Your Mix 2

sometimes I think we lose track of the treasures that are at our fingertips as we get wrapped up in some amorphous thought of the future. Put another way "stop and smell the roses"  it is what we do and experience along the way that actually makes up our life ..little things that in retrospect were big things..the things that actually matter when you look back    so try and make these things appreciated in real time and not some retrospective memory at the end of your life

lyrics
I've reached my final destination
my feet are tired and my back is sore
I thought this was my life's ambition
so I looked around for my reward
only to find that at this final destination
there is no pot of gold

looking back I clearly see
that the treasure that I sought
is scattered in pieces along the path
I took to reach the mountain top

every person that I met
every time I saw a sunset
or felt a warm breeze on my face
or listened to the morning silence
a piece of gold would appear and end up in my pocket

so lessons learned become stories told
to the young by the old
your treasure is not a pot of gold you find at the end of your road
instead it is found piece by piece with every step you take
along the crooked path we walk
to our final resting place

final destination

Introduction in English:

On a Saturday, 9 June 1989, I receive a phone call from my mother at around 6 am. She seems to be laughing. But as it soon turns out, tears are bursting out of her. At first she can only say one sentence: "Your father is dead". Then her voice fails. I, who has just been roused from my sleep by the ringing, at first think it's a bad joke. My father, not even 55 years old, dead, who had been so full of energy in the last few months? With whom I had spoken lively on the phone just a week ago?
Then my eldest sister comes to the phone. She speaks like a robot, as if she has frozen all her feelings inside herself.
She confirms the sudden death of my father from a heart attack and urges me to come immediately from Berlin to southern Germany (800 kilometres away).
Much of what happened after that - from the last encounter with my father in the morgue, to the years of vacillating between feelings of liberation and sometimes massively frightening "I'll bring you to me in the realm of the dead" nightmares after his funeral, to finding a deeper inner peace with him in the last few years - I wrote down and sang about in the following song "My Father in Heaven".      
However, the song lyrics are not chronological, but set in 2011, in which I am all alone on a beautiful summer day in the cemetery where my father's grave is located. From this day I start a retrospective and an outlook.     

Lyrics:

My Father in Heaven

What a beautiful day
All alone in the graveyard 
Come to visit you
Without a grudge

It's unbelievably quiet
Hear the dead deep asleep 
In an beyond harbour
Be with you soon

I hated you sometimes 
Had you so gladly touched,
You're gone too soon 
Left me alone with the dirt 
Of this life.

Wanted to tell you so much more 
You can't sneak away like that
A moment ago you were still there  
I felt quite close to you,

Now only 
A cold hand in the morgue
Nothing more moves

My father in heaven, 
I miss you very much, 
With wistfulness my heart sometimes
Becomes so heavy

When you were suddenly dead
Many things seemed easier, 
I moved forward in life, 
I looked free

but when I slept at night,
you'd come into my dreams, 
trying to pull me over, 
to the land beyond.

You didn’t let me go for so long 
Lying like a black mourning box
On my chest and belly, 
Felt like I was in a tube 
Trapped by you.

Often couldn’t defend myself
Felt completely without power 
When in the deep of the night
you came to my room, 

without a body, 
pure soul contact,
worlds still unknown to me.

Father in heaven,
do you hear me now,
I speak to you in peace, 
I am no longer hurt.

Your grave is newly decorated,
I've picked a bouquet for you, 
I sit down with you, 
I surrender tot he silence
peaceful silence. 

I am here now, you there
even if the wall separates us,
we see each other invisibly, 
You always stay close to me, 

I'll go on now, 
Stay here, 
I'll be back soon

Father in heaven
I think of you often 
You are indispensable, 
Come with me....

My Father in Heaven

My Father In Heaven

Taken from the upcoming full length debut album (TBR mid-2024)
(p) & (c), 2023.
Youtube link: https://youtu.be/F8sinHhDbp8
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Lyrics:
Listen from far beyond
listen you crowd of loss
listen you all, a generation of pain 
that felt destruction so close

listen people who wheep
that you are the chosen sheep
a sheep that will live, forever you will
and without any bleed

and the seasons are changing
and the days are passing by, while fighting the good fight
and the time feels like raging, an unstoppable light 
and now i am saying...you can't go wrong! 

I hear some people sing, 
i hear some people scream,
i know we all, being under the sky  
in this place where we breathe and dream

listen around the globe,
embrace what u  really love
with body and soul you have to give in
 and never let it go!

Rock and Roll Kills

You Can't Go Wrong!

This song sprung out of a practice session, with the lyrics, especially the first verse, just tumbling out.
It's another love song for my partner.  Can't seem to stop writing them, but that's how much she means to me.  Will be more worried if I stop writing them.  
Hope you enjoy it.

Rapid Rivers (Blazing Across My Mind)

written by Netta&Mcgill
a little song about appreciation and sticking together............thanks for listening and merry christmas


you're the blue up in my sky
the twinkle in the eye
aint no mountain seem too high
when you are by my side

you're the no and i'm the yes
you're the answer i'm the guess
everything just seems a mess
without you by my side

sometimes the days aint long enough
to do what we gotta do
and get on with what really matters
like taking care of me and you

my island in the sun
a place to hide when i'm on the run
i could easily come undone
without you by my side

cool me down like summer rain
seek me out when i'm lost again
among enemies you're my friend
who stands right by my side

like a dusty road that never ends
the long goodbye, to part as friends
just know that we'll meet again
and we'll walk side by side

Side X Side

(p) & (c) 2023/2024. Taken from the debut album (to be released mid-2024, under the tittle "Rock and Roll Kills").
Youtube link: https://youtu.be/Ls4kYAwMN2w
lyrics (Parental Advisory):
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You're so strage to me

you got offended so fast
you're not built to last
you're made of sugar, butter and shit

You think it's only you
you cry like a bitch
your job it's only to abuse

whatever i say is wrong
your life is like a crappy song
no reason to talk to you anymore!

You're So Strange To Me

Words/Music by Netta&McGill
Available on Spotify, YouTube, iTunes and other music streaming platforms

Thank you for stopping by and listening
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Where to go 
When you’ve been so many places?
Where to stay 
When everywhere is home

Who to greet 
With these all familiar faces?
Staying put
Even though you want to roam

Oh you will find it - Ooooooo
Surely you’ll find it - Ooooooo

What to pack 
With limited possessions?
What to drive
The key lost long ago

How to pinpoint 
Where are your dear obsessions?
Never lost 
Even though the signs won’t show

Oh, you will find it - Oooooo
Surely you’ll find it - Oooooo

What to fear 
When you were never harmed
Who to trust 
When deceit is yet unknown

Who to love
When already you are charmed
You will see
You won’t question, you will know

Oh, you will find it - Oooooo
Surely you’ll find it - Oooooo

You Will Find It

Taken from the upcoming debut full length album (planned to be released mid-2024 - "Rock and Roll Kills").
(p) & (c), 2024.
Youtube link: https://youtu.be/t5sGg8f5L50
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lyrics:
I say let's get outta here, let'go where noone's near
and don't let fear reign on you

I say let's climb the highest mountains, let's drink from the holy fountains
and don't go back anymore

Don't take anything for granted, now the world's gone haunted
and this is what i say , from now on...


Grateful, not stranded
faithful like there's no tomorrow
ohhhhhh ohhhhhh

not dreadful nor abandoned
not shameful like there's no tomorrow
ohhhhh ohhhhhh

You got scared, trembling from fear
Like there's no one here, but you've got all that you need

material, this useless serial, your soul is imperial
don't let vanity make your demons feed.

No Tomorrow

WHEN YOU FINALLY L:EAVE

Future sunset Omarama
Knowing only you will see
It’s a low brow shrinking ceiling

A contract without words
It’s the thick of family
Harbinger of lonely hearts
The fate of you and me

And when you finally leave
We gotta face it courageously
When you finally leave
We gonna have to suck it up – it’s the right thing to do
We gonna have to draw down on memory 

Fate is born by trajectory
Attraction mangles fences
Leaving snow grass blowing free

And how the years were kind to us
Yearning for the workplace
The weekends oh so bleak

And when you finally leave . . .
Instrumental
You got a date stamp – a black hole in the sky - And I got to make way

You and your Omarama – we’ll both be conscience free
But how will we feel? . . . 

Cause when you finally . .

When You Finally Leave

Taken from the upcoming debut full length album (planned to be released mid-2024 - "Rock and Roll Kills").
(p) & (c), 2024.
Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVDW2mi4i0g
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Explicit lyrics:
Felt like almost dead, would you carry me home, would you lay me down?
Felt like shit again, would you bring my pills? do you know how it feels?

i don't know where to go...is this the end? i don't know!
From the tip of my head...till my toes, is this hell and heaven's above?

is there a free ride or a lottary prize? to win to lose on an XL size?
crappy or not, time will show...all i know is heaven's above!

I don't wanna buy a lotta food
i don't wanna get rid the booze
i don't wanna buy an SUV
i don't wanna get fatold and get peed

i don't wanna watch the news
i don't wanna get dirty with tools
i don't wanna smell your farts
i don't wanna mess around with you fatfucks!

Heaven's above?

Vocal : Bilal
Guitar : @tapitapeh

https://achan.id/

Padi - Harmoni (cover)

a quick one in the morning............cheers for having a listen

I'll Be On My Way

Taken from the upcoming debut full length album (planned to be released March 1st - "Rock and Roll Kills").
(p) & (c), 2024.
Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80YWaTAt8Gc
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lyrics:
We've been through a lot, a lot of shit
now it's time to fight, fight against
against this depression and evil vibe
this is the time we will take over our lives

We've been submersed deep deep down
we've lost our faith into this evil town
we have to get back, get back to our own feet
we had enough, enough with this shit!

and now we have our head up high
we know what it's true and never dies
and now we step up with god's command
we won't take it anymore, not get stuck into the sand

It won't take forever just to reach our dream
it won't take forever to delete the bad scene
it won't take forever to hold your hand
it won't take forever to the promised land

it won't take forever to live again
it won't take forever to face the sun
it won't take forever, it won't take forever!

It Won't Take Forever

adieu adieu

(em) back to balance 
a gate in the (c) day

(em) Ten of Swords
at the end of a (c) play

(g) (the) purpose of the (c) cross
(g) (the) pain of our (c) Lord

(g) I don’t know what I’m (c) doing 
or not (bm) doing, of (am7) course

(f) how to get back – (g) back to where? back to where?
(f) how to get back – (g) back to where

thy (c) plaintive (g) anthem (f) fades
(c) adieu (g) adieu (f) adieu
in (c) those next (g) valley (f) glades 
and (c) you and (g) you and (f) you

love to drift
through the clouds

far above
the worlds below

(the) blood of the lamb
(the) promise of the seed 

I don’t know what I’m thinking 
or not thinking, indeed

how to get back – back to where? back to where?
how to get back – back to where

thy plaintive anthem fades
adieu adieu adieu
in those next valley-glades 
and you and you and you

clock the seconds 
afore they go

reconnect 
to the flow

tender is the night 
on a winding mossy way

in love with easeful death 
yet still wanting to stay
how to get back – back to where? back to where?
how to get back – back to where

thy plaintive anthem fades
adieu adieu adieu
in those next valley glades 
and you and you and you

split the heart
of the tree

divided self 
one, two, three

(the) nightingale’s repose 
her last song on the air 

I don’t know why I’m sensing 
but not seeing the rose 

how to get back – back to where? back to where?
how to get back – back to where

thy plaintive anthem fades
adieu adieu adieu
in those next valley glades 
and you and you and you (et vous et vous et vous)

(fade out on adieu adieu adieu x 3)

NB
(uses some lines and variation of lines from Keats's Ode to a Nightingale: 'thy plaintive anthem fades'/ 'adieu adieu'/ 'next valley glades' / 'tender is the night' / 'winding mossy way' / 'in love with easeful death')

TASCAM DR-05

adieu adieu

Gjort Är Gjort, För Oss Är Livet Nu. 1079 ( 2015 ) Margareta Theorin - Eddy Mango ( Margareta )

You say happiness exists, but you're not sure where it goes
And you don't know how you feel, but you're getting real close
You're keeping me in the dark, but it won't be long
She says
She says I won't like it, but I just gotta hold on
She says
I'm done with all this silence
Russian roulette romances
One slip, oh, I could light it
Just tell me this is lifeless
I need you to hate me, baby, in the worst way, oh
Yeah, I need you to hate me, say it to my face, I'll go
Yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh
Say something
Oh-oh, oh-oh
Say something
Now I'm talking to myself 'cause I miss your ring tone
You say you're still around, but I'm done and I need to know (Need to know)
You're keeping me in the dark, but it won't be long (Be long)
She says (She says)
She says I won't like it, but I just gotta hold on (Hold on)
She says (She says)
I'm done with all this silence
Russian roulette romances
One slip, oh, I could light it
Just tell me this is lifeless
I need you to hate me, baby, in the worst way, oh
I need you to hate me
I need you to hate me, say it to my face, I'll go
I need you to hate me
I need you to hate me, baby, in the worst way, oh
I need you to hate me, say it to my face, I'll go
(I need you to hate me, I need you to hate me)
Oh-oh, oh-oh
Say something (Say something)
Oh-oh, oh-oh
Say something (Say something)

I Need You To Hate Me (Guitar - Coverattempt)

What Was I Made For?

I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know, but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?
Taking a drive, I was an ideal
Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real
Just something you paid for
What was I made for? Hm
'Cause I, I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Someday I might

When did it end? All the enjoyment
I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend
It's not what he's made for
What was I made for?
'Cause I, 'cause I
I don't know how to feel
But I wanna try
I don't know how to feel
But someday I might
Someday I might

I think I forgot how to be happy
Something I'm not, but something I can be
Something I wait for
Something I'm made for
Something I'm made for

Songwriters: Finneas Baird O'connell, Billie Eilish O'connell.

What Was I Made For?  (Cover)

A request from a dear friend whom I have known since I was 17. 
We have shared some wonderful times through the years, on the Isle of Arran, Edinburgh and France. She is a constant light, and I give thanks for her friendship.
Recorded this morning, guitar and vocal together, then added some mouthie

Carey ( Joni Mitchell )

An acoustic rendition of the indie classic rock goddess herself. As I navigate the terrain of life’s surprising views, this song becomes easier to understand. A woman’s metaphors that read like the soundtrack to my own history, she sings like she’s walked in my shoes. A true poet.

Dreams Fleetwood Mac-Audri

"Hasta Mañana"  
Quise plasmar mi momento de melancólica en una balada de rock acústico que explorara las profundidades de la lucha interna  de mi ser de una forma introspectiva y emocional, Intento narrar la travesía que he enfrentado y mi incertidumbre en la paz através de versos que reflejan dolor, esperanza y mi búsqueda continua de felicidad, 

YO SE QUE PUEDO CAMBIAR Y QUE TODO MEJORARA, SOLO TENGO QUE DEJAR DE JUSTIFICAR QUIEN FUI O FINGIR TANTO EL SERLO QUE HARIA QUE DESCONOSCAN POR QUIEN SOY. Pero estoy vivo que es el primer PUNTO A MI FAVOR y el mas IMPORTANTE solo hay que decir NO y saber que no va a ser facil y es posible que me devuelva muchas veces pero. 
CON PACIENCIA Y SALIBITA RESUELVEN UN ELEFANTE Y UNA HORMIGUITA. Un momento de RISA sustituye los MILES MALOS RECUERDOS.

Hasta Mañana

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