letters for three

@kado.wav
Why can’t I see that I’m the one needs change
Everyone I love find a way to run away 
Leaving me alone like why you not stay 
I know that it’s me how I handle my pain

& I’m sorry for hurt that
I caused you to make you never wanna come back 
You told jokes that I never could’ve laugh at 
I was dealing with the trauma but you saw that

You tried to make change 
But I stayed in my place  
So I’m sorry for my ways
And the mistakes 
I don’t wanna stay same
But it’s too safe 
Everything Id say 
To make you stay 

Now you gone and I’m stuck here so alone 
I loved you but I’m sorry that I couldn’t show 
We realize what we had when we we let it go
But it’s too late now and you’ll never know 


Chorus

I just gotta float
Don’t u try to catch me
Please just don’t think less of me

My hearts broke
How’d this get so messy
Why be life so depressing

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time
Wonder how i lost her

That’s not my problem
I don’t needa solve em
I don’t fucking got the time
To climb up from the bottom


Verse 2
All the time I been stuck in my mind
Thinking bout how I just lost the love of my life 
Now I’m stuck in the state want a end of my life 
I’m Too scared to say that so I tell her I’m fine

Say I’m okay 
But I’m not 
Really miss you 
All the pain 
Coming back 
And I cannot call you 

You the only to ever to make the problems away 
You the only thing that’s ever really made me wanna stay 

but I did it to myself 
So I don’t deserve your help 
I’m in love with all the pain I don’t know if you can tell 
I’m too caught up in my mind 
I kept telling you these lies 
How I wish I never did now you out of my life 

alone I’m here today like I’ll be inside my grave 
 never make a change so nobody ever stay
Go and let me be cause I know this is my fate 
that I finally have to float for mistakes that I have made

Chorus

I just gotta float
Don’t u try to catch me
Please just don’t think less of me

My hearts broke
How’d this get so messy
Why be life so depressing

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time
Wonder how i lost her

That’s not my problem
I don’t needa solve em
I don’t fucking got the time
To climb up from the bottom

Float (ft. Kado)

I don’t understand
 how on the same day you say that you love me you out with that man 
you ruined our plan 
of being together forever and finally raising a fam
 
 I made you leave
I couldn’t put up with your problems no more they were bigger than me 
I should be free 
but I can’t stop thinking about how the love of my life would go cheat 
 
I hate myself that I miss you
 I hate the fact that you’re gone
I hate the way you think it’s OK because of your pain you are treating me wrong
 
I know that you got your issues 
I know it’s harder to MoveOn 
I know the way that you cope with your pain is by hurting the ones that you do want 
 
verse 2 
I knew that this would come to the end
We gotta part ways there no way we be friends
Wish that I could I can’t make amends 
How can you live with the shit that you did 
 
You cut me slow then tell me don’t go 
But how you except me to let you come home
When all that you did was bringing me low 
You talk about love but you never did show 
 
Cause love is not cheating and lying 
Or making the other one feel they like dying 
It’s bigger than that 
All of the time I was trying 
To keep you from flying 
But Im never taking you back
 
Wish that I never was fighting 
For someone confined in 
The shit that keep them in past
I thought that I saw the lighting
And soon I’d be finding 
But I was so wrong about that
 
I was wrong about a lotta things
In the Late nights when I can’t sleep
I’m In my bed and I’m all alone
You not here but you in my dreams 
These thoughts that I still think
I can’t believe I had to leave 
I’ll never know where imma go 
But there’s no chance that you with me 
 
There’s a chance you change ways and you finnally getting better
You will come back in my life and tell me we could be forever 
I will think back to this time and go remember I said never 
Gonna let you in my life again there’s no way well be together

I Don't Understand (feat. Iben)

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Every breathe I take brings me closer to you
Every step I take the less I known what to do 
& The sun still rises even though you’re not with me 
Got a hole in my heart since you gone in incomplete

Hurting myself cause I miss you
left me here alone with my issues 
suicidal thoughts run my life 
I don’t even know why I try 

Guess it’s about the time I give this up What’s the point of life if there’s not no love Can’t get out my mind when I’m by myself I’m too scared to say that I need some help

Every breathe I take brings me closer to you
Every step I take the less I known what to do 
& The sun still rises even though you’re not with me 
Got a hole in my heart since you gone in incomplete


I tried to stop you from leaving 
God told me you gottta go 
but never given me a reason 
that I got a live my life all alone 

Maybe I should go and end it 
Cut the screen and fade to black 
Call it quits it’s my final mission there’s no way I’m ever coming back 

You really think That I deserve this
being here and in pain 
Did my dad deserve to get cancer and then to never see another day

Pray to God and ask him why me 
Why it always getting worse 
Why you take the ones that I love 
Do you like to see me get hurt


Every breathe I take brings me closer to you
Every step I take the less I known what to do 
& The sun still rises even though you’re not with me 
Got a hole in my heart since you gone in incomplete

Spotify

Incomplete (feat. Hope Richarson)

i tried to take a chance and open up 
to try to fall and love 
but every time i kept on getting closer i would feel a tug
whisper in my mind from my thoughts that i’m not enough
happiness i’ll never find i think it’s time to give it up

i tried to give you what you need
i left you incomplete 
apologize for all the times when i was being mean
when i told you i don’t want you really i just couldn’t see
a future where somebody good as you would be with me 

so out of fear i ruined everything any shot i had 
you moved on now i’m crying wishing i could take it back 
you the only girl that helped me not the think about the past 
now you gone and everything around me turning into black 

and i’m knowing it’s my fault 
that i got nobody blame 
i’m not surprised cause all i fucking do is keep making mistakes
then i’m drowning in my sorrows screaming i just wanna change 
but there’s nothing i can do to make you wish you woulda stayed

i wish you would’ve stayed
i wish you would’ve stayed
drowning in my sorrows screaming i just wanna change 
nothing i can do to make you wish you would’ve stayed

verse 2

i know that you are happier that i’m not in your life 
if i said the same for me we both would know that that’s a lie
an attempt to cover up the feelings that i love to hide 
since the day i made you leave it has been killing me inside 

damn you probably got a man that treats you well and loves to buy you things 
probably got a crib a couple kids a couple diamond rings
all i ever got you was a mockingbird that never sang 
i never gave you any chance to ever fall in love with me 

i built a wall and never took the shot to break it down 
you started coming close and i could see it where it was heading out 
knowing that i’d end up getting hurt but wasn’t knowing how 
decided i woulda give it up i wish that i did it different now 

alone and in my room 
never find someone like you 
never find someone who cares for me the way that you would do 
on that day i said we through 
was the day that i would lose
that part of me that gave me any hope 
of finding truth

Wish You Would've Stayed

you can take down the photos
give me back your key
throw away my old clothes
but you won’t be rid of me 
hide from the places we know
avoid the places we go 
but what do you do with the memories

what do i do with memories
left them behind when you made me leave 
as well as the photos i hate to see
i was wrong to go think you the one for me 

when you knew all along but you kept it in
but you leading me on cause you need a friend
knowing i wasn’t making it till the end 
now i’ll never forgive you for play pretend

you watched as i fell in love
just to turn around say i’m not enough
throw the ring away as i gave it up 
i spent 20k just to go to dust
just to go to waste
like the fucking days

that i spent with you to only feel the pain
gave you all of me for you to never change
now those days are gone
i still hurt the same


you can take down the photos
give me back your key
throw away my old clothes
but you won’t be rid of me 
hide from the places we know
avoid the places we go 
but what do you do with the memories


funny how things change like me view of you 
went from always sure to i never knew
who i thought you were see it wasn’t true
being blind from love i was so consumed

now i see it clear like i never did
it’s too late now so irrelevant 
cause my hearts broke from the time we spent 
you still in my head never paying rent 


i’m tryna move on but it’s so hard and i’m fighintg tears just to write this song
even though i’m knowing that you did me wrong
i can’t help but love you even though you’re gone 

and i wish i didn’t but it’s how i feel 
i’m still holding on to what was never real
cause i’m scared to face that i lack appeal
and that no matter what i still may never heal


you can take down the photos
give me back your key
throw away my old clothes
but you won’t be rid of me 
hide from the places we know
avoid the places we go 
but what do you do with the memories

What Do You Do With The Memories?

i feel like lately in life
nobody can understand 
i hide my pain in my music 
that’s what we do when we men

i do not show how i feel 
i fake it you’d think i was fine 
honestly it’s getting hard
finding my way in this life 

my girl left in the past week and it kills me not to see her 
my heart breaks cause the damn shame when it’s my fault and i need her 
i loved you
and i told you 
you believe me 
but you still leave 
now i’m tryna stay but it’s so hard i’m holding on so i don’t bleed  

i’m writing songs till i feel alright 
and i’m 10 in but i’m not okay  
i’m looking back on them old days 
that i spent w you 
for you ran away 
for you go and change 
leave me all alone 
i don’t know to feel  
how am i to cope 
when the pills are gone  
and you not at home 
when i wanna die where am i to go
Tryna look forward in life 
But it’s hard since you left I been feelin alone
It’s you that’s been stuck on my mind 
Do shit out of spite 
It’s hard doin shit on my own 
Reluctant to listen to those who help 
But looking back now Shit I wish I had known 
Blinded by thoughts of the future I never saw all of the colors of you that was shown 

A smile is only a mask
Just Trying to cover my past 
Did you ever feel wrong for your lies
If you wanted to leave shoulda asked 

Shit at least did you ever regret
All those misleading things that you said
When you claimed you’d be better off dead
Overthinking just fucked up my head 

Bitch you never tried 
Can’t run from these problems there’s nowhere to hide
I’d Swallow a pill for I swallow my pride 
These Demons they talk in the back of mind 
I keep reaching out while you leave me behind 
Drown in my thoughts I don’t care to survive 
I rememeber you’re gone when I look to my side yea
Yea 
I know that you’re gone am I still on your mind

Waiting (feat. Maiza)

Never Be Alright

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Feel trapped and i feel weak
If these broken bones could speak
They’d say i’m worn out all the time 
Daytime gets more bleak
Wait for mood swings to reach its peak
Before i can shut my eyes 

I see all the beauty in life 
The next minute i wanna die 
Drugs ain’t been getting me high
I can’t get outta of mind 

I’m so in love then i’m not 
Ice in my veins but i’m hot 
I run away from my thoughts 
But i get scared when they stop

I guess that i’m crazy or maybe i’m bad at just numbing the pain 
I know there’s people that feel how i feel but i Guess they just better at running away  
living so fake  
I wish they’d say 
How they been feeling so i can feel safe 
With how i been living and all my mistakes  
I’m trying but i cannot change

Highest highs then lowest lows 
Undiagnosed with no way to cope 
Prescription pill make me feel alone 
I wish i’d know 
Where i’m supposed to go

When i’m at the peak i can see the valley
Why i’m still depressed when i’m feeling happy 
Will there come when it not coming at me 
Will they find me dead and laying in a alley 

Feel trapped and i feel weak
If these broken bones could speak
They’d say i’m worn out all the time 
Daytime gets more bleak
Wait for mood swings to reach its peak
Before i can shut my eyes 

I got back what i asked for 
My life’s a dream but i’m still bored
Stopped popping pills 
Thought i’d be alright
But i still like
Getting high more 

When i float up then im wanting down
So i’m flying back but i hate the ground 
So i seek for love
Till i see it comes
Then i chose to run 
Like i never found   

As i keep turning i’m running in circles and stuck at start 
Looking for signals that i’ll never find cause i Lost the key that would open my heart 
I’ve been to a victim to all of the scars 
And all of the times that they’ve torn me apart
Then fix it with the stitches just like it’s art 
But lately it’s getting too hard  (delay


You’ll never be who i am 
You cannot see what i’ve seen
That’s why my bones getting weak
I stand in defeat 
And planning to leave 
I’m planning to go im planning to end
Living this life without any friends 
Living this life no where to begin 
Start over a life without any sin

Broken Bones (feat. Deyaz)

How come the ones we love the most don’t ever stay
How come the clouds don’t ever pass 
When there’s some rain how come I’m crying 
over shit I cannot change 
Can’t give life to something dead I miss my dad he’s in the grave 

I miss my fam I miss my ex 
I know she’s moving on 
I’m really sorry for the way
that I would treat you wrong 
And I don’t think that time will ever heal this wounded heart
I’ve been facing trauma since my mom and me were torn apart


And that’s just part of life but we don’t know the why 
People taken from my life can’t seem to compromise 
I try to pray to god it seems she never hear me right
Lately I’ve been wishing on a star is that I would f***ing die

I cannot take another day of the shit 
I close my eyes and feel the pain from all the hurt that I get
I crush it up and do a line and say its one more hit 
Cause maybe if I’m feeling numb then I won’t have to go quit

Come out to meet you 
Tell you I’m sorry 
You don’t how lovely you are
I had to find you 
Tell you I need you  
Tell you I’ve set you apart 

I hate the way I treated you and we can’t change the past
But if we could then Id do anything to get you back
I’d see the time we had as blessings I would hear you laugh
Loving every minute that we spent before we have to pass

And it’s just sad that we can change what is done
I’ve been a failure as a person and a terrible son
I wanna tell my dad I’m sorry but I’m under the sun 
Contemplating why I’m here and all the ways that i run

I’m doing drugs have sex 
I’m blowing all my money on my own respect
I’m trying to fill the void that been inside my chest
Thinking I’ll be better off dead 
maybe finally I can get some rest 

I know that’s not true and I just hate how I feel
I need a therapist or some thing that can help me to heal
Teach me how to play my cards when I don’t know how to deal 
I’m missing everyone I’ve lost and I just wish it weren’t real

tell u i'm sorry

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I said I’m tunnel vision get it
Slightly optimistic 
Rarely ever switching 
Don’t forget to go and mention 
All the shit that brought me here
Worst of all your fears 
I done seen em and it’s clear 
It ain’t ever worth the tears 

There no truth inside the lies it’s only pain that brought me up 
I’m a productive of environments where no one gave a fuck 
Selling drugs when i’m in school instead of out and having fun 
Only knew to chase a bag they never taught me how love 

It done made me who I am I got regrets but that’s alright 
Try to push all em aside but can’t escape it in my mind 
So imma take a couple hits to try and make me feel alright 
Don’t you see me as i am don’t you see through my disguise 

In the nighttime 
steady tryna get by 
I said i’m thankful for the past cause it brought me where I’m at 
And thats my life
In the night time 
I can never think right 
It’s like I’m knowing where I’m at but I’m never going back 
To my old life 


I said i’ll run until I’m finally lost 
Feeling get a lot 
Always hating when they come around 
and i get in my thoughts 
Never chasing as they leave I’m always loving when they gone 
You shoulda seen what i was on and all the ways i do em wrong 

I don’t think it’d be a problem if I pushed away the pain 
I know I’m numbing and it’s wrong
but i’m just tryna make it change 
i go back to where I was then I’ll get caught up in my ways 
abusing drugs I got a habit one that I could  never shake 

I float away to where i never been 
putting pain behind me
It’s beyond the time that i should end 
It’s beyond the time that i can quit 
Let’s be honest
would it help me if i finish it 
Prolly not it was prolly never true 
It was prolly just a sign for me to find what i could use 
on a journey going through 
Never seeing what i lose 
Never staying where i’m at 
You never know what imma do
In the nighttime


In the nighttime 
steady tryna get by 
I said i’m thankful for the past cause it brought me where I’m at 
And thats my life
In the night time 
I can never think right 
It’s like I’m knowing where I’m at but I’m never going back 
To my old life 

In the nighttime 
steady tryna get by 
I said i’m thankful for the past cause it brought me where I’m at 
And thats my life

Thats My Life

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Drex Carter 

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why’d you let me fall girl
why’d you let me down
why’d you give me up before the end of the world
did you hear me screaming 
cause i was screaming loud
did you hear the cries before it all came crashing down

i feel the pain inside my chest like a ceiling thats caving in 
i feel you presence as i’m screaming you watching me as it end 
but i’m falling while you alright you forgetting bout what you did 
all the time that you stole from me & the life i could’ve lived 

was is the first time that you fell in love? 
i wanted peace but you wanted drugs 
all them times had to pay the plug 
when you never mine & you never was
but still i stayed steady wondering 
when the love would come that i gave to you 
from the other side and it never did all the shit you said was it never true

just another lie 
why we sitting here & at the end of time 
while the world is ending and we’re bout to die
& i still hate the way i always feel inside  

cause i’m loving you 
but you don’t feel same 
nothing i can do to make you change 
cause you made it clear that this is till the grave 
imma die alone imma die in pain isn’t that a shame 
no cap

why’d you let me fall girl
why’d you let me down
why’d you give me up before the end of the world
did you hear me screaming 
cause i was screaming loud
did you hear the cries before it all came crashing down

Resting her head
Look in her eyelids
I feel the pain
She couldn’t hide it
Dream of the days
When we were flying
Now it just feel like it burning the silence
I hear a Scream
It getting louder
Voices be telling her she doesn’t matter
I see her dreams every night they get sadder
Tossing and turning then waking up backwards

Grabbing her keys
She out the door
Cruising the city she watching it pour
Look to the sky feet on the floor
Wonder what she keep on doing this for

Feeling afraid that this might be the end
Knowing she all alone no one holding her hand
Taking a breath, holding it in
Hoping it go away before she count to ten.

She feel the pain
She Feel the violence
She wanna hide it
Watching it burn

Running away
I’m screaming louder
Hoping she hear it before she get hurt

She turn away
Feet on the edge
Closing her eyes
Hoping it end
Hoping it end
Hoping it end
Hoping it,,,

why’d you let me fall girl
why’d you let me down
why’d you give me up before the end of the world
did you hear me screaming 
cause i was screaming loud
did you hear the cries before it all came crashing down

The End Of The World (feat. Drex Carter)

Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there in a hurry 
Life just ain't fair 
But it still goes on 
Even if it's all wrong 
Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there for you 

Was it the first night that we got high 
When I saw peace in them blue eyes
In the same night that we did fight 
Was the first time that you did lie
Cause you told me you never wanted love 
Cause you never thought that you would be enough
But it takes time we can learn to trust 
I just wanna know if you’re gon give us up  
And see 
I’ve always been trying to be 
The person you need to be clean  
But you don’t believe 
I shown you I love you 
And gave you my promise that I’d never leave  
I know you been hurt 
And left there with need
Your parents abandoned a person to bleed 
But life had a mission to water a seed 
A journey im hoping you’re taking with me 

Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there in a hurry 
Life just ain't fair 
But it still goes on 
Even if it's all wrong 
Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there for you 

You wanna leave 
You wanna go 
Don’t gotta deal w the trauma alone
I’m wanting peace 
I wanna cope 
You are the reason that I feel at home 
Cause I feel the same 
I’ve melted away 
It’s due to the issues & all of the shame 
I hope you can love me before i can change  
Hope you forgive me for all the mistakes  

You had to see shit watch em leave quick 
They ain’t love you like I do
I'd give my whole life just to make sure 
That you knew that & that’s truth 
I watch these night pass as you fade away 
And it’s getting worse when you use 
While I’m knowing that it’s on you 
But I promised that we won’t lose  

Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there in a hurry 
Life just ain't fair 
But it still goes on 
Even if it's all wrong 
Oh don't you worry 
I'm gon be there for you

Don't Worry(feat. Kado)

Cold nights kicking it
give me something to talk about
Listening to x while I miss the exit it raining down
Feeling all these problems I need me something to Drown it out
The same old story im never seeming to solve it how
Long can I go
Lost friends on the road
Lost cause lost hope
Cant talk cuz im froze
Phone buzzing I keep on driving it ringing out
Thinking bout everything i never wanna think about
Dreaming bout days when the pain goes away
Singing on stage my release not afraid
Lights start to flash and I see em through the rain
Though the cracks in my glass see a car in my lane
Feel my heart out my chest feel the scars in my brain
Looking lost and depressed I got seconds for I fade
Know the car bout to crash didn’t think this the way
If im going out sad hope they hear what I say


I felt the fire in my soul when you called
Telling me it’s over then ya moving with your ma
Had enough of my decisions you would always say i’m wrong
Said im never what you needing and you’re tired leading on

Tired of the times that I chose to go and use
When you told me you were down and I wasn’t there with ya
When you told me what he did and I didn’t follow through
When you needed me the most I was running from the truth

Now i’m running from the pain
Like i’m never gon change
Now i’m really all alone
With myself inside the grey
Never loving who i am
Rolling up and feeling shame
I just wanna feel alright
I just need to drive away

But the pedlle never goes
Stranded here alone
Never knowing where is home
Made me think that i could cope
Made me think that there was hope
Now i gotta let you know
That i hope you find peace for the day you gotta go

Me Myself & I (W/ Drex Carter & Fenekot)

i watch your life fade through the great vine 
while you getting old & it’s hurts 
cause you loved me when i need that and you stayed around when it’s worse 
and it took a while but i see it now so im praying on that i’ll learn 
how to let go of them old times yes we’ll move on on this earth 


you gave me life and you gave me more i’m so grateful that i’m blessed 
w a real one with a big heart that’ll push on when depressed **
that’ll push on with no rest 
that’ll give love to what’s dead 
that’ll give love to the not enough that always do it her best 

but then there’s me 
i was a product of peace
but came out so wild and free 
i need you to see 
that all of the trauma im having 
was never because of you please 
i need you to see 
the life that i’ve chosen to life are the reason that i’m never clean 
its in how i think 
lit’s taking my dreams 
i need you to see
i know it’s on me 
i know it’s on me 


it seem like i’m running like i gotta the answer 
but i gotta question the way that i live 
take on the pain that be coming from choices im making the ones that i’ll never forget
like making you have the regrets
i hope i can earn your respect  
i hope i can make up for all of the trauma i’ve caused you to stay in your head 

i know you
gon say it’s fine 
but you can state that truth 
that it’s not alright 
you can tell me how 
in the year he died 
you had to see me locked 
had to say goodbye 
you had to watch your son 
go from school to drugs 
go from life so good to it not enough 
go to bills to big so he turned the plug 
but that’s not you cause you gave me love 

imma make this right 
imma make shit straight
for the day you leave 
for the day you fade
imma show you how 
imma show you change   
when i take my life 
to the place you’d pray 
and now all that’s wrong 
that is all on me 
and im sorry that paps 
had to rest in peace 
that i’ve caused you stress 
and i’ve made you bleed 
but i see clear now 
that it’s all on me 
on me
 i know it’s on me
(on me)
i know it’s one me 





love a bond that connects two people that cannot be broken 
truth a lie that we tell ourselves to hide
peace a project of all the pain we pushed away when we were kids
and loss a feeling that no one should ever feel

love a bond that connects two people that cannot be broken 
truth a line we tell ourselves to hide 
peace a project of all the pain we pushed away when we were kids 
and loss a feeling that no one should ever feel

on me

i know what you want

can you let me go?

can you hear me calling ?

hi it's me again

Dancing W Your Ghost

Half A Man ft drex

Mockingbird ft drex

i tried my best i promise ft sorrow

the night i got arrested

true story

it was real so i stayed

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You are not alone. It is okay to not be okay. Message me on instagram @seon_47. I am here for you
Maybe I can be so sad when I’m not 
Life can be so lonely and I’m stuck up in the thoughts
Everything I’m wantin I can have it at the top
But I’m at the bottom I’m surrounded by the rocks

If I had love would I still feel this lonely 
I was by myself and nobody had to show me 
Never gave a fuck nobody tried to know me 
Handing out these guns but nobody tryna blow me

I don’t wanna be here I just wanna go 
Wanna leave my family everybody that I know 
Suicidal thought will they miss me when I go 
Tryna get high i been riding all the lows

Finally getting sober and it bringing back the pain
Sunny for a minute now it’s cloudy with the rain 
Shit falling down and it bringing back mistakes 
future looking blurry I don’t see it in my fate 

Whyy oh whyyy
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad Itll never be alright 

Please come and save me I really need saving 
These are not just lyrics I’m really not playing 
This life that I’m living I feel like I’m faking
If I can’t be real then it time for the taking

Come take my life and my soul
When I’m not even old
I been searching for hot cause my heart is so cold 
say I dont listen not doing I’m told
don’t fit the system I’ll never be gold 

If I hit escape would i just fall and go to hell 
Moses say I would but who is he to go and tell
Wanna judge me now but not gon hear me when I yell 
I been crying out said I really need some help

Nobody wanna talk nobody picking up the vibes 
Smile on my face but they can’t tell that it’s a lie 
Cover for the sorrow that I’m feeling deep inside 
Hit em with the shock when they hear i wanna die

Whyy oh whyyy
I don’t wanna be here I just wanna die
Always been sad Itll never be alright

Video

never be alright [prod. kado] (video in description)

Laying up late and it’s midnight 
Cold rainy days transition to some dark nights 
When I’m home alone 
No where else to go 
Calling up my friends wish I could just go let em know 
Depression finnaly hitting i can’t do it on my own  
Drowning in my sorrows but there’s nothing here to show 

All people really fake 
lying to my face
Telling me they there but never meaning what they say 


Call me up now ask some questions 
Help me out I need  lessons 
all these games why I’m stressing 
Too much work  life’s depressing 

Only wanna check up when you hear it in my lyrics 
Say you okay but I’m not okay 
Asking do you need some help really acting like they mean it 
Say you okay but I’m not okay

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

Hard times 
Wish I could go make time 
Never had enough went back I hadda save mine

Wishing you would pick up 
Wishing you would call back
Talk me through problems 
Say you caring hope you mean that 

Maybe I’m too sad maybe I’m not 
Maybe y’all just flexing like y’all not 
Maybe I’m just honest should I stop
Start telling lies like I’m not 

Sad and lonely no cure 
All these sins a monster 
Fix me up still not pure 
On the inside not my contour

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

friends? [prod. kado]

crazy how this life can be so wild
in denial 
i stay saying i don’t want you but id walk a thousand miles

just to see those ocean eyes 
Girl you be moving the skys
saying we friends why we telling these lies
wearing these masks i don’t wanna disguise 

cause i wanna say that i love you 
i wanna tell you the truth 
sleeping is all that i do 
Cause i am dreaming of you 

reaching to pick up the phone 
start sweating i get in that zone 
fear taking over I’m losing control
better without me you better alone 

why would you want me when nobody does
I’m just a coward not worthy of trust
heart has been broken craving for love 
i was an addict  fixed it with drugs

I’m never enough 
never enough 
tired of love 

Living in a clouded dream
Searching for the quiet that you need to breath
Gave up on your sanity to hide behind your shadow
While you tried to take the sun down 
Hearts don’t ever change to gold
Out there thinking that you in the world alone
No one ever told that you have to fight something 
Or you’ll never learn to balance 

i guess imma have to fight time to take this shit battle 
throw my pride right to the side 
need a princess in my castle 

If i open up my heart will you come fill it with some hope 
break me down then tie my down ill provide the rope
forever illl be empty less i let you have my soul
i see a future bright ahead it’s me you and we old 

you remember that night when we sat and watch the stars 
told me bout your heart and i told you about my scars
never felt this open when I’m talking to a girl 
stayed up late then went sleep you had me wanting more 

i have never felt like this 
thief you stole my heart thats what you did 
a year  i spent i never love my ex
more love for you a week can’t wait for next 

i can’t wait for next
i can’t wait for next
i can’t wait for next

Living in a clouded dream
Searching for the quiet that you need to breath
Gave up on your sanity to hide behind your shadow
While you tried to take the sun down 
Hearts don’t ever change to gold
Out there thinking that you in the world alone
No one ever told that you have to fight something 
Or you’ll never learn to balance

clouded dreams [prod. kado]

look ahead
see our fate
we look happy 
i don’t wanna fly away 

fantasy 
what i see
futures bright and 
she just waiting there for me 

she got  hearts for eyes 
the perfect size 
so i  diamond buy to idolize 

its like  everyday 
she fills my brain 
i can’t go explain 
she’s my escape 

she say she want me want me want me 
but she don’t know why 
I’m so caught getting lost inside her god damn eyes 
wonder if she’ll ever let me come & make her mine
cause I’ve been here waiting my life 

she she say want me want me want me 
but she don’t know why
i’m so caught up getting lost inside her godamn eyes
wonder if she’ll ever let me make her mine
cause I have been waiting all life 


want you want me 
do you even wannna stop me
i been acting awfully sorry
loving you a partly hobby
true

off like rocket cannot stop it 
not so honest cosmic cause it 
fucking with oh all my logic
can you tell the truth  

don’t wanna see me burn  
reading you seeing me learn 
what Do i need you here w me holding we makin it work 

she she say want me want me want me 
but she don’t know why
i’m so caught up getting lost inside her godamn eyes
wonder if she’ll ever let me make her mine
cause I have been waiting all life

rain drops to snow flakes
tears fall from my face 
destined to be great
i don’t know its been fate

i do not know know know know 
show me where is there to go 
taking me around all these turns
dead end finally turned to roads 

really wanna try but I can’t change 
staying up late but I can’t hang
keeping you around you a soul mate 
you can be my one and my only 

the only one to love me 
you trust me I’m not running
your smile keep me coming 
gimme something filled from nothing up to  loving

she she say want me want me want me 
but she don’t know why
s’m so caught up getting lost inside her godamn eyes
wonder if she’ll ever let me make her mine
cause I have been waiting all life

hearts for eyes [prod. kado]

Hold me down you stay around i haven’t been the same 
Haven’t gone insane 
Take away my pain 

Your prescene make me change 
To heights i cannot aim 
These feelings i explain 
Oh i feel em night and day 

If you’re week ill be strong 
Confess my love in songs 
Just know I’m holding on 
If you leave then I’m gone 

If i say it then i mean it 
I’m not feeling incomplete
Let me treat you like you know that you are loved 

If i pack up say I’m leaving 
Only taking what is needing
Grab your hand we running off into the sun 

I Waste time 
On my own 
In love (In love)

Don’t you leave then come right back to me 
Then just turn round right again 

You’re so special 
Why’d i make you settle 
Got me acting funny 
Angel with a devil 

Foot right to the pedal 
Take you to my level 
Do you need somebody 
I can be your rebel 

We been running round the damn place 
Tryna get our head straight 
I was cruising solo 
Swerving through my own lane 
Couldn’t love my family 
Never had a plan b 
Learning love from seeing you 
I know you not meaning not 

I Waste time 
On my own 
In love (In love)

I see when I stare in her eyes
Her souls keeps me moving 
When I have been losing 
Her energy giving me life 
I ain’t be living it right 

Filling my heart and soul 
Diamonds of carrots in gold 
Brining back all of my love now
When I’m with you I’m not coming down 

When I’m with you I’m not coming down
No where to go I’m not running out 
You hear me call and I’m calling now

i waste time

i waste time [ Prod. Kado ]

Oh, don't put me down
You wanted more but I wanted rounds
Please don't take me out
You sit in silence but I hear the sounds
When I'm coming back, would you feel different?
Not going back
Gone like I'm dying
I have been trying
I have been looking for something

You came right, right back to me
And turned right 'roud again
I swear I'll give my all to you
But will you take my hand?
Leaving him to gain everything
That's what you're to me 
Fill your heart, I'd take care of you
I'd fulfill your needs
Broken promises that turn to lies
Let me come complete. Am I begging
Cause my heart is heavy
Fallen on my knees

Oh, don't put me down
You wanted more but I wanted rounds
Please don't take me out
You sit in silence but I hear the sounds
When I'm coming back, would you feel different?
Not going back

Gone like I'm dying
I have been trying
I have been looking for something

Please don't put me down, I
Know you're the one and I found you
I know it's hard right now but
I know I can't do this without you
I'm starting to feel like this is my real life
Maybe my dreams could be realized
But you've been away and I have been faded
Don't know how long I can take this
But we're gonna make it, I'm gonna make it
This is a real thing, I couldn't fake it
Now you've been screaming
I should be leaving
What could I say? I couldn't believe it
Cause I couldn't feel love
I couldn't stay, no
Until the day that you showed up
I want you to stay down
I want you to stay 'round
Until we get our own place, love

Oh, don't put me down
You wanted more but I wanted rounds
Please don't take me out
You sit in silence but I hear the sounds
When I'm coming back, would you feel different?
Not going back

Gone like I'm dying
I have been trying
I have been looking for something

I wonder when 
You coming back 
You wonder when 
I sit and laugh

Are these times gon' change?
Say "your heart won't break"
But my heart can't take no lies
I'ma start going waste no time
Will my heart don't go?
Will my heart gon' love your vibe?
Don't stay, don't leave
Don't play with me
I'll take your all and puzzle piece
Love broken girls in 
Hopeless worlds
To find her place in open world

Oh, don't put me down
You wanted more but I wanted rounds
Please don't take me out
You sit in silence but I hear the sounds
When I'm coming back, would you feel different?
Not going back

Gone like I'm dying
I have been trying
I have been looking for something

Oh, don't put me down
You wanted more but I wanted rounds
Please don't take me out
You stood in silence but I hear the sounds
When I'm coming back, would you feel different?
Not going back

Gone like I'm dying
I have been trying
I have been looking for something

gone like i'm dying

gone like i'm dying ft. Lil Xtra [prod. kado]

I don’t fear for nobody else but myself
Facing repercussions for hands that I dealt
Moving far away counting down the days
Head across the coast headed to LA

I sit and Wonder how this life will change 
Could I see
Everything that I was supposed to be 
I never needed 
Anybody
Just to get an opinion 
From someone else
Just to tell me That I really need some help
Who need some help

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith, fate
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Wait and see my dream unfold
Right in front of my eyes
Never seemed to close to me 
Taking in all my advice 
On the path go right 
It is only how supposed to be 

So when I move on 
Will we will still be strong
Or you will come follow me
See us in the night time sky with the summer time vibes 
feel nice out wind and breeze 

Cause I been down falling out now I’m up so far
Felt so lonely now I’m moving
Finding me fresh start

Used to run slow watch me go
Won’t be missing my home
Call me if you need me but I can’t be here

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Let me escape
To some place I’ve never been
I could find a way to start it over once again
Chasing wind knowing that nobody ever wins 
Thinking things were better back then
It’s not tho

Cause things were never better i hope I can move on
Tired singing sorrow I don’t like sad songs
Beach days sunlight heal
When I can’t help but feel
what i feel

Hope a move will finally make it better 
Blue skies LA heard it nicer weather 
All is alright I said would never
Wrote goodbyes love notes and rose letters

Finding peace in my garden
Every piece is not new
Some things have to get started
For my dreams to come true

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static

Escape [prod.kado]

I been trying hard but I still fail 
Little bit depressed I don’t know if you can tell 
Tell me I’m on earth but I feel like I’m hell 
Cause my heart has been burned by the time in that cell 

My mistakes I can’t them back but I wish I could 
I Wasted too much of times on the on thing that were never good 
Selling drugs to get the money that I would just never need 
Had 10 racks inside my pocket but i knew that it would leave 

Was in college but got kicked out 
They take away my dreams 
I Had plans to be a teacher now they tell me can’t be 
I’m a 3 time felon but I’m still not free 
Now I’m just another loser that will never succeed 

Remember that day she ran inside of my room
Crying needing help but I didn’t what to do
Wish I woulda killed him but she told me not too 
Never said he sorry for what he has done to you 

But I guess I’ll take the blame 
Shoulda never left you alone on that day 
Add one more to the list my mistakes
All I do is fail how do I have faith 

In a world filled with suffering 
There will never come a time I love again
Anyone I love always losing them 
Think I’ll be better off when im dead 

Break me down
Falling out 

But I’m free now trying not to bleed out 
From the wounds that I still hate to talk bout 
Quit drugs and I’m really trying to move on 
Tell me how to cope with the scars and a
broke heart  

Some times I have hope it’ll be okay 
Other days I think that the feelings never gonna change 
Some days when I wake dont wanna be here 
Other days smile on my face I can see clear 

But I guess that’s life listen to the lies that I hear in mind
Like when I say I’m fine but I know that’s a lie 
Cause I really wanna die it will never be alright 

I feel like I could never find the peace 
Or see the light that everybody say they see me 
Because I’m stuck onto the past and how I used to be 
It don’t matter where I am I know I’m never free 

Break me down
Falling out 

Break me down
Falling out

Break Me Down

prod by. @kadowav
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@lilxtraatl

SEON
Depressions hitting 
It’s getting worst and I can’t seem to listen 
To the voice inside my that head tell me I can make a difference 
Cause I’m stuck inside the ones that tell me I should not be living 
Well It’s hard to see the beauty when I’m caught in tunnel vision 

do I like to feel this way 
It’s like I’m searching for the pain 
Cause I know if I wanna change 
Then it would have to start today 

But I’m lazy and I’d rather waste my time inside my bed 
I’m Contemplating over words that I just wish I never said 
And All the texts that I would send her that I wish you never read 
Cause I’d be lying if I told you that I wish I wasn’t dead 

All I gots a little hope 
That ones day I won’t be alone 
And that the pain will fade and go 
But how am I supposed to know 

Because there’s nothing in this life that is a promise 
I really hope if I would grab the rope then somebody would stop it 

Lil Xtra 
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse 

I left a message on your phone I really hope that you reply 
I know for you it’s not important 
But for me it’s do or die
I wonder why I’m in this place
Why you’d tell me to my face 
That I’m the cause of all your problems and I’m taking up your space
Or how you air that you breath 
Was not created for me 
I’ve got some problems now you watching while I ruin everything 
I’ve got a question 
How I never seem to learn my lesson 
How I never  grasp the point 
Only grab the Smith and Wesson
 
I keep a thousand yard stare and it’s 
Apparent that my family named perished i’m a fucking embarrassment
When a single good day is an event it’s like a miracle 
I’m  getting off cymbalta now and starting on the seroquil
But honestly that I need a little space to breath 
A way to clear my mind And learn to live with my deficiencies 
A shame I turn to substances to cope I know it’s rough to see 
A life devoid of purpose filled with pain is not enough for me 
 






SEON
But I’ll be stuck with my mistakes
I wear my heart up on my sleeve  
So everybody could just see 
Where I’ve been cut and left to bleed 

All the scars and open wounds 
That I’ve been trying hard to heal 
Like all the memories of us that I just wish someone would steal

My insecurities are bound to get the best me 
But maybe when I will be dead then I will finnaly rest in peace 
Cause lately i can’t seem to ever find a way fall asleep 
The Nightmares running through my head but I don’t think I even dream 

Afraid of who I was knowing that he never far behind
Creep lll into mind and tell me i will never be alright 
There no way I can find someone to ever fill me up inside 
I’m broken losing hope you don’t see my life a living lie 

The smiles on my face 
And All the words that I will say
To make them finnaly go away 
I even said I’m doing great 

I know you know it isn’t true 
You see what I been going through
It is never shocking news 
When I will play this song to you

Lil Xtra
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse

It Could Always Be Worse(ft. Lil Xtra)

Now that you gone I think about the times that I was wrong
Hate you had to end it and I have to write this song 
but maybe up in heaven you can hear it sing along 
Took your life at 22 you didn’t make it very long 

When I tell you that I love you I just hope you know I mean it 
I try my best to help you your depression seem to beat it 
Couldn’t find direction so I tried to be the reason 
That you’d stay I guess I failed cause you decided you’d be leaving 

Here I am lonely hurting more than ever staring at your pictures even though I know I’ll never 
See you once again but I hope your life is better 
I know you were in pain at least you left me with a letter

Said it’s not my fault that you decided you would leave 
The happiest of times you ever had were you and me 
And then you wrote goodbye took some pills to fall asleep 
Slowly close your eyes and now you finally rest in peace

You’ve been dead and gone 
Way too long it’s time to move on
Singing all our songs
I was wrong I thought that your strong 

Wish that i could call you
To tell you that I’m sorry 
Wasn’t there to save now you gone 
Dead and gone 

You’re dead and gone 
I cannot help but blame myself
I know it’s wrong it’s not my fault I didn’t save you why 
I tell myself I made you 
When I did everything I could 
How was I to know when every day you said you good 

I shoulda  read all of the signs the isolation and the silence 
Should’ve knew it wasn’t right when you talk about you dying 

Like it’s nothing thought the problem of your life that you’re living
You could die at any moment and it’s tragic that you didn’t

I thought this was just a phase
You would find a way to change 
The therapy and medicine will make the problems go away 

We will fall back in love
I could help you feel enough be the reason that you stay 
when you’re close to giving up 

But I failed so I apologize that you took your life 
I was supposed to make you happy but couldn’t do it right 
If I told you that I tried
My best then that’s a lie 
Because if I did want to end it and your choice of suicide￼

You’ve been dead and gone 
Way too long it’s time to move on
Singing all our songs
I was wrong I thought that your strong 

Wish that i could call you
To tell you that I’m sorry 
Wasn’t there to save now you gone 
Dead and gone

Dead & Gone (feat. Nep)

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