Nothing Ever Mattered

trying to recalibrate my relationships


credits:

Matthew Ariaratnam, guitar (track 5)
also writes & plays under the name "dumbpop"
me like his music~~

Michael Borkovic, sax (track 2)

Aneeq Kalson, other instruments
i produced it too look at me go ami abu <3

C-P.T.S.D. (Instrumental)

i can show you love, baby
i know what i look like

careful, though
watch out for the snake bite!

کوشش کرایا کر
کئی آرام نال سوچ
سوچلیتھا کے

و کی چاریای ، یا کی ہے
ہار vاقات باندحای ڈھا ایک جیسا موڈ نئی ہونڈا

which is normal, natural

لیکن ایہہ کئی
احستھارا نہیں ہونا چایدحا
کئی دوسرای نوں ہار vاقات لگے کئی
تسی اننو
وتھای تھو انجرو ہو
یا تسی اننو اہمیت نئی دحاریین

you understand what i'm trying to tell you?

C-P.T.S.D.

all these pretty objects, 
i don’t need them but it’s nice to see them. 
i’m glad they exist. 
fill our space with something we can’t miss. 
most people’s talents remain undiscovered, 
run amiss, run amok, run away from what we love 
because it won’t feed, 
stuck chasing green lights w our tanks in the red, 
our banks in the negative, 
better shit waiting for us outside the screens 
but we can’t hear it over the screams, 
can barely hear each other,
you’ve been missing what i mean, 
I’m trying to show you what i’ve seen 
with no patience to tell it, 
no words to spell it out, 
feel like we need to shout to have our voices heard 
over the loud absurdity. 
baby, you’re hurting me. 
slow down and listen 
or you’ll miss me when I’m gone. 
can’t do this alone, 
weight crushing my dome. 
really need a home to rest in and feel safe, 
we’re all elated when our people are sharing the space, 
but rn all i feel is it fading away… 
looking for the words to make you stay 
when in reality i need to work on being okay with change, 
increase my range of comfort, 
done with feeling done for, 
i’ve done more than mope and i know it, 
even the tiny things 
with nothing to show for 
know more about me than i can see 
when i’m wading through depression, 
away from reality’s shore, 
feel like i’m drowning and more, 
the water’s getting cold, 
been trying to let go 
of the hope of moulding reality, 
rather just learn to float 
and scope out well-intended boats. 
eyes open, mouth closed…

Listen.

Parting Gift*

written & produced by Sight Makes Music

track 1:
+ Matthew Ariaratnam (a.k.a. drumbpop) ♥
bass, drums, & voice.
co-writer & co-producer.

sight.

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