hard when you're always lying, Always hiding the way you feel Losing your sight on truthful words Forgetting what is real. Your hands remain unsteady, And your heart pounds like a drum, And even though you can barely walk, You fight the urge to run. Your throat feels like it's closing, And your legs feel like they're weak. 
Since when did her smile make me go weak? Since when did her tears make mine start to leak? Why does this happen when I'm always so strong? And I don't think she knows. And still she has no idea. 
Actually, I love how she's beautiful and smart with a heart so strong And how she lives every day like nothing could go wrong. Now that I've said it with my poetic skill, I don't think she knew, and now she never will. 
"I am just your friend to talk with, while wait he come to replace me" 
I can no longer sleep a full night. I can no longer to fight. It's hard when you're always lying, Always hiding the way you feel Losing your sight on truthful words Forgetting what is real. Your hands remain unsteady, And your heart pounds like a drum, And even though you can barely walk, You fight the urge to run. 
Now that I've said it with my poetic skill, I don't think she knew, and now she never will.
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SELiRA