Mountains Apart/Never Leave

Worthless

II Atmospheric/Depressive Suicidal Black Metal II

Another day, I rise in my dark cloud
Enveloped by blinding mist
Destroying my heart
Destroying my will
I try so hard
To spread beauty
To those I love 
I'v tried so hard...

When will my effort produce worth?
I lack the strength to believe
I am worth it, for I am not
Little do they know
The agony that screams within
Being another shadow in their lives
Speak to me, so I may breath
Rest my solemn mind
And give me assurance
That I am the one
To hold your hand
Through our lives 
Until the end

Am I good enough?
For who can prove this to me?
Left in my lightless pit
Where my thoughts run
In a spiral
Towards oblivion
Walking through clouds
Surrounded by pain
My failure chains me
Like the dog I am
My failure defines
Of my worthlessness

I am so sorry
I will change; for you I will change
For you I would walk one thousand miles
Over broken glass
Just to see your beautiful face
And to take your hand
Forever, as the future unravels 
Right before our eyes
Never leave my side
Eternity awaits us
Look at me
As the moon veils our love
Enveloped by achromatic mist
You are my sunshine

You said you would always be here
Amidst the darkness 
You would have my hand
resting firmly in yours
I crave this
Show me 
Please, God please
Show me that I matter
Change for me
And I will change for you
I love you
But I am lost
I would sacrifice everything
Just to see you laugh
Just to see you smile
Would you do the same?

Silence Again