*Welcome sadness as an essential part of the human experience, but never give into despair*

Hello again. It's been a long time since I've put together a comprehensive project like this. The past couple years have been filled with many blessings, but also countless hardships. I remember last winter I was contemplating despair: my pets had all just died in succession and my best friends were drifting farther and farther out of my life. I had never felt so alone. Then spring brought great family challenges, crippling anxiety, and a job that i despised. With summer and fall came further heartbreak. 
Now it is winter once more, and I realize that this sadness that exists within me is part of what makes me a man. It has hardened me and tempered my spirit, and also made me enjoy happy moments that much more. Misery can seem like black hole, but as long as you don't succumb to despair you will ALWAYS find joy after sorrow, like a rainbow after a violent storm. You just be strong and seek it out :)  Now I give love without expecting any in return, I have taken back control of my time so I don't waste a moment of this extraordinary life, and I graciously accept that people will come and go. I have learned these lessons only by being thrown about by immense waves of sadness. 

So, all that to say -  here's a bunch of projects. Some are (really) old, and some are new, almost all were unfinished and I just went back and took the decent bits :) So for your listening pleasure, I have put together a yin and yang of emotional themes. (and also thrown in some completely random shit)

Thank you for reading.

*Be kind, be wise, be true.*
-Lord Schmicholas

Freezing Over

Didn't feel

Where My Head Should Be

Shooting Stars (Demo)

Fall:

Description: 
"Fall" might sound a little bit familiar to Nirvana fans. The chord progression, melody, and grunge style allude to Nirvana's "Rape Me". I think this song is pretty straight forward overall, but the word "fall" has a double meaning. In this track, it means "fall" as in fall in love, or "fall" as in fall for a lie or facade. 

Art Description: 
In this photo, a skydiver is depicted (fall)ing out of an airplane. My fans who know me personally will understand the importance of this as it relates to this track and this chapter of my life. 


Lyrics:
i think i give too much, and i dont ask for enough
maybe its all in my head, i feel overworked and underfed

its not fair, its not fair at all (repeat)

its not fair, not fair at all
we go nowhere, run into walls
we say nothing, nothing at all
and for you again, again i fall
for you again, again, i fall
i fall
i faaaaaaaiiiioooiiiooooiiiohhhooooohhhhhhhhhhlll

you say you cant handle me
when i get upset at YOU
for the things YOU do 
if you only knew

i dont care, i dont care at all (repeat)
its not fair, its not fair at all (repeat)

it's not fair not fair at all
we go nowhere, run into walls
we say nothing, nothing at all
and for you again, again i fall
for you again, again i fall
i fall

maybe theres hope
then again MAYBE NOT
all i can remember right now is all you forgot, mmm
all i can remember now is all that you forgot

its not fair, not fair at all 
we go nowhere, ran into walls,
we say nothing, nothing at all
this is the last time that i fall
this is the last time that i fall
i faiiiiiilllllohhhohohhOOOHHhhohhhll
i falllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllloohhohhOOOOHHHHOhhhhhhllll

fuck yeah

Fall

Little Green Men (Studio)

I Bought A Tazer

Hello and welcome! I am the genuine Lord Schmicholas, but you can call me Nick. I draw, make beats/produce, play many instruments and sing, usually from the comfort of my lovely home by the woods in the suburbs of DC. I am sentimental and nostalgic.  I like to chill with my friends and be creative. Please check out my albums, playlists and other pages linked below!  
*About to blow up like a superNoVA*

Freezing Over

Lord Schmicholas

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