I dunno if u still read comments, but this track is one of my favourite songs these days. its not really a song I enjoy when happy, but when Im sad, its soothing. thanks for making it.

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fading in a still place

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix and master w/ drunkgirl

no excuses

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
photo by ac boulton
mix/master with @https://soundcloud.com/drunkgirlmusic
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Lyrics -

I left my life on pause
I sing it with a different sound
feel like I didn't write the plot.
this storys outside me now. 
this poltergeist is playin with stocks -
past loved one's invested in me
and my brains in a cage throwing rocks
annoyed by a lack of growth in me - though - 
your fears are from unverified sources
angry rhetoric without any clauses
they make you do their work - then leave you in the dirt
leave you in the room with bumps and unknown curses
but you find you were only in your head the whole time
recycling repetitions online
fixed to temporary pleasures to unwind
i'm sick of holding onto bad times

im sick
sick of holding on
to bad times

don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come
don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come
don't let bad times bring you down
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you away
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you 

the ghost says i've got nothing 
only you and that's enough
stop rewriting memories as toxic
cos they became tough
you play the victim then you don't grow or learn 
and make the same mistakes
the choices bury you
and willfully your grave you made
but
fuck the past and fuck the future fuck the new
just make some room for you - before you die 
wishing you were high more
wishing you applied more
wishing your head wasn't two opposing arguments
always blocking off potential doors
and doors away from being here and now and
(here and now)

talked down to
working unskilled labour
tryna build to a new
but the times aren't in your favour 
oh whatchu gonna do
when the arts are a fragrance
all the lands left are consumed
and you need crops and not the flavours
but
there's nothing purer than seeing a stranger nearer
and makin the fire light up in somebody's eyes cos
when you loose pre occupations
with the structures that position us
loose the claims your staking or the heights in which you stood
your free again

your fucking free again.

im sick
sick of holding on
to bad times

don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come

don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you away
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you away from the good ones but
is it right for me to ignore
what i fear could come
don't let bad times bring you 
don't let bad times bring you
don't let bad times bring you away
don't let bad times bring you

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static world

lyrics:


promise this week i’ll do

all the things last week

i meant to do

and in the stars

out my window

i see plans and places i could go


the energy lifts all around 

i’m a spirit when i live this sound 

it’s the only thing to take me outta here

the fog on my window now clears


i’ll try and quit the escape 

and never fear it

no longer try and take the wheel

yet never steer it

when all i learned about myself

set me free

but the weight of it 

ended me



an infestation of loud insects

takin up my space but never payin rent

just like my past self livin check to check

stayin on sofas and sleeping on debts

when your careless your free to a degree

you live romantic while others take your fees

you break outta the shell more stuck

and try and make up for all you took

see a life out my window

so many plans and places I could go


now i’m in the comfort of bare bones living

don’t need big richs just enough to be giving

to all i owe for others and myself

just to pay for daily gravity and health

the quiet strangers are the saviours of the earth 

those who need validation or a needy soul search

them who play their part for nothing in return

those content within their role who never always yearn

reprobate

Lyrics -

darker...
i was growing darker
but i'll reach on
for the love i take with me
for the light i take with me
for the love i take with me
when i fade out
darker...
i was growing darker
but i'll reach on
for the light i take with me
for the love i take with me
for the light i take with me
when i fade out

for the light i'll take with me
for the love i take with me
for the love i take with me
when i fade out

(darker than...)
oh when i fade out
will you still listen to
all that i sang for you
and all that i wrote too?
oh when i pass out
the time will still hand me to
the moments i took from all of you
and all of you

in a silent call
x10

for the love i take with me

things felt new

fading

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
mixed/mastered w/ chio
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u care too much (for validation)

no u never (gave into them)

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Cold Sweats

Feature Artist: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi




Rivilin:

losing conscious from the panic attacks
yeah they build and swell deep inside you when you find you relapse
on pills that never helped you surface
yours breaking down, it’s hurting 

me and you and all of your friends
I see your wrists start to bleed when you panic again
with the razor blades cutting at your voice till you can’t speak
see your legs dangling but you won’t fall im holding on

cut up, cut up you falter
your blank stare just stares cut straight through me
again and again 
and again and again

I miss your smile from back then
your breathing but you are not there
its kills me, it kills me
it kills me again. 

I’ve never been deserted like this, yeah
now I know what they meant when they said that ignorance was bliss
with the pills and the pain that it just built
all the drugs that you tried just to numb yourself

cus im still suicidal
so you tell me that losing a best friend would never work out
but I lost you and lost a lot of time
losing myself in the depths of my mind

the game called life didn't work out on my end
im still struggling to get where I needed to be
but losing you hit the nail in the coffin
I’d be lying man if I said I didn’t think about you often

and im sick of it, 
I still get high every day like I used too
cus I miss you so much
yeah where did you go

$lothboi:

They ask me whats my problem is and then they fucking cry
Cuz they cannot handle stories of my mother fucking life like
Yes I seen some suicide and yes I’ve fucking tried
But I’m never going back to that fucking place, right?

Gone for some days and I’m back in night
I been on a fucking binge and I know it aint right
I been crying for a week but I been out of sight
So it ain't nobody's problem, shit its just my fight

I been fighting since the start
The age of sixteen
This depression made me dark
Sloth born from a seed

Like I don’t wanna start
The PTSD
But I seen bodies on the floor
Since I was 18, Fuck

I ain’t playing this my life
Yeah

Sloth really seen some sights
Man
Its been fucking my head damn
I MIGHT FUCKING JUMP AND END IT

HOLDING ON (FT. $LOTHBOI)

Lyric AMV: youtu.be/y3Cx3QtPL0k

Rivilin https://soundcloud.com/rivilin
Nicolas Sales https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

Lyrics

Hate you
You made me
Into something crazy

Hazy
I’m shaking
Bitch, I fucking hate you

HATE YOU
YOU MADE ME
INTO SOMETHING CRAZY

HAZY
I’M SHAKING
BITCH, I FUCKING HATE YOU

Fuck all your lies I am done with the bullshit
Bitch you got no one so now you come crawling
Bitch I was good to you, why you been screwing dudes
Thought I found love but all I got were trust issues

Fuck

Hate you
You made me
Into something crazy

Hazy
I’m shaking
Bitch, I fucking hate you

HATE YOU
YOU MADE ME
INTO SOMETHING CRAZY

HAZY
I’M SHAKING
BITCH, I FUCKING HATE YOU

Watch the dust settle in,
Light the torch, watch me burn
Place your teeth on my neck
Pierce the skin I don’t learn

Its too much for me lately
I don’t feel that you really get me
I cant cope on the daily
Shaking in the hands yeah everything’s hazy

You just watch me crumble now i cant come back
Bones start to wither away, now i have nothing left

Deteriorate

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Deteriorate w/ Rivilin (Nicolas Sales)

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix/master w/ @ch!o <3
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Social -
IG - www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
Twitter - twitter.com/_SEPHA
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Lyrics:

i can never sleep
screamin at the ceiling and i'm tearing at the sheets
all of my anxieties are running up to me
their frantic energy is overwhelming me
and i cant calm it down
the space i breathe
is also the prison where my mind can never keep
positive in lines of thought
it ties up endless seams
keep asking why til numbness consumes 
the feeling free

where nothing ever feels like anything anymore (x2)

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the

i could never dream
dreaming is believing
then you're loosing everything
all of the naivety 
will lead you to worse things
find the strength to love the now
the comfort is the key
but i can't calm it 
down
the space i breathe 
is also now the prison 
where the learning hinders me
stay a little dumb and
stay a little meek
everything you learn and more
are keys but they're locks where 

nothing ever feels like anything anymore (x2)

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the
(x2)

bridge //

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the
(x2)

(backing vocals -
all this
human
bondage
bondage)

ALL OTHER PLATFORMS

human bondage

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

I hear the silence talking
yeah deep in my chest
This girl shes got me fucked up
sink in the pills with no regret

Falling down the hallway locked in an empty house
yeah gravities a blur, on the ceiling screaming now
the shadows dancing on the walls seem to taunt me
always beckoning me to just jump and just leave

I haven’t felt this way in a long time
get the strength to walk on the balcony and im staring straight down
legs are shaking as I climb over the fucking edge
if I let go will you please just stop this

all these thoughts they erase over time
like tell me what is my own fucking name I forgot
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

popping pills after pills get my mind straight
watch me relapse again till you just hate everything I am
cut my throat let me bleed, let me bleed out
there’s no amount of medicine that can help me now

yeah im watching the bedsheets consume me
watch the walls start to fade when my vision blacks out
I saw your face standing right there above me
I don’t blame you for cutting out to just leave

watch my soul walk down the hallway
he said goodbye, you’re lost in a state now
what does that make me
just another fuck up that’s a shame, wear a fake mask till my grave

watching my family just stare now
yeah they don’t know a thing about what it’s like to break down
fill my psychs pockets till they realize debts found
kick me out on the street cus I can’t afford to get help

with the shadows on the walls as we stare at my body
it’s just convulsing now everyone just thinks im a druggie
because im paranoid about words that I just hear
cus I know you divulge information that I trusted in you

but we both know that it doesn’t mean shit
I bet you don’t even remember the torment that you just put me through
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

Erase Me

prod https://soundcloud.com/crclxx
cover https://www.instagram.com/muskisdead

Lyrics

Hate my days
All the same
Never change
Lonely fate

Hate my days
All the same
Never change
Lonely fate

Hate my days
All the same
Never change
Lonely fate

Hate my days
All the same
Never change
Lonely fate

Lately
I hate me
My self love
Is fading like

Numbing from a drink
Lagers at my feet
Devil whispering sold my soul for hits

Big hits
Im fucked quick
To forget my pain bitch now

I’m a piece of shit
Gotta fucking dip
Where the fucking liqs
Fiending for a bit

What the fuck have I become
Miserable to fucking much
Slave to feel a little numb cuz everyday feel like a rut

I ain’t give a single fuck
Where the fuck I’m ending up
I ain’t got no fuckings plans that ima fall back on im done

Lately
I hate me
My self love
Is fading like

Numbing from a drink
Lagers at my feet
Devil whispering sold my soul for hits

Big hits
Im fucked quick
To forget my pain bitch now

I’m a piece of shit
Gotta fucking dip
Where the fucking liqs
Fiending for a bit

Spiraling

Spiraling (CRCL)

SEPHA = singer//multi-instrumentalist//producer ☠✮ ✯☠ 
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All songs written, recorded and produced by SEPHA. (Joey Aybak) unless otherwise stated. 
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contact - instagram - @ sepha.a 
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xx

reprobate

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