Cruel Girl

In my dreams, in my dreams I’m framed for murder
Run away a bit further, they say I did it cus they hurt her
You pushed him through the window,
watched him splatter hit the girder
 
You through your phone its just a burner,
Your face is up and, on the server,
They pushed you into limbo watched you scatter,
need some nurture
 
but you didn’t get that though
you’re running down alley ways that foreshadowed
your demise and the end of this
and as the sun creeps in I feel the skin just burn
 
and as you hit me in the face I freeze,
slow static to the ptsd,
and the shakes start to come with this
and you feel like yeah, you’ve just lost everything
 
When will I be free, I wanna be just me
But I get no rest from nightmares plaguing me in my dreams
Yeah, I just want them to leave
 
Theres no time to grieve,
 As my mind deceives
I beg to the ones above that I have some reprieve
 
As I go further down, it surrounds me
The doubt in my mind it gets so cloudy
Yeah, to the point where they don’t allow me
Just to be and live alone
 
Cus they’re scared ill hurt me
If I was serious, I wouldn’t be lurking
But instead, they just don’t understand
They all point and stare.

Murder

Rise up from the rubble, there's no ground to stand
The promise of it getting betters just bland
You come to my home where I chose to withdraw
This battle inside isn't something that's fought
 
This towns now deserted since they shut the gate
They covered their faces while we got betrayed
You find you're still standing above your own flesh
I thought I was happy, I guess this ain’t it
 
That's when I turned around at the sound of a voice
You’re saying I’m glad that I’m finally here
Still don't know where I am really 
If I think about it, then it's clear
 
This place is where you go after
you get consumed by your doubt
And that voice I heard starts to guide me
And leads me outside this house
 
This is where you left your family
Tell yourself that they never cared
Here's where you stay, and you'll suffer
Until your bodies repaired  
 
It feels like time never changes
Since night seems never to come
And now your left here in limbo
I ask yeah what have I done
 
I never wanted it to be like this,
I didn't think that I was going to be missed
I thought I’d be happy but this isn't it
And now I realize, I’ve left my soul in a pit
 
It doesn't matter anymore I already chose to quit
Selfishly just cut my ties as I am found in a ditch
Tell myself if I had stayed, I would have still just done it
I’m all alone, into the depths I submit
 
I don’t really get it but my skin just flakes
Overwhelmed by flowers I burst then decay
As insects crawl inside, they gather within
They salvage what’s left of me, I just can’t win
 
Become isolated I’m one with the fear
That dissociation never disappears
And when I open up, I get ostracised
I think somethings wrong I guess that’s not a lie
 
I just try to reach for help out there, but there was nothing for me to grasp
heart held fast but I could never fathom, just how long despair would just last
like what are you stupid, none of this is real, come closer and soon you will feel
the judgment of ones who said they’d be there, with that it all became clear
 
and when I woke up bandages surround me, I guess this time they’ll same I’m sincere
And when I told them I am not coping, you know they won’t interfere
Just lock my mental state up in a capsule, hiding it will make you feel real
All it did was numb me out, until I knew that I was not here

Let the fire consume me

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⚝ lyrics:

underneath this lifeless skin i decay
it's engraved into bones
starts burning through my veins

i wish upon a shooting star as i drift away
i don't wanna be saved
i don't wanna be saved

i break out this shell that i'm portraying
just wasting my life till I'm decaying
i don't wanna be saved
i don't wanna be saved

it's like the more i cry
the more i lose faith that there's hope
why are my prayers left unanswered?
i'd rather be here alone

when it's my time don't resuscitate
pull the plug please don't hesitate
dear god,
i don't wanna be saved.


† 5hy:

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till i decay

Lyrics: Baby look at the moon
It’s beautiful just like you 

Hold my flesh 
And watch me die 
And go dispose 
Of me tonight 

I’ve tried I’ve tired I’ve tired 
But there’s no sign of you tonight 
Oh I’ve tired I’ve tired I’ve tried 
But I’m sleeping alone tonight 

I looked in an alleyway 
I found ur deadly gaze 
So please just hold my flesh 
And watch me die 
And go dispose 
Of me tonight

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