("breath pretty much  by itself, you don't have voluntary control over these things, so we say it happens spontaneously 
so whe you sleep or when you try to go to sleep you interfere with this spontaneous process of going to sleep.
Try to breath, real hard, you find you'll get balled up in the breathing. You gotta let go and let it happen")

Wake up and you see the wrong man
in your bed hoping you don't know what
he just said, the words "I love you" 
won't even stay in your fucking head
I felt alone but I know you ain't care
hurt another man just a fucking affair
won't help your case that your permiscuous 
I can't lie, I wish this was us
all about you throwing me under the bus 
and I can't help but cuss 
fuck me and this earth 
I'm afraid of death but I wanna die
I'm afraid of pain but I wanna cry
why did you lie
you cheated on me and I gave you a chance
I thought it was love at first glance
it was just me in your trance

I've been waiting for the time to come
but I don't know when it's gonna end 
everytime you said you love me I knew
it was all pretend 
I couldn't comprehend what was to happen next 
it all stopped random your lies right at my neck
suspended 
I knew the the time I told you the truth id be apprehended 

I didn't mean to hurt you 
you know im still young 
I didn't mean to curse you 
I never should of swung
you became the air I breathed I depended on
I know it was unhealthy but what else
was I to do 
I'm not done with this, but you know im pissed
you were even reluctant when we kissed
everytime I asked if you were ok 
I never got a reply
you just left me alone
might as well left me to die
but I couldn't  confront these feelings 
I would of just got fucked up and got high
I'm still waiting for an answer 
where did I go wrong 
what did I do wrong 
what about me do you hate the most

how I spend all my money on you?
or is it when i buy you food 
I don't know
I'm really lost
I don't have a clue
I don't know what to do
I admit it, I really hate you 
I expected too much that was the issue 
I needed closure but wasn't even offered a tissue 
how many times have u left me
I made a mistake yes im sure you could agree
I gave you lost and I only expected reciprocation 
and when you left me
I was  full of anticipation 
should of shot me right there instead of leaving me
full of that devastation 
my friends told me you weren't worth it 
but I didn't listen
such a pisstake 
I wish I could go back and
stop my myself from ever even meeting you 
it was all a mistake

I know we took alot of drugs but you became mine
and everytime you left
I would need time
you've been in my head
have I been in yours
nah, yeah ofcourse 


I've made alot of bad choices in my life 
and you're one of them
I'll know you'll dance on 
my grave when im dead
and I bet you won't even hear this 
but I said what needed to be said





Fell for you

I've been  on so much lately 
I know imma die slowly 
I've been  feeling lonely 
thought I'd be all holy
but holy shit im not even there
do you even care
true love truly is rare
if I OD will you be there
where did my youth go
I feel ten times older than I am now
tell me how I can live without any issues 
cause lately I've been thinking about how,
how much I miss you the way I used to kiss you
fuck life its been so hard
everyday I wake up I scream why and look up to God
I just wanna dissappear, 
I know there's reprocutions yes god I fear
but I'd rather not be here
last time I oDD it became clear
that I ain't meant to be here
struggling so much
but I can't even beat it just leave it 
why you makin it harder fam
these fake fucks hate one second
and the next day act like they 
know who I am
lifes a fucking scam
but wait, why am I so fucking easy to
manipulate 
I've been paranoid wondering if my plugs gets em laced 
so scared to be alone man fucking pisstake 
I hope doctors might be able
to save me if worst comes to worst 
I feel like my hearts about to burst
am I cursed
these pills ain't doin me a favour
I know they're ripping me apart 
but I don't really care
I'm looking for someone who can
heal the scars in my heart
takin it too far
but what do I do 
its the only way I cope
when I have nobody 
I look at the drugs for hope
they the only thing keeping me alive but 
they gon be the reason I die.


(and im drowning cause the water is so deep
but you caught when I'm falling slowly,do you remember when you told me im never diying lonely)



Dying Slowly (prod.milanmadeit)

Rest in piss freestyle (prod.itsjouska)

a legend just died
but I keep living my life 
but I cant even survive it
I sat and cried to myself 
I thought the game ended quickly 
but I won't buy it
I don't bypass what I can't say
I say whats on my mind
if I get offd its too bad
for now imma stay on my grind
stay on my feet
talk my shit brudda 
stay on the beat
no problem I stay on my feet like khabib 


im on my feet im on my grind stab him on the beat i got murder on my mind
keep ur boo away i got her from behind
dont get on my nerves i cba for fuckery
dont fuck with me
u like i rap in caps
when i rap in traps

he wanna be funny better watch ur back
i keep my strap
bang out my wap
 probably the reason for anothe relapse
take out ur knee caps
wanna wife a bitch whos good for me  (jennie)
they were actin blind when i needed help they coudt see me
now its g17 in the party tipsie
man came back with  coke and a pepsi
gold on my wrist shine so bright warnin for epelipsey
man doged that like shwifty shwifty
man i want about 50 50 
100

keep my sticks in the back
fuck that plan i aint payin for coverage
wake up to reality i aint ever change my mentality
stay the same by dawgs are family
hamza ikz and yung yui
i take action this stories like a movie
when i fuck i fuck her raw i feel groovie
she aint just some groupie
dont get me vexxed ill start wreckless movin
wreckless drivin wreckless shootin
gcheck my man rush him no puttin
go in the pockets and start lootin
cash out on hoe she cuban
packed bud in my coat and the feds didnt see me movin
that lifestyle really dont suit him
why you tryna be gang so hard dont beg it
fuck around with me ill l put a shiv in your head and press it
 I keep living my life 
but I cant even survive it
I sat and cried to myself 
I thought the game ended quickly 
but I won't buy it
I don't bypass what I can't say
I say whats on my mind
if I get offd its too bad
for now imma stay on my grind
stay on my feet
talk my shit brudda 
stay on the beat
no problem I stay on my feet like khabib 

Talk your shit your talk is cheap
why you so offended it aint that deep
freedom of speech
Got free Wi-Fi, they ain't got 4G
I ain't ungrateful 
Big ups too central cee
On two fours like Xmas eve

Seen shit I never asked to see
Lost my pride when I came home with no gcscs
Started takin pills I thought it’d be easier for me
Then it clicked I went o.t at 14 and my life flipped


I thought about what to say talk about how my world turned greys but shits changed no longer the case
I take the pain and act okay
No pain no gain so I keep on my lane

I know imma make it them man who said otherwise can keep hatin
U know I don’t rate em


a legend just died
but I keep living my life 
but I cant even survive it
I sat and cried to myself 
I thought the game ended quickly 
but I won't buy it
I don't bypass what I can't say
I say whats on my mind
if I get offd its too bad
for now imma stay on my grind
stay on my feet
talk my shit brudda 
stay on the beat
no problem I stay on my feet like khabib 




No pain- freestyle

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
It takes me all the way
And I want you to stay
I want you to stay

i want you to stay
cant live without you and it aint ok
close my eyes and i still see your face
cant think of a better place 
codependancy fucked with 
my head and it ain't ok
took xans i still see your face 
I'm starting too think the time we spent was a waste
tried to close our case 
it took me days
rest in peace I pray you in a better place
my decisions were haste 
wish I could get you outta my head erased 

when we fucked we fucked it raw
showed yourself to the door
now im just tryna get numb to the core
just cant get you outta my head
it was fucked the way you fucked and left
cant forget the shit that you said 

(I want you to stay)

Cathy got raped at 9
could see the pain in her eyes
friends saw no soul  in sight
her souls destroyed it just aint right 
don't see a child no more
just a kid who's dead inside
at 14 she took her life
left mum devastated
left with strife
paint the colours in black and white
call it what you like
it ain't alright 
turn on the news 
hear the same lies
everyone actin blind
nuttin new for me
just gotta move on as time goes by

dont wanna involve myself in Politics 
more lies concealed just shows 
we were never apart of it

gave my man 5 years for possession
but close a rapers case get no concessions 
they try to speak out and still get no mention 
gotta lay down the tension

(I want you to stay)


I want you to stay
cant live without you and it aint ok
close my eyes and i still see your face
cant think of a better place 
codependancy fucked with my head and it ain't ok
took xans i still see your face 
I'm starting too think the time we spent was a waste
tried to close our case 
it took me days
rest in peace I pray you in a better place
my decisions were haste 
wish I could get you outta my heard erased 

when we fucked we fucked it raw
showed yourself to the door
now im just tryna get numb to the core
just cant get you outta my head
it was fucked the way you fucked and left
cant forget the shit that you said 

(I want you to stay)


this aint normal you got me movin formal 
you got me writing poems a bout you 
we created this trust u know  i could never doubt you
there's just somethin about you
other bitches I fucked got left and used
its a problem i have but im used to it 
and ive become used to you
not used to you bein all scatty 
u know ill still clap that batty
u got me in my feels when I'm off of dat cali
left me feelin less manly 
baby don't eye it 
point at what u like and ill buy it
somethings off
I've become obsessed 
can't deny it


so how do we do it 
I can't move on I still can't believe it
still feel your presence even though your leavin

(I want you to stay)

I want you to stay
cant live without you and it aint ok
close my eyes and i still see your face
cant think of a better place 
codependancy fucked with my head and it ain't ok
took xans i still see your face 
I'm starting too think the time we spent was a waste
tried to close our case 
it took me days
rest in peace I pray you in a better place
my decisions were haste 
wish I could get you outta my heard erased 
I want you to stay

(I want you to stay)


























Stay

speed on the M-way
won't get pass me,  fuck pave your own way
didn't understand me
so I had to reloud it lost  a case
I don't like your taste
gyal thinks she's special 
gotta humble her before
she settles
it ain't okay
media wanna spue lies and give out names
cant sit down and watch with the shit they say
all these rappers
forget eye to eye we don't see face to face
It dont make sense but I don't got time for fakes no time to waste
got no pride I do it all for  mumzy don't wanna live a lie
if speak on my bredren
I end my life 
(end my life)


I don't need a bitch to tell me what to do
I just need a bitch to know to cook me food
she think she's new
how many man have seen your nudes
still young thats why I'm rude
Thats  my excuse
mdma at the party
feds didnt know what to do
slept in the trap for too long now
need to do find something new to do
the opps didn't have a clue
have a death wish ill make it come true
its Ceres who the fuck are you
wanna hate bruv find something new to do
when im free I find tunes to bang in
otherwise I don't got time for hangin 
if he wanna talk shit ill shank him
I'm vetren higher my ranking 
need to find the donny and thank him
used to hustle for  a bag of bud to be sold
now im grindin for my brudda to live till old
retire mumzy my biggest goal



speed on the M-way
won't get pass me,  fuck pave your own way
didn't understand me
so I had to reloud it lost  a case
I don't like your taste
gyal thinks she's special 
gotta humble her before
she settles
it ain't okay
media wanna spue lies and give out names
cant sit down and watch with the shit they say
all these rappers
forget eye to eye we don't see face to face
It dont make sense but I don't got time for fakes no time to waste
got no pride I do it all for  mumzy don't wanna live a lie
if speak on my bredren
I end my life 
(end my life)


(she think she's new
how many man have seen your nudes
still young thats why I'm rude
Thats  my excuse)


Come a long way

survival guilt when i  visit my bruddas graves 
17 talkin bout back in my day
think im soft till i hit a lick cut u a high fade 
trust the process even its a day late
i know imma blow but i gotta wait
pateince the key to the gate

livng with this guilt bein held by this weight
but wait
its never too late
finnish what my bruddas started
wont waste their pain
cant go a day without hearing lies on my bredrens name
went from sofa surfint to tryna make a name
tried to ride along the waves 
rest in peace now i gotta pave a way
got a dream to chase
stay lowkeyy wont catch me a case
cant tell from the real and fake
man caught himself 80 days
bailed out caught again
trapped in a maze
gotta grow out of the trap phase
gyal got a trap boy taste
sees whats it like and shes on her way
more time i dont even got  no feelin, ive just been feelin some typa way 
was servin junkies now im servin time again
time and time again
devil draggin me astray
feel like im bein scatterd on a ashtray
i can tell right from wrong but im takin the wrong turn going the wrong way
almost my sanity lost in my ways
bitch want me to choke her but I aint tryna catch me case
talk your shit behind close doors fam say it to my face
think i lie about the pain i felt
grew up in Leicester city you dont know the shit i dealt
only had me only had myself 
if u dont come from a rich family then u gotta start one urself


survival guilt when i  visit my bruddas graves 
17 talkin bout back in my day
think im soft till i hit a lick cut u a high fade 
trust the process even its a day late
i know imma blow but i gotta wait
pateince the key to the gate

thats the type of shit i learnt while i grew
kicked from home young with no idea what to do
my pops gave me advice but i never followed it  through
mandem loosin lives u  never know it could be you
got rich and the chicks wanna come through
asked myself what i wanted to do
tired of countin killys turnin one into 2
hard life just another lesson for u
my time is due
baby stop beggin it i aint gonna leak your nudes 
she always worried cause of the shit I do
The end is near and no one has a clue
rappers wanna make sounds on a beat theres nothin new
i got shit to say got a message for the youth

survival guilt when i  visit my bruddas graves 
17 talkin bout back in my day
think im soft till i hit a lick cut u a high fade 
trust the process even its a day late
i know imma blow but i gotta wait
pateince the key to the gate


Survival Guilt

LEICESTER FREESTYLE FT.CERES

shake dat body like a naughty vixen
your face look bright in the light 
Bad B got me stuck in my mind
Big back slim waste with a pretty face
i know dat pussy tight 
send a location you alr know ill pay for dat flight 
you alr know my intention 
I'm just tryna make you mine

baby share your darkests secrets
I wanna know who you are
come chill in my cullilan 
we can stare at the stars
all dis money I got it ain't mine its ours 
dw about nuttin ill pay for those spas

whats mine is yours whats yours is mine
there aint no complications 
I'm grown im done with hoes 
I don't need no validation 

you know im crazy for you 
you crazy for me
skip this talking stage and get on ur knees
I wanna stare into eyes so its missionary 
got ber man wishing there me
dont worry bout no one its just you and me

spend the night i aint see you in the day
ill hold you close when it stars  to rain
u got me you don't need that pain 
its you and me now
I don't wanna hear no back in the day

she think im with my second bae
you know we way pass second base 
I ain't here to fuck and jeet baby im here to stay
baby let's fuck off a perc
I got what you need oxy codone MDMA

shake dat body like a naughty vixen
your face look bright in the light 
Bad B got me stuck in my mind
Big back slim waste with a pretty face
i know dat pussy tight 
send a location you alr know ill pay for dat flight 
you alr know my intention 
I'm just tryna make you mine

im tryna make you mine
she got ber Qs
but I got no pateince
I ain't tryna wait in line
baby take your Time give me a signal give me a sign
can't say I love you to I just can't dump my pride 
ik its a bumpy road
its about the location it aint about the ride 
love and hate are similar things you can hate or love, you can't pick no sides
I feel like hannah with this double life
ask why I chose you I got 13 reasons why
she like a trap boy she down to ride like Bony  Clyde


Come a long way from giving out testers
019  I was being tested
I curve ber Bs jeet and skeet  like my ex did
said she wanna fuck told her im in the stu just sext it
I ain't like these other rappers im tryna make my leave like brexit

(im tryna make my leave like brexit)

reminiscing looking back at my life and it that bad 
remember I was window shopping now its retail therapy when I want something I don't have
compare me to CC I got this Doubke D like D.D no Dexters lab

Crazy 4 You

aryana 

(Tell me if its to hard, are we going to far, tell me if its to hard, are we going to far)

Baby ill get what you need, ill stop eyeing other bitches you just have to say please, its just you and me
buy you what you like, ill pay on 3s
take you to dubai whatever you need before you leave ill get what you need
i made you cum first but you still aint easy to please
easy to tease
easy to read
you want the whip its easy to lease
your love is the only realest feeling to me
ill make it count
my house is our house
you know what im about
only gyal that dont wanna fuck me for the clout
its just a different feeling it just is somehow
this ones just right, we dont need to fight
we know each others secrets and we know each others lies
missionary so i stare deep into your eyes

we could live like jack n sally
got me feelin less manly
dont worry bout the shit i do
the shit i do, i do for you
never beleived in love till this one came along
only reason im writing this song
we dont even need to be all long
quick time lets fuck and make con

(Tell me if its to hard, are we going to far, tell me if its to hard, are we going to far)

Baby ill get what you need, ill stop eyeing other bitches you just have to say please, its just you and me
buy you what you like, ill pay on 3s
take you to dubai whatever you need before you leave ill get what you need
i made you cum first but you still aint easy to please
easy to tease
easy to read
you want the whip its easy to lease
your love is the only realest feeling to me
ill make it count
my house is our house
you know what im about
only gyal that dont wanna fuck me for the clout
its just a different feeling it just is somehow
this ones just right, we dont need to fight
we know each others secrets and we know each others lies
missionary so i stare deep into your eyes

Anything for you

I got a big ambition to suceed and soon leave behind a legacy, trust the process. Chasin my dream. I thank God for giving me this chance inshallah i see it through

Ceres

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