hi hope u like this!! thx so much for the support <3

*lyrics*
keeping it cool, show no sign of affection
trying so hard not to feel a connection
staying away, there's no one i can trust
relationships always are doomed from the start

i used to fear living in isolation
now it's become my own shield, my protection
cause anyone anytime could do me bad
no i dont want no more knives in my back

if being alone's what i want
why does my heart feel so cold?
why do i crave someone's touch?
why do i miss being hugged?

if being alone's what i want
why am i empty inside?
why does it matter so much
that i have no friends to call mine?

nobody talks to me, they all forgot me
it's better this way not like they cared about me
guess it's my fault for not caring enough
when it took four weeks just to get a text back

if being alone's what i want
why does my heart feel so cold?
why do i crave someone's touch?
why do i miss being hugged?

if being alone's what i want
why am i empty inside?
why does it matter so much
that i have no friends to call mine?

i want to be alone

hi hope you like this one!!!

*lyrics*
everyday's the same, looking in the mirror
staring at myself, wishing i was someone different
yes i've tried to change, but my mind don't wanna listen
there's always something else and i'm too tired to fix it

i don't like my face, i don't like my body
it's all in my head so i hate that one the hardest
i hope that someday i can learn to love myself
but today is not that day

so i'm letting out how i feel
im tired of being me
my lack of self-esteem
my insecurities, i wish
they could just let me live

living in a haze, got used to the numbness
stuck inside my head, my self-doubt won't let me out there
yes i've tried to leave but i lost the track of time and
it's always been like this, love has never been inside me

don't say you like my face, don't say you like my body
i'll just think that it's fake and you're just lying about it
i know that someday i will fully love myself 
but today is not that day


so i'm telling you how i feel
im tired of being me
my lack of self-esteem
my insecurities 

there's nothing that can change how i feel
i wish i could be free
i wish i didn't see
everything that's wrong with me
so i'm just letting out
how i feel

how i feel

hi hope u like this <33
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/61lXIA3wCnDGabOre3qKPJ

*lyrics*
lie in bed, still awake
all this noise inside your head
you are stuck in your brain
feeling like you can't escape

i know how it feels like 
when there's no one by your side
u are slowly dying
from the wound inside your mind

take my hand, time to leave
run away so you can heal
don't look back at your fears
there's nobody left to hear

all the pain you're going through
and everything that hurts
all the ones who said they cared
then left you in the dirt

it's not easy to get better
healing slowly, pain is not forever

hold your pieces, put together
healing yourself, no one else can save ya

feeling lost in yourself
you just know you wanna change
hear that voice, everywhere
say 'you'll never be okay'

i know how it feels like
when you don't know why you're here
waiting for somebody
but you only got your tears

it's not easy to get better
healing slowly, pain is not forever

hold your pieces, put together
healing yourself, no one else can save ya

healing

also on spotify!: https://open.spotify.com/track/61q7AR0dHKJcZfzphz2SOc?si=WqeZYSKOTWCQiB0k4486Bw

*lyrics*
everything felt so perfect
when i had u by my side
tell me do you remember
how it would look like when i smiled?

you were the one who’d save me
make me believe it was alright
how could i be so naive
to think you wouldn’t let me down

watching the sun set
feeling your light fade
walking away,
you made me feel like a burden

did u replace me?
did u forget me?
what did it take
to never remember me again?

never enough or just too much
do u still think about what we had
or did u just leave me behind
and never look back

i told myself it’s different
i told myself this one will last
why did you make it so hard
you didn’t even say goodbye

i wish that you had told me
so i could let you let me go
instead of keep me waiting
thinking you truly cared enough

never enough or just too much
do u still think about what we had
or did u just leave me behind
and never look back

did u replace me?
did u forget me?
what did it take
to never remember me again?

did u forget me?

hii hope u like this <3

*lyrics*
i see stars around me
shine so bright they hurt my sight
i close my eyes to hide them
but the world becomes too dark

i can never feel right
something's always in my heart
hurts a little too much
and i can never make it stop

there's a void inside me
i can't handle what i feel
emotional nightmare
everytime i feel a thing

i know its hard to love me
and its hard to understand 
but everything keeps flowing
and im feeling it too much

wish i could hide it
numb it out and fake a smile
while i think of all the lies
that i've been telling all my life

there's a void inside me
i can't handle what i feel
emotional nightmare
everytime i feel a thing

i know its hard to love me
and its hard to understand 
but everything keeps flowing
and im feeling it too much

overfeeling

hi hope you like this <3

*lyrics*
everything u said
felt so nice in my head
cause u lied so well
sweeten all ur poison

the more that u talk
the more i hate myself
i just couldn't tell
i was young and lonely

when you found me
wish i never did the things that i did
all the stuff i said because you made me
you broke me down, now its my trun
to break free

you took so much, ill be never 
getting back what u got
leeching like a parasite in my mind
draining me out, pushing me down
till i drown

trapped inside your cage
i forgot what its like
to be my true self
fake it till u make it

wasted so much time
washing blood off my hands
acting like it's fine
while i kept on bleeding

sick n tired of this
every day feels the same
your voice in my head
body getting weaker

i lost all my will
but ill never give up
cuz im one to fight
and thats all u need to know

about me,
even though i did the things that i did
even though i said the words you made me
you broke me down, now its my turn
to break free

you took so much, ill be never 
getting back what u got
leeching like a parasite in my mind
draining me out, pushing me down
till i drown

parasite

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*lyrics*
staring at an empty wall
wondering how did i get here
when did i become so old?
why doesn't it feel like home?

i think i lost track of time
days to weeks to months, all nonsense
is this really who i am?
cause it doesn't seem real

don't wanna see
don't wanna fight it
nothing is real
it's just a nightmare

i'm still asleep
when will i wake up?
find my own way out
out of my shell

i'm trapped inside 
my own illusion
it's all a lie
i live my own truth

safer inside
but not for real, though
i'm slowly breaking
down into a void

everybody's moving on
but i'm unable to let go
no one sees me anymore
cause i'm used to being alone

everyone i thought i had
seems to never have existed
like i've always had myseld
living inside my head

these voices aren't real,
the feeling isn't real, 
there's nothing left for me
find somebody else to be

escape from all my fears
find someone to have near
hope something's there for me
cause its getting harder

don't wanna see
don't wanna fight it
nothing is real
it's just a nightmare

i'm still asleep
when will i wake up?
find my own way out
out of my shell

i'm trapped inside 
my own illusion
it's all a lie
i live my own truth

safer inside
but not for real, though
i'm slowly breaking
down into a void

nothing is real

thank u sm for listening <3

*lyrics*
tired of the game, dont wanna play any longer
wouldn't it be nice if u could just start it over?
wouldn't it be nice to become a little stronger
so that u dont die and u keep on moving on, yeah

playing by the rules, aiming for a high perfection
somehow always lose, i don't wanna ask the question
where did i go wrong? when did i lose my direction?
can i start again, i dont think im gonna make it

lost the game, try again
i don't want to keep on going
lost my lives seven times
i can never get them back

highest score, finish line
never ever gonna make it
i messed up at the start
i believe my game is over, isnt it?

i used to believe that someday it would get better
working hard enough i could get to the next level
but now it's been years and im still stuck on the same road
i lost all my hope, there is something wrong in my code

if i had the chance to go back and fix my whole past
i'd be someone else, but i wouldn't worry for that
if i had the chance to be who i've always wanted
i wouldn't be me, and i wouldn't mind to try it

lost the game, try again
i don't want to keep on going
lost my lives seven times
i can never get them back

highest score, finish line
never ever gonna make it
i messed up at the start
i believe my game is over, isnt it?

game over

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thx so much for listening ily

*lyrics*
it's 6 am, sky still dark
the night is mine, i see stars
my eyes are tired, my soul hurts
stars fading in the distance

i'm fading too, i feel gone
my stars don't shine anymore
can't fall asleep, can't calm down
i guess i'm stuck in here now

every night the stars come out to shine
and my thoughts unravel and i cry
i don't know what to do, i've tried so hard
i can't make a constellation with all of my stars

i don't know where to go, what to say
live a thousand lives that don't feel like myself
try to find a star that shines for me
find my own light, no more crying in my sleep

i hear a voice that tells me
someday you'll fly and be free
but im so stuck inside me
my stars are slowly dying

you said it would change but i can't see the difference
i still feel the same, empty shell, tired of this mess
i should try to fight, find a star, find a reason
find someone to call when it feels like i'm leaving

all those sleepless nights, counting stars, counting problems
always giving up cause there's too many of them
i should try to reach for the stars, reach the highest
but i can't get up, im still trapped, im still flightless

starcry

hope u like this ^_^ thanks a lot for streaming<3
https://open.spotify.com/track/2qQi9gdMOWbQf2V9QJ4Pg3?si=e9ba98d90c3d4eea

*lyrics*
Deep inside myself, something doesn't feel right
There's a hole in there, emptiness at midnight
Crawl outside my shell, looking for a reason
All i had is gone, time has lost its meaning

Life feels like a chore, i'm so tired of living
Trapped inside a hole, only dark i'm seeing
I know somewhere out there, i can feel it
There's a real me, alive and breathing

I'm searching for meaning
Somewhere safe to be in
It's fading, i'm leaving
If it's the end, so be it

Nobody will find me
I'm someone else, now i'm free
Forever, i'm waiting
For the light to take me

If there's somewhere else, i can't wait to be there
I don't like it here, i'm too close to the ceiling
If i ran away to where i've been dreaming
To the real me, heaven is a feeling

Please don't get me wrong, i don't want to be gone
I want a new life, i want to feel reborn
No more losing time, everything is endless
In the afterlife, where my soul is weightless

I'm searching for meaning
Somewhere safe to be in
It's fading, i'm leaving
If it's the end, so be it

Nobody will find me
I'm someone else, now i'm free
Forever, i'm waiting
For the light to take me

afterlife

hope u like this<3 *out everywhere on feb 8th*

~lyrics~
feels like i'll never stop
running from everyone
so tired of hiding out
i have no one to trust

lonely n stuck inside
locked up in my own mind
poison instead of blood
toxic to everyone

just wanna make a connection
i keep trying but it's not enough
there's no one around to save me
and i really need a helping hand

do you think that we can make it right?
do you promise you'll stay by my side?
if you think that you can help me out
i will run away before you can

feels like i'll never stop
running from everyone
so tired of hiding out
i have no one to trust

lonely n stuck inside
locked up in my own mind
poison instead of blood
toxic to everyone

i can't keep it up
there's something wrong inside me 
and i don't know what

tried so many times
but i can never escape from my own mind

i can't keep anyone
i know that it's my fault but
somehow it still hurts

i've tried so many times
but i can never escape from my own mind

lonely n stuck

<3 hope u like this

*lyrics*
if i can't feel, then it can't hurt
i've closed my eyes, my heart is shut
can't take it in, i've had enough
there's no more pain if i stay numb

oh if i could go back in time
i'd fix all wrongs, i'd make it right
but it's all done, im still alone
i won't feel no more

no one's here cause i pushed them away
seven years since i went astray
been so long since i saw a friendly face
all i ever wanted was to feel safe

now i'm alone, i'll stay this way
won't take the risk to fall again
and there's no one to catch me then
i am a void, i can't be saved

if i can't feel, then it can't hurt
i've closed my eyes, my heart is shut
can't take it in, i've had enough
there's no more pain if i stay numb

oh if i could go back in time
i'd fix all wrongs, i'd make it right
but it's all done, im still alone
i won't feel no more

and i know it's not the way
i know it's bad for me, i need somebody else
don't want my heart to break again
so i avoid the pain and everybody else

i pretend i don't care
don't know how long i have, it's eating me alive
i felt too much, i overflowed
guess i'm afraid of love, turned my hear into stone

numb

prod/vocals/art by me ^-^
hope u like this <3

now i feel the wind
where you used to be
i'm sure you're doing fine
now you're away from me

i was there for you
now no one is here for me
i became a ghost
of who i used to be

no one to talk to, morning to night
nowhere to go so i'll stay in my mind
cause you were the one who could let me out
and now that you're gone i'm forever confined

i was a nightmare, i understand
it wasn't easy to be by my side
i was burden, yeah i get that
did it feel good when you left me behind?

all of the promises we never kept
all of the times you would leave me in pain
all of the fun times you had with your new friends
i hope it was worth it for you in the end

i wonder if you ever feel some regret
stay up all night thinking what could have been
if only i would have done some kind of effort
to show you i needed you, how much i cared

now i feel the wind
where you used to be
i'm sure you're doing fine
now you're away from me

i was there for you
now no one is here for me
i became a ghost
of who i used to be

used to be

prod / written by me ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ thx for supporting
out in all plats
--
im not someone to talk to
im not someone u want to call
love is not something i do
and there's nobody i can trust
i've tried so hard to change it
but i've become paralyzed
locked in n isolated,
i don't do friends i don't do life

don't try to reach out i swear it's not worth it
i will let you down, disappear, i'm sorry
i swear that i've tried but it's too much effort
i guess i'll just hide, be a ghost, please let go

i'm sorry for not texting
and going missing for months
but i'm too scared to face it
i'm not myself anymore

i spill my guts in silence
i open up to my walls
can't have no one around me
i know they won't stay for long

don't try to reach out i swear it's not worth it
i will let you down, disappear, i'm sorry
i swear that i've tried but it's too much effort
i guess i'll just hide, be a ghost, please let go

ghost

waiting

rotting

just some thoughts i had a few days ago

*lyrics* lmao
i think im becoming insane
i think im becoming insane
i think im becoming insane
i think im becoming insane

there's a ghost in my room
no one else can see him
but i know he's here
he talks to me when it's dark outside
i cover my ears but
i can still hear him cry

he makes me feel so dark
so i'll turn on the lights
but it's still so dark
inside my mind

i think im becoming insane
i think im becoming insane 
my brain is haunted
my brain is haunted

i think im becoming insane
i think im becoming insane
my brain is haunted
my brain is haunted

insane

hi hope u like this!! <3

*lyrics*
i stare at the ceiling
i wish that i was sleeping
i'm empty of feelings
there's nothing inside my heart

i'm always so tired
can do nothing about it
i can't sleep, i can't smile
there's a hole inside my mind

i used to be sad
but now i'm just careless
i know i should try
but i can't 'cause i'm so tired

i can't see the light
right now there's just darkness
i have closed my eyes
i don't care, i'm always tired

time passes, new days come
for me it's always bedtime
don't call me, don't text me
you know i won't get back at you

all my friends are gone now
i never want to go out
i stay in, daydreaming
wishing i was someone else

i used to be sad
but now i'm just careless
i know i should try
but i can't 'cause i'm so tired

i can't see the light
right now there's just darkness
i have closed my eyes
i don't care, i'm always tired

i don't care i'm always tired
do nothing about it, no
i just can't 'cause i'm so tired

tired

hi hope u like this!!!

*lyrics*
i want to look up to the stars
i want to feel like it's alright
i want to lay down on the grass
i want your hand in my hand

i used to think it was easy
i thought i'd always feel alive
but now i'm falling to pieces
and i can't pick them up

i just need to hear it one time again
you're fine and it will be okay
i know it's a lie but i want to feel
like everything will be okay

i go to sleep just to dream of
some place away from where i am
i see myself falling deeper
i know i won't get up

i just need to hear it one time again
you're fine and it will be okay
i know it's a lie but i want to feel
like everything will be okay

look me in the eye, tell me that it's fine
just as the world keeps falling down
promise me you'll always be by my side
before you leave, just say it's fine

everything will be okay

everything written/produced/recorded by me in my bedroom <3
 thank u for listening it means a lot really

sikori

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