Why... are you so mean?. What. did I do to deserve this?

i push my self to the edge of my limits and beyond

each of us lives in our own fantasies

[Lord… forgive me, I have sinned. My heart is heavy.] [Creep (2017 Remaster) – Tom Platz]

White Monster Effect I feel alone, yet nothing changes. I wish for presence, but I'm always ignored.