[lyrics]
while i sleep it's all washing over me
[spitting salt from] my teeth, oh its tasting so sweet
lying high so paralyzed, i'm wide awake

then you sweep me into the sun and you heal my burns
a routine of wrapping up my wounds so i can't fall apart
and i couldn't ever ask for anything more
that's why i'm afraid,

cause I feel it coming,
a cloudless day and i'm a wreck
and no one can save me
from being home in the mess

i don't know if anyone could ever break my heart again
i'm so capable of dealing all the damage all on my own
you can tell me all you need that you never wanna leave
what if i take you down with me??
you're gonna go down with me

and i feel it coming
and it's something that maybe isn't there
but i don't think i was built for this happiness
so how do i live with it?
how do i live with this?

it comes in waves demo

I MADE THIS IN HIGH SCHOOL. PLEASE GOD BE NICE I WAS SIXTEEN YEARS OLD

i know its not the end of the world if i were never to be your girl
but i would like you to be my girl in this ideal universe
and i know its not the end of the world
if nothing changes in this town
but it's a shame that nothing ever changes here
no nothing nothing ever changes here

and all we wanted could be gone in an instant
and everything could change today

so i know its not the end of the world 
if i dont grow up to be what i thought i'd be
life goes on and on and on, and life goes on and on and on

and i used to be scared of the end of the world
id crawl up under blankets crying cause i thought i didn't have enough time
mmmm

it's not the end of the world (demo)

song i wrote and recorded today on my phone's audio recorder ... first take but thought was worth sharing
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lyrics:

i really hope more than anything
that you will stay with me
sometimes you're the only thing i've got
so i'm still holding on

we hold on to each other
as we're crashing down at full speed toward the earth
up in flames, through the dark of the night sky
we just won’t acknowledge that we’re burned

and we're growing older and we're changing
but i know deep inside you're the same old person i used to know so long ago

we hold on to each other
as we're crashing down at full speed toward the earth
like the meteor that might have killed off the dinosaurs
you and i, we will change the world

and we've grown older and we've changed
but i desperately want to believe
you're the same old person
i thought i knew so long ago

you and me, you and i, me and you flying through space together

(and you grew older and you changed
i can’t bear the thought that you’re not
the same old person i got to know so long ago)

so please hold on to me
before i fall off the ledge i'm standing on
and become a meteor burning in the night sky
before i create another crater in the center of my own world.

meteors (demo)

found this on my computer from years back. she deserves her moment

honeybee_steam powered giraffe _2018

visions of morning outside your window
watching life pass all around us, the dark of the night & the falling of snow
time doesn't pass when i'm under your covers, laughing till morning blooms into another
i want to hold onto these moments so close.

if you hear me singing in these few lonely weeks
if you hear my voice across all of these miles it's because i just can't fall asleep
cause winter is falling, and my feet are starting to sink a little too deep
but i'll be in your arms again soon, and i'll keep that so close to me.

we'll stay up till i see the sun again and again, that's just what we do
but i don't want it to be five in the morning with anyone else but you
i'll wait patiently cause i can't wait till the next time i see your smile again
you could be my lover, you could be my shelter, you could be my best friend.

visions of morning (demo)

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my friends are lonely miss each other to death
and our lives are a wreck to the eyes of outsiders
and i'm drowning in a sea of regret
cause i still feel i haven't started living yet
we drive for hours to forget we exist
i haven't felt like this since i was home last summer
stuck in this reverse metamorphasis
i thought i left it behind but it's with me all the time

i don't wanna be the person that i used to be anymore
i'm so tired of being afraid

my friends all live a couple hours away
can't be put in our place without feeling guilty
could we wait until the late nights start hitting
and we start forgetting why we used to feel this way?
i don't wanna be the person that i used to be anymore
i thought i left her behind years ago
i don't wanna be the person that i used to be anymore
i wanna move on, i'm gonna move right on

my friends are lonely (dmeo)

jeremy zucker - hell or flying

we drove out to the palisades
that sunday when our whole world fell out of place
all those stars that we used to chase
seemed smaller than they were
where the world was carving mountains out of plains in our midwest captive brains, well
some things don't ever change,
we're falling out of place.

floating to the middle of nowhere
on a raft in an ocean of boulders
we’re singing along to all the songs we wrote,
singing la da da da we’re never alone
we’re never alone

looking to the reflections of a dried up lake,
i end up staring right back at all of my mistakes
cause all the problems that kept me awake
were smaller than i thought they were

the boys were gonna come along for the ride,
but we were tired of waiting, said we’ll catch them on the other side
and we were driving away, and he was slipping away, 
right into the tide

floating to the middle of nowhere
on a raft with my head on your shoulder
singing to all the songs we wrote
singing la da da da we’re never alone, 
we’re never alone.

these days i only seem to write
when it feels there’s just no end in sight
when the batteries die in the ceiling lights
i've strung myself along,
but i always reach out just to find
you've been holding me steady this whole time
so let’s forget the past, [i miss you so bad
please keep me on the line]

palisades (OG ver)

24 /  purely emotional being 💓 :-)
self-produced singer songwriter<3
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(i share lots of demos here! if u want more fleshed out stuff pls do check out my bandcamp - still working on putting stuff up tho)

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