by me 
song: https://soundcloud.com/holidaykiss/pearly IF I COULD LOVE ME LIKE I USED TO #twitterholidaykisssawthisfirstthanku

pearly cover

jhoanhsukd prod. afamana killed this 
@afamana @afamana @afamana @afamana @afamana @afamana

i jus wanna be with u dont gotta think about the love that breaks

Be with u (p. afamana) !

original song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rxh5ktHQiok 
reprod, written etc by me :] 

UPDATE : HIDDEN CONTACT COVER OF THIS SONG RIGHT HERE UR SO LUCKY IF U SEE THIS
https://soundcloud.com/hiddencontact/shadeeqap-doremifa-rework-cover/s-oNNKQxOYKWl ーーーーー

(da lyrics)
u still try till now u look pathetic tho  
was it cos for 2 years i said too much to just let go
i know im rude to u but im just still pissed about Hs
idc anymore ill drag them into my songs 
theyll never hear any, tbh u know i can not ignore u 
cant handle but i hate it 
replying to u seems nice but its worse so i blocked u 

think ill b here the rest of my life 
ull still c me online cos ill post and youll hit my line
double text cos i post but i ignore u 
i know im rude still pissed about Hs!

“wont stop pls just talk to me,
youll regret this i pray someday youll b in my shoes” -guy 
“haha know u write about me, obsessed now w me? so please unblock me” -guy
*mumbles
*GO AWAY!

ty for a hunnid i hope to get better 
this was very fun

still pissed! [porter robinson reprod/twist]

prod etc by me :@

]]]]]]   i-i-i-illghosts 
my charm is back think i wanna write about u 
im so attached please dont leave here im still new -
- ill deny until i dont have feelings for u i can soak it up
 and say i never thought about u if u get sad ill write about but tbh i dont think that i will tell u
dont talk to me 🤨i like it better when we talk less🤨 but if its ok but in my head we re kinda more than friends
dont wanna see u if u confessed ill guess ur lyingcos i dont think im attractive and i slouch alot am i good enough
i need to get this out my headbut u look good w ur new hair 
]]]]]]

confessionsoftheindenial  this song as a whole is v out of character
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1s8sS-Ezegf1wc8cP7YpnwlUqPS3tusfb/view?usp=sharing


:-] s/o tendō forinspo on jap piano

Charm '~'

hii first track of my EP !!

Produced & Written by shadee
Mix & Mastered by Tezu

getting away with what i know

Produced & Written by shadee
Mix & Mastered by Tezu

The Mess Of You

Happy to be mine

20221219

Stay/Distant

still have lots to share but yea

where u are is the place that im at
ur brain is tangled in
all the thoughts you have
you dont show
you bring them to sleep
like little little child

guess ure better off alone
in ur little tiny zone

i wish i could tell you
but i just cant understand myself
what i can do is
make ur day
how was ur day
hope ur okay
wish i could stay

(verse2)
by the time when i think im feeling fine
id like to think that this would last 100 nights
i dont show
i bring them to sleep
like a little little child
guess im better off alone 
in my little tiny zone

i wish i could tell you
but i just cant understand myself
what i can do is
make ur day
how was ur day
hope ur okay
wish i could stay

i cant be close to you
cause im so closed to me
guess i dont know 
anything
anymore , so

im slipping away
but i cant help it
the words that you say 
its barely helping
im leaving today
i cant choose
so what am i
what am i
why why why

someday i imagine you holding someone else
ur such a good fit i can never tell myself

sadi

little tiny zone

It’s the second time you run back to mine
But its alright cos for you its fine
Songs at night are for u and i
but we cant be just the same 
When our feelings never changed

I’m so ashamed how we’re still playing safe
This is all out of date but here we go again
The game where we pretend we’re going different ways
But we cant be just the same
When our feelings never changed

I cant change ur mind so what ur state of mind
You cant make your mind
And we’re running out of time
Just make up your mind am I the one you like?
When we cant be just the same
When our feelings never changed

How can you tell, which one is true
You’ve always had someone new, so what the news?
You try but ur never mine, ur acting like a fool
But we cant be just the same
When our feelings never changed

(chorus)

Just admit it im just ur average crush
The classic ones that slipped away
And you wont take the risk and I cant do much
But heres a lullaby..

change ur mind

BETTER VER: https://soundcloud.com/afamana/go-ahead-lose-a-friend-remix

I’ve been thinking about you lately 
And the thoughts just drive me crazy
Cause you’ve been talking about me daily
Like we never really met

They all act like they don’t know me
And the thought just drives me crazy
Well I guess they just don’t deserve me
As I say it all over again

Go ahead lose a friend for your girlfriend 
Everyone around me all just acts the same
Go ahead lose a friend for your boyfriend
Just don’t show up and think that I could be your bridesmaid

Go ahead lose a friend for your girlfriend
Everyone around me all just acts the same
Just don’t show up when you’ve broke up and you’re lonely
You’ll probably miss me and say shit things like you’re sorry

I thought we were kinda pretty
And the thoughts just drive me crazy
But I don’t care about you lately
They said I should act more friendly 
(so)
Maybe ill dive right in the pool of telling myself
I’m not the fool
Maybe ill dive right in the pool of

Try living in a new city
Again and again and again

Go ahead lose a friend for your girlfriend 
Everyone around me all just acts the same
Go ahead lose a friend for your boyfriend
Just don’t show up and think that I could be your bridesmaid

Go ahead lose a friend for your girlfriend
Everyone around me all just acts the same
Just don’t show up when you’ve broke up and you’re lonely
You’ll probably miss me and say shit things like you’re sorry


Bet if I told them I cried
They would know that you lied
So go put up a smile
And live a good lie

Bet if I told them I cried
They would know that you lied

Grow up grow up
This songs for you
This songs for her too
Maybe I’m not the best
But at least I’m not a mess for you

go ahead lose a friend

hellooo (lyrics below)

its been so long 
your hairs gone long
we never talk cos it seems so wrong
still sing the songs
we sang along to
and no-one knew
they dont need to

we never talk
cos it seems so wrong
we act as if 
we dont get along
think its better for now
but i feel so numb
how about you?
how are u?

why cant i just tell my day to you
just like we always do
and youll tell ur day and we’ll be okay
but now it sounds so rude

guess we’ll never be the same

u act like u felt nothing?
but i swear we felt something
what was that for?

was it true, i have no clue
u could tell it just between us two
i want to talk this through
we need to talk this through 

why cant i just tell my day to you
just cos i want to
we’re better off just thinking we both changed
dont u think that too?

guess we’ll never be the same
and ill always feel this way

and ill always feel this way
but im hoping im okay
ill be okay , ill be okay

numb

let my friend @ghstabina_11 in on a renidition i made for fun.
tiktok renidition biar asik sekali kali ngikutin tren

feelin good like i should ft. ghstabina (rendition)

fav cover so farr +++  soren/beabadoobee instrumentals by urs truly

Soren -Beabadoobee (COVER)

procrastinating on all my other projects with another Lizzy McAlpine cover (ps. this aint the best of my finishing” cos i didnt put that much effort yes gwrl give us nothing)

..what are we? ーLizzy McAlpine (SHORT COVER).

sicc beat produced by @eizyo @eizyo @eizyo
↑    ↑   ↑   ↑   ↑   ↑  GO CHECK HIM OUT  ↑    ↑   ↑   ↑   ↑   ↑

[lyrics]
you were the only one i liked
last thing i want to do is to break ur heart
i swear that i wont let u fall apart
i’m lame and ashamed but we could just restart
we’re lame and ashamed but we could just restart

please stay the same
i never wanna make new friends again
i hope my old friends
will hear this song and treat me right 
instead
of what u think
of what they say
but i don’t wanna waste my time pretending i don’t
miss u in my car

ill say that i want more and more
so ill just hope you’ll open ur door
ill say that i want more and more
think ill love u forevermore


；）

more (prod. eizyo)

wont let my brain rewind today
making me think she feels the same
cos it plays as if you like me but you dont
and its so perfectly shot i hope you know,

at night my brains stuck on replay
fooling myself she wants to stay
cos its so perfectly shot i hope you know,
that im sorry that i like you although u dont

we’re wide awake but we’re playing different scenes
and i just wish that we could just hit repeat
but you just hate that we cant just press delete
but its so perfectly shot i hope you know,
that im sorry that i like you although you dont

omg i think that i like you
but you cant wait till i move to someone new
but i just keep falling again and again 
and again and again and again and again and again and again and again

we’re wide awake but we’re playing different scenes
and i just wish that we could just hit repeat
but you just hate that we cant just press delete
but its so perfectly shot i hope you know
that im sorry that i like you although you dont

wont let my brain rewind today 
wishing that day will come again 

:  )


artcover drawn with Procreate

—although u dont—

hi its 5 bye 
EDIT: THE ENDING IS SO BAD BYE

i move a lot but thats just how ive gone through all my life
please dont remind me that i havent found myself this time                      
just give that kid a little time
i promise she will be just fine 
please dont remind me that i havent found myself this time

life is just a test you know
once u get it through youll know
life is full of miracles
relax do great be proud of the things you do
she just hopes she’ll fit in for awhile
not for long
cos nothing seems to last for her
this time she’ll just let go

:  )

home14

me
GUITAR SOLO PERFORMED BY @fluidscent @fluidscent @fluidscent : D

didnt make the most out this month 
only went to see autumn trees once 
prolly should go out but my minds way to noisy n it hurts alot     
feelin useless 

HOOK
(they told me im responsible)
and i miss having fun but theres no use
ill always fuck it up at the end i got no clue
maybe they were right when they said i missed the old u 
this aint about love all im tryna do is stay true 

drifted out of town where i was jus getting used to
people calling up saying things i was accused to 
im way too nice gotta hold me but i need u 
this aint about love all im tryna do is stay true

HOOK

(i dont wanna wrap my mind her everyday
this aint about love all im tryna do is stay true
i wanna write it like i mean it 
i dont wanna wrap my mind her everyday)





(: :/

silver glob

thanxforstoppingby! 
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