Name: Self Doubt by JSTR
Duration: 3 min 55 s
Description: Here's a teaser single for the new album I am working on, hope you enjoy!

Evil Creepin // prod. by ITHU-JC

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PLAGUE SEEKER

FuckLuv

FuckLuv Ft. Maru

I made another track cus I like doing that instead of homework :)

Bolsha Chem Tee

Here's a teaser single for the new album I am working on, hope you enjoy!

Self Doubt

Realm Of Mind - Veiled

These are all Voice Memos of piano ideas that I've found recorded on my iPhone between June 2021 and December 2023.

DISCLAIMER! I'm no pianist! I'm self taught and play by ear and these are just scrappy bits and bobs. But, I do love my piano and enjoy trying to play it immensely.

I've decided to upload them all here so that I've got all my rough sketches and happenings in one place. These are the very first starting points of all songs, just captured on my phone when 'the happening' took place. So they are all very much raw ideas. Some have developed into fuller songs, others have just been left by the wayside. My hope is that putting them here will make me listen to them more and see which ones stand out. It'll also be interesting to see which ones get the most plays / likes.

So no, production. Just raw recordings captured on my phone.

2022 - 11 - 18 - LLM Piano - Pre The Quiet 2

Written By Nexxus & SadDeath
Beat By The Ushanka Boy
Engineered By Nexxus & SadDeath
Art By Nexxus

Nexxus x SadDeath - ENDLESS III (Prod. The Ushanka Boy)

The counter attack before the full on offense.

New acoustic album otw
Lets work.

COUNTER STRIKE

I got the Mac in my lap, might just turn you to ash 
I got the cheese for the rats, stomping and making them splat
I told you I’m a demon, and you don’t believe it 
So I’m ending all the lives before the next season
And now they’re screaming "oh no,” I used to be emotional 
But now I"m feeling no remorse, might put them in the morgue
Soul is torn, ghost bored, roaming round still ignored
And I wonder if they know they’re dead and in a different form
When I’m alone, my thoughts are horrid, and my mind is all distorted, and my mind is unreported, and my wires are cut and short
Bed rotting like I’m torpid, never blooming like an orchid 
I gave my last dollar to demons I can’t afford it 
Make you fucking cut in half 
And I’m drowning in a bath of your blood I put inside a fucking bag 
And they say that I’m bad, but the demons telling me I’m good 
Pushing bodies into bodies of the water, find them when you hook  
Feeling like I’m Jason when I’m creeping through the fucking camp 
Then I return to the lake where I keep the bodies damp 
Definition darkness so I’m breaking all the fucking lamps
Cramming all the bodies in a circle then I fucking chant 
Cooking tea, honey mixed with LSD 
Now I freak 
Running, fleeing, let me free 
Inside my mind I see it’s a cage, I lost the key 
Looking to the sky to find it and I fucking plead 


Driving down the road and I’m looking for a kill
Spilling guts just to get a fucking thrill
Gotta take a pill just so I can fucking chill
I’m not fucking with the pain like I’m working on a mill
Thoughts going in circles like a tire
And I’m wired, in the AM, cooking my brain like a fryer
Everybody looking for me like I’m Will Byer
I’m a monster running when I fucking see fire 
Tears falling on remains 
Death will keep on crawling through my brain
Looking at the sky my tears are blending with the rain
Every day my life is feeling more mundane 
I might disappear like I’m David Blaine, for this earth I wasn’t made 
Reaper pick me out like I'm a crop 
I'm a blip, I'm a bot, and I’m just a fucking prop 
It’s a lot when it’s nonstop thoughts around the clock 
And I slowly boil from the pressure like a crockpot
Wishing all this shit would just fucking stop 
Tryna clean my life, I got a fucking saturated mop 
I try to see the light but I just wanna drop 
I try to fucking fight but I’m in too much shock
Got the glock pressed to my eye and it goes pop 
The casings hit the floor and they're bagged up by the cops 
Unrecognized, get a DNA swab 
I’m decaying where they’re tracing, where I’m laying out, with chalk

Self Doubt

JSTR

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