Lyrics:
I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies
That do not pass the Bechdel test
And that makes me feel
Like I am a bad feminist
But I pirate them
So that makes it better, I guess

I’ve been trying to soul-search
And write more and destress
I’ve been clinging to hope
Like a guard rail, like a life vest
And I’ve been asking everyone,
“How long do you think the ache will last?”
They don’t know yet

Can something be prescribed to me?
I don’t like getting high but there’s
A game of operation in my skull
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

I’ve been losing my balance
My cellphone, and good sleep
I’ve been googling
“The best manifestation techniques”
And I’ve been taking quizzes
Based in pop psychology
And they’re always a letdown
But I’ve never been easy to please

I’m steeping in anxiety
I’m teetering on the tightrope
And I’m waiting for the moment when I’ll fall
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

But I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies

Bechdel Test

I’ve been a dreaming – afraid ‘cause it’s seeming that now after all the years
That a decade apart took a toll on my heart and it’s holding you half as dear.

I can still see that night when I first fell for you.
We were kids – never having been where we were going through.
Since then, I’ve been missing you.

But oh, could it be that I won’t notice when you’re near me when we used to 
Blush instead of speak then talk for hours about who we’d be?
We had reasons to know what would come and none to fear.
But none of it seems quite as clear after ten years.

I’ve been at war for you – siege on the shore for you – well at least it’s for who you were.
If my darling’s a goddess, I’m strong when it’s hardest – when other men are falling through.

I can still picture your face and I’m glad I can.
What’s a war… no – without a hope of beauty, what’s a man?
I’m weathered and worn and I’m sick of sand.

But oh, could it be that I won’t recognize you, baby?
Could beauty up and flee and deem our fighting all for nothing?
Even young eyes grow dull after many tears.
Here’s to hoping yours glow just as clear after ten years.

So here we are, Helen.
I’m honestly telling you
Are not who I thought you were.
I married a statue
Proposed to a moment
No, I never met a girl.

I can still see what I saw when we won the war.
I think it was you, but not at all the you that we’d been fighting for.
I’d shed blood for a paramour.

Oh, could it be that I wasted heroes’ lives on folly?
Convinced them you were she who died last decade, and I’ve been stalling.
I thought what I loved was young beauty without a peer.
None of it seems quite as clear after ten years.

After Ten Years (Day 1) 7/23/17

Let me tell you now the story of a king
Of the night he came to Earth with saving grace to bring
The shepherds with their flocks weren't alone there in the night
Angels came and beckoned them to behold the sight of God

Do you hear the news with the rising sun
Away in Bethlehem a song by angels sung
A babe in a trough yet he is the one
The mighty King who alone this war has won

God of Heaven this is His birth
Sent to save us from the earth
Wholly Man and God is He
Glory

Do you hear the news with the rising sun
Away in Bethlehem our king is come

Our King Is Come

short track only using samples from age of empires 2 HD

choppa.wav

Emaline (demo)

I got this here guitar
And I'll sing you a song
You can play in your car
I'm not saying I'm great 
but if push came to shove 
I could have what it takes 

So you're asking for more?
You want me to play lead 
On this flat top guitar
Well I'll give it a try
It can't be too hard 
Or my name isn't mike

"solo"

Well let's call that a win
Butter smooth if you ask me 
And sweeter than sin 
How you feel about keys?
I been tickling the ivories 
For 10 years at least 

You want a smooth melody?
I can coax it right out 
Play a warm rhapsody 
I won't say I'm the best 
But Mozart and Bach 
Could put me to the test 

"solo"

See I'm telling you now 
I'm the real deal with bells on 
Oh fine, I'll take a bow 
But on the five string I'm fire 
It's the one instrument 
Fills the girls with desire 

How bout listening to this 
It's just 6 chords in C
But it sounds just like a symphony

SOLO

6 Chords in C or A Troll in the Studio (7 in 7 2020 day 5)

took a walk the other day it let me down the road out of my town singing “wood de doop doop” and suddenly it cam back around
in a tree up on the left a mockingbird singing my song she said “pardon me sir but whatcha doing there on the ground”

you don’t stop moving when you’ve started to soar there’s no coming back now
mock mock mockingbird you always want more than this old world can give 
but please don’t turn and fly away cause the song that you sing and the words that you say
how can I start to believe another 

when we get together we find our favorite spot on the lake pier I bring sandwiches she brings a lemon and a bottle of… clear blue liquid 
I said “why’d you bring a lemon? aren’t those pretty sour?” she said “why yes they are but don’t you know the old saying when life gets you make lemonade”
so we did

give me a hand I don’t want to miss this world I always seem to
I guess I suppose I’m as near as it gets without sinking the ship or flying the coup 
give me the key I don’t want to miss seeing if the city never sleeps
up and up up here we go I see what she means

Mockingbird

The lights in the city shine bright tonight
And we don’t know where to go
So we’ll walk around to remember the days
When this place felt like home

So turn up the music, turn up the noise
We’re playing with fire, it’s only a toy
Pull out your phone and take me a picture
Perfect rendition of damaged conditions

I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world
I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world
Where can I go?
We’re together / alone

Where can I go where you’re not here
I travel the world, try to disappear
You search me and know me, the depths of my heart
The city will never tear us apart

So turn up the music, turn up the noise
We’re playing with fire, it’s only a toy
Pull out your phone and take me a picture
Perfect rendition of damaged conditions

I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world
I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world

I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world
I’m coming home
Don’t you know, I want to see the world

Mockingbird

Shafer Green

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