prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

lyrics

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it
hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

im chopped into spare parts
is it possible that u could lend a spare heart
i got half a mind to leave it to the deep dark
i got half a mind to burn it with a quick spark

can u hold me back 
while i detox
could there be another road
ion see one
its impossible to live in the deep end
its impossible to see when cash in

hammer in it
hammerin it
can u try to visit
damage in it
hoe i lived it
you could try to listen
if i went missing
i went missing
would u look for me
try to fix me
u cant fix it
can u try to fix it

its never been more over (sorrowbringer)

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

autumn_freestyle w/ yungcray + epitomeoffailure + wraith

prod hollowprpl
guitar by me

lyrics


hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it costs me my life
cuz i cant be sane again here in my mind
im alone
i see the sympathy die by the window
i really miss what we had
am i too cold?

the constants in my life arent constant anymore 
between you and me im not sober no more
i can die freely, id have no remorse
the meaning of life is to love and mines no more 
oh im horrible

hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it’s not your fault. (hollowprpl x ash.)

lyrics

I feel like the dirt
I question my worth
I wear and I tear
My favorite shirt
I hope that I can
She thinks I’m the man
I’m letting her down and
I feel like the worst

No it ain’t safe to say yet
Hung up on yesterday its
Still in my head
I’m sorry 
Hate when I’m so mistaken
Trying to savor faces 
Hoping you don’t replace me
I can do better baby
I can do better maybe

Maybe heavens worth the tests
But fuck, this smith and wesson
Has a way for testing what is next
Swallow my breath
I put the world in my hands
I feel like a mess
But she swears I’m the man
I’m doing my best
At least as well as I can
I barely stand
The fucking shell that I am

The Man (prod. wraithontheporch)

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

prod. oliver01

lyrics:
went from black and white to multicolor
look at the moon its doing something to me
to be honest half the time i barely even bothered
i let the art consume me
immortalize me
oh i've been trying
its like its clockwork
im on a different timing
steady grinding
still just tryna find me
i turn down every offer
and i swear that no one likes me
get the urge to go in hiding
but i'll miss the sun
i been inside for too long
i dont know why i do what i do 
every time i boot up
i trip over everything
i been trying not to
change me
dont you think i ought to
i couldnt do anything
didnt really want to
even on a different line
im never gonna let
the pain
the weight
get to me
im never gonna let
the pain
the weight
get to me
i'll be standing strong either way

moonman (oliver01)

prod. ?

lyrics:

Scorpio:
i miss us talking
about nothing at all
staying up till the morning
on a video call

i wanna chitchat
babe i really miss that
whyd we have to go and break apart like a kitkat?
said youd stick around but where are you now?
i see you out and about with a new crowd x2

Liru:
you dont get how much I needed that
woke me up and now I feel too bad
I been looking for some reasons 
on why you cant believe me
it was never meant to last

yeah and you say you dont love me anymore
but you dont even listen to your heart girl
I been feeling different now its over
I been acting different now im older
yeah and maybe one day you might just come over
maybe one day you might just get over it
girl your lips taste better than a soda
damn I miss the time when we were closer

he4vy:
difference in your actions yeah i saw it
dissociated never bought it
passions not a part of being toxic
i still have my issues being honest 

only feelin better with a 3.5
focus on yourself i said ill be fine
smoke until i feel it in my damn spine
hate to admit it but youre my life line

hate to admit it
yeah i tell when youre distant 
we used to talk everyday 
now its like you never listen 
wanna go back to the days 
we used to smoke in my kitchen
different time different place 
different life i was given

scorpio:
i wanna chitchat
babe i really miss that
whyd we have to go and break apart like a kitkat?
said youd stick around but where are you now?
i see you out and about with a new crowd x2

i miss that (feat. Liru x He4vy)

静けさ - shizukesa

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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

autumn_freestyle w/ yungcray + epitomeoffailure + wraith

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