the lyrics are true so this hits different frr

So BEAUTIFUL and heartbreaking at the same time ♠️🦋♠️

My mentality is wasting away as i replay everything ive ever done in such agony

i listen to this sm im clinically depressed n been for years but yes good songs

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Lyrics:
Losin' myself, like where the fuck am I goin'
Lookin' in the mirror, I ain't even sure if I know him
I ain't even sure if I

Escape the maze, then I'm caged
It's back to the same old shit again
One moment, I'm on top of the world
The darkness hits, then I feel like I can never be rid of it
Sometimes the beat feel like my only friend
So when my progress meets a dead end
I tend to descend
Into a dark, unforgivin', and most shadowy bend
So that smile you're seein' is probably pretend
The life of a starved artist
Who depends on his pen to defend himself from the darkness that lies within
And fend off the ghosts that often postpone my hope
I'm broken, tryna pick up the pieces, like where the fuck they go
Slowly overtaken by my woes
Flirtin' with death but when I flow, I feel the need to take it slow

Ironic 'cause that's when I start to give a fuck and get my ducks in a row again
See, every now and then, I transcend the abyss
Learn to live in bliss but then that class is dismissed
Pursuin' happiness then it's
Back to the end of the waitin' list
I'm hatin' this life
The brightest days keep feelin' like night
Pullin' myself closer to the Reaper's scythe
But when I grip the mic, that sliver of light proceeds to shine
So when I feel like nothin's left, I look to the pen to make it right
Look that Grim motherfucker in the eye
Tell him take a hike, it ain't my time
I'm clearly conflicted and it's evident in these lines
That maybe I'm relyin' too much on these rhymes
But shit, this is more than just a pastime
This that shit that gimme purpose
Without it, time is just sand in a glass that pass by
But with this music, my demons could never ever ever ever ever ever ever outlast I

I'm lost in my thoughts
I'm too often feelin' fraught
Tryna think happy thoughts
Just reminds me what I'm not
I feel like John Constantine
All these demons I have fought
I'm pursuin' happiness, they actin' like it's somethin' that is bought
But it's not, they say it depends on where you shop
That cannot be the case
It is not that fuckin' simple for the pain to be erased
I miss the good ol' days
Sometimes I wish I could retrace my steps
Back to my youth but I can't
So I'mma try my best to progress everyday
Fuck bein' depressed, I'mma lay
These thoughts up on a page
Stage an attack on this darkness and watch it fade away
I found my way up out the cage

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