Just like she said, it's my last try
This time I swear, that I won't die
I've done this stage, it's not that hard
Boss fight's a joke when the jump to get there's the hardest part

When you press start 
It tricks my pixel heart
Into thinking you give a shit
But I know, that you don't
You press ESC
and I know it's too late
No 1up can save us now
And I know, that it won't

And oh, I should know, that my princess is in another castle
And no, I won't go, on a quest to remind me I'm alone/to remind me I'm better off alone

Caring for you, is kind of like
A one player game, with no co-op in sight
I got KO'd, it's my last life
But in this game called love, you don't get another try

Game Over

I spent the night avoiding you and the shit you left behind
I spent the day puking up feelings I felt for you inside
And if your eyes had looked at my eyes I would have run away
Cuz if last night we had have spoken I know what I would say

Last night I would tell you to get fucked

Get Fucked

'cuz I drink when I'm happy and I drink when I'm sad
and I drink when life is going well and when it turns out bad
I drink to remember and I drink to forget
my mum said that if I carry on I'm gonna end up dead

The Alcohol Song

I don't wanna hear about your new girlfriend
'cuz y'know you and me we used to be good friends
and now I see you once a month
and once a month don't feel like it's enough for me

it's not that i don't want you to be happy but
moving in after 3 weeks seems a bit weird to me
i don't want to be coming off as crabby but
you break up every other week so maybe it's not meant to be
and now you've gone and bought a cat together but
when you fight and she moves out who's gonna end up getting custody
i'm not trying to sound big or clever but
when you get the cat i know you'll end up putting it in a cattery

and maybe i'm this way 'cuz i have no one in my bed
but i know that isn't true cuz when i'm drunk i usually do
so i guess instead
it's the fact i can no longer tell who is who
cuz you wear all the same clothes and the same brand of shoes
and your life consists of doing things your girlfriend wants to do
so i guess my friend that's probably why...

A Song About When Friends Get Into Relationships And Disappear From Yr Life

	
i've come out three times first as queer and then as trans 
both times met with acceptance and metaphorical clapping of hands 
third time was met with disbelief an awkwardness so chronic 
they thought i must be joking when i said i'm an alcoholic 
they said i was too young as if there's an age limit for addiction 
and they drink way more than me and there's absolutely nothing wrong with them 
i can't say that i agree when our friendship's based on getting drunk 
and sober conversation's a ship of silence that can't be sunk 

'cuz I drink when I'm happy 
and i drink when i'm sad 
and i drink when life is going well 
and when it turns out bad 
i drink to remember 
and i drink to forget 
my mum said that if i carry on 
i'll probably end up dead 

i first realised there were problems when i woke in a strangers bed
i didn't know where the fuck i was and i couldn't feel my head 
i lost most of my money and i lost most of my clothes 
and with that i found my pants and took to the open road 
i tried to call my friends but none of them picked up 
they were probably still out clubbing 
or probably just too drunk 
so i called the one woman on whom i can rely 
'hi mum it's me i'm lost' i said and then i began to cry 
look around what can you see she asked and i could see big ben 
and i found a train station and promised this won't happen again 
when i promised that i meant it my drinking career would end 
but it didn't stop me doing the exact same thing that next weekend 

(chorus) 

if you think it's not a problem then let me tell you this 
i promised my best friend i'd stopped drinking that same night i got pissed 
i missed her exhibition because i was so hungover 
it doesn't take a genius to work out that friendship's over 
when you wanna put down the bottle but you've lost all the willpower 
and you slip on the bathroom floor and knock yrself out in the shower 
and you try to kill yourself 'cuz you're convinced you won't be missed 
the next morning you realise you only felt that way 'cuz you were pissed 
when you're abusive towards yr friends and abusive towards yr partner 
and you wake up with no recollection of that behaviour after 
if you've still got the audacity to tell me i'm okay 
then my friend stay the fuck outta my life and stay the fuck outta my way 

(chorus)

The Alcohol Song (best mix)

The old lady on my bus took one long look at me and huffed
One long sigh of disapproval
While she ate her apple strudel
My tattoos did quite offend her
my haircut enough to send her
Off the deep end for a lecture
To tell me how it affects her
"You'll regret those when you're older"
And at the time if I'd felt bolder
I'd respond 'and you'll regret, being so rude and ignorant'
you don't have to make me feel bad just because I make you feel mad
And I won't partake your debate
to hear about the things hate
 old lady you don't know me
And you certainly done owe me
an ounce of yr minds interior  to make me feel inferior
I done nothing to upset you
Only wish I hadn't met you
On this bus cuz can't you see
I just wanna get from a to b
Don't wanna see you look down your nose
From the top of my head to the bottom of my toes
And listen to your snide remarks
snapping your mouth like a great white shark
And I wanna stop and shake her in the hope that it'll make her
Take note and mental clearance of judging people by appearance
Because looks can be deceiving
And it kinda leaves me reeling
To know that she thinks less of me
Due to ignorance and bigotry
And I'm definitely not Ageist
But being mean can be contagious
So when I open my mouth to say
She's just an old bitch - that's not okay

But if she didn't act like one
I wouldn't have to say
I met this stupid old bitch as I was on my way
To play a gig in London just the other day
I don't want to upset her
And maybe she had dementia
Or some other illness old folk get
Am I being ageist yet?
frustration has made me forget
The example I was supposed to set
That when someone says something mean
It's best to keep your conscience clean
smile and nod, repel the hate
You don't have to retaliate
That old lady's probably lonely
And she doesn't even know me
and tonight when she goes to bed
I wonder what runs through her head
Did she make a positive impression
Or think she was teaching me a lesson
Or maybe she will feel real sad
knowing that she made me feel bad

regardless of the outcome all i want to say
is what the hell is an apple strudel anyway?

Old Lady On The Bus demo

take me to the sea
roll my eyes for me
kiss me like it's for free
tame me like the sea

drag me to the sea
cross my arms for me
kiss me like i'm cheap
break me like the sea

The Sea (An Ode To The Thing That Separates Us)

i put the radio on 'cuz it makes me feel less alone
the background noise distracts me from the voices in my head that are keeping me at home
and if yr finding it hard to exist then take some pills
and if those ones don't help then maybe the next 10 lots prescribed for you will

and if i don't need help
why do i want to kill myself

let me tell you a little something about SSRI's
they zombie-fy my emotions and kill 99% of my sex drive
they remove all emotion from yr heart and from yr head
you'll be a walking vegetable but hey i guess on the plus 
you won't be dead

and i know, that you'll probably never understand
why somebody you think is so intelligent and cute
would want to die by their own hand
truth is i don't and i probably never will
providing that i get locked away in a nut house 
and keep taking my fucking pills

Pills

there's a feeling inside my ribcage they call fear
so i rip it out my chest and i ask what it's doing here
it tells me i'm mistaken and fear it is not
it's a feeling i've not felt for so long i forgot
how it feels to be anything aside from scared
so i thank my inner self cuz didn't know that it cared

if these words are gonna hurt then please say them quick
because all of this waiting is making me feel sick
and not knowing where i stand makes me look like a right dickhead
and love is only fun when yr dead

the secret to not getting hurt is by acting cool
but how can i do that when you already know i'm a tool
i forget all the rules that i put into place
they go out of the window when i see your face
but i keep acting weird and distant just incase
there is still the small chance you'll love me just the same.

Love Is Only Fun when Yr Dead

The old lady on my bus took one long look at me and huffed
One long sigh of disapproval while she ate her apple strudel
My tattoos did quite offend her my haircut enough to send her
Off the deep end for a lecture to tell me how it affects her
“You’ll regret those when yr older” and at that time if I’d felt bolder I’d respond
And you’ll regret being so rude and ignorant
You don’t have to make me feel bad just because I make you feel mad
And I won’t partake in your debate, to hear about those things you hate
Old lady you don’t know me and you certainly don’t owe me
An ounce of yr minds interior to make me feel inferior
I’ve done nothing to upset you only wish I hadn’t met you 
On this bus, cuz can’t you see I just wanna get from A to B
I don’t wanna see you look down yr nose 
From the top of my head to the bottom of my toes
And listen to yr snide remarks snappin’ yr mouth like a great white shark

And I wanna stop and shake her, in the hope that it’ll make her
Take note and mental clearance of judging people by appearance
Cuz looks can be deceiving and it kinda leaves me reeling
To know that she thinks less of me due to ignorance and bigotry
And I’m definitely not ageist but being mean can be contagious
So when I open my mouth to say, ‘she’s just an old bitch,’
That’s not okay
But if she didn’t act like one I wouldn’t have to say
I met this stupid old woman as I was on my way
To play a gig in London just the other day
And I don’t want to upset her
Cuz maybe she had dementia
Or some other illness old folk get
Am I being ageist yet?
Frustration has made me forget the example I was supposed to set
That when someone says something mean it’s best to keep yr conscience clean
Smile and nod, repel the hate, you don’t have to retaliate
That old lady’s probably lonely and plus she doesn’t even know me
And tonight when she goes to bed I wonder what runs through her head
Did she make a positive impression or think she was teaching me a lesson
Or maybe should would feel real sad knowing that she made me feel bad
Or maybe she takes pleasure, in the measure of her rudeness
And if that’s true so be it and when she’s mean I guess she means it

Regardless of the outcome all I want to say
Is what the hell is an apple strudel, anyway?


Old Lady On The Bus

acoustic version of The Final Curtain Call

The Final Curtain Call (Acoustic)

it's been a rough day for days
you ask if i'm ok and the answer remains the same
you've been gone away for days
and as i walk away the memories of you won't fade

cuz i got it into my head
you'll wake up with her instead


Black Dog

so before you get involved
there's something that you ought to know
above my head is a black cloud
following me wherever i go
the hands you use to pull me up will
be the same hands that push me down
and i don't have the will to endure
the prospect of getting fucked around

if love makes me want to use 
as it has done in the past
i've not got much left to lose
the last fuck i gave was probably my last
and if i'm feeling this much distance
and you're only 5 miles away
i'll probably disappear this instant
because it hurts too much to stay

if it makes me feel like i'd rather be dead tonight
then i should probably try to get you out of my head tonight



Dead Tonight (modern day love song)

The Final Curtain Call

I can't see past me, with my face against the wall...

Against The Wall

Give me your love, and I hardly feel it
Give me your time, and I hardly need it
Give me your best dress, and I hardly see it
Giving your all to impress but I'm hardly drunk enough to hold interest.

It's just something I thought you should know
I'll probably miss you when you go



Dating Game

i was blessed with legs so i could walk away
from everything i promised i'd work harder to regain
i was blessed with lips so i could mouth these lies
and trick you into thinking i could keep you by my side

and i understand the consequence of living in my head
and i understand the selfishness of wishing i was dead
and i comprehend yr feelings but yr not the only one
who ultimately in the end will hate what i've become

i was blessed with legs so i could run away
from everything i love the most and worked hard to obtain
i was blessed with lips so i could sing this song
to convince myself it's not my fault and it would've happened all along

and i understand the consequence of treating you like shit
and i understand my selfishness contributed to it
and i comprehend yr feelings but i put my feelings first
and then blame it on some shit excuse about not wanting to get hurt

A song about ruining everything

give me that knife so I can stab you
in the back where I promised I would never lay a finger on
give me that life so I can stack you
alongside every other life I prayed you would take pity on 
remember those days constructing plans to 
keep memories alive by writing to you every day
it's futile now i'll pass blame onto
the day that's my night and all the water that got in your way

just for today

these five months won't make it alright 
if I can't see further than the end of tonight
you used to be something that could change my mind
reasons to exist these days are harder to find

Futile Now

All songs written, performed and recorded by Seth Corbin in his bedroom on a 16-track Yamaha AW16G.

About
Punk/anti folk musician and one man band.
'I tap my foot a lot and sing songs about things that make me sad.'

New EP on the way!!

Biography
Things piss me off, then I write about these things and accompany it with music and my voice.

Description:
Seth Corbin is a queer folk/punk musician deriving from a small conservative market town where nothing happens, and now currently settling in the big smoke. (London UK) 

Seth likes:
queercore, riot grrrl music, vegan pizza, old skool video games, all things TMNT related, pet rats, making comics, making zines, impromptu public sing-alongs to 90s pop ballads, public dances.


music i have liked and loved: sleater kinney, the organ, fever fever, andrew jackson jihad, team dresch, nirvana, agent orange, jeffrey lewis, bikini kill, bangs, bleach03, ramones, teengenerate.

Seth Corbin

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