nobody

i pay no attention to the dates anymore
i live clear knowing it doesnt matter when or when, we're gore
oh baby you're such a bore

あなたのために死ねる
あなたのために狂える
何回言わせる気
待ってる 待ってる 待ってる
電話して 電話して 電話して
もう限界 限界 限界
また無無無視される
また嘘つかれる また傷つく
また戻ってくる バカみたい
殺して 殺して
このまま殺して
生きてる意味ない
あなた無しじゃ
待ってる 待ってる
ずっと待ってる
永遠に待ってる

matteru

now&when

make me bleed again

through life alone
blue light in my bones
heart like broken glass
love is something I don’t
they said "heal and grow"
but they don't even know
I choke on my hope
'cause it hurts to be known
say I'm barely alive
say I'm dead in my mind
say I'm fading away
say I'll never be saved
say I'm hard to forgive
say I’m too scared to live
say I'm wasting my days
i say it to myself every day

im worthless

cover made by: https://www.instagram.com/yamivamp666/

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/3u77rg1D1uka9Iyc4EuOB2?si=da040f9bd07b4ba0
apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/im-not-a-creep-single/1851970006
discord server: https://discord.gg/pssbgjWS5m

lyrics:
cutting my wrists till i black out
baby u will hear no sound
blowing my fucking brains out
i think that in blood i drown
i will kms (myself) if u dont care enough
i am not a creep (i just) forgot my medicine

dont know what i should do right now
i feel like dying somehow

i will crashout to the song
all i do is always wrong
i should fucking leave my zone

fucked up - my life
i dont need to say goodbye
leaving me - alone
staring into my phone
2x

dont break - just forget about it
just kill - anyone who wants it
dont break - just forget about it
just kill - anyone who wants it

dont know what i should do right now
i feel like dying somehow

fucked up - my life
i dont need to say goodbye
leaving me - alone
staring into my phone
2x

I'm Not A Creep

mirror theme 1

[p. kaimyo]

damn its [today] already?
whats next?
[tomorrow]? fuck everything.


i gave you everything you wanted
pin me down i won't resist
i swear i'd let you ruin me
just to feel like i exist

and you look past me like i'm nothing
like i never even tried
oh how the world would burn completely
if you let me back inside

you mean everything to me
in this life we could've had
i'll let you tear me open
watch me bleed and make it last

am i something you remember
or did i fade away again
maybe i lost myself completely
trying to be what you wanted then

and you look past me like i'm nothing
like i never even tried
oh how the world would burn completely
if you let me back inside

do i cross your mind at all
or am i easier to forget
did i ever mean a thing
or was i just the easiest to get

you mean everything to me
in this life we could've had
i'll let you tear me open
watch me bleed and make it last

you mean everything to me, in this life we couldve had

song by my bloody valentine


lyrics (these r from genius; i was really just singing what i heard in the song):
When I look at you
Oh, but I don't know what's real
Once in a while
And you make me laugh
And I'll sleep tomorrow
And it won't be long
Once in a while
Then you take me down
When you walk away

When you say "I do"
Oh, but I don't believe in you
I can't forget it, ooh
When you sleep tomorrow
And it won't be long
Once in a while
When you make me smile
And you turn your long blonde hair

When I look at you
Oh, but I don't know what's real
Once in a while
And you make me laugh
And I'll sleep tomorrow
And it won't be long
Once in a while
Then you take me down
When you walk away



When You Sleep

[p. kaimyo]

its crazy how if u get good grades they let u raw dog autism your whole life

begged for my begging
got on my knees
breaking for this wreckage
oh, so willingly.

pieces i had stored
you threw them all away
curious, oh so bitter
like you didnt make me this way

wreck me down, tell me whats left?
you've used me up, nothing but theft.
id be whatever, if it kept you here
even if, im not enough.

you only call when you need something
i answer every time
you know i'll come running back
you know i'm fucking mine

let me know that u hate me
force me not to leave
this is what u wanted right
you kiss me till i cant breathe

am i punishment or prize
do you love me or despise
everything i've given you
everything i'd die to prove

wreck me down, tell me whats left?
you've used me up, nothing but theft.
id be whatever, if it kept you here
even if, im not enough.

lotus seeds [outro]

someday i’ll play this song in a stadium 
lyrics:
time 
is moving out of course
why? (are you so out of reach)
Now there is nothing left 
so i can’t have peace of mind but at least i wont be dead 
in the end i trusted you now there is nothing left 

is it easier just to start again? 
living everyday, don’t pretend 

i see you tell all your other friends 
the ones that will never know my name 
it doesn’t matter, i could say anything 
and what difference does it make?
now you should be holding me 
now you should be holding me 
you should be holding me 


in the end i trusted you now there is nothing 
nothing not no nothing not no nothing 
no no nothing left 

was it easier just to walk away 
leave it all behind in the rain 

i made a song and called it don’t pretend 
but you don’t understand what i was trying to say 
i see you laughing with your other friends 
you’re never gonna like it anyways 
now you should be holding me 
now you should me holding me 

time 
is passing me right by 
why? 
must i feel paralyzed? 

so i can’t have peace of mind but at least i wont be dead 
in the end i trusted you now there is nothing left 
hello? 
every night i pray for you
i wonder what you’re up late doing 
if i had more time i’d give it all up for you 

now you should be holding me 
now you should me holding me 
you should be holding me 

would it be easier to start again 
like we’re strangers just pretend 
pretend that it wasn’t meant to be 
why can’t you be holding me? 
why can’t you be holding me? 
why can’t you be holding me