wipe the tears for so long my back starts to hurt

Emo Rap 20

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Mqx - Next to Me (Sickkunt Sounds Release)

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Mqx - Next to Me

I wrote this song about my addiction to drugs which led to deep depression and suicidal thoughts. Creating my art helped me to get thru it. I'm now 7 months sober.

LYRICS

Verse 1

On the roof getting high
I got diesel in my veins
Thinkin’ bout suicide
There’s no Jesus in LA

But i still see him sometimes
Sittin’ on the Walk of Fame
Next to Jekkyl and Hyde
The voices saying…

BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

Hook

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
So tired of living 
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

Verse 2

My phone’s bout to die
I only got 1 call
I almost slipped off the side
‘Til an angel broke my fall

Then we drove through the night
And we talked about it all
I thank God I survived
The voices saying…
BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

Hook 2

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
So tired of living 
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

Guitar Solo

Hook 3

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
But wait just kidding
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

SINS!

SINS

sample from 
Grivo all rights go them
this not my beat

(Lyrics)

Instead 
Of supporting me you chose to take a side 
And I felt 
Like my words don’t mean a thing 
Nor what I do 


What I feel (I feel) don’t matter don’t matter to you ( Nobody listens) 
What I feel (I feel) don’t matter don’t matter to you ( Nobody listens) 
What I feel (I feel) don’t matter don’t matter to you ( Nobody listens) 
What I feel (I feel) don’t matter don’t matter to you to you to you ( Nobody listens)

sample from 
Grivo all rights go them
this not my beat

NO ONE LISTENS

Original Creator: https://soundcloud.com/for-twunnyfuckwit

A Boy Named Hexd

Godspeed

Tongue

ｍｅｎｔａｌｉｔｙ　ｓｈｒｏｕｄｅｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｏｒｌｄ　ｉ　ｃｒｅａｔｅｄ

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3LAOMT9HChE
i hope you're able to find any sort of comfort, relation, enjoyment, or anything you may need within this

thank you so much for listening
working on a lot
thank you for being here <3 it means the world to me, seriously
prod. @blvnkface x @slayingibis x @jetpackjuulz
cover art done by @kkarm.en on ig

pour salt on my tongue
(i'll shrivel up, it won't take very long)
an idle body encapsulated
by the dirt that held on to his lungs
i made a promise; a promise to make it
i'm crossing my fingers in hopes i don't break it
mentality shrouded the world i created
but it wasn't enough; i can tell that you faking
greed; shatter my eyelids
as i befriend this comforting silence
don't act like you're psychic
you're nothing but a sidekick

and if wrath is allowed
then i'll be speaking out loud
cause it's not easy to change
the seasons feel all the same
i wish i wasn't so honest
and kept every promise
then maybe i'll leave this grave one day

when you're filled with such heavy doubt
(come around)
rely on me, we can talk it out
decisions built on guilt, or trust?
i'm not resistant to lust
but there has to be another way out

you don't really want me around, i can tell
a bland, dry outer shell; paving paths to myself
and you don't know me that well, so why you want validation?
blow a kiss, leave me sick, then erase it

the mist rolled in right after the rain
so this poor mortal soul cannot use their wings
what a shame, that you don't look at me the same way
love isn't a lion to tame

so i patch up the past with a somber descend
and dispel how i felt; ending all that i am
and the future would laugh, said i'd, "do it again"
but i knew that, yet i still cling onto the frame
looking through pages that i should've tore out
but i'm stuck on the words that i had once put down
when the options falter, who am i to call on?
cause the wounds dig deep,
but you don't know it hurts me, right?

sorry that i don't love like they do
that i don't think like they do
that i just wanna save you
but i'll break too

and if wrath is allowed
then i'll be speaking out loud
cause it's not easy to change
the seasons feel all the same
i wish i wasn't so honest
and kept every promise
then maybe i'll leave this grave one day

consolate this impurity i preserved
was it worth all the weight that made me fall through the earth?
mannerism; reserved
near gone, but i'm hoping
her arms are open
but i'm so cold
why am i so cold
(break the mold)
i'm so cold

TAMING GRAVES [prod. blvnkface]

CAROLINE

prod.jxzzytrip
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IG: @44seraphim

we’re standing here like here we go again unbalanced 
this body is a prison u can have it i don’t want it
feather dusting my remains cuz i been gone for so long 
this mural of agony has always felt so wrong 

were still here, oh no 
were still here, oh no 
were still here, oh no 
were still here, oh no 

wiped the tears for so long the bags start to hurt 
lacerations on my body it’s over 
don’t worry bout me baby but i cannot promise clousure 
appraisal in a locket so come here and hold me closer 

ur still here for so long 
my remains are so gone

goodbye, and so long

Lyrics:

Chosen me
You're all I see
I wonder, I wonder

Your enemies,
I'll put to sleep
Like thunder 
(They'll crash and burn right at our feet)

But you're not God
No you're not God

So tell me again 
Why I commit your sins
Why I lost myself 
Trying to please you

If you're not god
No you're not god

And I never told a lie
But the truth leaves you 
unsatisfied 
And with these eyes
I'm rendered blind
While you guide my hand 
I'm so alive

And it obscures what's wrong and right
And I can't face what's after light

Cuz you're not god
(you're not god x2)
No you're not god
(you're not god x2)

So tell me again
Why I commit your sins
Why I lost myself 
trying to please you?

If you're not god
No you're not god

If you're not god

you're not god

WHAT’S YOUR NAME? (prod. anticon)

gone too far

Las nenúfares me recuerdan a ti (p. Youji2k)

everything written, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by me

doesn't matter now

ver. 1
you know what i cannot feel
something ain’t right i will not heal
night time skies i can’t be still
it’s all cause of him i will never know

ver. 2
the voices in my head won’t go
i’m losing my mind can we take this slow
i wanna be here but i gotta go 
it’s all cause of him i will never know

SAD ENDING

first time doing vocals sorry its kinda bad lmao

garbage ass lyrics:
when I look into your face, things never seem the same
when you feel the way i've felt, it never goes away
take what you want from me
take what you want from me

take what you want from me
take what you want from me
it's like you never seem to change
it's like you never seem to change

when I look into your face, things never seem the same

change

༒︎  #9choirs
https://www.instagram.com/44seraphim/
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goodbye, and so long

seraphim 𓆩(@44seraphim)𓆪

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