Wait what

Living Off My Haters' Rage (1)

Dreaming

sample: deathcabforcutie

just tryina calm down
in my life 
ive got so much
to hold down
im not what u deserve
but what u need now
u know i still see you in the ashes
when i cash out
even when the moment still frame
your just a flash now

still tryina calm down
in my life ive got so much
to hold down
thousand tons of pressure
tryina beathe now 
i just wanna sleep sound
ride the wave and dive down
im empty like your soul now 
sleeping on the cold ground

oceans stretch 
like my dollar
im so pressed flat
shaking this whole week
ive spent hours
getting lost time back
you knew i would eat up anything
so you would lie about it
holding in the smoke
manifesting in release now

jus tryina calm down
in my life ive got so much
to hold down
thousand tons of pressure
tryina beathe now 
i just wanna sleep sound
ride the wave and dive down
im empty like your soul now 
sleeping on the cold ground

just tryina calm down
in my life ive got so much
to hold down
im not what you deserve
but what you need now
you know i still see you in the ashes
when i cash out
even when the moments still frame
your just a flash now

see u in the ashes when i cash out

https://soundcloud.com/user-938656825 guitarist Johan harnesk

IdontWannaKnowHisName

king christian - as your skin turns cold (prod. frander)

https://soundcloud.com/tothegood
vocals produced john dello

im trying to behave
but i just cant sit still
and im dying to see myself
as you do
but im dying inside
if you just knew
i care and i swear ill take you
and im found in myself
just trying to buy time
filling up my lubgs
smoke leaves my breath white 
and as if sleeping in everyday till the sun goes down
brings no shame
and i play my part
in whatever game
this is to you
so end it please
save myself from
the breathing leaves
my eyes see your name
but the lights not in frame
blinded by the little things

for now (prod tothegood)

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

and i aint got no reason to be upset 
an unbalance has just met
the circumstance is not yet
i haven’t seen the sunset
since the words you said have not left
I’m holding in my feelings
and showing thoughts in meaning
my actions don’t come clean 
but I’m just kid who’s hearts beating
distracted by your horrid ways
don’t know where to go from here
and i don’t know what the fuck to say
scratch out my eyes
and call it fate
adding to this hollow heart
adding to this tired brain

all around the world 
is what i aim for
let me die in peace
when my days done

myself and i (prod ʎpoqou)

HTTP://WWW.TWITTER.COM/LILXLOTUS
HTTP://WWW.TWITTER.COM/NEDARBNAGROM


@lilxlotus

LYRICS:

 Playing with my head is too much
Laying in this bed is too hard without you
Everyday I'm getting too drunk 
Try to numb the pain so I don't think about you

But I never wanted to feel this alone in my life 
Take you for granted and push all my loved ones aside 

I'm staring at the floor
I'll just drink some more
Try to numb the pain
Yea baby I just need that

And time plays tricks all in my head 
Remember what you said  
Maybe I could change
Yea maybe I could be that

LIL LOTUS - Alone [prod. nedarb]

luna has risen

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i wake up every morning thinking way back when
the days are growing longer
but im not getting stronger

used to get night terrors and cry to mom 
but now i fear the day this will all be gone
you know i never can admit just when im wrong
wiping tears away as i write this song

growing up
time moves faster
than i can
sick an tired
of lying
to myself

i cannot fucking stand this
im sick of fucking standing
on my own
on my phone
without a fucking purpose

and yeah i hope its worth it
you know im fucking hurting 
i think that i deserve this
(i know that i deserve this)

i wake up every morning thinking way back when
i felt like i was nothing
i turned it into something

used to get night terrors and cry to mom 
but now i fear the day this will all be gone
you know i never can admit just when im wrong
wiping tears away as i write this song

luna

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night terrors 🌔

MUSIC VIDEO HERE : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dpiP7EyGcs


I DONT THINK A ROPE WAS EVER MADE TO BE A NOOSE
IT JUST GOT TIED THAT WAY
SOMEONE FOUND THE KNOTS AND WOVE A PATTERN
JUST TO FLY AWAY 
WORDS WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE SO EMPTY 
THEY JUST DRAINED ONE DAY
THE COLORS TURNED TO BLACK AND WHITE
AND MIXED TO MAKE THIS UGLY GRAY
TIGHT ROPE, WALKIN ON A RAZOR 
UNDER LIGHT POLES 
LIT UP FOR THE WORLD TO LAUGH AND GIGGLE
AT YOUR TYPOS
LIGHT BULBS FLICKER AS YOU FOCUS WITH YOUR EYEHOLES
SLIGHT COLD SHIVER AS YOU GAMBLE WITH THE DICE ROLLS 
TAKE A CHANCE, KNOW THE UNKNOWN
HOLD THE DEVILS HAND WHILE YOU DANCE
AND THEN LET HIM TAKE YOU HOME

Creep Prod Kryptik

skean

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