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lyrics:

(etai)
if you love me then start letting me go
you never loved me thanks for letting me know
u stand out in the front row when i hop on stage and put on a show
cant expect me not to leave got my foot out the door
said fuck school since i was young cause i knew i wanted more
i cant live the life that i didn't ask for
i wish this life would just end faster

(sif)
i do this shit for fun, yeah its not that deep bro
you told me "itll be okay" but i dont believe you
blood all in my eyes make it hard to see
crying all alone cuz when we touch i bleed

pink butterfly knife, got my blade up
pretty lil lines on the table
took a lil too much yeah i fucked up
got pills in my sweater, fuck a re-up

front row w/ sif (prod. kil1lvrr)

feat. @1anesthesia
prod. @4rrant

(sif)
broken - im hurting in a new way
its never painless, you left me in a dark place
ill never make it, im losing all my faith
i needed you to stay,
ghosting everyday

never enough for you no matter what i do
could never love myself like i love you
last year all over again, i fucking hate this
i dont need a heart, just fucking take it

im lost in the same places
cant work it out, ill break it
lost love, you left me aching
cant work this out, were breaking

i held your hand in mine
i wanna hear those lies again
ill try another time
but i know how this ends

(anesthesia)
blue pills,
i’m in my happy place
i go outside put on my face
know when i die i’ll b erased
and that’s ok with me cuz

you know, i’m nothing special
leave me, for someone better
headaches, from all this pressure
she loves me not, she loves me never

you know, im, im nothing special
lea-lea-lea-leave me, for someone better
headaches, from all this pressure
she loves me not, she loves me never

i’m so lost
lost in my thoughts
i hope you fall down with me

lost + anesthesia (arrant)

@sif666

lyrics:

(etai)

i can't breathe rn
i can't breathe rn
i can't breathe rn
trapped underneath the water
im a martyr
(bitch go kick rocks)
school of hard knocks my alma mater
(got the gripped socks)
couldn't give a fuck, i ran out of those 
wouldn't pick you out of a crowd of hoes
bitch im boutta blow
trapped underneath the water
im a martyr
(bitch go kick rocks)
school of hard knocks my alma mater
(got the gripped socks)
couldn't give a fuck, i ran out of those 
wouldn't pick you out of a crowd of hoes
bitch im boutta blow
and it's been so long since i felt human
couldn't find the strength in me to do things
there's so much expected of me
i just wanna be sedated baby drug me
i can see through the illusion 
used to cause so much confusion 
nowadays im steady cruising
thru this maze which ways im choosing

(sif)

i keep losing all my friends
i cant get that high again
burning up until my death
no more breath 
let me rest

i had enough and i cant forget
what you said to me in my bed
i walk out for a j when its dark out
all i wanna do is sleep but im freaking out

etai thats my sensei
dropping molly in my water onna friday
and i get to the cake thats why im paid
make a make a figure 8 like an ice skate

grip sox i gottem onna thrift date
cant afford a psych ward so i cosplay
always capping in my lyrics
cant afford a psych ward imma sick bitch

grip socks w/ sif (prod. bleachcraft + brayam)

art by swagcidal
prod. favour
https://www.youtube.com/@favourin

its nothing after all
a feeling on its own
no reason to be felt
become a shadow of ourselves

leave me alone

you pray for me behind a veil
why you acting like you care
i took it all away
now theres nothing left at all

this pain
my chest
regret 
i should've left
in your arms i feel so cold
im your nightmare let me go

another dream
i fantasize
you make me bleed
but you wont find
me here inside
i disappear
my shadows 
cast before me
its the light i fear

your hands
my neck
i cried
and bled
in my arms you feel so cold
ur my nightmare let me go

shadows (favour)

feat @etais0
prod @xtasane
art by @chubbyglock

(sif)
face a blunt like its nothing
acting like a slut when we fucking
cry abt this shit every night bc of this pain
sink into the earth like im just a fucking bloodstain
already dead all my bones fall to ashes
im fucking rolling im alone now im crashing
the only time that i sleep is if i passed out
im always on my own yeah i pull up then i spazz out
railing perc 30s off the desk till i throw up
new rocks on my body like a jeweler watch me glow up
im getting tired of ur lies since u switched up
hearing all that shit u talk u got me fucked up

i see demons when im by myself
i dont need ur fucking help
u made it all worse
these cuts are deep and it hurts

(etai)
i been taking percocet
it dont work i said
shawty im a jerk i said
i dont wanna merc a man
but i gotta burst his head open on the curb brains up on the pavement
i dont wanna hear a word
or else them brains boutta be yours
you must think thats absurd nah
fuck what you heard
im the biggest bird

vivienne westwood necklace
big ass backwood
im reckless
vip check that guest list
u a jester they laugh as u exit
get a check before i do a set, kid
pay attention the fest getting hectic
im the best on the lineup check this
another drop on some bleed team hex shit

cuts + etai s0 (xtasane)

i knew itll never change
the moment that you said my name
my feelings 4 u down the drain
now all that i can feel is pain
suffering alone in bed
staring at the ceiling rather just be dead
far away from what i used to be
i hate that when i try i cant stop the bleeding

dead (augury + sunrisess)

prod. jayysoul x atmxs
vocal mix by etai s0
cover art is the band Suffocation

[lyrics]
another bump off a knife for the hell of it
im not fucking with these bitches like im celibate
femcel swag on my body take a pic of it
yeah im dripping from my neck like my throat slit

we were so messed up in your backseat
i dont give a fuck now just drop me on a backstreet
its not enough ill hit that shit till its blinking
drugs in my blood n im feeling like im sinking

jayy turn up the gain another notch
walk in the pit and u getting stomped
i rock w my team n we blowing up
they wanna get cuffed but im not in love
mercedes the whip we pulling up
boot on the gas lets speed it up
i said i would stop but its not enough
just wanna dance when im off the drugs
he wanna lil taste ya ill give him some
knew u were a poser when u stepped up
metal band on my tee u cant read it huh? 
its rly funny u think ur tough
yah

band tee (jayysoul + atmxs)

w/ @sif666

prod @lllovbug + @nskyi

lyrics:

(sif)

i cant ever show my face
theres no one else to blame
now nothing feels the same
since u treated me this way
blood dripping from my hands
making the same mistakes all over again
silent creeping death
this pill will be my end

bite marks all up on his chest black lipstick
powder in my tripps fuck a life i dont need it
vampire gang like its fucking castlevania
stomp u on the curb if u wanna fuck ur face up
blood on the floor getting tricky
a.d.s. with that .50
i aint ever missing
ah
fabrics on my body like a runway
im like scarface in this bitch yeah im gettin paid

(anesthesia)

i walk thru the fire like i’m dante
all these diamonds on body eliantte 
i got me a bad thick bitch tht like to cosplay 
and i’m a freak i eat that pussy like an entree
you an actor take your ass to broadway
i’m on the block servin blues out in broad day
we smokin sorbet , roaches in the ashtray
if u see me it’s bad day, im dumpin like it’s trash day

i feel like i’m denji way im choppin up
hi tech in my cup i’m sippin dragons blood
you pocket watchin getcha money up
you talkin to me like i give a fuck
we know u ain’t bout it u a fuckin bum
ain’t nothin sweet this shit not honey nut
balmains on my waist i keep my 30 tuckd 
i hit a stain n im gon mop it up

opium archives

dante (this fire)

dante (this fire) w/ sif [lovbug + nskyi]

no way out + tekkiebby (pearlblade)

feat. @heyvilse
prod. @1ddva + @lilyintheforest 
art @chubbyglock
<3

lyrics:

(sif)
just a blue screen
nothing of meaning
when u use me
i feel like screaming
shut down
ctrl + alt + del
i need healing
please dont leave me

thought we were 4ever thought it might last
now im sick of picking poisons from ur nightstand
wanted clarity without the fucking side effects
i end up crying on the floor of your apartment

u were never afraid to make me bleed this way
know its all my fault
never shouldve stayed
still have love for u
even if u hate me
all those promises
know i have to break them

seeing ghosts in my bedroom
theres nothing like this pain
just make it go away

(vilse)
please tell me you're joking
tell me it ain't real
heart dropped to the floor
you don't care 'bout how i feel
i use drugs to cope
i use drugs so i can heal
i do not recall a heartbreak
as being part of the deal

i wish i could still go back
don't like anything i have
need to quit the happy act
i don't like how i feel
take drugs so i can relax
ah, talk about your ex
but i don't wanna react
ah, if you keep on messin
with my head i might relapse

ah, how could i have fun?
yeah, you drained every
ounce of me until i couldn't run
you left me a shell
like the bottle that i sunk
and you're part of the reason
that i'm fuckin' up my lungs
(that i'm fuckin' up my lungs)

ah-ah ah
ah-ah, ah ah
you're part of the reason
that i'm fuckin' up my lungs

promise + vilse (1ddva x lilyintheforest)

all gone (lilyintheforest x pearlblade)

my brain is decaying

lyrics:

[etai]
mid apocalypse im stacking chips like its nobody's business
everyone around me sits within the bigger picture
last supper
hyper off a bunch of uppers
these drugs gonna keep me up
i never slumber

middle fingers up
give a fuck about authority 
ill tear the whole bitch up
when im touring flying overseas
remembering your touch
needed more im crying oh baby
im crying oh

[anesthesia]
and i couldn’t even stop fuckin up if i wanted to
how you hide when what you seek is right in front of you?
in the mirror i can’t face the one im lying to
fallin in reverse take me back to when i trusted you

these days you’re so much colder than usual
you keep me on your phone and hit me up like i’m reusable
you acting so delusional
go back n forth like crucible
but i gotta keep you round to remind me life is beautiful

i do it all for you baby
ill take the fall for you baby
your skin is cold and you’re shaking
together we can make it to safety

[sif]
my heart just getting colder on the nightly
bitch just leave me alone no u wont like me
they dont know how to write so they biting
always on some bleed shit thats my team

u told me itll be fine but i dont want u
broke my heart again as if u need to
shattered into pieces dont know what to do
u saw my every flaw, am i just see-through?

never wanted to admit that i needed u
white dress stained darker when i bleed thru
im the plug hit me like what u need boo?
i get my drugs for free bitch i dont need u

last supper w/ anesthesia + sif (bleachcraft + troiner)

starlight + vilse & etai s0 (sif ♡)

@glitter_throat

lyrics:

(sif)
ill burn it all behind me doesnt matter now
im way too cold for this im getting money now
feel my soul ascending to another realm
way too faded i dont think ill be coming down 

6 gs inna blunt yeah i face that
i wanna die got a blade on my face tat
what u want from me baby i can do that
pretty like a trans bitch i move racks 

im tired of all these mistakes
what i saw in ur heart was all a fake
all this pain wont make me break
ill make it out this fucking place

(glitterthroat)
tear-stained face, I don't think I can do today
I don't wanna make a promise If I can't stay 
dizzy dizzy dizzy dizzy till I DC 
hit me love me hate me I make it too easy

And you don't understand me
when I say I'd do everything 
This bodies a tool 
and I want you to use me

hit me love me hate me
I'll do whatever you say
break me till I'm dust
I don't care anyway

And I'll give you the world
Like I promise I said
You don't stop at the end

If you want it, you can get it
I can promise you that
You deserve it baby
don't you worry it's my only task...

cold + glitterthroat (sif ♡)

snow + stay! (northeast lights + nvki)

last night I passed out on the table
I forgot how I got there
im jus a dead bitch walking
im jus a dead bitch walking
im just a dead end prospect
I know that u hate what I see
what a shame it doesn't matter 2 me
im just a dead end prospect
last night I passed out on the table
I forgot how I got there
im jus a dead bitch walking
im jus a dead bitch walking

just a dead bitch walking
thats what i get for trusting
fade out of the moment
bloodsoaked and broken
cant act like i wanted
blood on ur carpet 
pills till im nauseous 
words in the mirror
dont matter when ur here
i struggle to find where
i let myself die 
and i close my eyes 
thinking itll be fine 
think im losing my mind
think im losing my mind...

sif ♡

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