some shoddy instrumental I made last year in FL Studio for a cover mashup I did not end up making

I'm sure you can guess at least one of the songs

Maps For You V1

This is the instrumental version of a song that'll be on an upcoming EP.

Yes, the sample is from an After movie, but actually it's from Kennie J.D.'s review of said movie at the timestamp - https://youtu.be/YtfJe-vYeS0?si=h_zvtNoD5_tchvcM&t=964

I made this in June of 2022 so now the reference is even more outdated. LOL, hope to see you when the version with vocals

harass_meant_what (Instrumental Version)

This is the second single for tonight, in anticipation of an upcoming EP. This song is an instrumental. Let me know what you think of the unintentional "logo" I made of my name.

Workings Of A Directionless Rube

All WP pictures were taken from "21 Questions" music video.
left KB picture -- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEIYRk2y5Ow
right KB picture -- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvzQ4pjncGU

Recording/personal details (if you care), but I was sick: https://problemswithouruniverse.blogspot.com/2019/08/21-underage-questions.html

I rediscovered Awsten and Travis' Slumber Party; listen to it!

[verse 1]
I wish there was a situation to be mad at
Or a person I could blame
 Young, all we ever think about is fun
All we ever want to be is twenty one
 I have this loud mouth, I am pale with ghost obsession,
but behind scenes with her, I play 21 Questions.
What is your reason to keep your guy in hiding?
 Hey, doesn't everyone want to sit on top of world?
Does it not revolve around athletic boys
and girls dressed up in their older sister's clothes?
 I become what I have hated
But your talk is so inviting
 R. Kelly on the radio, screaming out, "How could this ever get old?"

[Pre-Chorus]
But then what?
You drop your guy and take me on
It is everything I wanted
but then what?
Would you get tired of my time?

[Chorus]
Racin' cars and breakin' hearts
First taste of love and twist off wine   		
My mood is dictated by our conversations.
If you do not text, then I get too frustrated.
Kissin' strangers, darin' danger
Burnin' bridges, crossin' lines				
I want you all to myself this time	 
Conflicted looks good on me
I'm trying desperately 
You never think to take it slow
when you don't know what you don't know				
I want you all to myself this time                                     
The nights are young and our IDs are fake              
Underage, underage

[verse 2]
We never have to	
Carefully shape sentences	
When we have some words to say			      
They fall from my mouth from the time	       
That they hit my brain                                        
Does time feel like it is always on your side?
Is that why we fill it up with midnight drives?
Do you have to lie to your momma when she asks you where you have been?
Yeah, you hide your smile and say anywhere but with them
Because you know when she was seventeen
She was doin' those same things
Because we built a picture made for frames 
We live in chemistry away from all wasted time and taste

[Pre-Chorus  + Chorus]

[Bridge]		
We built a picture made for frames	     
We live in chemistry away from all wasted time and taste
And it sucks to sleep			       
because you are not talking to me
I want to give you space				
but the amount between us is wrecking me

Every light is sayin' go
when you don't know what you don't know
  
But then what?    
You dropped your guy and took me on
It is everything I wanted
but then what?
Would you get tired of my time?
Because then what?
You dropped your guy and took me on
It was everything I wanted
But then what?
Am I in his position now?
Because then what?
You dropped your guy and took me on
It was everything I wanted
But then what?
Would you get tired of my time?

[Chorus]

[outro]
(oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)
I will forget you if you need me to
(oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Like nothing ever happened
(oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)
My sun still sets without you	    
(oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Like nothing ever happened
                                
Young, all we ever think about is fun
Doesn't everyone?

"21 Underage Questions" - Waterparks vs Kelsea Ballerini (acoustic mashup demo)

Inspired by that friend I sent my previous demo.
I actually did interpolate those songs in my tags, although not well.

[LYRICS]
Thanks for all that truth you bring
reminding me that I'm a whore
I did not need to remember that any more
Than I already do to keep myself self-aware
And ensure that I am scared
Of everything


B			C#m
I know that you'd never call me a slut,
but I would
		G#m
and that's self-depreciation, but so what?
I said what I could
and took it for granted
that you [could/would] listen
whenever I vented

C#m			  B
Constantly complained and barely even meant it
	A			D
Reading it over, it was clearly egocentric
	A		Bm7
Now I am jealous because you have friends and
I am too nervous to talk to them when
You are around or we're sitting down
To eat out our problems
Now I am losing pounds
Yet drowning in my weight
I already ate enough
I can never make enough
sense of issues I made up
and
I am sinking
You are wading
And I wait for another chance

I know that you'd never call me a slut,
but I would
and that's self-depreciation, but so what?
I said what I could
Never said what I needed, so no one could feed it
Still do not know what 'it' is except that it is lacking
Leaving slack on the rope to keep my jaw open
Sometimes I was hopeless, so I said it loud
so you go in my mouth, now I can't tell you nothing

	Asus2				    C#m
My ground and misaligned teeth were hard to clean
			F#m			G#m	
but now that they are straight, messes are easy to see

Self-Sinking, So What?

I WILL RE-RECORD THIS, but no one was on my page for quality.

[Lyrics]
G
Get yourself together
	 D
I do not want to see you die
  Bm
I regret letting you fail
		Em	F#m
But those choices were never mine


Bsus2
but you saw us again soon
Esus4
you know now that they loved you
Asus2
and they were more excited than I was
	D					F#min		  Emin
[but by power vested in me, I was interested to see how far you would come]
Bm			    Asus2
could have seen progress in some months

     G
When you had to leave us,
   A   (C)	  C
we all could have cried
Em					Bm7		F#m
distressed emptiness distracted us from moving on with life

Bm
but you saw us again soon
D			Em
you know now that they loved you
		  A
and I do not know how to
C#('open g string')
reconcile how we talked for
    C('open g string')
the longest time
	    G
but now the last time
	    Bsus4
we talked I was a bore
	C(bb5)		 C#m(bb5)
it'd be a chore to reconnect
	F#m
properly
and I'm lying on the floor
	   G
I get that nothing went wrong
	    C
don't gotta cry anymore
	    C#m(bb5)
don't gotta sing no sad songs
Asus2
about you

F#m
you made new friends
   Bm			 G
it didn't have to be the end
    D
but in time I find
Em
   it was destined

honest a.m4a || DEMO

Do not worry! I will re-record this. Also, I made up these "chord names", but I do know what they refer to.

[Lyrics]
(Dsus2 = D E A)
I know I'm wrong and I should hate it
(Cmaj = C E G)
But for now I can tolerate it
(Amin = A C E)          (Fmaj = F A C)
Sick of my mind being second-rate and
(F#min = F# A C#)             (Bbdim = Bb Db Fb = A# C# E)
You say that I'm smart but I'm overrated

Esus4
No one expects me to be delinquent
Dmaj(bb5)    D(bb5sus2)	    Dmaj	     Bm
Well, I'm disappointed that you didn't think that

  Em		  D       C
I thought that you did not care if I lived or died
	     Asus4
but you were trying to say you were a friend of mine
	      A7
I realized in time
				     (A add4? add11? it's the top two notes)
Questioned my doubts, tried to reach some sublime
A(bb5)
state of mind

Asus2
But it bobbed down
	   Esus2   B		C#m
below what average I might have met
	A	E		C#m
Default to same structures like I never went
B	A	  E		  C#m		B
Away, I still use keys from where I should have left
B7        A     A7
And moved on by now
B	F#m	    	F#	   C#sus2
But I fail to reach standards that I ought to set
G#m	A	B	F#m
 Just to be on par with how you are


  E			C#m	  D
I wish that you did not care if I lived or died
A		F#m		     G#m
Then I would not feel so shameful to try

'Cause I don't know how to do my best 'cause I've never been put to the test
     G#m   C#m		 (mix)		B	    A
So I go to complete this task and I inevitably hesitate

And every time you say that there are only so many chances, I think every one of them's a waste

unknown.m4a || DEMO

Updated description: Paranoia is a mental health symptom I don't experience and do not wish to bastardize, and therefore I'm going to either remove the song this was from or update the lyrics to be more in line with the concepts I'm actually referring to. 

Original description: I wrote this little snippet in November, and now I already graduated. I can't write songs for shit.

[Lyrics]
perinatal paranoia
Graduation takes its toll on me

perinatal paranoia.m4a

Sub-par singer/songwriter, mashup maker, "plays" guitar and keyboard.
I'll eventually publish something, I promise!!

Cecil Arjun

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