Lyrics

I wrote a list for you
Anything to give me proof
That you could fit me
In the way we both intended
But evidence can turn out false
I’m the one who makes plans that don’t work at all
Still I folded it up and tucked it away and sometimes I take it out again

You are more elusive
Than when I saw you from afar
Oh I could feel you then
Even when you’re with me
We’re cautious when we explore
But I can’t even get you close anymore

Humans were made to get things done
They built coffee machines for times of calm
And though I’m shaking I refill my cup to keep on moving
I’ve been taught what I have to do
Conquer my fears and I’ll conquer you
Easy fixes are false alarms, and with each one I’m losing stride

You are more elusive
Than when I saw you from afar
Oh I could feel you then
Even when you’re with me
We’re cautious when we explore
But I can’t even get you close anymore

I’m waiting up for you
I know just what we’re gonna do
I have my fears like anyone but with you I laugh them off
But something went wrong again
You won’t be here, where am I then?
It’s been so long I can hardly think of what it was you saw here, why you’d want to come at all

You are more elusive
Than when I saw you from afar
And I still feel you there
Even when you’re with me
We’re cautious when we explore
But I can’t even get you close anymore

Plans: new demo

Lyrics

She swore she'd lock herself away with him
Turned out to require some effort on her part so….
The other night he locked himself up anyhow
But they found him hiding there
So many people it's hard to breathe
Explaining what they don't know
Their bodies melt together like the sea
He's trapped under the flow

And all he wants to do
Is to float in the sea with nothing else in view
Sail away whistling [whistle]
I should do that too
If I leave right now I could catch him still
Sail away listening for the [whistle]

He dreamed he smashed his big fish tank
His buddies scattered on the floor
He didn't cry he just opened his eyes
He was different than before
He went recruiting for some folks to come along
When he saw them he knew
They didn't have much but their newfound fame
As his distinguished crew

And all he wants to do
Is to float in the sea with nothing else in view
Sail away whistling [whistle]
I should do that too
If I leave right now I could catch him still
Sail away listening for the [whistle]

Something woke me up today
I'll never know just what it was
Like a sleepwalker I packed my bags
And a mandolin just because
I've been on my lawn for fourteen hours
Watching the maple pods fall
Would it count as turning back
If I never left at all

And all he wants to do
Is to float in the sea with nothing else in view
Sail away whistling [whistle]
I could do that too
If I leave right now I could catch him still
Sail away listening for the [whistle]

The Captain: new demo

Lyrics

Don't give me that, I'm better off
They tell me that my gaze ah-ah is smoldering
She can't top me, I'm still around
Is it cause I'm upside down?

All the world was in love with your little girl
And though you adored her, a threat was heightening
It was a simple order, it took no time
You try to put it from your mind

It's a lonely kind of problem
In an individual mind
The questions ferment in our own heads
Till we’re drunk on our personal wine

Each day you recall her eager smile
But you can’t remember what made you decide
Chained to a chair, your limbs are tied
But those are not your binds

It's a lonely kind of problem
In an individual mind
The questions ferment in our own heads
Till we’re drunk on our personal wine

They took her then, you've got me now
I lay down and look for you, you may have what I seek
Oh be my guardian, watch my fate unfurl
As underneath you I whirl  

Cassiopeia, help me find it

Cassiopeia: new demo

Lyrics:

Conversations about you slow me down
I keep my thoughts back till there's no one else around 
It's two-dimensional and that is how you know

Speaking with strings to say the phrases that humans can't convey
But we couldn't stay there I went and gave myself away
It's anecdotal now and I don't quite know how

We are not on our guard secure in what we think we need
But the power of the beholder transforms everything he sees
You taught me what you want I just couldn’t keep up

Phrases: new demo

Lyrics:

I live in a castle (yes, a castle)
I lugged the stones twenty miles to build it
As soon as I was done snow fell upon it three feet deep
Surrounded by drafty rock I couldn’t shake off the chill
Oh, isn’t it magnificent

Have you read about me?

And I’m gonna write a novel
A real grand epic society-shattering thing
Cause I’ve heard what other worlds are like
They’re somewhat like this but with gilded exteriors
That bewitch all observers
And feed us the language to speak for them ourselves
Oh, isn’t it magnificent

Today my kitchen fell off a cliff
Cause I built my fortress on a wobbly precipice
The defenses were ideal but now I can’t cook my soup
I guess things could be worse, you know it leaked anyway
Oh, isn’t it magnificent

I drew a map that looks like a woman
An estuary lives in her shoulder blade
And mountains run down her knees
And the whole world is her domain
Or maybe it’s the other way around
If that illustrates this terrain
I don’t have the perspective to see it
And I know that you want this life
But perhaps you won’t once you breathe it
Oh, isn’t it magnificent

Discard the Unnecessary Weight: new demo

Lyrics

The alchemist assembled a boy of golden parts
He said “I’ve conquered weakness, this is no commercial art
And will never see himself or know his power came for free
His brain’s a gilded engine, Midas you will bow to me.”

I saw you on a visit to a museum on debut
I thought you were a sculpture but then I watched you move
Too perfect to be real, I closed my eyes against the glare
You surveyed my emotion with a hard and distant stare

He’s living and breathing but he’s made of gold
It’s the craziest story the public’s been told
They wrap him in their passions but he’s still cold
I’d paint myself metallic if it would set me free
I wanna wear you to cover me
And you wonder why others don’t shine the way that you do
How do I tell you

Voices at the alchemist’s door cry forth a desperate plea
“Oh, won’t you change my body too, maybe he’ll then love me”
And all the world is offering him the powers to preside
But I mimic a machine so he took me aside

He’s living and breathing but he’s made of gold
It’s the craziest story the public’s been told
They wrap him in their passions but he’s still cold
I’d paint myself metallic if it would set me free
I wanna wear you to cover me
And you wonder why others don’t shine the way that you do
I will become you

I aspire to more than the frailty of my skin, it’s hard to stop once you’ve begun
Control the mind, design it like architecture, I’ll polish myself through intention
Real gold’s heavy, and you never lean on anyone, your strength is on display
But I carry the weight of you in other ways

Your nerves respond submissively to orders they receive
Gold blood’s afraid to pump itself unless you give it leave
You’re master of your body like you’re master over mine
I still hope that one day you’ll come back to me resigned
And say, “I can live no more by thinking”

Alchemy: very rough demo

Only old, rough demos here--check out updated Soundcloud (https://soundcloud.com/monz-music) or Bandcamp (monicahunterhart.bandcamp.com) for more polished (though still amateur) efforts.

shmumonzica (old demos only)