dnb/breakcore practice

distorted 808 practice

hello, my fucking brain hurts

my mic is clipping

fleeting attention span

collision course with death

I CANT TRUST YOU
I DONT WANT TO
I CANT TRUST YOU
I DONT WANT TO

EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE THE SAME STUPID BULLSHIT
SAY GOODBYE TO MY BRAIN ITS ABOUT TO MEET THIS FULL CLIP

GO TO WORK THEN GO TO SCHOOL
GO TO WORK THEN GO TO SCHOOL
AIGNORAINGAIO
OH MY FUCKING GOD, I CANT TAKE IT
I FUCKING HATE THIS
THE WAY MY FUCKING BRAIN IS

[hello, my name is shiva, i spent a good majority of my life feeling like a fucking burden to the people who surrounded me bc of the way they treated me themselves. i spend day in and day out fighting my fucking subconscious and lose all the time, leading to my suicidality. despite this, these same fucking people who made me feel this way tell me to “push on, and continue my life anyway”]

BUT I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO
I DONT WANT TO

END MY LIFE, END MY LIFE, END MY LIFE
END MY FUCKING LIFE
END MY FUCKING LIFE
END MY FUCKING LIFE

[aye shiva, shiva, its going to be okay bro, you're only 19 you can't feel this wa-]

*sex noises*

[shut up bitch, you tell me Im too young to feel this way, you tell me im too fucking young to feel this pain? no bitch, imma make sure you feel this fucking pain]

*random assortment of screams expressing the culmination of pent-up feelings*

I DON'T WANT TO!

ugh, oh shit
ah guys, do I sound like fucking hanatarsh yet?
fuck-
ugh, can you hear me...[???]
you can fucking hear me now
this it? this what you wanted? all this? [*something else unintelligible*]
oh my fucking god, Im so tired now holy shit

*whiny fag screaming and making weird noises*

tantrum

why the fuck did lie to me, you bitch
i should’ve never forgave you
and now its time to forget you
all my soul does is hate you
you harmed me because i let you
i should’ve never let you through
and now the self-hatred just brews

every time i go to sleep
my soul starts to fucking weep
i didn’t know that i could keep
all this anguish

told me you would stay with me
now I have ptsd
now the only guarantee 
is this pain bitch

oh my fucking god, you guys are all fucking liars, fucking liars, all of you

liar, you threw me out to the fire
i just wanted my mother
but you wanted the other
will you remember me

liar, i hope you choke on barbed wire
i want you to be smothered
see me you better look for cover
liar x6
you motherfucking liar
liar x6
you motherfucking liar
*sex noises*

i fucking hate liars

shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up,
shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up,
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up!
shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up,
shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up,
[why won’t you just shut up x2]

shut up! stop fucking talking to me, stop fucking speaking to me, i do not want to fucking talk to you, leave me the fuck alone
ahhh
fuck

SHUT UP!

damaged beyond belief
wanna rip out your teeth
you keep on stalking but you already are dead to me
you wanted everything, even stole hope from me
pushed you away from me but why do i feel guilty
so guilty
why this feeling
just kill me
i feel so guilty
so guilty
still feel guilty
so guilty

GUILTY

IM SIPPIN ON SELTZER
IM WAY TOO INEBRIATED, UH
OUT OF FUCKING KILTER
EQUILIBRIUM IS FADED, UH
FEEL LIKE DAVE MELTZER
IM MY OWN FUCKING CRITIC, UH
NIGGAS TRYNA CENSOR
THEY CAN SUCK ON MY DICK TIP
PLEASE DONT CONVERSE WITH ME
IT JUST DISTURBS
IF YOU START FIRST WITH ME
GO FIND YOUR HEARSE
GOT THIS WEIRD THIRST IN ME
TO SEE THE WORST
NIGGAS DONT KNOW ME PERSONALLY
JUST LIKE TO CHIRP
IM SIPPIN ON SELTZER, IM WAY TOO INTOXICATED
DISSOCIATE FROM THIS WORLD, I JUST WANNA BE SEDATED
MY STOMACH STARTS TO SWIRL, CAUSE I FEEL SO FUCKING ANXIOUS (this shit dont rhyme)
PLEASE RELEASE MY SOUL, IT FOREVER FEELS ILL-FATED
IM SIPPIN ON SELTZER, SIPPIN ON SELTZER, SIPPIN ON SELTZER
SO I THOUGHT CAN'T OCCUR
IM SIPPIN ON SELTZER, SIPPIN ON SELTZER, SIPPIN ON SELTZER
SO I THOUGHT CAN'T OCCUR

SIPPIN' ON SELTZER!

i am left no space to live

i see your games motherfucker
you wanna see me live my life through a threshold
i see lies motherfucker
i have been forced to remove the blindfold
i see your aim motherfucker
reality is feeling like a collapsed shelf
try to steal my life motherfucker
get away, i'll just take it myself
i'll take it myself

i've seen you control my life for too long so i'll take it back even if it takes suicide, go fuck yourself

nigga its over, I’m giving up
aint felt shit since last october
i’ve had enough, i ran out of all my fucking clovers
ran outta luck, I’m stuck, and now im never sober
i never gave a fuck but man when is it fucking over
i swear to god, all this pointless fucking labor
work a shitty job, to get more shitty pointless paper
the cycle never ends draining all my fucking vigor
my will finally bends, just pull the motherfucking trigger
just pull the motherfucking trigger
just pull the motherfucking trigger
pull it, pull it, pull it, pull it,  just pull it

so this is the life you set up for me? huh? this is life i was meant to live? this endless cycle, this constant capitalist exhaustion? go fuck yourself
i will never forgive you fucks for the life you tried to take away from me in this hellscape
so i hope to take my life sooner than you can take it from me, get fucked.
20 years on this fucking planet, and i already hate it, tried it out just for fun but i hope to be dead by 21
dead by 21
i don't wanna be here
dead by 21
i don't wanna be here
i don't wanna be here

i hate being 20 yrs old

all connection is strained
all of it is overwhelming, get the fuck away
i don't wanna connect with you, fuck you
wasting my fucking time
fuck

i regret this, regret this connection
i regret this, regret this connection
ah fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

stop clinging, i told you stop clinging to me
stop clinging. we would have no issues if you'd just stop breathing near me
i knew i should've never let you in my life
you will never catch me making that mistake again
all these connections are fucking pointless

every connection i make, just feels like a burden
every emotion i fake, just feels disconcerting
dunno how much i can take, all my bad thoughts converging
feel my brain finna break, from all this overexertion

traumatize me this way, and know i just have to fucking live with it?
don't you ever question my anger towards you
and don't you ever question my anger towards myself
keep wondering why i hate my existence
but you did this, you did this

causing all this strife, keep clinging to me
i'll leave your ass clinging to life
i'll leave you clinging to life
i'll leave you clinging to life

Avoidant Attachment Style

pestering

shiva you fucked up n-
i am having a very hard t-
uhhhhhhhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i swear i didn't mean to hurt you like that-
stop fucking apol-
uhhhhhhhhhhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
brain is dead of course, no one to help me
must remove by force, hand me my belt please
hang myself, deceased, don't be suprised
this facade I live is just a disguise
hurt me, you don't deserve me
you fucking hurt me, you don't deserve me
you fucking hurt me, you don't deserve me
you fucking hurt me, you don't deserve me
*guttural sounds*
ok its over, im done opening up to you
and whatever connectin you thought we had
its over, finished, finished-

liberosis

QUIT YAPPIN'

AGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH BEEP BOOP SOUNDS  SILENCE SILENCE AHHHHHH

i want silence

HEADS UP
THROUGH THE ROPES, TRENT BERETTA
YOU BETTER KNOW THAT I BE HOLDING VENDETTAS
TAKE YA LIFE AND YOUR SOUL, EVEN BETTER
MIGHT USE YOUR CORPSE AS MY NEW TWITTER HEADER
HEAD HUNT
WHEN MY THUMBS IN YOUR EYEHOLES
YOU GONNA THINK THAT YOU WERE FIGHTING REPTILE
TAKE IT SLOW, CAUSE IM JUST FUCKING VILE
AND THEN I'LL DO IT WITH A BIG FUCKING SMILE
FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW
FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW
FATAL BLOW, UH, FATAL BLOW
CORNERED IN THE PIT, NOWHERE TO GO
IM FOAMING WITH SPIT, I WANT TO THROW
SPIN KICK TO THE CHIN LOOK LIKE A FATAL BLOW
FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW
FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW FATAL BLOW

FATAL BLOW

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membrane fuck

fuck all you trap metal niggas
and fuck all you scream rap niggas
yea

[guttural]

[more unintelligible guttural noises that I did not make lyrics for]

your art is a means of imitation, do something the fuck else
fuck, yea, yea, yea

turn off your mics, yall just dickride
your art tongue-tied, I scoff and chide
if this what the art is like I choose suicide
if this what the art is like I choose suicide

is everything alright, you act like everything's fine
for the rest of you fucks
I commit genre-cide

genre-cide

genre-cide

[more unintelligible gutturals and pig squealy noises]

trap metal still fucking sucks, stop making that bullshit nigga (demo)

Ugh, i dont like you niggas (i dont like yall)
Most the fucking time I wanna fight you niggas (i wanna fight yall)

Your whole existence makes me fucking question living
Type to think he hard but put his hands on women

And its always the fucking same thing
Nigga met me once now all the sudden think we gang (WE ARE NOT FRIENDS)
Nigga, i don't fucking know you don't you claim me (WE ARE NOT FRIENDS)
Nigga, i will fucking mow you watch your body hang

Ugh, i don't like you niggas
I cannot help but fucking spite you niggas
Type to hang you from a kite lil nigga
Just understand i wanna see you die lil nigga

Think he next, huh?
Rap like X, huh?
If you ever rap like this, huh?
Shut the fuck up

Don't you ever think we friends, punk
You dense fuck
Don't you think it don't make sense, huh?
Low-rent cuck
Fuck with me you will get facefucked
Court case tucked
Teeth gon need a new replacement
You'll lay slumped

I don't have a verse for this part I just despise you soundcloud rapping fucks you guys are annoying as shit kill yourself, yeah

I don't like yall, i don't like yall
I don't like yall, don't like nun of you fucks
I don't like yall, i don't like yall
I don't like yall, don't like nun of you fucks
I don't like yall, i don't like yall
I don't like yall, don't like nun of you fucks
I don't like yall, i don't like yall
I don't like you, don't like nun of you fucks

I DONT LIKE YOU NIGGAS (AG DISS)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


AHHHHHHAGAHAHA
HAHAAB
SHEUSUSNNA

IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF IF I DONT GET OFF THIS FUCKING PHONE

“hey shiva, welcome back to work, its your boss larry. i hope you are ready for me to make the next 10 hrs of your shift miserable, and to return the next day to do it all over again, every week. please kill yourself shiva.”

imma kill my fucking boss, leave him deceased
finna nail him to the cross, upside down like st pete
aint no value gon be lost, when he turns up missing
your existence just exhausts, makes me wanna fuckin tweak nigga
its bleak nigga
always ruining my week nigga, i grieve nigga
always asking me to speak nigga, just leave nigga
bounce your head off concrete nigga, pet peeve nigga

imma kill my fucking boss, leave him deceased
finna nail him to the cross, upside down like st pete
aint no value gon be lost, when he turns up missing
your existence just exhaust, makes me wanna fuckin ahhhhhhhhh

had enough, now i want, to just crash out
bad enough, that i have to be this brash now
to be blunt, everyone, i will not spare you
when i go ‘head and blow up this fucking warehouse

imma kill my boss, imma kill my boss
imma kill my boss, imma kill my boss
imma kill my boss, imma kill my boss
imma kill my boss, imma kill my boss

a human just like me, but enslaved to be a capitalist cuck and to enslave others what type of life is that
kill your boss today he could never show you empathy, hes a necessary sacrifice in the process help free the proletariat

I WANT TO KILL MY BOSS

SOUND DESIGN OMG YAY :3

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4am, i feel this disgusting pit in my stomach and i want to tranquilize it

a simple task, all i ask, stay away from me
ill leave your ass face down on the concrete
fuck you nigga

CONCRETE

and it was all propaganda
why dont you see it was a test of your sight
sneaky fucks its all part of your plan huh
a faulty blueprint for living my life

simple minded subject
experimental reject
a fantasy, near to me
but its made of regret
my trauma to the surface
living with no purpose
the internets the serpent
the internets the serpent

fuck the status quo
fuck the living pope
your life is just a trope
my life is moving slow

just a caged animal
and nothings satiable
and nothings satiable
and nothings satiable

fuck the status quo
fuck the lexapro
your life is just a trope
my life is moving slow

just a caged animal
and nothings satiable
and nothings satiable
and nothings satiable

in this life it shows me no mercy
in this life it shows me no mercy
no mercy, no mercy
no mercy, no mercy
no mercy, no mercy

NO MERCY

bdsm is cool, so is harsh noise
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