one of the craziest beats I've ever made tbh lol
shoutout @shikixo for doing the vocals over this track

Shiki XO - suicidal (2020)

4certain <3 w/lxzy p.greyrock

lyrics:

When it all looks fucked, we just keep trying
We don't gotta talk about last night
And I been pretty good at breaking down
But I don't know how to act when it all goes right
I can't lie
I'm so sick I'm petrified
I feel stupid, it's so useless
I'm just sulking 'bout my life

But I think I'm onto something
No need for discussion
Wait until the drugs hit
I'm alive
And I don't know where to go from here
Do I disappear?
Do I fake it 'til I cry?

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions
Just lie
Tell me you don't love me anymore and that's fine
Tell me why I'm so down bad, baby you're mine
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions

Look into the mirror, I've been hating what I see
Look into the mirror, it's not me it's not me it's not me
Grinding my teeth
Feel like a monster so just let me bleed
Gotta get too high to function whenever I'm in public
Feel like I'm disgusting
Always too much 
Or not enough of something I can't describe
Feel I'm always locked inside your eyes 
(Oh-woah)
I've been falling in line
Ran out of places to hide
No matter how hard I try
I'm someone else to you

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions
Just lie
Tell me you don't love me anymore and that's fine
Tell me why I'm so down bad, baby you're mine
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected oh-woah-oh

Just lie-ie-ie-ie-ie-ie

prod. love,matt x chrismarek

keep trying

https://open.spotify.com/track/2586RZc2WBSF1LN0tLMCBU?si=7cbd2bfd66ae411a

prod @ripwarheart

lyrics:

i tried, my heart fell out but i tried
idk if its love tht i felt for u
everyday i spent wishin i could love u too
n ik tht u love me it hurts me boo
i js wish tht i wish i could love u too
n the words wont come out of my mouth
ive tried n ive tried n i found
my love for u faded away
theres no way to keep this love alive

u shud throw a spear right into my heart
see if i can fall in love many dif ways
im tryna make it happen
i dont wanna see u crying again

spears (warheart)

it’s my party and i’ll cry if I wanna (utaqqa)

YOURE OBSESSIVE(sunrisess)

https://soundcloud.com/glowboyshawty

Dirty phone screen
Dirty stick dirty beans
Dirty carpet wrap it up
Throw your body in the seas
In a camo bape tee
Truey jeans red seams
Got swag you can see
But cant take this shit from me

In the bathroom throwin up
I got puke on my jeans
Too much alcohol this month
Think my body tryna leave
You gon find me in the dirt
Homies pouring out the lean
I could never pop a perc
Body lying in a stream

They hate me
Same time
Same things

I like drinking
Too much
And to sing

Stay asleep
All day
Forget my dreams

Night mares
Keep me up

head full of dirty things

Demons got my body stuck
People see the same thing

im a diamond in the rough
I wear shiny every thing

The rick shoes cost a buck
U cant afford me or my things
U couldnt be me in your dreams

dirty screen (prod. glowboy)

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