This song is a reflection on the darker aspects of our world, where beauty is often masked by pain and fear. The lyrics paint a picture of a fragile reality, where lies and illusions are used to hide the truth. The music is a fusion of haunting melodies and driving rhythms, creating a sense of tension and urgency. The song's themes of disillusionment and the struggle for truth are woven throughout the lyrics, with a sense of desperation and frustration. The music is a call to wake up to the reality of our world and to fight against the forces that seek to control and manipulate us.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Woke up to whispers the sky turned black
Shadows creeping ribcage cracks
A fragile world glazed gold in fear
All the beauty masked in tears 

[Verse 2]
Fire burns the edges yet the center’s cold
The lies they tell are worn and old
Perfect smiles cloaked in pain
Dancing circles in the acid rain 

[Chorus]
This is the glory the life we prayed
Bound to dreams in shrouds decayed
Eden’s illusion lights our cries
A throne of ashes under painted skies 

[Bridge]
Pulse of thunder drums in my veins
A piano wails screams through chains
Glitching stars their voices scream
Through the void of a broken dream 

[Verse 3]
Hands entwined in labyrinth maze
Chaos tangling love and haze
Tidal waves crash walls of peace
Siren songs calling won’t release 

[Chorus]
This is the glory the life we claimed
A fleeting lie a cursed parade
Eden’s demise carved in our eyes
But still I fight as the world denies


A Throne of Ashes

#420 is holding my head together like glue

Organics

Unfortunately, this isn't a song about my own mom, 😢 but I know there are lots of people out there who've been blessed with mothers like the one in this song. This song is a tribute to those incredible women who offer unconditional love, support, and guidance. It's about the safe haven that a mother's love provides and the strength it gives their children to face life's challenges. I hope this song resonates with you if you've had a mom in your life who's been your rock, your confidante, and your forever home. My mom has always loved me, but... well, it's complicated. 😢


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
You held my hand through every storm,
You kept me safe, you kept me warm,
Your voice a song, your smile a light,
You made the world feel so right. 

[Pre-Chorus]
Every heartbeat, every prayer,
I feel your love everywhere. 

[Chorus]
You’re always my home, wherever I go,
The arms I run to, the heart that I know,
Through every season, through every song,
With you, I’m forever strong.
You’re always my home. 

[Verse 2]
You taught me how to dream and fight,
To find the magic in the night,
You gave me wings, you gave me ground,
With every word, love’s sweetest sound. 

[Pre-Chorus]
Every heartbeat, every prayer,
I feel your love everywhere. 

[Chorus]
You’re always my home, wherever I go,
The arms I run to, the heart that I know,
Through every season, through every song,
With you, I’m forever strong.
You’re always my home. 

[Verse 3]
Now I’m grown but still I find,
Your voice, your light, inside my mind,
The dance goes on, and through it all,
You lift me every time I fall. 

[Bridge]
Oh, there’s no road too far, no night too long,
When I hear your laughter, it’s my favorite song.
You’re the reason, the dream, the love in me —
Forever and always, you’ll always be... 

[Chorus]
You’re always my home, wherever I go,
The arms I run to, the heart that I know,
Through every season, through every song,
With you, I’m forever strong.
You’re always my home. 

[Chorus]
You’re always my home, wherever I go,
The arms I run to, the heart that I know,
Through every season, through every song,
With you, I’m forever strong.
You’re always my home. 

[Outro]
Always my home...
Always my home...
With you, I’m forever strong...
Always my home.


Always My Home

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Are You Alright Little Snowflake?
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Are U Alright Little Snowflake?

Recorded at Saint-Lô (Manche- France) in May 2025

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WarningxJauzxGhastly(BeaTrainMix)(Dubstep)

Shadows dance where the secrets lie Whispers echo beneath the sky A thousand faces yet none to see Who holds the key to eternity

Riddle of souls .mp3

Ever spiraled so hard you turned your Civic into a crime scene of defeat? I Laughed Too Hard and Peed My Pants (a little bit) is a funk-fueled anxiety attack in musical form. With shaky slap bass, sweaty synths, whispered self-talk, and tempo shifts that mirror a full-blown shame spiral, this alt-pop meltdown is painfully specific, hilariously relatable, and cathartic as hell. A sonic car crash of nerves and weirdness—but you showed up anyway. And sometimes, that's enough to win the damn day.

Lyrics:

I laughed too hard and peed my pants—(a little bit).
Podcast hit, I lost my grip.
Now I’m cruisin’ through town with a secret drip,
Headin’ to a job that I might not get,
But I sure as hell won’t forget this shit.

Coffee hit, nerves on edge,
Resume printed on a ketchup-smeared pledge.
Car seat damp, and it ain’t from rain—
Just my own shame in a denim stain.

Mirror check—do I smell like fear?
Should I fake a spill? Cry a single tear?
They said “be yourself,” well here I am…
Slightly damp and questioning man.

Do I own it? Do I run?
Do I sit on a folder ‘til the interview’s done?
Can I pass off sweat as fate?
Or say it’s just my natural state?

I’m spiraling in traffic, in a moist regret cocoon,
Turned my car into a pressure-packed cartoon.
Shame’s got a playlist, and it’s on repeat—
And this seat’s now a crime scene of defeat.

Receptionist smile—too bright, too wide,
Do they know my jeans are secretly fried?
Crossed my legs like I’m deep in thought,
But mostly just hiding the war I fought.

“You’re fine.”
“You’re ruined.”
“It’s not noticeable.”
“It’s ALL they’ll see.”
“You’re still worthy.”
“But also—pee.”

I’m spiraling, but I showed up still,
With half-dry pants and unmatched will.
You want resilience? You want raw?
Try shaking hands when your bladder just sawed off law.

Got the job. Or maybe not.
But I faced the day… with a damp-ass spot.
And that’s more courage than I thought I got.

I Laughed Too Hard And Peed My Pants (A Little Bit)

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
I never took the field even one single time 
But I was prepared just the same. 

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
Three of my team mates would have had to be injured 
Before I could enter the game

The legendary quarterback Sir Francis Tarkenton was my prepubescent quarterbacking hero 
He was a smaller man compared to all the big men on the team but he could scramble round, maneuver quick and bob 

And I dreamt that I could play like him, I practiced in the backyard but the chances of that turned out to be zero 
And I tried out for the football team my freshman year in high school with my heart set on the quarterbacking job 

Just like Francis I was smaller than my team mates, 
But, as they say, to our genetics we are shackled 
I didn’t have a rocket for an arm to be completely honest, all my passes were like badly wounded ducks 
I tried to scramble like the legendary Francis, 
but I was way too slow and always wound up tackled 
“he’s a pretty decent fellow” was the general consensus 
but at football this poor white kid really sucks”

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
I never took the field even one single time 
But I was prepared just the same. 

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
Three of my classmates would have had to be injured 
Before I could enter the game

If our number one quarterback heaven forbid, were laid flat by an oncoming train 
And our number two quarterback, heaven forbid, were to fall down and rupture his knee
And our number three quarterback, heaven forbid, were to suffer with unbearable pain 
Then who can step in and lead the team onto victory, that’s right, you guessed it, it’s me!  

Fast forward to the last game of our season, seconds left, we were way ahead the game now out of reach 
I was sitting on my ordinary spot upon the bench and I heard the coach was yelling out for me
I ran over and he grabbed me by the face mask, very sternly, with conviction like a pastor did he preach
He said, “this will be the last play of your quarterback career Just take the snap and then you get down on one knee” 


So I ran out on the field for the last play of the game 
Just a second left was showing on the clock 
And I wondered what would happen if I scrambled like Sir Francis 
unexpected, to the end zone I could walk! 
So I took the snap and scrambled to the right with no one blocking 
They all looked at me like I was some buffoon 
And I tripped and fell and that was it my final game was over 
But Fran Tarkenton was there that afternoon

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
I never took the field even one single time 
But I was prepared just the same. 

I was the 4th string quarterback 
Of the Danville High School Vikings 
Three of my classmates would have had to be injured 
Before I could enter the game

The Fourth String Quarterback

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