Name: Home by Sephine Llo
Duration: 6 min 4 s
Description: Taken from debut EP 'Flame' - out February 2014 on Tape Club Records

Taken from debut EP 'Flame' - out February 2014 on Tape Club Records

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Collaboration between Dogtanion and Sephine Llo

Uncomfortable

Inhale

Deciduous Love is an ode of gratitude to our son. Had I not been pregnant when my husband Robbie died, I truly believe I wouldn't be here.
The lyrics also talk about the pride I felt for the unfaltering love, care and support I gave to Robbie throughout his 2 years of gruelling cancer treatments, as well as in his last weeks. I never left his side, and I insisted on being one of the coffin pallbearers, with our little seed in my womb keeping me going. 
The recurring lyric "you saved me" is something Robbie said to me once in tears, because though his body was succumbing to the cancer, he felt he had found such true happiness, that our love and the promise of our child meant that we had in our own way won the war with the disease.

Deciduous Love

“Rest With Me” is a play on the saying “Rest In Peace”. The song is really about denial masquerading as hope, and was written almost as a lullaby to Robbie as I cared for him through chemotherapy, as well as in his last weeks. We never really talked about him dying, the way we got through was to keep planning for our future. Even when the ambulance arrived to take us to the hospice, we said to each other if we didn’t like it there we’d come home. Even when his heart stopped beating, my instinct was to try CPR and I couldn’t understand why the nurses were not rushing to take action. The duality of the knowing and denying of his terminal illness was a child-like coping mechanism, but it was also a beautiful comfort to us both.

Rest With Me

Avalanche

Sei Solo

Rome

From Sephine Llo's second album Diamond Fall, a concept album on her grief when losing her husband Robbie to cancer when she was pregnant with their first child. Part of the album explores Robbie's unfinished compositions (he was the artist Autumn Chorus), and this track she found on an old hard drive of his, and she included it just as she found it.
As part of a series of live sessions, she later performed and recorded a video of her version of this song at the location of their first date - Polesden Lacey (National Trust), in The Gold Room: https://youtu.be/HneHbWf8TRA?si=d5kkiua-xF2kU0I-

Face Your Heart Away (Autumn Chorus)

This single is about the feeling of paralysis and helplessness experienced in the early stages of my grief when shock and adrenaline dissolved. When the days of constant crying dissipated, I would sometimes sit in a state of numb despair, missing the initial raw pain because somehow that honoured the loss more truly. The words ‘how do you get up from an all time low?’ refer not only to being lost in depression, but to physically not being able to get up when in this state. This is taken from my forthcoming 2nd album "Diamond Fall", to be released 25th October, which would have been our 10th Wedding anniversary. This album feels in part a colaboration with my late husband Robbie (Autumn Chorus) as it includes samples of his unfinished works.

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