Seraph:
Noun
Plural Form: Seraphim
1. These are the highest order in the ninefold celestial hierarchy of angels, the ones closest to God, in charge of guarding His holy throne. They help to rule over heaven and maintain order. They often are depicted as beings of pure and radiant light or fire. 
2.The uneasy darkness that settles over your bedroom at 3AM, when even the crickets fall silent and the streetlights go dim. Your memory is hazy and your eyes are bleary, but you're too exhausted to cry. You are empty and unfeeling, and your blankets feel uncomfortable against your skin. Something is wrong, but you can't quantify it. 
3. Your childhood best friend, with a midnight smile and twinkling eyes. All of your pictures together are faded and worn, but they still remind you of a happier time. You blink away the dust from your eyes, and suddenly, you can't remember if they ever existed at all.
4. A closed rosebud, a radiant sunset eclipsed by storm clouds. A book of sonnets and poetry that smells like the earth and rain, with yellowed pages and words obscured by water damage. You are shivering and your fingertips are cold. There are bronze and silver tears on your cheeks, but you haven't been crying. You can vaguely recall your mother breaking down into a sobbing fit when she drove you to the psych ward. There is an ache in the bottom of your lungs. You get the feeling you are going to die alone. 
5. I miss being alive. I really want to go home. I can't go on like this anymore. It hurts so much. Please forgive me. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to do this.

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