shake my hand, call it even
it's not what we planned but it's something
we both understand we could have stopped this so long ago

you know what you are and that is dangerous
and i've come too far to lose this
somewhere between then and now i lost control

one cry, one letter, one phone call will make things better
one lie, unsold, one story gone untold forever

maybe we'll save the memories
maybe we'll care down the road
but for now i'd be happy just to make it home

one cry, one letter, one phone call will make things better
one lie, unsold, one story gone untold forever

Untold

it was a big deal, but i’ll be fine
just add it to a collection of bitter times
i’ll try to forget it, put it out of my mind
things are still good in bed, maybe that’s a sign
that you and me just don’t agree on everything, so we have to fight

all this pain is normal, everyone feels it
at least i have a love life to scream about
we both know how bad it feels to be lonely
and i would rather stay than be alone
i would rather stay than be alone

you slam the car door and light up a cigarette
i walk inside and ignore it
just tell me you want me
or that i’m good enough
and i will pretend that we’re okay
i’m 20 years or i'm 35, we do what we do to survive

20 Years

well i spent many hours thinking before i said it
and i know i did the right thing
i knew you would not understand
but i was willing to take that chance

don't say you'll be waiting for me
that would drive me out of my mind
someday we may finish this story
and you won't feel left behind

don't be so angry 'cause this wasn't easy
don't tell me you love me, no, not as i'm leaving
don't make me feel guilty 'cause i can't help feeling
so sorry but somehow i've got to get my feet on the ground

sometimes you come back into my mind
all those memories i thought i had left behind
of your soft body pressed up against mine
so eager to show me a good time

don't say you'll be waiting for me
that would drive me out of my mind
someday we may finish this story
and you won't feel left behind, but

don't be so angry 'cause this wasn't easy
don't tell me you love me, no, not as i'm leaving
don't make me feel guilty 'cause i can't help feeling
so sorry but somehow i've got to get my feet on the ground

i can't be held responsible that you loved me

The Ground

i will stand right here, maybe forever
until you regret whatever you have said to keep us together
i would so much rather forget what you said

i will stand out here, maybe forever
until you come back and are stabilized
in my eyes you will never compare to the girl you were last year
the girl you were last year
it doesn't matter, the girl you were last year

maybe we will never remember how to get around whatever hurts
we stayed inside of the feeling and now there's no turning back
what was once tomorrow is already here
it doesn't matter, it's already here

all that i have ever been, you can't describe
just the moments that make up the wasted time
you made up who i was inside your mind
so you have never known me, you have never known me anyway

Dear Whoever

Instrumental soundscape about moving into the next era of your life.

New Era

you might deny what i say or disagree with what i describe
but it's still important for me to say
a story as common as ours collides with our lives
and we stay affected the rest of our days

and it began with hearts seeing hearts through the crowds
and parting the seas of the maybes
i was the one for you
you knew
and i know it's true

and days never felt so complete or tasted so sweet
than after your embrace
history's poems and plays came alive
and we'd never age, never die, or know loneliness
and all of our dreams would now be realized

and they'd write new poems and films about us
and our love would inspire young lust
in the next generations to come
yes, we knew it
we knew it was true

years passed and love had grown old
what was once fire had become so cold
and we didn't know who we were anymore
we knew the time had now come for us to put it down
a mercy, a murder of what was once pure

and now I've heard your name time to time
and I'm sure that you have heard mine
and that's all that remains of our days in the sun
i, i know it
i know it was true

i know it's true - demo

look at me mom, look at me dad
did I meet the expectations you had
no of course not, i have been bad
i broke the rules, i played the fool

after all the years that have gone by
you’d think i’d learned some lessons in life
but no matter how hard i try
i can not see the light

i’m so lost. i wouldn’t even know if i’d been found
i’m so lost. i wouldn’t even know if i’d been found
i scream out. AHHHH. can you hear me now?
you’re all i’ve got, so here’s hoping that you never let me down

look at me dear, what do you see
am i the man that you want me to be
no of course not, i am just me
the shame, the wreck, the one to blame

you are my life’s antidote
you’re the sun and i’m the black hole
though i know you’d never let me go
i don’t deserve your hold     

i’m so lost. i wouldn’t even know if i’d been found
i’m so lost. i wouldn’t even know if i’d been found
i scream out. AHHHH. can you hear me now?
you’re all I’ve got, so here’s hoping that you never let me down

now i can see you
but i can’t reach through
lost and lonely
breaking apart slowly
i can’t feel much
but i can feel your touch
so don’t let me go 
sorry for being so
hard to carry
and it may be scary 
but if you don’t give up
maybe i’ll live up
to what i still could be
maybe i’ll live up
to what i still could be
and finally have peace

i'm so lost... - demo

Instrumental soundscape about not letting anything stop your forward progress

Moving Forward

ten years from now i'll look at the morning paper
and see pictures of someone i once knew long ago
those days will be gone of problems easily solved
i'll feel so alone away from these noisy halls
so many friends from so many different places
seeing their picture there i'll realize then
they're only faces, they're only faces

when we were best friends back in high school
i thought you'd always be there
and now i look to see all i have left of you
is in the yearbook that i keep upstairs
and when i held you in my arms
i thought you'd always be mine
but now it hurts to see you're just a memory
lost in a moment in time

as i look around the room tonight, i see your eyes
chanting "Seniors! Seniors!" you'll say a hasty good-bye
higher education beckons and most of you will go
and i will miss you more than you will ever know
all of our childhood we rush to grow up, we're almost there
we'll say, "Where has the time gone when we didn't have a care?"

when we were best friends back in high school
i thought you'd always be there
and now i look to see all i have left of you
is in the yearbook that i keep upstairs
and when i held you so tightly in my arms
i thought you'd always be mine
but now it hurts to see you're just a memory
lost in a moment in time

Moment in Time

shannon, don't you know i would have died for you
now there's no one left for me to die for
and i want you to know i believe i still want you back
'cause every day without you is like a heart attack

shannon, i know you don't want to talk to me
when you left, i sure as hell didn't make it easy
i should have left you alone so you could have maybe missed me
and had time to discover who you want to be

oh shannon, don't you know that i still feel the same as before
and i know i loved you wrong and i'm sorry
but i still need you here with me

shannon, i can't say i believe i did everything wrong
after all, i know that you loved me for so long
and every time i hurt you, i really hurt myself
and every tear that you cried spoke for me as well

everything about you drives me so crazy
i can't find perfection like you out on the street
and i wish i could exist in a world that did not hold you
rather than know that you're out there but not knowing what you do

oh shannon, don't you know that i still feel the same as before
and i know i loved you wrong and i'm sorry
but i still need you here with me

Shannon

i see you looking at me,
that's okay, i don't mind
it's just, it's been so long
i am flattered, that's very kind
i just try to carry on and somehow i came here
and then in between the lights and the other people, you appeared

all i need is for someone to love me too
and all i need is the courage to follow through
and i want it with you, yeah
and i want it with you

come sit with me now
and share what's on your mind
and maybe tonight, we just might leave our pasts behind us
it's just, i've been hurt before you
and i'm sure that you have too
this might be our chance to find new romance before the night is through, baby

all i need is for someone to love me too
and all i need is the courage to follow through
and i want it with you, yeah
and i want it with, and i want it with

i can read the message that you are sending
in between the words that you are saying
and i know exactly what this could mean
you might be my true love

i can read the message that you are sending
in between the words that you are saying
and i know exactly where this could lead
you might be my true love

all i need is for someone to love me too
and all i need is the courage to follow through
and i want it with you, yeah
and i want it with you

Empire of One

True Love

An instrumental soundscape that, to me, encapsulates crying out in despair, while trying to find hope.

Death by Love

your message your a bottle
yeah your ego and what it hides
all the seasons of a weathered life in motion
yeah keep moving

forward and backwards
never sure if you are right
writing moments of a wasted life in notebooks
that you keep inside

who’ll be your medicine now?
keep you sober
or tell you that things will work out
if it’s over

I didn’t have it all figured out completely
or think about what you were doing to me
I ripped out the pages and threw you away
without giving you a chance to say

Maybe all this was
a testament to the dangers of love
I held on to you for what?

I know you can’t see
all damage you’ve to the pieces of me
but I need to heal myself

so forget me, go on erase me
go pretend I was never there
all the memories of the past few years are worthless
now this madness

in me, feeling guilty
feeling things that you’ll never know
all the silence of a broken phone no one is there
who will listen to me

who’ll be my medicine now?
keep me sober
or tell me that things will work out
if it’s over...

Dangers of Love

Tired and restless eyes waiting to see
an end to fear and complicated scenes
trying to make our lives work out somehow
and end up close to how we planned it out

when all we really want is to be okay
no more enemies, disease or lonely days
and the moment comes where we think we just may
have found the perfect other, promise of a change
and I say...I say...

Wouldn’t it be good if we could both just fall asleep
and spend eternity together in each others’ dreams
And never have to wake and have to fake that we belong
in this world...this world...

I always thought that I’d be on my own
that there was no one else who fit inside my mold
it’s a miracle that two people can be
so complementary in personality...
and in love...in love.... 

Wouldn’t it be good if we could both just fall asleep
and spend eternity together in both of our dreams
And never have to wake and have to fake that we belong
in this world...this world...

This World - demo

force of habit in the moment to take what they repeat
from the matrix often average personalities

central station: comparing the messages I’ve seen
somewhat erie, almost tragic sense of where I’ve been

it made the most
it made the most sense at the time
it made the most
it made the most sense

how did I become what I always was against
who have I been while I haven’t been myself
what have I done ‘cuz I have no memories
who do I beg for forgiveness on my knees

need to sleep. awake will deepen what you do to me
constant change, passing the blame, forget our history

just as those who’ve gone before us thinking we’re complete
we're taking orders but never take responsibility

Force of Habit - demo

An instrumental soundscape inspired by the drive to succeed, and letting nothing stop your progress.

Attack

They way you looked at me
The sadness in your eyes
A hero torn apart 
And shed of all disguise

A heathen now is born
Of consequence and tides
Who never will grow old
Who will haunt me all my life
 
I gave it all that I had
Because that’s what love’s about
And though I tried to stand my ground
But my body just gave out

A ribbon ties my heart
To the browning skies
Around the ones I love
And through the open lies

Someday when this is gone
I’ll call you near to me
And get down on my knees
And pray you’ll forgive me

Because I gave it all that I had
And that’s what love’s about
Though I tried to stand my ground
My body just gave out

I gave it all I had
Because that’s what love’s about
And though I made it to the last round
But my body just gave out

all i had - demo

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