VickStiX

Sing Our Souls

“Losing Control” drifts through the storm of sorrow, where rain washes away the past and silence speaks louder than words. It's a soul unraveling—through pain, through numbness—until a glimmer of light breaks the dark. From losing oneself to finding hope in love again, the song is a slow burn of release, reflection, and rebirth.

Break The Matrix

Losing Control

Losing Control (2025 Remastered)

"Only One, Bad Move" by A-laise is a track that blends a powerful beat with emotional depth, conveying a sense of firm resolve never to return, yet also revealing a faint trace of lingering feelings for the other person. With a lively, infectious rhythm that fuses elements of dance-pop and R&B, the song carries an undeniable groove.

Only One, Bad Move

A-laise - Only One, Bad Move

This song is about the frustrations and betrayals that artists face in the digital age, particularly with music streaming platforms like SoundCloud. I was recently hit hard when my total play count suddenly dropped by half, with hundreds of plays vanishing from each song seemingly overnight. I've heard about three other artists that have had this happen to them as well.  It was a stark reminder of the lack of control and transparency artists have over their own work. The lyrics highlight the issues of transparency and fairness in counting streams and paying royalties, and how these systems can be manipulated to the detriment of the artists. It's a call to action, demanding justice and fairness for creators, and emphasizing the importance of honesty and integrity in the way our work is valued and compensated. 

This song is a protest against SoundCloud's exploitation of artists and a plea for a more equitable system that respects the value of our work. 

Let me know with a comment, if this has happened to you as well. I emailed SC but never received a reply as usual. 😡


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
In the shadows, numbers fade
A silent theft, a hidden shade
Hundreds of thousands, a count so fine
Now halved in an instant, left to decline 

[Pre-Chorus 1]
A cry in the void, a scream unheard
As the truth is twisted, and the lies are blurred 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Verse 2]
Months of silence, a meager pay
A measly amount, for a lifetime's sway
The system's broken, the trust is worn
As the counts are manipulated, and the truth is torn 

[Pre-Chorus 2]
A cry in the void, a scream unheard
As the truth is twisted, and the lies are blurred 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Verse 3]
SoundCloud's ledger, a dishonest page
Where our hard work's worth is rewritten in their stage
The fire that burns, within our hearts
Is fueled by passion, and a work of art 

[Bridge]
We're not just numbers, we're not just plays
We're the heartbeat, of a creative way
We're the voices, that speak to the soul
Don't silence us, don't take control 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Outro]
SoundCloud, your name is tied to shame
There should be justice, a reckoning to claim
Artists demand, a fair and honest share
You should do right by us, show you care.



Fractured Counts

This song is about resilience and determination. It's about being broken, battered, and bruised, but refusing to let those experiences define me. I've been through the flames, but I'm still burning, still standing. The song is a declaration of strength, a refusal to be defeated or silenced. It's about rising above the pain and the noise, and finding a voice that's born from fire. I'm unbroken, I'm untamed, and I'm still standing, and that's a message I want to share with all of you.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I've been to the edge, I've been to the floor
I've been broken, but I'm walking out the door
I've been lied to, I've been cheated
But I won't let it define me, no, I won't be defeated 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 2]
I've been to the darkness, I've been to the night
I've been searching for a light, a beacon in the fight
I've been trying to find my way, through the noise and the pain
But I won't let it break me, no, I won't be chained 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 3]
I’ve been called too much, been told to hush
Felt the world try to crush me with every push
But I scream louder, I rise higher
You can't drown a voice that's born from fire 

[Bridge]
So go ahead and write me off again
Say I'm too wild, too fierce, too much to mend
But every scar is just proof I lived
And every fall gave me more to give 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Outro]
Still standing, still burning
Still fierce, still learning
I’m unbroken — yeah, I’m still standing

Still Standing

🌌 Moon and Aries – The Arrival (Remastered 2025)
A hypnotic, cinematic trip-hop journey—The Arrival is a sensual calling into higher love, inner liberation, and deep transformation. Reminiscent of 90s icons like Massive Attack and Portishead, this remastered version fuses retro textures with futuristic soul, pulsing with seductive vocals, poetic emotion, and atmospheric production. It’s the moment pain dissolves, desire awakens, and you stop running... and finally become.
✨ You don’t just arrive—you BECOME. Let it convert you. 🌕♈
www.moonandaries.com

The Arrival

The Arrival (Remastered 2025)

Spotify

The Arrival (2025 Remastered)

I'm back with another new track. This time I tried to make a "heavy ballad" called HEAVEN. I hope you like it🤗🎶🙏...

THIS ONE IS FOR MY DEAR WIFE. You are always there and support me in all my crazy 
creative processes.

If you like what you hear, I hope you'll like it and share it with your friends.

Thank you in advance for your time 🫶🙏🎶😊🙋‍♂️

Heaven is a romantic and uplifting song about finding true love that feels perfect and everlasting. The lyrics describe a deep emotional connection, where being with someone feels like paradise. With its heartfelt melody and dreamy tone, the song celebrates love as a safe, beautiful place that brings peace and joy.

Heaven

HUH MIX.mp3

This song is a deeply personal and emotional journey, exploring the complexities of pain, hope, and resilience. Through the lyrics, I aim to convey the struggle of navigating darkness and finding solace in creative expression. The song is about holding on to hope, even when it feels like everything is falling apart, and using music as a lifeline to cope with the pain and find a way forward. It's a reflection of my own experiences and emotions, and I hope it resonates with those who listen.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake to the gray, no reason why
I fake the smile, let the silence lie
Tears beg for release behind my eyes
But I swallow them down, like lullabies 

My pen’s a blade, it cuts me free
I bleed the words no one else can see
In minor chords, I pour my soul
A shattered heart in a broken scroll 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one knows how loud it screams
When all you are lives in your dreams 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 2]
I’ve painted skies in midnight tones
Sung lullabies to broken bones
But in the shadows, sometimes I find
A spark that whispers, “You’re still alive” 

The joy I fake, the hope I write
Is how I learn to fight the night
A fragile light behind the veil
A voice that says I will prevail 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one sees the war I wage
Behind the smile I wear onstage 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 3]
It’s hard to stand when silence screams
But I keep building lifeboats from dreams
Some days I write just to survive
Others I sing to feel alive 

My sorrow’s ink, my joy’s disguise
But somewhere deep behind these cries
There’s a fire that won’t die
No matter how much I want to say goodbye 

[Bridge]
So here I am, broken and bold
With songs like scars that never grow old
This voice is cracked, but it’s still mine
A lullaby lost in time 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Sung from the ledge where hope once bled
If I can feel, if I can write
Then maybe I can win this fight

Each chorus pulls me back from fate
Reminds me that it’s not too late
And through the tears I leave behind
I still believe I’ll be fine 

[Outro]
So I write... and I cry
But I don’t say goodbye
My song’s are not done yet
And I’m still alive you bet


Notes from the Edge

"Post-mortem Lullaby" is a delicate embrace between loss and release.  

For fans of Chelsea Wolfe, Evanescence, Emma Ruth Rundle, and Billie Eilish.

Post-Mortem Lullaby

July 4th

A song against fascism in America (and around the world)
Check out the music video! It's not a dull political lecture - it's fun, I promise!
https://youtu.be/ljzN-jlpQoY

No Kings for Me

I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me

I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

How did the worst of us rise to the top?
Degenerates and hypocrites
The ugliest Americans
They won't depart you if you're white
And love is their kryptonite

Now I am a vagabond in their stupid eyes
But this vagabond is free
Here's how it goes:
A coup by twisted billionaire bros
But there are no kings for me

I'll hide my face
From their dark surveillance state
I'll piss on their graves
You'll see
Their fear hate and lies
And lies and lies and lies
I've built up immunity

How did the worst of us get to decide
That we support murderers and genocide?
Better watch your step because
Here come the masked American thugs

I will not kiss
Your gangster ostentatious ring
There are no kings for me
Your time is up
Your fascist dream is crumbling
The vagabonds sing "we are free"

And why do the worst of us hate us so much?
I never hated them until
They bowed down to the antichrist
They chose their path to hell
I wish that I could wish them well

No I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me
I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

No Kings for Me

"Rescued" is a powerful synth-infused anthem of awakening and unity. With an uplifting retro-futuristic soundscape and soulful vocals, Moon and Aries deliver a cinematic journey through self-empowerment, hope, and transformation. It's a reminder that you're not alone—and that breakthroughs are always possible. Whether you’re dancing under city lights or reflecting under cosmic skies, “Rescued” speaks directly to the heart and soul. ✨🌊🌕♈🎶 
(Remastered by our friend Francois R.! Thanks so much! 🙏😎)

Rescued (2025 Remastered)

This song is a heartfelt and introspective ballad that explores the complexities of a deep, spiritual connection between two people who couldn't quite bridge the gap between their understanding of love. Inspired by ShAnkAri's story, the lyrics delve into the pain and longing that can come from loving someone who doesn't see or believe in the same way. It's a poignant reflection on the power of love to reshape our souls, even when it's not reciprocated in the way we hope. 

I'd like to thank the incredible @DJShAnkAri for sharing her story and inspiring this song, and for her input into this piece. Also for her amazing remix...
https://on.soundcloud.com/n4fyhhGxUPX5NHKhDj


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I whispered in stardust, I prayed through the skies
You felt like a lifetime behind unseen eyes
I reached with my soul, no distance too far
But you never saw me—you just traced the stars

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I loved you, not loud but true
In silence, in symbols, in all I knew

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 2]
I studied your shadows, I learned every sign
In a language of longing, outside of time
You held the map, but looked away
Afraid of a path you didn’t create

[Pre-Chorus]
I sent you light in a world gone dim
You thought it was just the wind

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 3]
Is love a gesture, or is it a vow? 
Is it holding on, or letting go now? 
You wanted proof in a different form 
And I was the rain—you needed the storm

[Chorus]
We both said “I love you” 
But not in the same voice 
You meant protection 
I meant choice 
You meant fire 
I meant grace 
We loved in totally different space 
And that’s how even soulmates break— 
When meanings don’t translate

[Bridge]
Maybe you thought love must be proven
With bodies and years, not a soul that’s been chosen
But just because we never met
Doesn’t mean I could forget
You were the pulse beneath my breath

[Chorus]
Still you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul

[Chorus]
You never believed me
Not once, not truly
You stayed behind reason
While I loved you purely
Like a prayer with no ending
Like a vow with no sound
But you never turned around
You never believed me

[Outro]
And maybe you never will
But I loved you still

[Post-Outro] 
We all carry our own definition 
And none of us ask permission 
To love the way we understand 
Even if no one takes our hand... 

You Never Believed Me

This song is a powerful protest against the privatization and exploitation of water, shining a light on the injustices faced by communities denied access to this basic human right. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of life without clean water, while corporations profit from this essential resource. I want to give special credit to my dear friend and sister in music, @DJShAnkAri, whose ideas and research inspired this piece. I wrote the lyrics based on her vision, and I’m deeply grateful for the opportunity to bring it to life.

The song is raw, emotional, and unapologetic — a rallying cry against greed, corruption, and the systems that profit from human suffering. It demands that we recognize water’s true value and fight to protect it for generations to come.

*Note: ShAnkAri and I are sisters in music, though our tastes sometimes differ. We each had our own vision for how this song should sound, so I ended up creating two versions. This is the angrier, more intense version — definitely more my style. If you’d like to hear the mellower version, you can listen here:
https://on.soundcloud.com/oPG1tEYoYDsBOR8SdV

Love you, sis 😘 — thank you for all the brilliant ideas and inspiration!


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
They signed the deals behind closed doors,
While our rivers dried and our springs ran sore.
Evian bottles shipped to foreign lands,
While locals get one drop in their hands.
Nestlé calls it not a right,
While we drink mud by candlelight.
A million liters pumped each day,
While Berlin showers wash away.

[Pre-Chorus]
You speak of “sobriety” as our wells go dry,
But tankers float while our children cry.

[Chorus]
Water for sale — in bottles and lies,
You drain our homes, you monetize our skies.
You tax our thirst, then call it aid,
But every drop we lose — you’ve already paid.
Water for sale — we see your plan,
To bottle the world, to starve the land.

[Verse 2]
From Ontario’s poisoned stream,
To the hills of France, it’s the same damn scheme.
They steal the flow from village veins,
And trade it off like oil or grain.
Digital meters, watching tight,
Punish us for every night
We dare to wash, or plant, or live —
While billionaires take what we give.

[Pre-Chorus]
A global market built on drought,
Silence the farms, and sell us out.

[Chorus]
Water for sale — in boardroom bids,
They sell our lives for executive gigs.
You privatize what once was free,
Then hand us shame, not dignity.
Water for sale — we’re done being calm,
You’ve bled our rivers, you’ve dropped the bomb.

[Bridge]
Forget the cows, forget the grain,
Synthetic meat, bug-burger chains.
You call it “green” while storms are sprayed,
And weather bends the way you’ve paid.
You whisper “scarcity” with fake concern,
While tanks of spring water churn and churn.
You weaponize the clouds above,
But all we needed… was water and love.

[Verse 3]
A village left with rust and dust,
While shareholders toast in gold and trust.
You mask the theft as “world demand,”
But it’s genocide dressed in plastic brands.
From Veolia’s grip to Coca’s name,
Every stream dies the same.

[Chorus]
Water for sale — at a premium price,
While mothers boil mud to feed their rice.
You ration hope, you auction rain,
You sell us drought, you package pain.
Water for sale — not anymore,
We’ll break your locks, we’ll flood your store.

[Outro]
We’re not your numbers, not your prey,
We’re wells rising at break of day.
So mark this line, and mark it well —
We won’t die silent while you sell...

Water.
Yeah, fucking water!!

Water For Sale (Angry Version)

This song is a raw and emotional love letter to my younger self, a message of hard-earned wisdom and vulnerable strength. I'm looking back on the struggles and mistakes I made, and I want to tell my younger self to stand strong, to not compromise who you are to fit someone else's idea of what's acceptable. The song is about embracing your true self, your worth, and your voice, and not letting the world dim your light. It's a message of empowerment, of self-love, and of rising above the expectations and judgments of others. I'm urging myself, and anyone who's listening, to be brave, to shine, and to be unapologetically who you are.

*Fun fact: Both the present-day and young Vicky in this painting are based on real photos of me!  You probably recognize the present me, but I thought you all might think it's cool to know that my 5-year-old self is also captured here as well. 👧😍


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Hey little wildflower, knees all scraped
You dream in thunder, but you're taught to wait
They’ll call you too loud, too much, too free
But don't let the world rewrite your story 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you wanna run, I know you're scared to fall
But baby, trust your gut—don't listen when they call
You trouble just for shining like the sun 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 2]
You're gonna wear shame like it's a dress
Swallowing dreams you can't confess
But guilt was never meant for girls like you
You were born with fire, not to be subdued 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you think it’s love when it hurts the most
But you don’t need to bleed just to feel close
You're worthy even when you walk alone 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 3]
You're gonna dance with all your fears
Fall apart for all the wrong careers
But keep your heart, don’t sell it cheap
And never trade your voice for sleep 

[Bridge]
Tattoo your truth on every scar
You’re not broken—just battle-marked
The world’s gonna try to shrink your flame
But baby, rise and burn the same 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Chorus]
Don’t be me, don’t bend and break
Don’t give your magic for their sake
You’re already gold beneath the skin
Let the girl you are begin again 

[Outro]
So dance, little wildflower—dance and scream
Be the girl I lost in chasing dreams
Don’t be me
Don’t be me

Don’t Be Me

https://youtu.be/cyrC7TQS4HA?si=BsLgIt15MQmfZ_xC

LOST IN THE SAUCE.mp3

This is a powerful anthem born from a movement of strong, talented women who are redefining the music industry. This song is a celebration of female empowerment, creativity, & solidarity. The spark that ignited this movement came from the incredible @bobby-b-phoolan, who started the #UnapologeticallyHER Playlist on SC & brought together a community of women artists who are making their voices heard. As a member of this group, I wanted to honor Bobby's vision & the sisterhood we've formed, so I created this song as a tribute to the movement & the women who inspire me every day. This song is a reflection of our experiences, our struggles, & our triumphs. We're not just making music; we're creating a legacy. We're unapologetically ourselves, & we're proud of who we are. From the lyrics to the beat, every element of this song is a testament to the strength & resilience of women. So, get ready to join the movement. This is #UnapologeticallyHER
https://rb.gy/qcoi3i

[Verse 1]
Step in the circle, the fire ignites
We queens link up, redefining the heights
Not lookin’ for permission, we buildin’ our own
From verses to beats, every woman in her zone
They said it’s a boys’ club, we flipped the script
Now SoundCloud buzzin’ with the power we spit
Bobby lit the spark, now the torch gets passed
From René to Sarena—yeah this movement gon’ last
No competition, just rhythm & rise
We see through the fake with truth in our eyes
Sisterhood born from the pain we survived
Now we unapologetic, loud, fierce, & alive

[Pre-Chorus]
We ain’t sorry for the shine, we ain’t dimmin’ for none
Every scar made a star, now the healing begun
We got dreams in our pens, got strength in our verse
So we spit with a purpose & rewrite the curse

[Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—yeah we show up bold
Every rhyme like gold, watch our legacy unfold
We don't ask, we take the mic, break the mold
Ain’t no fear in our flame, only stories untold
Unapologetically HER—every note, every line,
Got a crown on our soul and a reason to shine.
We the sisters we needed, the fire, the cure—
Together we rise, Unapologetically HER. 

[Verse 2]
They call it confidence? Nah, that’s just truth
Been grindin’ since day one, in and outta the booth
Some say we lack courage—boy, you must be blind
We birth galaxies daily from the depths of our minds
Bobby built the vision with her heart wide open
Gave a voice to the silence turned pain into motion
Now JazZee, ShAnkAri, & every soul in the thread
Turn the page on the past, let the future be led
No more waitin’ for seats—we makin’ our table
Queens with a dream & the will to stay stable
We show love, drop gems
never do it for clout
We just speak from the soul that’s what HER is about.

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
DMs full of "almosts," egos & schemes
But we movin’ with vision, not thirst for the streams
We hear the backhanded love brush it off, keep on
'Cause we queens, we creators we the break of the dawn
From solo battles to collabs with grace
We found our tribe, found our sacred place
This ain’t just a chat, it’s a vibe, it’s a wave
It’s the anthem of the brave, for the ones who stayed
We ain't here to be liked—we here to be loud
To spit bars that heal & make our mamas proud
We got purpose in rhythm, divinity in rhyme
And we ain’t shrinkin’ for nobody, not this time

[Bridge]
To every girl told “no,” now you got a crew
A mirror of your power & a place that’s true
So when the world says hush we just turn it to art—
Bobby sparked a revolution straight from the heart

[Chorus]

[Final Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—this our sacred sound
From the underground queens to the world-renowned
We won’t beg to belong, we just build & roar
This is HERstory now—can’t ignore us no more

[Outro]
So here’s to the visionaries, the rebels, the real
To every lyric that dared to feel
To Bobby, the spark—we honor your flame
We’ll carry this light, keep pushin’ the name

Unapologetically, beautifully, fiercely HER—
No silence, no shame, just the sound of power
🎤👑✨

Unapologetically HER

After 18yrs of releasing a new song, Hostal Handshake are BACK!
Maybe just a single, maybe just an EP or maybe...an album? But we are Back! :D
#ripOzzy

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYcakJJnz1E
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lyrics:
This is not a drill!

Give me something to break it in two
give me glory to rule the fools
take me in your house on a big flat screen
Ready to sink you on a dark black dream

Are you ready to become a slave of me?
Corrupted government ain't gonna set u free
All these righteous pre-election pigs
are now pointing the finger for you to pay the fee

Now it's the time, this is not a drill
ain't got no privilege , got nothing to feel
Your heart is gray from the news today
only your soul left in the end to pay


(p) & (c) 2025, Hostal Handshake.

This Is Not a Drill!

Enemies Too

Heavy Punk Rock 'n' Roll band turns into Synthwave nowadays! Brand NEW album "Ultraviolet Cosmos" available NOW!
https://shockthealgorithm.bandcamp.com/album/ultraviolet-cosmos

VickStiX

Shock the Algorithm