best listened to in a dark room with a candle lit
some words from the Tanakh, some words by dante gabriel rossetti
illustration: Lilith. Althea Gyles. The Dome I (Oct.-Dec. 1898): 235.

LYRICS <3 <3 <3:

the sky got very cloudy for the first time since july
lady in the darkness come into me please be mine
you're all i think about
shadow maker you could take her, tear the world down
and leave me here

maybe all i needed was one more autumn to integrate
my feelings
there's nothing to hold onto anymore
wish i could float above the heavens just so i could kiss the stars
and lady you would be there and say "how are you,
come into my arms."

sometimes i wish that i had eyes like lilith did
that they were sharp and dark and fox shaped
it's not enough  to just be here or just wake up
i need something more
as if these songs are the thing that hold us together
i'll write what the fuck i want, i'm not scared of
the weather anymore
i just really can't be here when the sun goes down
i hate winter in this city, ya i fucking hate this town
i know it's bad to say, but god loves me anyway
and i just wanna be honest

i'm almost finished being so afraid
i shake hands with stinging nettle and i dance
with deadly nightshade
i searched out my companions that were lost in crystal canyons
they're all gone, i shed a tear, i walk away

lady of the darkness come into me please be mine
someday i'll have the power to knock over candles
with my mind and
how holy is it to know that your body is only blood and 
love letters in writing
it's not enough to just wake up i need to feel you beside me
when i smoke menthol cigarettes and stand alone at every party

sometimes i wish that i had eyes like lilith did 
that they were sharp and dark and fox shaped
it's not enough to just be here or just wake up 
i need something more.........

for lilith

L A D & lil scarab!!!!! 
instrumental: http://youtu.be/K04rY0eQje4

flowers

philadelphia don't u haunt me

dandelion hands is dead!! vol 2 comes out Oct 30th, 2015

bdsm (being dead sounds magnificent)

written, recorded, and produced by michael charles hansford
mastered by zach weeks
recorded in a basement in london, ontario throughout 2016
"cloth" recorded in montreal

additional vocals on 'tragic trix' by emily hathaway
cover painting by anastasia cass

released april 21st 2017

Whatever Reason

Molly Drag - Pitch Black Apathy

Flowers of Flesh and Blood

Observatory Mansions

Please Just Stay Dead

Eat Worms And Die

Written, recorded, and produced by Sidney Hilston.

I don't believe I'm capable
of every being loved
I feel like I'm going to die
tragically young

and all alone
without anyone by my side
I say I'm independent
but I'm barely getting by

wouldn't you agree
I said it back in town
there's rain to wet my feet
but not enough to let me drown

it's torture in my head
I'm ill and fucking sick
you know that I'm hurting
but you choose to be a prick

I think I'm different and you just think I'm scary
meet me in your nightmares on a swingset in a cemetery

some people say I'm angry
but I would disagree
you'd be pissed off too
if only you could see

I only want what's best
and what's best for us all
is to peak into the looking glass
or a rabbit hole and fall

one time someone told me
turn sadness into art
and it can be beautiful
if you know where to start

but all these contradictions
have swallowed me whole
in the belly of the beast
where I have found my soul

I think I'm different and you just think I'm crazy
meet me in your nightmares on a swings in a cemetery

Swingset In A Cemetery

lyrics:

trying is just a slippery slope to sadness
which is a slippery slope to madness
which is a hollywood word for how i exist and work i guess

and love is  just another word for obnoxious
which is  to say i am loveless
maybe thats why i am scared of you and what you do

when you like me enough to make me feel like im good
when you love me i think maybe i could love too
i always thought i might be bad now i know that its true
cus i think you’re so good and im nothing like you

and you took me apart like a ball jointed doll
put a heart where i used to be just ribs with a skull
now i hurt when you leave is that better than before
now i just want you to love me more and more and more


kill me  use me for what is my purpose
choke me until i turn purple
instead of your mild and self sacrificing humanising

my love is  closer to something thats toxic
than love that is just something lovely
which is why i dont kiss cus i can taste myself on them

can you love me again if im a horrible friend?
if i push you away to make more room for myself?
if im broken and hurting and stuck in a loop?
always saying the same things embarrassing you?

can you break me until i am broken enough
to pathetically think that i understand love
its all a mental decoy    im a broken toy
mistaking attention for joy

bleeding is maybe something to do with competing
just a proof that our bodies are fleeting
living life to the fullest has always been the weirdest thing

and love has always caused nothing but problems
if u see my exes please tell them
that pain is a virtue  yet still nothing really quite compares  to how you sometimes dye my hair and love me even when im   sick     i know i dont deserve it

trying is just a slippery slope to surviving
and thats why im writing and writing
never quite finishing any songs so i write more and more and more and more and more

Trying

SOUNDCLOUD KEEPS DELETING THIS I MADE THIS SHIT IN PSYCHOSIS STOP DELETING ITB4 I SWING BAKKKK IN

Id Rather Live In My Head Anyways

pls stream me on itunes, spotify, etc. i don’t get paid for streams here!!!

Swingset In A Cemetery

Sidney Hilston

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