Spin me and turn me, as you wish
I am your puppet on a string
I will play for you
anything.

Spin me and turn me, as you wish
my mind is long broken.

Resistance is futile.

Round and round and round it goes...

Sometimes, though, I’ll be playing on,
playing on you.

So long, I played your game for only so long
submissive like a lifeless clay, oh
you snip your fingers and I play.

Unless I’ll be playing on you

(Resistance is futile).


Dis-play of power

Awake

And I am awake
I am letting go
all that's been keeping me asleep
I gave what I had
and now 
I am alone, 
but free.

I am nothing
I have nothing
I am nothing
I have nothing.

And I am awake
from the dream that I held
for far too long
but I don't blame or regret
for believing this long.

(I guess these things just happen sometimes...)

I am nothing
I have nothing
I am nothing
but inside I’m free

I am nothing
I have nothing
but me.

Awake...
And it ain’t too bad. :)


Shaita & Gregor - Awake

Shaita - Obican

Nightingale

They sang of fire
they sang of ashes
they sang of passion
and nightingales
that lose their voice

I didn’t know if it was true
until I met you

The Moon lied

They painted their love
enjoyed their pain
today they call it art
poor nightingales
that lost their voice

Impaled on thorn
my token of love

The Moon lied

Roses wild grow
thorns grow stronger...
(under the) moonlight


Shaita & Gregor - Nightingale

20 W

It is a stain on your tongue
a word you wanna scream out loud
it is a tickle in your mouth
a word you wanna scream
it is anger speaking through you
eloquent dirty mouth

it’s in those eyes of yours
and your mouth
worlds of colors and sounds

Sounds of 20 watts,
color of you

Sublime thoughts sublimate on your tongue
sublime thoughts
sublime

Sounds of 20 watts
color of you


Shaita & The Surreal Funfair & Gregor - 20 W

Deep, dark. Red.

You saw me
in my most intimate moments
while I was turning the dark red
between my thighs

You saw me with my burning hair
and black under my eyes
is it love?

its desire

You saw me tattooing my pillow
with my high pitched sounds
and words that mean nothing once I wake up

You saw me getting lost
surrendering to silence
to sorrow
to dreams
to madness

its desire

You now share my pillow, You share my dreams
You dive deeper, deep inside of me
You now share my pillow, You share my dream
You dive deeper, deep inside of me
and my desire


Deep, dark. Red.

Sunlight

I whisper the Silence
my words are the wind
waiting for sunlight...

And the stars, strong fortress
telling tales of long forgotten times
And the moon, silent goddess,
telling tales of long forgotten lives

They breathe, they shine, they die in light
waiting for sunlight

I breathe, I shine, I di(v)e in light


Sunlight

In my dreams I catch butterflies
I taste their wings
like blueberries.
I melt the stars in my palm
and hide my face in oceans.

Just keep flying...

Blue waves in ocean,
Blue sun above.
Blue dreams in motion.
Don’t wake me up.
Just keep flying...


Blue

Down my face, down my neck
down my arms, through my fingertips.
Through my legs, down my spine,
 up my arms, to my mind...

Words flow through me
overwhelming me till I turn numb
But I sing loud, firing my senses, 
firing my senses....
Your words flow...
Down my face, down my neck
down my arms, through my fingertips.
Through my legs, down my spine,
 up my arms, to my mind...

my skin burns, my sight yearns for stars
my lips burn, their sound pulsates in me
pulsates in me...


Senses

Thanatos je gorak bijeli šećer
Riječi pretvara u šljunak, a misli u prah
Jezik buja od ritma, vrtim ga u krug
Miris živog, toplog mesa osjećam po svud 

Thanatos u meni bubnja, osjećam strah
kao gladan pas trga me u ritmu
Thanatos u meni bubnja, osjećam strah
i gušim ga šećerom

Thanatos je gorak okus cigarete
anksiozan crveni ruž
Ispod tri sloja parfema ti si izgubljeno dijete
miris živog, toplog mesa osjećaš po svud

Thanatos u meni bubnja, osjećam strah
kao gladan pas trga me u ritmu
Thanatos u meni bubnja, osjećam strah
i gušim ga šećerom

Grlo, suho 
Zubi žvaču riječi
Srce udara
Ruke drže što je ostalo od nas


Shaita & Gregor - Thanatos

(from a debut album Inside, published by No Emb Blanc)

White
in you
White, little white lie
in you

It is he who lives in you
behind a face of someone I thought I knew.

I don't recognize
I don't recognize
I don't recognize
White
in you.

White, little white lie,
in you.


White

Today I am a fire
black rivers, my pyre
my hands are mountains
black sky, my eyes
hot lava is my blood

Today I am the ocean
dark waves, my hounds
I am the motion
the rhythm in your blood

Hot lava
Hot lava is my blood

Today I am a dragon
the one you feared as a child
I feed on dreams
I am the rhythm in your cold, cold heart

And then I am the sun
and the light to your dark
my hands are wide as your god
hot lava is my blood

*image used - painting by HC Kandoth

Hot lava

U jeki imena kralja ponositoga
u odsjaju zamišljenih slika rasnih konjanika i ratnika
rasla sam.
Njihova valuta –  blato i zemlja, i trava i metafora
moj beton i asfalt.

U sjeni kraljevskog imena
živjele su prve riječi iz dječjeg grla
prva iskustva i životi – danas uspomena.

U sjeni kraljevskog imena 
pod granama breza i jablana
zakapala sam mrtve ptice
i grobove kitila makovima – nebu u čast. 

U sjeni kraljevskog imena
u vlažnim podrumima
slušala sam pjev sirene   
i svjetlo branila dječjim dlanovima.

U sjeni kraljevskog imena
I danas sanjam
sebe, dijete  
sebe, pjesnika 
sebe, ratnika
sebe, lutku bez vlasnika
sebe, 
u grobu 
s makovima
nebu u čast. 

***

King Tomislav’s Square

In the echo of a proud king’s name
In the glare of dreamed images of pureblooded horsemen and warriors
I grew.
Their currency – dirt and earth, and grass and the metaphor,
My concrete and asphalt.

In the shadow of a royal name
The first words from the child's throat came to life
first experiences and lives - today only memories.

In the shadow of a royal name
under the branches of birch and poplar
I buried dead birds
and decorated their graves with poppies – in the honor of the sky. 

In the shadow of a royal name
In damp cellars
I listened to the song of war sirens
As I was defending the light with child's palms

In the shadow of a royal name
I still dream of
Myself, a child
Myself, a poet
Myself, a warrior
Myself, a puppet without an owner
Myself, in a grave
With poppies
– in the honor of the sky.


Trg kralja Tomislava / King Tomislav’s Square

As light splatters across the street
my steps dive into concrete

I stumble.

The only thing that is safe, the only thing that is real, the only thing that remembers us being here.
(The only thing that keeps our memories engraved in stone).

I walk alone.

Why did you let go of my hand
I grab through air in search for my home

I walk alone.

The only thing that keeps our memories engraved in stone
Starlight
Where is my home?

I walk alone.


seiromeM

*artwork by Alexandr Graves / http://evilcanfly.deviantart.com

Pitch black

Row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream. 
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

Her hands are mountains
Her voice is fire

Mighty kings and servants of God
Time will drown us in oceans
We bought our flesh from the starlight
our 30 pieces of silver are rust

(Through the looking glass and silver lining
Silver is now – rust)

Cause I’ve been running all the way to you, 
my Darkness

It must be demons, you say
No one can create from the dark
You fear the starlight and the light and your own God

Desire, pitch black
of the world behind the rainbow, all my own
Desire, oh my sweet desire, all my own
Pitch black 

Cause I’ve been running all the way to you, 
my Darkness

It must be demons, you say
No one can create from the dark
We fear the starlight and the light and our own God

Life is but a dream.


Shaita & Gregor - Pitch Black

Fragment

Sometimes the sound from his dreams 
spills around me and lures me in
Foreign faces (voices) blur into a scream
I stop.
I don't belong here.

Eyes shut
as days turn to night
I dont recognize
mosaic goes blank.

Eyes shut
as nights turn to days
my hair turns grey
I whisper my old prayer
please breathe life into this clay.

Day by day.

(In my dreams, I stay awake).

Sonhos

Blur in me slowly grows
images, distorts
In you

Oh the sun, my judge
oh the sun, my lover
mine

Lights me up, burns my face
but it also creates my shadows

Burns my wings and yet
it makes me want to fly.




POŽARI

Tražim svoj dah
držiš ga u rukama nježno
kao vjetar 
a ja ga trebam 
da bih te voljela.


Tražim tvoju vatru
znam da je tu, pod kožom ti diše.
U pjesmi
tiho, tiše
što je ostala u zraku.

U mraku…

Tvoje ruke, tvoje ruke na sebi
Tvoje ruke osjećam
Tvoje ruke, tvoje ruke na sebi…

Daj mi dah.


Goriš iza zida
u strasti duše i umoru tijela
dahom punim neizrečenih riječi.

Vrijeme ništa ne liječi
ono izbija vatru iz tijela

dok znam da te imam,  znam da te imam 
ja gorim od strasti i želje
da se spajamo u požarima.

***

FIRES

I am looking for my breath
You are holding it gently in your hands
Like the wind
And I need it 
to love you


I am looking for your fire
I know it is here
It’s breathing under your skin
In the song
Silent
That stayed in the air

In the dark

Your hands, your hands on me
I feel your hands
Your hands, your hands on me

Give me your breath

You are burning behind the wall
In the passion of the soul and weariness of the body
With breath filled with unspoken words

Times doesn’t heal a thing
It only puts out the fire out of our bodies

While I know I have you,
I know that I have you
I am burning in desire
For us to connect in flames

Požari

Your face in my palms cries.
Your pride fades
with every mistake you do as a man.

This is how a woman howls.
This is how
a woman 
howls.

I want power
I want power over you.
I want your tears.
I wanna break you.

I want power
I want power over you.
I want your tears.
I wanna hurt you.

This is how a woman howls.
This is how
a woman
howls.

Cause you’re beautiful, so god damn beautiful...
Cause you’re beautiful, so god damn beautiful
in your lie.
I want power
I want power over you.
I want your tears.
I wanna break you.


Woman

Hvala

Her dark materials

This is what will happen, she said.
You won’t die. You can’t be dead.
Every particle that was once YOU
Will loosen up and flow, flow…

(Look at the sky, isn't it beautiful?)

And all your dæmons aren't just NOTHING now
All the power that was once in them
Has gone into the air
And the wind
And the trees
And the earth
And the sea
And the sun
And the clouds
And the rain
And the dark
And the light


So forget the jealous, vengeful God
and other names 
they used to describe their fear

It’s a blasphemy

STARS died so you could be alive
Nothing else
Nothing more
Nothing less

Then the STARS

And the wind
And the trees
And the earth
And the sea
And the sun
And the clouds
And the rain
And the dark
And the light

*sound clip inserted: Maori soldiers performing "haka"

Her dark materials

No one
no name
is chain
strong enough.

I gave you my wishes
you gave me promises.
Chains.
Burns flesh. Burns flesh. 

Cry my name.


No name

Stranac

Gdje si ti
dok pored tebe leži meko tijelo tople žene
gdje si ti
kad šapućem ti ime zadnjim dahom što ga nosim
u grudima


Priznaj mi
U stranom tijelu nema duše...
Priznaj mi
U stranom tijelu nema duše...

Gdje si ti?
Dok uz tebe ležim snena, tražim topli zagrljaj
Gdje si ti?
U obrisima mraka tražim onog kojeg znam.
Priznaj mi...

U stranom tijelu nema duše
U stranom tijelu nema ljubavi...

***

glazba: Robert Hrušovar
vokali: Shaita

In Memoriam 
dragom Robertu, od srca <3

Album

On/a (Robert Hrušovar & Shaita) - Stranac

U mraku

Mirujem,
držim dah
polako tonem u san.

hipnotiziran
hipnotiziram

Mirujem
brojim dah (1, 2, 3)
uvlačim se
u tvoj mrak.

Ti i ja u mraku
Ti i ja...

“Ti ne toneš
ti se uspinješ u san
na bijelim konjima jašeš
do oblaka”
Ti kažeš da ne tonem
ja se uspinjem u san
na bijelim konjima jašem
do oblaka

Ti i ja u mraku
ti i ja...


(glas iz snova: Gregor)

*****


In the dark

I am still
I hold my breath
slowly, I'm falling asleep

hypnotized

I am still,
I'm counting my breaths (1, 2, 3)
I' m slithering into your dark

You and I in darkness
You and I

You are not falling
you are ascending to sleep
on white horses you ride
towards the clouds

You tell me:
I’m not falling
I am ascending to sleep
on white horses I'm riding
towards the clouds.

You and I in darkness
You and I...

(Voice from dreams: Gregor)


U mraku

Noise (behind eyelids)

Inside my self
color blind
behind
(white, thick veil)

she never meant to hurt you
she never meant to die
she lies so still
her echo
prays/ plays

(white, thick veil)

This noise behind
thick, white veil

She still dreams
behind my eyelids
a trace of light
once so strong
now erased
her echo stays.


Noise (behind eyelids)

Desire

She lies in silence
her prayers echo through the hall
I think I hear manifestation
of her thoughts

As you pray

Desire, black and sleek,
under her skirt
hides the face of her dreams

Desire, bitter sweet,
under her skirt
tastes of defeat

It is him in you and me in him and her in me and you and me

She prays in silence,
her thoughts echo through the halls
I think I hear manifestation
of her prayers

I think I hear
desire
as you pray

(growls: courtesy of Gregor:)

Desire

Dreams of waves

Deep, dark water
spills around my pillow
(dive in)
dreams of waves
crashing in

Pounding sound

Waves rise above my head
breathe in
and let them in

Cause deep, dark water
keeps crashing in
pounding sound

Dreams of waves, dream of waves...


Dreams of waves

Naked

I am naked
Broken shell and glass
Gradient of white and black
My history

I am lost in front of you

Forgive me my timidity
I learned how to hide naked, in the crowd
Forgive me my belligerence
I learned how to close my naked eyes.

Forgive me my naivety
I’ll learn how to  stand naked in the crowd
Forgive me my experience
I’ll learn how to  see with naked eyes.

This is my first step
To feel alive
Opening my eyes
To feel
Alive.


Naked

Earth, salt, fire

I collect our memories as pearls
and I wear them as the ocean wears the sun 
I collect your wolves
and in time
their song became mine

We have nothing but now… 
and all the mirrors in the world can not get us back

We are the will in motion 
Dim light drowned in deepest ocean
We are the waves… 
the earth the salt and the fire

Dark seas, and mountains woven in our names.

We have nothing but now… 
and all the mirrors in the world can not get us back

Earth, salt, fire

Roses are red, violets are blue. I am a split personality and so am I.

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and...

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