A test for UTAU. This is my first time writing music with vocals.
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ああ　思うと夢は
想像の欠片でしかなく
儚い希望の
欠片を集めたもの
ああ　きっとそう
だから私は夢を
日記に書くの
忘れないためにね
だから私は待つ
永遠に寝れる
その日を

Yumenikki [UTAU Test]

A re-upload of my first-ever original vocaloid song. Here's the lyrics, since I derped out and forgot to put them last time.

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“I hear breathing down my back…”

A
I’m not sure how much more I can take this
I’m not sure how much more I can stand
“Tomorrow is another day” they say
The future is your friend

Chorus
Five days I have left to go
Five more nights in hell
The child in the dark, he screams
Your ears will serve you well

B
“Tomorrow is another day” they say
My brother taunts me again today
I saw the man in the freddy’s suit you see
Nightmares won’t let me be

Chorus
Five days I have left to go
Five more nights in hell
The child in the light, he cries
Your eyes will deceive you

X
Run, run child run
Don’t look back, you still have time
Curse him for making you hate us 
Curse him for making you fear us 
We are your friends
We are still your friends
And when your brother breaks you

We will fix you

[Vocaloid Oliver Original] Breathing [FNAF 4]

All Japanese 'cause Imma make a Japanese vocaloid cover this later. Anyways, here's the lyrics: (no English translation unless someone asks 'cause I'm lazy, sorry)
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親の愛に恵まれなかった子供は
何らかの愛を探して　三千里
止むことなく振り続ける豪雨は
少女の探す　愛の形に似ていた

何をどこにどうすれば
私は変われるのか
何をどこにどうすれば
私はいい子になれるのか
考えてもわからないことばかり

親の愛に恵まれなかった子供は
ただただ認められたくて　愛探す
変わりたくても変われない少女は
涙枯らして　諦めることを知る

何をどこにどうすれば
私は変われるのか
何をどこにどうすれば
私はいい子になれるのか
考えてもわからないことばかり

ああ

親の愛に恵まれなかった子供は
いつか親を殺そうかと　空睨む
いつまでたっても雨が降り続ける
あとの祭りは　神のみぞ知っている

[Oliver] 親に愛されない子供は [VOCALOIDオリジナル曲]

v4　フラワちゃんの名前にもじって花っぽい曲を書いてみました。

I'll put up a translated lyrics if somebody asks me to, but basically this song is about war and flowers.

誰かボカロの調教についておせーて下さるとうれしいな・・・
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歌詞：

昔の話を語ろうか。
花が咲くその前の話。
人も獣も悪にまみれた頃
世界は戦に疲れ
空は赤に染まれたあの時の話

覚えてるかい？僕を殺した
あの人の顔。
悔やんでるかい？僕を救えなかった
君の事。

僕も君も子供だったのさ
大人の言う事に従う
ただのただの子供だった
悲しかったよ、虚しかった
君に殺されて僕はずっと待っていたよ

ねえ、そんな顔しないで
僕はもう許したんだ
ねえ、そんなに気にしないで
僕らはもう同じになった

僕の上に花が咲くよ
君の上にも花が咲くよ

覚えてるかい？僕を殺した
あの時の顔。
悔やんでるかい？僕を救えなかった
君の事。


[v4 Flower] 花 [Vocaloidオリジナル曲]

Now he's all alone.

(But seriously, I'm loving the clarity of his voice omfg)

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Lyrics:

Alone the dog howls to the moon
"Where have they gone too?"
“Save me, save me” he says
“Save me, save me”

He’s alone
He’s alone
Now he’s all alone
Alone

[Dex] I didn't buy Daina... [Vocaloid Original Song]

aka. Remember That Rock Song WIP. Yeah.

Original Composition: Shius
Additional instruments, Mixing and Mastering: Steampianist
Lyrics and Tuning: Tsus

More info on YT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UABVF6xfrJM&feature=youtu.be

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Lyrics:
These Memories
Killing Me
Watch Me Fall Down
Wearing A Frown
Now You Went Away
Cannot Breathe
All Alone
Should Have Never Called You Home

Flashing Pictures
Weighs Me Down
And I Don't Want You Now
No More
Failing Me
Losing Me

Ah~

Reliving Memories
Over Again
Wearing A Crown
Now You Went Away
Now I Breathe
Not Alone
Should Have Always Called Me Home


Flashing Pictures
Weighs Me Down
And I Don't Want You Now
No More
Failing Me
Losing Me

Ah~

These Memories
Killing Me
Watch Me Fall Down
Yelling A Sound
Now You Went Away
Can You Breathe
All Along
Should Have Never Sang This Song

[V4 Flower] Memories [Vocaloid Original Song]

Hahhhhhhhhhh. I actually love rapping, fuck me.

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Lyrics:

Shade number 1 you start off with nothin’
There’s no pain your chest, you still live for somethin’
Then it begins and your world gets darker
The doubt crawls in and won’t wait much longer ‘fore you
Stop seeing the world as it is, see the shadows start to crawl out from within

Shade number 2 the world’s a bit hazy
You’ve been crying a bit, but you’re still there for someone
Start seeing the world as a darker place
Look at the sky as the colors fade away
But let the rain pour down, there’s always another day.

Chorus
There is always another day
Always another way
Another way out here
Another way out there
Get away from here
Don’t become me, that’s all I-

Shade number 3’s where things start getting bad
The world’s your enemy, no friends there for you and you,
Start glaring at the world from a blacker place
Nobody loves you, no friends nor family and
You take the knife out, start to play with it, if pain gets in the way, smile wide and kill it

Shade number 4 you wish you were never born
Looking up just to see the world untorn and you
Keep wishing that someone would just kill you
Take the pain away, before you go crazy and 
Kill someone, or kill yourself, it doesn’t matter no more, this toy is off the shelf

Chorus
There is always another day
Always another way
Another way out here 
Another way out there
Get away from here 
Don’t become me, that’s all I can say


Shade number 5 and you’re about to die
Gotta go, gotta go, the voices tell me so, and
Hallucinations litter your surroundings
You’ve been killing them in your sleep, and you just cannot
Live on! Go on! In a world that only tells you you’re wrong

So what do you do? Do you kill them or die?
Most people choose the latter, but I chose the first and
Here I go, here I go again, wishing I hadn’t chickened out before and
Wishing that I had killed the kids then
Maybe I wouldn’t be here just rapping and
Living on! Going on! In a world that only tells me I’m wrong!

In a world that only tells me I’m already gone!


[Vocaloid X Rap] 5 Shades Of Depression [Original song ft. Vocaloid Oliver]

hur hurrr. I actually wrote and recorded this earlier than 5 shades, so I've been sitting on it longer, and it has a LOT more detail.

Special thanks to Tsus for writing the chorus and tuning Oliver for me! A LIFESAVER and one of the best friends I ever had is what he is, I swear.

My Twitter: @smallratt
Tsus's Twitter: @TSCOTSM 

Tsus's Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/tsutauseries
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Lyrics:
Rap
Yo,

I started writing this rap, when I was all alone. Just back from work, another day in this hole 24
Spit out all my fears, saw what made me crazy. Talked into the dark, saw the world get hazy 22
Do you know what it’s like to be me? 10
To have PTSD and depression, 10

In a world where everything’s lost and the ones who are found are the ones who don’t wanna be no, 23
In a plane where wherever you go is a ghost of a place it once used to be 21
To be me is to dream of reality 11
But to dream is not always to face your fantasies 13

So all I can be is me
Right here
Watch how the gates open
For someone else, oh
Someone but me
And I am still here standing

Hey, you still there? I ain’t done yet! Haven’t gone down to the darkest part yet
Get set and go, but my flow is too slow, all I got with me are the seeds I gotta sow
In your brain hear the rhymes of the dark times
Me and my friends they all know where the soul lies

In the pit of your chest where there is no light, is your heart that is beating bright
No right or wrong, just sing your song, that’s where your heart belongs
But who can save you when that right is denied, and your forced to walk their life
Oh does that hurt? Is that what it feels? To be me in my teenage years?

So where do I go now?
Still here
Watch how the gates open
For someone else 
Someone but me
And I am still here standing

No this can’t be, all that makes me! Darkness lies, but the voices save me
All I can do is dream outta this nightmare. All I can do is run away from what’s right there!
Oh you don’t know, how my flow goes, throw out my pride, right out the window!
Watch it fall, as it shatters in pieces! Make me a slave to these human feces!

Oh no, where do I go? Ain’t got no place and my parents don’t love me no!
Don’t got time for my shit, I got to go! Home is the place where only I don’t belong
Please please, someone save me! Can’t save myself and I’m screaming for mercy!
All I can hear is lies and heresy! All I can hear is lies around me!

All I ever wanted
Right here
Watch how the gates they close
And I'm left out
broken to pieces
And I am still here standing

Oh no
Watch how the rain falls
Watch how it breaks me
What keeps me standing?
What keeps me standing?

The truth my friends speak are the only things that make me
Alone in this world, but still somebody saves me – I’m nothing more than what you people gave me
One day I hope to move on and have all I need
To be me is to see what I don’t have to be



[Vocaloid X Rap] To Be Me [Original song ft. Vocaloid Oliver & Tsus]

A one minute copy of GHOST's music style. Which I failed at terribly.

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Lyrics:
rain
don't go away
let the sun hide
and I'll remain the same

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Short analysis of Ghost's style:

-Ambient noises
-Angry distorted piano
-Not delicate (I made it too delicate)
-God-like tuning of vocaloids
-Ambiguous lyrics

Check my twitter out here: https://twitter.com/smallratt

[Style meme] A Ghost's Lament [Vocaloid Oliver Original Song]

Can I feel like I'm alive again

Composing/Mixing: Shius (https://twitter.com/smallratt)
Lyrics/Vocal Melody/Tuning: ANGST (https://twitter.com/semi_auto_angst)
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Lyrics:
Even I can't tell you the truth
Nothing matters at all
Flying crows can't tell you that thing
They look at me and cry
Under a tree of tears

Tell me to cry behind those fears
What a shame for me to be near you

Is it truly a shame to hide like you
Behind your god too
Behind my door
If living is wrong, what do I do?
Shame others like you?
Out of question
I don't want to break yet
Cloudy skies
I want to gaze out just one more time
Don't tell me what to do
Don't tell me what to believe 

Farther from home, in my bedroom
I contemplate demise
"Is it worth it?"
Why do you ask?
Life has no meaning

Finally you realize it's the end
Turning back's pointless
Listen this time
Why can't I fight alone with my strength?
I try to find it, the honest me
Deceptions cloud my every thought
My breath won't come
Shaking until the morn
Telling myself I am not gone

(Rap)
Yo,
If the past is what makes me, then what does that make me?
It ain’t hard to believe, that the other people hate me
Called a ‘waste’ by my family, I ain’t stopping for shit, until you see this is me
This is an anthem, for a “God” and my “family”
This is an anthem, I will show you who I can be

‘cause
All I know, is what the others tell me
God is good and great, but how does that help me?
All I’ve seen, is how my family treats me
But shit can’t get much worse for me so you gotta tell me,
This is an anthem, for the lost and the fallen,
The tricked and forgotten, the children and the lonesome

All we hear is a downbeat anthem.
All we hear, all we hear… 

Won't you just leave me be?
So lonely
Cry out in remorse, no one's listening
Skies cry along with you
Marker or paint washes your face
So unlike you
It's only the morning
Do not hide
"Reality calls" you said that time
Please listen to me now, my dear

[Vocaloid X Rap] Downbeat Anthem [ft. Vocaloid Oliver & ANGST]

まだ死ぬなよ？

To you with the rope in hand.
Don't die yet. Things will change.

Song: Shius
Illustration: Shius
Vocals: 歌愛ユキ(Kaai Yuki)

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Lyrics:

Pre
いつしか時は止まり　君に言った
「何故　まだ生きている」
答えられずに立ち竦んだ　君は
あの頃の僕に　似ていた

Rap 1
「もう、いいか。何もないまま」
「死んじゃって当然だ」空気を掴んでまた
泣いて　ぎりぎり　食いしばって
「さあ、逝こうか」と　ロープを手にとって

さよなら言わずに目つむる君は
さよなら言うこと恐れて逃げた
卑怯なノートだけ残して　バイバイ
希望の言葉も君を救えない

だから　僕らはあえて　歌うんだ
全てを捨てようとする君へ　言わなきゃ。

Chorus
ロープを手にした君へ伝おう
悪夢に終わりを望む　君へ
「それでも君には生きる価値がある」
「それでも僕は君を認める」と

Rap 2
何があったのか　僕には知らない
何を無くしたかは僕は分からない
それでも君は生きてもいいんだと
信じることだけ　止められないんだよ

ねえ、「いつか変わる日が来る」と
嘘のような　本当のことを
誰が言えば　信じるのかって
考えた末に歌を歌って

Chorus
ロープを手にした君へ伝おう
悪夢に終わりを望む　君へ
「それでも君には生きる価値がある」
「それでも僕は君を認める」と

Rap 3
聞けない　綺麗ごと並べる僕は
自殺の底から這い上がったんだ
いつか　落ちる運命と知っても
戦い続けて　ここに来たんだ

何の理由もなく　僕は生きてる
ただただ　自ら少しずつ変わる
死んでいい理由は何処にもないから
願いだけこめて　歌を描いた

End
そして時は再び　動き出し
いつかは決める時が来るのだ
誰の為に生きて　何の為に死ぬか
歩き出すのは　君だけ

ロープを手にした君へ歌おう
悪夢に終わりを望む　君へ
「それでも君には生きる価値がある」
「それでも僕は君を愛する」と

一生　消えない思い出となることをー


[Vocaloid X Rap] ロープを手にした君へ。 [ft. 歌愛ユキ]

アコギ！！！！好き！！！！！！

Song: Shius
Lyrics: こーたろー
Illustration: Shius
Vocals: 歌愛ユキ(Kaai Yuki)

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Lyrics:
（Aメロ）
”さようなら　王子様”
赤黒い涙が
一粒　落ちた
”愛されたことが　罪だ”と
囁く鮫の隣で、
あなたは笑っている

（Bメロ）
傷付いた　あなたへ
目を伏せた 僕へ
今　断罪のワルツが
今　断罪のワルツが
耳を貸して
微笑む　僕に
”偽善だったでしょう？”

きずついたあなたえ
めをふせたぼくえ
いまだんざいのわるつが
いまだんざいのわるつが
みみをかして
ほほえむぼくに
ぎぜんだったのでしょう

（サビ）
よく　お聞きよ
人魚姫は”自分”を選んだのさ
”こんな私は可愛いでしょう？”
嗚呼
頬を撫でた　あなたは醜かった
どうか　口移しで
愛を

よくおききよ
にんぎょうひめわじぶんをえらんだのさ
こんなわたしわかわいでしょ
ああ
ほをなでたあなたわみにくかた
どうかくちうつしで
あいを

（Aメロ）
”私だけの　王子様”
青臭い願いが
淀んで　堕ちた
”信じたことが嘘さ”と
笑う鱓（うつぼ）の隣で、
あなたが歌っている

（Bメロ）
傷付いた　あなたへ
目を伏せた 僕へ
今　断罪のワルツが
今　断罪のワルツが
足を貸して
微笑む　君は
悪魔だったでしょう

（サビ）
よく　お聞きよ
人魚姫は”自分”を選んだのさ
”こんな私は愛しいでしょう？”
嗚呼
頬を撫でた　あなたは醜かった
どうか　口移しで
愛を

[VOCALOIDオリジナル曲] 断罪人魚 [歌愛ユキオリジナル曲]

[EDIT 04/2024]
Lyrics here: https://vocaloidlyrics.fandom.com/wiki/WISH/dreamingP
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THIS WAS A GREAT SONG AND I LOVED IT SO I'M SCREAMING WHILE ARRANGING. HOLY SHIT.

Original video: https://youtu.be/YJTXYYXxm7A

Originally composed by: DreamingP (@dreamingp)
Originally sung by: Kagamine Len
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oh my god it's 1 am and I worked non-stop on a cover what am i doing with my life

[VOCALOID Arrange Cover] WISH [Dex and Oliver]

thIS IS THE BEST SONG I'VE EVER WRITTEN WHAT THE FU C K

Music & Lyrics: Shius
Original idea: こーたろー
Vocals: Dex and Oliver
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Lyrics:
Curly gold locks, lovely flowers by her side
A pretty pink dress as she strides by
Little Thumbalina, our princess and pride

Detained in the castle from the day she was born
She remained with her servant, the little butler boy
Alone with him she played and sang
Her voice was heard across the land

But the day would come, when her first love would appear
With a sparrow’s tailcoat, and his black sleek hair
And the king grew pale, as he realized,
That she wanted none other, than to be the poor butler’s bride

(Chorus)
The princess, unknowing, she yearned for a kiss, she yearned for a kiss
“I’ve never seen the sky, yet I’ve always dreamed to fly, I’ve always dreamed to fly”
“I suppose that the sky’s kind, just like the blue in your eyes, like the blue in your eyes”

The butler smiled back, as he said he would love her
Forever and ever, he would always assure her

If only fate was kind, like the love in their eyes
But it will soon come, when love becomes their demise


Poor but kind-hearted, competent and keen,
A sparrow’s tailcoat, he always kept clean
The butler was called out, by none other than the queen

Her husband angered, the princess’s fiancé even worse
She begged him to leave her, seek a different course
But with a sad smile, and a hand to his chest
The sparrow left the queen’s nest

Now the queen left alone, she thought in solemnity
The lover of her daughter – who was to think he’d be so petty
To choose his love over his life – it really was a pity.
To the death rows he's to go, there was no more saving his soul.

(Chorus)
The princess, unknowing, she yearned for a hug
“I’ve never seen the sky, yet I’ve always dreamed to fly, I’ve always dreamed to fly”
“I suppose the sky’s kind, just like the blue in your eyes, like the blue in your eyes”

The butler smiled back, as he said he would love her
Forever and ever, he would always assure her

But soon the bells will ring, as the sparrow will sing
“Forever and ever”, we’ll always remember


On a cold winter day, the sky was steel blue-grey
The children stared on as the mothers said “Look away”
The sparrow ripped away, from his lover’s sunny haze

Alone, he swore he would never regret this day.

In the warm castle walls, the bells tolled on and on
The princess in her wedding gown, her pure white bridal gown
She looked around, she looked around

Her love was nowhere to be found.

Instead she found the prince, whom she knew she’d never miss, whom she knew she’d never miss
What was the point of this marriage?
He was only in the way of her true love.

She saw his knife, and knew what had to be done

(Chorus)
The princess, unknowing, she yearned for her love
“Finally, I see the sky, I’ve always dreamed to fly, I’ve always dreamed to fly”
And on the rooftop in a vibrant red, she fell to her demise

Forever and ever, she knew he would love her
Forever and ever, he always assured her

And on the hangman’s docks, the final bell had rung,
The time had come, for the sparrow’s last song

“Goodbye, goodbye, I hope we meet again”
“Goodbye, goodbye, I will always love you.”


[Vocaloid Original Song] Little Thumbalina and The Sparrow [Dex & Oliver]

rip my music block

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Lyrics:
Verse 1
Tell me a place I can be happy
Tell me a place I can be free
“Faith Love and Happiness”
“Faith Love and Happiness”
That’s all you give me
That’s all you give me

“Faith Love and Happiness”
“Faith Love and Happiness”

I need to feel free

Chorus
All I want is a life I can call my own
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

All I want is a home I can be alone
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

No I don’t want none of your, no I don’t want
Faith Love and Happiness
Faith Love and Happiness

Let me be free
Let me be free

Verse 2
You will never see the wrongs you did
 “Fake Love and Happiness”
“Fake Love and Happiness”
You will never hear the truths I said

“Fake Love and Happiness”
“Fake Love and Happiness”

That’s all you deserve
That’s all you deserve

Just let go of me

Chorus
All I want is a life I can call my own
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

All I want is a home I can be alone
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

No I don’t want none of your, no I don’t want
Faith Love and Happiness
Faith Love and Happiness

Let me be free
Let me be free

Rap
‘cause I ain’t ever been satisfied with your concept of “Love”
You don’t wanna see the truth that I spit out my mouth
And you can’t seem to see, the things y’all failed to do
So that’s it then goodbye, I guess I’m no longer with you

Though all I see now are the wrongs you’ve done to me
And all you’ll feel now are the pains you want to see
We’ll both forget this ever happened eventually
And hopefully we’ll see the things that have come to be

But right now,
I need to be free.

Chorus
All I want is a life I can call my own
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

All I want is a friend I can call home
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

No I don’t want none of your, no I don’t want
Fake Love and Happiness
Fake Love and Happiness

Not any more
Not any more

[Vocaloid X Rap] Fake Love And Happiness [ft. Dex]

馬鹿と外人のお話。

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Lyrics:
Pre verse
先人は死んで　現世を作った
子供の幸せを願い
完璧な世となるため
異なるものを全てを排除した

全て排除した
全て排除した

Rap
ああそうか、夢を見ていた
平等で平和な世界が載ってた
教科書　あれに何がわかるんだ
今が頂点と語る大人が
何処を見て、そんなこと言うんだ？

若者　死に行く　僕の時代は
自殺に他殺、過労死やその他
働きに就けず　部屋で腐った。
AV　見るのだけが楽しみで
バイトに明け暮れ　お家に帰った。

バイバイ　希望なんてもう無い
しゃあない　首吊って戻れない
秀才　だけの　そんな時代に
頭の空っぽなバカは要らない

頭が空っぽな僕は　要らない。

Chorus
Dead man’s wonderland
消え行くこの世を
Dead man’s wonderland
生きる僕らは
「幸せ」と言われ　初めて気づいた
理想な時代の　理想な住人
これが僕らの役目　役目
これが僕らの運命　運命

Rap2
ハーフに生まれ　日本で育った。
自国知らずの大人になった。
「ビッチ」あたしはそうと呼ばれた
オッサンがセクハラ　電車の中
泣いて　耐えて　震えだした

けど　　愚痴を言い合う　友達もいなくて
腹いせ道具に使われ　何年
経ったか　あたしにもわからない
ただただ　子供を見ては沈んだ
軽蔑を知らぬ　彼らを妬んだ。

「もう　どうでもいい」と嘆いた
「もう　死んじゃいたい」と喚いた
帰りたくても　帰る場所無く
ここしか知らない　自分を呪った。

「国へ帰れ」と　今日も言われた。

Chorus
Dead man’s wonderland
消え行くこの世を
Dead man’s wonderland
生きる僕らは
「幸せ」と言われ　初めて気づいた
理想な時代の　理想な住人
これが僕らの役目　役目
これが僕らの運命　運命だ
End verse
先人は死んで　現世を作った
子供の幸せを願い
完璧な世となるため
異なるものを全てを排除した

異なる僕らは　全て排除した

[Vocaloid X Rap] Dead Man's Wonderland [ft. 歌愛ユキ]

Don't get stuck in the bad end loop.

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Lyrics:
All my life I’d been deprived
Of the things I know are good for me
And in my spite I’ve given up the fight
and let the waters take me


Let the waters take me down


Yeah it’s a bad end life, down the bad end hill
(woah woah)
That’s where I am heading, I have no will to change
‘cause I been beat up, abused, lied to, and used,
I don’t see the point in going on like this
So I’ll head on to the end, adios my friends


I know I’m dying young tonight, as I drink the night away 
I know my insides cannot hide, the hate I feel for them, the hate I feel for them
And they’ll get what they wanted this night, woah, this night


So I’m getting the rope tonight


Yeah it’s a bad end life, down the bad end hill
(woah woah)
That’s where I am heading, I have no will to change
‘cause I been beat up, abused, lied to, and used,
And I don’t see the point in going on like this
So I’ll head on to the end, adios my friends


By the morning I’ll be gone, from this world, woah, from this world
I cannot fake the song, in the end
They hated me, they hated me
And I know I'll make everyone happy


'cause I know I hate me


But then
It makes me mad, that I am to die here, that I am to lose here
And in this world somebody loved me, and I know I refused to see
But stronger hands bring me up, bring me up, when I have lost the bet
And in the end, I wished for the best
for everyone, for everyone

Even though my life was never the best, it never really was the worst
I can still move, I can still move, I will still move, and I will prove them wrong
I’ll live and become better than who they are.
I’ll live and become better than who they are.


My revenge to them is my life


I’ll live and show them “sacrifice”.


Yeah it’s a good end life, up the bad end hill
(woah woah)
That’s where I’m heading, I now have the will to change
‘cause I been beat up, abused, lied to, and used,
And I changed for the better, my will is stronger
So let’s head on to the end, let’s go my friends

[Vocaloid Original Song] Bad End Life [Big Al Original Song]

May or may not finish this.

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Lyrics:
Pre
The world is black, the boy with a bad eye says
They will be back
With harsh words and a dark past
They will be back, they will be –
They have to be.

Chorus
And soon you’ll belong to me, wait and see
And soon you’ll belong to me, you will see

They will be back, they will be back
Just wait and see.

Soundtrack for a game [ft. Oliver]

HAPPY MCFUCKING (late) BIRTHDAY OLIVER!!!!!

YOU ARE MY FIRST VOCALOID AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

(Based on the poem, "The Stolen Child" by W.B. Yeats)
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Lyrics:
Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world’s more full of weeping than you can understand.

[Humming build]

I want to be a real child
With playful little dreams
I want feel alive again
Fairies flying on the seams

They tell me how I’m not like them
The others smirk and laugh
For I am but a puppet
Of the adults idle dreams.

So take me away – I say
Of a world drenched in blood and grey
Take me away, to the wild waters
Where I can forever remain the same.

I want to be a real boy
With tears flowing out my eyes
I want to feel real again
But memories leave me rotting inside

And it hurts, and it hurts
And it hurts so much
When the memories come to get me
My fragile sense of self gets overwhelming

So take me away – I say
Of a world drenched in blood and grey
Take me away, to the wild waters
Where I can forever remain the same.


And the fairy told me,

“When the people hurt you, the fairies will remain”
“Because evil lurks in every form”
“And memories will drown you in the blacking sands of pain”

“So,”

Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world’s more full of weeping than you can understand.

[Vocaloid Original Song] To Be Human [Oliver]

It was cold out that night, but oh... you were so warm.

Tuning and Lyric help: ArrowAceP (@sandriac)
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Lyrics:

So,
I had a friend I used to love, in a way that couples might relate to
They were a tiny dove, so white and pure that even bloodstains couldn’t harm their beauty
But tainted minds are all I’ve got – and all I did I did for naught
‘Cause when they left I swear I heard the sound of breaking

And when they left I swear I felt my heart was aching
I felt my heart was aching

I’ll be moving on,
Sing you one last song,
‘till the midnight comes
And the love is gone

Demonize me now,
I will stand my ground
And I’ll make no sound
As I begin to drown

And I did all that I could, tried to save you as I thought you would, for me
Said I loved you when you cried, and I never meant it out to be fallacy
But time is cruel and the plans we did, the talks and cries of help they said
You said that all we did, you blamed on me.

...And I never got to say how much you meant to me.

I’ll be moving on,
Sing you one last song,
‘till the midnight comes
And the love is gone

Demonize me now,
I will stand my ground
And I’ll make no sound-

It was a lonely road, but now I’m coming home, to where they need me most
I am not yet done.
And the nights they cried, the many times they died, in their hearts which dried
I will not give up.
And the things you drew, I hang them up with pride, of a time I tried
And I was able to save you.

I was able to save you.

And I can’t seem to bring myself to hate you
And I won’t forget the love you gave me too

Even though I’ll never say what I meant to
Even though I’ll never say that I-

And you’re alive!
You’re alive!

Even after all the suicides you’ve tried!
Even after all the times you’ve died inside!

You’re alive!
You’re alive!

I got what I wanted...right?

[Original Song] You're Alive [ft. Vocaloid DEX and ArrowAceP]

EDIT 04/2024 - here's the english translation lyrics for yall: https://vocaloidlyrics.fandom.com/wiki/%E3%82%AB%E3%82%BC%E3%83%92%E3%82%AD%E7%A5%9E%E7%88%B6%E3%81%A8%E3%82%A2%E3%83%B3%E3%83%89%E3%83%AD%E3%82%A4%E3%83%89_%28Kazehiki_Shinpu_to_Android%29

(ps. SPECIAL thanks to the vocaloid wiki mods for putting up with my dumbass. I am LEGITIMATELY so sorry if/when I mess up stuff without noticing)
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Hey I made a song about shotas.
BIG THANKS TO ARROWACEP (as usual) FOR EVERYTHING VOCAL.

後々PVをうｐするつもりです。
Oliver日本語ちゃんライブラリーを使用しています。

作曲・歌詞(Composition and Lyrics)：Shius
調教・ハーモニー(Tuning and Harmonies)：ArrowAceP(@sandriac)
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歌詞:
初めて君を見たとき　僕は
不思議な感情に囚われた
綺麗な姿の　少年
神から授けた　天使に見えた

カゼヒキ　カゼヒキ　カゼヒキ神父は
壊れかけた　僕を治した
癒えない　言えない　傷跡は
包帯で巻いて　忘れましょう

さあ　歌を歌おう
感謝の聖歌を
忘れましょう　忘れましょう
昔の悪夢を

「アンドロイドに夢なんてないよ」
「希望も　絶望も　ないさ」
「綺麗な世界を壊すため」
「僕は罪を重ねて歌う」

「でもね、僕にも夢はないの」
「希望も　絶望も　ないんだ」
「人間なんて、ロボットと一緒。」
「罪を重ねては歌を歌うんだ」

ボロボロ　ボロボロ　朽ちてく彼に
歌を覚えさせ　武器を捨てた
癒えない　言えない　病も
お薬を飲んで　忘れよう

さあ　歌を歌おう
祈りの聖歌を
忘れましょう　忘れましょう
未来の夢さえ

カゼヒキ　カゼヒキ　カゼヒキ神父は
風邪を引いて　死の扉の前
声も出ずに　最期の歌を歌う

彼の側で見る　唯一の友は
感情のない　ロボット
それでも彼は悲しんだのか
声を出しては　一緒に歌う

「主よ、僕は　眠ります」
"Now I lay me down to sleep,”
「もし　目覚めるその前に」
“I pray the Lord my soul to keep,”
「僕の命が終わるなら」 
“Should I die before I wake,”
「僕の魂をお捧げします」
“I pray the Lord my soul to take"

さあ　歌を歌おう
終わりの聖歌を
僕が覚えよう
君の生きた夢の歌を

いつか僕も　きっと僕も
いなくなれる　その日まで

[UTAU X VOCALOID] カゼヒキ神父とアンドロイド [カゼヒキ・Oliver ft. ArrowAceP]

Direct sequel (fanmade) for Seiza's "A Letter to X".

Check out the original video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZVxoqjOn6o

Check out Seiza's soundcloud here, he makes great covers and originals: @vocaseiza

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I made this in 2 days holy jeez. Music and inspiration is weird.

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Lyrics:
I heard the news around yesterday night
The words in my throat were choked up and wrapped tight
The last words you told me, you said you’d be alright
I never dared to read, what you wrote me that night

I didn’t go to your funeral, I would’ve never dared to lie
I read the letter that you wrote me and the feelings you tried to hide
I only loved you as a friend, and even that faded to memory
I shied away from the truth, and in the end, I guess it got to you. 

So here is your requiem, my friend
I loved you
I hate you
I will never forgive you
I will never forgive you
I will never forget you

I can’t believe you were so stupid, to end yourself because of me
You’re cruel, you’re weak, to just run away and leave it to me

And what we’d made, did you just forget? All the times, did you just regret?
My friend, my brother, there was never any other I cared to know more about
We were best friends for a reason, We were best friends for a reason
I trusted you, I trusted you, but in the end you broke me to pieces so,

Here is your requiem, my friend
I loved you
I hate you
I will never forgive you
I will never forgive you
I will never forgive-
…But you were my best friend, how could I not forgive you?
And you were my brother, so how could I ever forget?

I won’t let go
 You will never fade away.

So here is your requiem, my friend
I loved you
I’m sorry
I will always forgive you
I will always forgive you
I will never forget you

[Vocaloid Original Song] Requiem For A Letter [DEX]

I worked so hard on this track holy shit man.

Album,「There's a Rat in Wolf's Clothing」coming soon.
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Lyrics:

Here you are at the start – A running train, a broken heart, watching life as the strife strikes through you like a dart
Then you go at it again, see your life pass in the rain – as it falls to the ground like your life, gone down the drain
You remember the past, time eats you up so fast – you were a child, now the time has come and gone for that
You look up to the skies, the clouds are up so high – wishing that you could go back for just one last time

Wishing that you could go back for just one last time

Oh alien, why must you always sigh?
You must be lonely up there, living life up so high
Above the world looking down, you never denied
That in your planet you’re the only one who survived

Oh alien, why must you always cry?
You’ve got no home to return to and no friends for support
But its their fault for not opening those gates of yours
Yeah its their fault for not opening those gates of yours

(oh)

Now you were never that kid – the one with spotlights on him, but you were happy enough not to care about that shit
But when you grew older, the world just grew colder, and kids like you would grow up to become pig fodder
And heroes came and went, your interest in them spent, you never knew what it’s like to feel what “special” meant

You were always the alien – looking in from outside, wondering how it felt like to live a life in their hides
Without having to falter – you never knew what that’s like, so you hid in your spaceship way up high in the skies
But you got kicked in the ass by what you did to yourself, the lonely childhood toys that you hid deep in your shelf
Why would you ever go back? You did nothing for yourself, you brought yourself in this mess, to make up for it in hell

Oh alien, what will you do this time?
Dare you forgive yourself – or deny your very life?
One day the time will come when you gotta make up your mind
And by that time, you’ll be living your own life

Nostalgic alien, you never knew why
The greatest people never held up their heads high
You were born a diamond, always sitting in the rough
The greatest people are just people who’s got it tough

(Alien, oh alien, oh nostalgia alien)

Know where that train is dragging you? It’s going straight to hell – leading you to your demise with just your soul to sell
And when the deal is over, and all the passengers gone, you will be out in the open, singing one last song
But you got time to get off, walk away one last time – before depression devours you and death claims your prime
So look yourself in the window and think a little bit more – the world’s a wider place than you ever thought before

Oh alien, why must you always sigh?
You must be lonely up there, living life up so high
Above the world looking down, you never denied
That in your planet you’re the only one who survived

Oh alien, why must you always cry?
You’ve got no home to return to and no friends for support
And its your fault for not opening those gates of yours
Yeah its your fault for not opening those gates of yours

(oh)

[VOCALOID X HUMAN] Nostalgia Alien [Original Song]

Filler track?

Album,「There's a Rat in Wolf's Clothing」coming soon.
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Lyrics:

Alive but not quite living, in a world unforgiving 
You’re almost there but not quite yet, you see a land of no regret
There’s death and life, and then there’s you, stuck in between the two
Whatever comes you’ll never know

I did some things that I regret, I dug my grave and then I wept, ‘cause all I ever did was live my life at gunpoint like my friends
And all I ever knew, the lies the truth and me and you, don’t tell me what to do when you have no right to say that I was wrong
But if the chance came back to me, and I could make it right again – I’d do the same shit over, I’d do the same shit over
And all the words I said to you – the things that you will soon forget – I don’t regret them my friend, here I’ve been with you all along

Alive but not quite living, Alive but not quite living oh
When we go back in the end, we’ll do the same shit over again
And you’re dying, falling all the same, there’s no victor here, only someone to blame
Alive but not quite living, Alive but not quite living

I thought of doing it once or twice – the reapers scythe beside my eyes – but the worse I ever did, was buy a rope and tighten up the noose
There is no winner in this game, you either lose or lose with shame, and we won’t live forever, it’s edgy yeah but isn’t that the truth
So all that we can do – the only thing that matters here, is to live life to the fullest and to stay awake, even if you want to die
Alive but not quite living, you’re stuck here ‘till the day you’re gone. Alive but not quite living, all we do is walk under the sun

Someone here wants you to live, they know you well but still forgive
You know them too – that’s why you stay, leaving farewell for another day

And you said

Alive but not quite living, Alive but not quite living oh
When we go back in the end, we’ll do the same shit over again
And you’re living, rising all the way, there’s no victor here, but a reason to stay
Alive but not quite living, Alive but not quite living

[VOCALOID X HUMAN] Alive But Not Quite Living [Original Song]

A love letter to my childhood.

Album,「There's a Rat in Wolf's Clothing」coming soon.
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Lyrics:
In his absent mind, he dreams – their voices breaking at the seams
They say, “Run away, never stay, their science will never be the same”
And he pauses just a bit, a paint brush where his brain should be

Like a lab rat he stays, trained to test what his master relays.

Broken shards of glass on the floor – I always loved how they formed a whole
Like puzzle pieces in my mind, they fit together like a pretty rhyme
And oh how beautiful it can be sometimes
Oh how wonderful life can be sometimes

Oxygen, oxygen running through his veins – a panicked breath on a glass pane
Will he end up the same? Will he end up the same as them all?
Squirreling away in a flurry of white, he knows what to do.
In a way, he always knew. But now he knows just who.

Broken shards of glass on the floor – I always loved how they formed a whole
Like puzzle pieces in my mind, they fit together like a pretty rhyme
And oh how beautiful this world can be sometimes
Oh how beautiful this world can be sometimes

And in his bloody breath he saves her. She’s alive – he knows, he hopes.
One last chance and he just goes – away, away, away

One last rat – we’ll never know.

[VOCALOID X HUMAN] The Absent Mind Of A Schizophrenic Scientist [Original Song]

Making the pv. Lets see how it goes

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Lyrics:

To whom it may concern,

I read the transcript, enclosed in the letter written, doubting what I’d heard when they said that they were torturing her. A little girl, she was only 10 years old, an adopted child, she would have never known what was coming for her.
“Reactive Attachment disorder”, that was her diagnosis. On the basis of nothing but her parent’s own claims – they said – She’d been showing no emotion, not being part of the family. She’d been a problem child since day 1, although they tried to save her.
And the sickness that I feel now, it has not yet gone away. Even when I left the table those letters haunt me to this day. Cause the rebirth of this child is not a cross I wish to bear, but since I was sent this message – I’ve been feeling all the wear.
And if you are reading this message, I pray that you’ll see, the murder that had taken place could have well have been from you, or me. Insanity will bind us to the life we live today, and we will fear the loss of sanity – even when most has passed, away.

God have mercy on the child reborn, with wings she will soar, in a land far from here
Cause she screamed as she fought, and she died as she lived – in her own vomit and feces little Cadence just quit.


So little baby, are you ready to be reborn? If you stay in there you're going to die and your mommy's going to die.
(I can’t do it!)
Do you want to be reborn or do you want to stay in there and die?
(Please, please I can't breathe.)
Do you want to die?
(I'm going to die. I want to die.)
It's her own life. Quitter.
(...No)

This baby doesn't want to live. She's a quitter.
Quitter, quitter, quitter, quitter. She's a quitter.
Candace is used to making her life everybody else's problem. She's not used to living her own life. Let's talk to the twerp.

 Oh, there she is sleeping in her vomit.

God have mercy on the child reborn, with wings she will soar, in a land far from here
Cause she screamed as she fought, and she died as she lived – in her own vomit and feces little Cadence just –

God have mercy on her, have mercy on us
Cadence, spread your wings and fly – do not say goodbye
God have mercy on her, have mercy on us
Cadence, spread your wings and fly – do not say goodbye

Goodbye.

God have mercy on the child reborn, with wings she will soar, in a land far from here
Cause she screamed as she fought, and she died as she lived – in her own vomit and feces little Cadence just quit.

【VOCALOID X HUMAN】The Curious Rebirth Of Cadence [REDACTED]【Vocaloid Oliver】

Let's hope I'm not a lazy fuck this time and upload the video soon.

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Lyrics:

I saw your face as we walked into the room that day
You smiled at me – with the proctor standing silently
We drew some straws from his hand – the shortest straw’s what I had
He gave a couple of questions, it went according to plan,
But when the buzzer hit wrong, I’d give you shocks on your hand,
That just got deadlier the more you let things get out of hand

What happened back in that room – I’ll never know to this day
Cause all I’d stood for and fought for – it all just crumbled away
And when he told me to shock you – I let him suck up the blame
Cause what I did in that room – it haunts my dreams all the same

Feel like I’m going insane
I hear him calling my name
Authority is to blame
I’m just a pawn in a game

“Wrong Answer.”
The buzzer rang out again, and when my sweat hit the floor, I felt your life in my hands
Why are you acting so stupid? The questions should’ve been easy
I know you barely but still – this shit is making me queasy

“Wrong Answer.”
You got it wrong yet again, you can’t take much more than this, 300 volts out of hand
You better save your own life – cause I ain’t saving it for you
And yeah I might be a coward – but no I cannot replace you

“Wrong Answer.”
It’s getting close to 450, I feel the dread in my skin, my eyes are swimming and shifty
Just one more shock an you’re gone – a weight from my body lifted
Yeah I’ll be going to hell – but I’ll be dragging you with me!

Chorus x2
Feel like you’re going insane?
You hear him calling your name? 
Authority isn’t to blame
You’re just a pawn in a game

Oh, what have you done? My dear sir, it looks like he’s already gone.
Oh, what have you become? You followed orders to his grave – now the experiment is done.

The experiment is done

My oh my,
It seems you have nowhere to run.

Chorus x2
Feel like I’m going insane
I hear him calling my name
Authority is to blame
I’m just a pawn in a game

【VOCALOID X HUMAN】Wrong Answer【ft. Vocaloid DEX】

There's another side to depression.

Album,「There's a Rat in Wolf's Clothing」coming soon.
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Lyrics:

There’s another side to happiness - I’m scared of what I’ll see
When I cross between the boundaries, I know that’s where I will be
But I’m fitting my apartment so that one day I can leave
Until then my demons haunt me, saying I’ll never be free.

(Humming)

There’s an illusion of reality wherever I go
There’s a person in the shadows who’s enjoying the show
And I can’t stay here forever, I know I’ll go insane 
Hearing laughter from the voices, yeah they’re calling my name

Yeah they’re calling my name
Yeah they’re calling my name

I’m already insane

There’s no turning back, knew it all along
When my vision cracks, you’ll be all but gone
And my words will dry, I can’t say goodbye
When the time arrives, I won’t sleep the night

I can’t say goodbye, I can’t say goodbye

Gotta pass the night – gotta say goodnight.

There’s an illusion of reality wherever I go
There’s a person in the shadows who’s enjoying the show
And I can’t stay here forever, I know I’ll go insane
Hearing laughter from the voices, yeah they’re calling my name

Yeah they’re calling my name
Yeah they’re calling my name 

And the worst thing’s that I know, it’s the little things that do it
When he touches me, the sweetest thoughts just haunt my mind
On the other side of happiness, it isn’t one that I envisioned
It feels so long ago when I was out there looking in

And the anger that I felt, fucking sanity flies away
Slipping through my hands, just as I grasped my limited time
Through the eyes of the beholder, I know I’m nothing but a fool
But let me live this burst of clarity I found here in myself

There’s an illusion of reality wherever I go
There’s a person in the shadows who’s enjoying the show
And I can’t stay here forever, I know I’ll go insane
Hearing laughter from the voices, yeah they’re calling my name

Yeah they’re calling my name
Yeah they’re calling my name

I’m already insane

There’s another side to happiness - I’m scared of what I’ll see
When I cross between the boundaries, I know that’s where I will be
But I am fitting my apartment so that one day I can leave
And I’ll step out to the open knowing that day I’ll be freed.

[VOCALOID X HUMAN] The Other Side Of Happiness [Original Song]

This is probably my best song. Ever.

Album,「There's a Rat in Wolf's Clothing」coming soon.
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Lyrics:

When the moon comes up
The night has just begun
So hold your head up high
We’re going out tonight

We’re going out tonight

Cause when the moon comes up
The night has just begun
The night has just begun

We’re feeling alive
Tonight, tonight
We can reach the sky -
Take me high

I’ll be fine tonight
Don’t look back
We can reach the sky -
Take me high

And when the sun goes down
Our hunt is not yet done
So let the weak ones hide
The night is in our stride

The night is in our stride

The night is in our stride

We’re feeling alive
Tonight, tonight
We can reach the sky
Take me high

I’ll be fine tonight
Don’t look back
We can reach the sky
Take me high

Wolf Song
You better watch your back
Cause when the wolves run
They’re gonna come and attack
So sing a wolf song
If you ain’t part of the pack
And when the night’s done
There ain’t no coming back
Cause it’s a

Wolf Song
When freedom’s in their grasp
They’re gonna fight off
The chains that clasp their necks
And sing the wolf song
So you can’t try to forget
All that you did wrong
The night is theirs to finally run

We’re feeling alive
Tonight, tonight
We can reach the sky
Take me high

I’ll be fine tonight
Don’t look back
We can reach the sky
Take me high

[VOCALOID X HUMAN] Wolf Song [Original Song]

Here, have a *SPACEY* track about the birth of the sun and moon.

FOR SCIENCE.

...oh, and its also a vocamerica track. You guys are in for a treat.
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Lyrics:

The eve of solstice a changeling found a child
Bright golden eyes and his hair touseled and wild
In vulpine form she came forth and brought him back with her
To dance alongside the fair folk for ever
A maddening waltz that will last until she's satisfied

[Chorus]
Abandoned
My children
Silver moon
Bright fire
My kingdom
Left to you
Both singing
Both crying
The moonlight
The red sun
Graces you
Becomes you
My children
Abandoned
Keep singing
Keep hunting on

The little one adjusted well to this world
The fox that took him became all that he knew
He found home in the silver fur of a young wolf cub
Hunting and tracking his sister through their kingdom

[Chorus]
Abandoned
Not children
Cosmic ones
Desired
My kingdom
Left to you
Both wanting
Both dying
The green earth
The deep void
Carries you
Calls to you
My darlings
Abandoned
Keep running
Keep chasing love

*GALAXY SOUNDS INTENSIFY*

[Chorus]
Dear cosmos
Our mother
Creator
Our savior
You left us
Your kingdom
To watch grow
And protect
This turtle
Your youngest
We'll keep her
Safe from harm
So let us
Encircle
And show you
Your brand new home

【Vocamerica 2018 Contest Original】Wild Children【Shius ft. ArrowAceP】

Gotta love winter.

Second Entry for Vocamerica. This one's metalstep.
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Lyrics:
In winter's frost, while life is fading into white
The youth I've known has all but gone
Filthy
And by the day the sun shines again
Spring time
Won't be the same without you here

When dirty snow
Falls with the ashes

I'll still be here, searching for you
Reaching out to you
By the time I find you

I'll be back
Home

[Chorus]
Let blizzards come and strike me down
I'll hold my ground here
When dirty snow falls on concrete
I will be waiting

Blinding white
Filled my eyes
(I was by your side, I was by your side)
Once back when
All that I knew was warm and loved
(I have never left, holding on so tight)
Then winter came

Let frost bite
I won't fight
'Till I'm home
By the time I find you
I won't be -

In the end I 
Know what happened
I won't find you, you're long gone
The cold took you away from me

But when the snow
Falls on the ashes

I'll still be
I'll still be
searching for you (and)
By the time I find you

I'll be back
Home

[Chorus]
Let blizzards come and strike me
I'll hold my ground
When dirty snow falls on concrete
I will be waiting

【Vocamerica 2018 Contest Original】Dirty Snow【Shius ft. Tsus】

I'm a fucking dead rat, whaddaya expect of me

Vocaloids I own:
- Oliver
- Dex
- V4 Flower
- Kaai Yuki 
- Nekomura Iroha

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