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Sing Our Souls

“Losing Control” drifts through the storm of sorrow, where rain washes away the past and silence speaks louder than words. It's a soul unraveling—through pain, through numbness—until a glimmer of light breaks the dark. From losing oneself to finding hope in love again, the song is a slow burn of release, reflection, and rebirth.

Break The Matrix

Losing Control

Losing Control (2025 Remastered)

This song is about the frustrations and betrayals that artists face in the digital age, particularly with music streaming platforms like SoundCloud. I was recently hit hard when my total play count suddenly dropped by half, with hundreds of plays vanishing from each song seemingly overnight. I've heard about three other artists that have had this happen to them as well.  It was a stark reminder of the lack of control and transparency artists have over their own work. The lyrics highlight the issues of transparency and fairness in counting streams and paying royalties, and how these systems can be manipulated to the detriment of the artists. It's a call to action, demanding justice and fairness for creators, and emphasizing the importance of honesty and integrity in the way our work is valued and compensated. 

This song is a protest against SoundCloud's exploitation of artists and a plea for a more equitable system that respects the value of our work. 

Let me know with a comment, if this has happened to you as well. I emailed SC but never received a reply as usual. 😡


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
In the shadows, numbers fade
A silent theft, a hidden shade
Hundreds of thousands, a count so fine
Now halved in an instant, left to decline 

[Pre-Chorus 1]
A cry in the void, a scream unheard
As the truth is twisted, and the lies are blurred 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Verse 2]
Months of silence, a meager pay
A measly amount, for a lifetime's sway
The system's broken, the trust is worn
As the counts are manipulated, and the truth is torn 

[Pre-Chorus 2]
A cry in the void, a scream unheard
As the truth is twisted, and the lies are blurred 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Verse 3]
SoundCloud's ledger, a dishonest page
Where our hard work's worth is rewritten in their stage
The fire that burns, within our hearts
Is fueled by passion, and a work of art 

[Bridge]
We're not just numbers, we're not just plays
We're the heartbeat, of a creative way
We're the voices, that speak to the soul
Don't silence us, don't take control 

[Chorus]
Fractured counts, a deceitful game
Playing with the truth, and the artist's claim
We're lost in the haze, of a fabricated fame
Fractured counts, a betrayal of the flame 

[Outro]
SoundCloud, your name is tied to shame
There should be justice, a reckoning to claim
Artists demand, a fair and honest share
You should do right by us, show you care.



Fractured Counts

This song is about resilience and determination. It's about being broken, battered, and bruised, but refusing to let those experiences define me. I've been through the flames, but I'm still burning, still standing. The song is a declaration of strength, a refusal to be defeated or silenced. It's about rising above the pain and the noise, and finding a voice that's born from fire. I'm unbroken, I'm untamed, and I'm still standing, and that's a message I want to share with all of you.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I've been to the edge, I've been to the floor
I've been broken, but I'm walking out the door
I've been lied to, I've been cheated
But I won't let it define me, no, I won't be defeated 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 2]
I've been to the darkness, I've been to the night
I've been searching for a light, a beacon in the fight
I've been trying to find my way, through the noise and the pain
But I won't let it break me, no, I won't be chained 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Verse 3]
I’ve been called too much, been told to hush
Felt the world try to crush me with every push
But I scream louder, I rise higher
You can't drown a voice that's born from fire 

[Bridge]
So go ahead and write me off again
Say I'm too wild, too fierce, too much to mend
But every scar is just proof I lived
And every fall gave me more to give 

[Chorus]
I'm unbroken, I'm untamed
I'm a fire that's still burning
I've been through the flames, but I'm not the same
I'm unbroken, I'm still standing, still standing 

[Outro]
Still standing, still burning
Still fierce, still learning
I’m unbroken — yeah, I’m still standing

Still Standing

ｄｒｕｍｓｕｍ

I'm back with another new track. This time I tried to make a "heavy ballad" called HEAVEN. I hope you like it🤗🎶🙏...

THIS ONE IS FOR MY DEAR WIFE. You are always there and support me in all my crazy 
creative processes.

If you like what you hear, I hope you'll like it and share it with your friends.

Thank you in advance for your time 🫶🙏🎶😊🙋‍♂️

Heaven is a romantic and uplifting song about finding true love that feels perfect and everlasting. The lyrics describe a deep emotional connection, where being with someone feels like paradise. With its heartfelt melody and dreamy tone, the song celebrates love as a safe, beautiful place that brings peace and joy.

Heaven

HUH MIX.mp3

This song is a deeply personal and emotional journey, exploring the complexities of pain, hope, and resilience. Through the lyrics, I aim to convey the struggle of navigating darkness and finding solace in creative expression. The song is about holding on to hope, even when it feels like everything is falling apart, and using music as a lifeline to cope with the pain and find a way forward. It's a reflection of my own experiences and emotions, and I hope it resonates with those who listen.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Wake to the gray, no reason why
I fake the smile, let the silence lie
Tears beg for release behind my eyes
But I swallow them down, like lullabies 

My pen’s a blade, it cuts me free
I bleed the words no one else can see
In minor chords, I pour my soul
A shattered heart in a broken scroll 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one knows how loud it screams
When all you are lives in your dreams 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 2]
I’ve painted skies in midnight tones
Sung lullabies to broken bones
But in the shadows, sometimes I find
A spark that whispers, “You’re still alive” 

The joy I fake, the hope I write
Is how I learn to fight the night
A fragile light behind the veil
A voice that says I will prevail 

[Pre-Chorus]
No one sees the war I wage
Behind the smile I wear onstage 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Verse 3]
It’s hard to stand when silence screams
But I keep building lifeboats from dreams
Some days I write just to survive
Others I sing to feel alive 

My sorrow’s ink, my joy’s disguise
But somewhere deep behind these cries
There’s a fire that won’t die
No matter how much I want to say goodbye 

[Bridge]
So here I am, broken and bold
With songs like scars that never grow old
This voice is cracked, but it’s still mine
A lullaby lost in time 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Where I'm hanging by a thread
Every word, a lifeline thrown
In the dark where I'm alone

I write to breathe, I sing to live
This pain’s the only truth I give
But I still hope through every line
That one day, I’ll be fine 

[Chorus]
These are my notes from the edge
Sung from the ledge where hope once bled
If I can feel, if I can write
Then maybe I can win this fight

Each chorus pulls me back from fate
Reminds me that it’s not too late
And through the tears I leave behind
I still believe I’ll be fine 

[Outro]
So I write... and I cry
But I don’t say goodbye
My song’s are not done yet
And I’m still alive you bet


Notes from the Edge

This song is about feeling trapped and lost in life, and struggling with the pressures and expectations that come with it. The lyrics touch on themes of insecurity, desperation, and frustration, particularly with the way society values appearance and relationships. It's a raw and emotional expression of the pain and darkness that can come from feeling like you're not good enough, and the desire to escape from the weight of it all. The song is a reflection of my own feelings of frustration and disillusionment, and I hope it resonates with you on a deep level.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
In the mirror's your best friend
Until your looks begin to fade
Then you're no one's special friend
And you wish you could be saved 

[Verse 2]
From this stupid little life
From your boyfriend and your wife
From the razor and the knife
And from everything you love 

[Verse 3]
Your mom says it's alright
But you still cry at night
No
You can't see the light
You're in the darkest part of life 

[Chorus]
So fuck this stupid life
No one gets it right
You do what you can do
But then you go and die 

[Verse 1]
In the mirror's your best friend
Until your looks begin to fade
Then you're no one's special friend
And you wish you could be saved 

[Verse 2]
From this stupid little life
From your boyfriend and your wife
From the razor and the knife
And from everything you love

Cry at Night

July 4th

A song against fascism in America (and around the world)
Check out the music video! It's not a dull political lecture - it's fun, I promise!
https://youtu.be/ljzN-jlpQoY

No Kings for Me

I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me

I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

How did the worst of us rise to the top?
Degenerates and hypocrites
The ugliest Americans
They won't depart you if you're white
And love is their kryptonite

Now I am a vagabond in their stupid eyes
But this vagabond is free
Here's how it goes:
A coup by twisted billionaire bros
But there are no kings for me

I'll hide my face
From their dark surveillance state
I'll piss on their graves
You'll see
Their fear hate and lies
And lies and lies and lies
I've built up immunity

How did the worst of us get to decide
That we support murderers and genocide?
Better watch your step because
Here come the masked American thugs

I will not kiss
Your gangster ostentatious ring
There are no kings for me
Your time is up
Your fascist dream is crumbling
The vagabonds sing "we are free"

And why do the worst of us hate us so much?
I never hated them until
They bowed down to the antichrist
They chose their path to hell
I wish that I could wish them well

No I will not bow
My knees will not bend
There are no kings for me
I will not yield
Send your goon squads back to hell
There are no kings for me

No Kings for Me

"Rescued" is a powerful synth-infused anthem of awakening and unity. With an uplifting retro-futuristic soundscape and soulful vocals, Moon and Aries deliver a cinematic journey through self-empowerment, hope, and transformation. It's a reminder that you're not alone—and that breakthroughs are always possible. Whether you’re dancing under city lights or reflecting under cosmic skies, “Rescued” speaks directly to the heart and soul. ✨🌊🌕♈🎶 
(Remastered by our friend Francois R.! Thanks so much! 🙏😎)

Rescued (2025 Remastered)

This song is a raw and emotional love letter to my younger self, a message of hard-earned wisdom and vulnerable strength. I'm looking back on the struggles and mistakes I made, and I want to tell my younger self to stand strong, to not compromise who you are to fit someone else's idea of what's acceptable. The song is about embracing your true self, your worth, and your voice, and not letting the world dim your light. It's a message of empowerment, of self-love, and of rising above the expectations and judgments of others. I'm urging myself, and anyone who's listening, to be brave, to shine, and to be unapologetically who you are.

*Fun fact: Both the present-day and young Vicky in this painting are based on real photos of me!  You probably recognize the present me, but I thought you all might think it's cool to know that my 5-year-old self is also captured here as well. 👧😍


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
Hey little wildflower, knees all scraped
You dream in thunder, but you're taught to wait
They’ll call you too loud, too much, too free
But don't let the world rewrite your story 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you wanna run, I know you're scared to fall
But baby, trust your gut—don't listen when they call
You trouble just for shining like the sun 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 2]
You're gonna wear shame like it's a dress
Swallowing dreams you can't confess
But guilt was never meant for girls like you
You were born with fire, not to be subdued 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you think it’s love when it hurts the most
But you don’t need to bleed just to feel close
You're worthy even when you walk alone 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Verse 3]
You're gonna dance with all your fears
Fall apart for all the wrong careers
But keep your heart, don’t sell it cheap
And never trade your voice for sleep 

[Bridge]
Tattoo your truth on every scar
You’re not broken—just battle-marked
The world’s gonna try to shrink your flame
But baby, rise and burn the same 

[Chorus]
Don't be me, don't fold to please
Don’t kiss boys just to feel seen
Don’t hide your light to calm the room
Don’t chase love that makes you bruise 

If I could go back, I’d scream it loud
You’re enough, right now, without the crowd
So don’t be me—be who I couldn’t be 

[Chorus]
Don’t be me, don’t bend and break
Don’t give your magic for their sake
You’re already gold beneath the skin
Let the girl you are begin again 

[Outro]
So dance, little wildflower—dance and scream
Be the girl I lost in chasing dreams
Don’t be me
Don’t be me

Don’t Be Me

This song is a deeply personal exploration of the complexities of creativity, ego, and the human experience. The entire concept was born from the mind of my friend @DJShAnkAri, who shared with me her thoughts on the pain of being an originator, only to see her ideas and influences go unacknowledged. I was inspired to take her ideas and craft them into a song, and I'm proud to give her co-writing credit for this piece. 

The song grapples with the tension between artistic expression and the desire for recognition, as well as the struggle to transcend the ego and find freedom from the trappings of pride and fame. At its core, the song is about the power of beauty to both inspire and ensnare us, and the importance of learning to witness our own experiences rather than becoming mired in them. 

Through the lyrics, I aim to capture the nuances of this inner conflict, and the ways in which our experiences shape us, even as we strive to rise above them. The song is an invitation to reflect on the nature of creativity, identity, and the human condition, and to find a deeper understanding of ourselves and our place in the world.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I saw myself in someone else’s lines
Unspoken echoes dressed in borrowed rhymes
They never turned to say my name
But still I burn and feel the same
A quiet theft, a silent sting
Why does the source feel everything? 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a shell
But in that shell I often dwell
The pain’s a mirror—clear and cold
Still, I don't know how to let it go 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 2]
Aloysius in the shadow’s grace
Unnamed fathers lost without a trace
We feel, we shape, we spark, we bleed
Yet never called the root, the seed
I should stand outside this game
But even ghosts can burn with shame 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a role
A mask that hides the monad’s soul
Still I confuse what I create
With who I am—and that's the bait 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 3]
We are gods inside these scars
Drifting truth in jars of stars
The soul still wrestles with the clay
But learns to watch, not slip away
To feel, then filter, pain from grace
To love the art, but not the face 

[Bridge]
Be the witness, not the war
Don't need applause to mean you're more
In silence lies the deepest truth
Creation doesn’t ask for proof 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I let it hurt, I let it name
But then I step beyond the fire
Become the void, the quiet choir
I could be higher, I choose to be
Even if beauty won’t set me free 

[Outro]
I feel, I fall, I know the cost
But nothing felt is ever lost
The soul may ache, but still it sings—
The witness wakes beneath all things

Thanks so much to the incredible @DJShAnkAri for the amazing remix of this song...
https://on.soundcloud.com/H8r9kZajYnwV2z6QqR



Beauty Holds Me

https://youtu.be/cyrC7TQS4HA?si=BsLgIt15MQmfZ_xC

LOST IN THE SAUCE.mp3

This is a powerful anthem born from a movement of strong, talented women who are redefining the music industry. This song is a celebration of female empowerment, creativity, & solidarity. The spark that ignited this movement came from the incredible @bobby-b-phoolan, who started the #UnapologeticallyHER Playlist on SC & brought together a community of women artists who are making their voices heard. As a member of this group, I wanted to honor Bobby's vision & the sisterhood we've formed, so I created this song as a tribute to the movement & the women who inspire me every day. This song is a reflection of our experiences, our struggles, & our triumphs. We're not just making music; we're creating a legacy. We're unapologetically ourselves, & we're proud of who we are. From the lyrics to the beat, every element of this song is a testament to the strength & resilience of women. So, get ready to join the movement. This is #UnapologeticallyHER
https://rb.gy/qcoi3i

[Verse 1]
Step in the circle, the fire ignites
We queens link up, redefining the heights
Not lookin’ for permission, we buildin’ our own
From verses to beats, every woman in her zone
They said it’s a boys’ club, we flipped the script
Now SoundCloud buzzin’ with the power we spit
Bobby lit the spark, now the torch gets passed
From René to Sarena—yeah this movement gon’ last
No competition, just rhythm & rise
We see through the fake with truth in our eyes
Sisterhood born from the pain we survived
Now we unapologetic, loud, fierce, & alive

[Pre-Chorus]
We ain’t sorry for the shine, we ain’t dimmin’ for none
Every scar made a star, now the healing begun
We got dreams in our pens, got strength in our verse
So we spit with a purpose & rewrite the curse

[Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—yeah we show up bold
Every rhyme like gold, watch our legacy unfold
We don't ask, we take the mic, break the mold
Ain’t no fear in our flame, only stories untold
Unapologetically HER—every note, every line,
Got a crown on our soul and a reason to shine.
We the sisters we needed, the fire, the cure—
Together we rise, Unapologetically HER. 

[Verse 2]
They call it confidence? Nah, that’s just truth
Been grindin’ since day one, in and outta the booth
Some say we lack courage—boy, you must be blind
We birth galaxies daily from the depths of our minds
Bobby built the vision with her heart wide open
Gave a voice to the silence turned pain into motion
Now JazZee, ShAnkAri, & every soul in the thread
Turn the page on the past, let the future be led
No more waitin’ for seats—we makin’ our table
Queens with a dream & the will to stay stable
We show love, drop gems
never do it for clout
We just speak from the soul that’s what HER is about.

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
DMs full of "almosts," egos & schemes
But we movin’ with vision, not thirst for the streams
We hear the backhanded love brush it off, keep on
'Cause we queens, we creators we the break of the dawn
From solo battles to collabs with grace
We found our tribe, found our sacred place
This ain’t just a chat, it’s a vibe, it’s a wave
It’s the anthem of the brave, for the ones who stayed
We ain't here to be liked—we here to be loud
To spit bars that heal & make our mamas proud
We got purpose in rhythm, divinity in rhyme
And we ain’t shrinkin’ for nobody, not this time

[Bridge]
To every girl told “no,” now you got a crew
A mirror of your power & a place that’s true
So when the world says hush we just turn it to art—
Bobby sparked a revolution straight from the heart

[Chorus]

[Final Chorus]
Unapologetically HER—this our sacred sound
From the underground queens to the world-renowned
We won’t beg to belong, we just build & roar
This is HERstory now—can’t ignore us no more

[Outro]
So here’s to the visionaries, the rebels, the real
To every lyric that dared to feel
To Bobby, the spark—we honor your flame
We’ll carry this light, keep pushin’ the name

Unapologetically, beautifully, fiercely HER—
No silence, no shame, just the sound of power
🎤👑✨

Unapologetically HER

After 18yrs of releasing a new song, Hostal Handshake are BACK!
Maybe just a single, maybe just an EP or maybe...an album? But we are Back! :D
#ripOzzy

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYcakJJnz1E
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lyrics:
This is not a drill!

Give me something to break it in two
give me glory to rule the fools
take me in your house on a big flat screen
Ready to sink you on a dark black dream

Are you ready to become a slave of me?
Corrupted government ain't gonna set u free
All these righteous pre-election pigs
are now pointing the finger for you to pay the fee

Now it's the time, this is not a drill
ain't got no privilege , got nothing to feel
Your heart is gray from the news today
only your soul left in the end to pay


(p) & (c) 2025, Hostal Handshake.

This Is Not a Drill!

Human infection

Enemies Too

Vocal Sample from : Rahila by Mohamed Al Hayani
Al Aarbi Batma speaks from movie : Taghounja by Nass El Ghiwan

Tnash' - Qariba (Batma vs El-Hayani)

⚡ Synthwave energy unleashed! ⚡ Shock the Algorithm returns with a brand NEW album — Ultraviolet Cosmos.
https://shockthealgorithm.bandcamp.com/album/ultraviolet-cosmos

🌌 Available NOW on Bandcamp — grab your digital copy today and step into the neon! 🌌