Text and voice by Roni Cohen Skaly (Skaly)

Perfect Atheist:
I showed you the marks on my mind
So you showed me the marks on your skin
They say God is love but love isn’t perfect
God isn’t perfect
You wanted me to forgive my most harmful parts
as if you wished you could forgive yourself
This familiar feeling from the future
I may not love you yet, but I bet I will
Because all that I’m not meant to feel so soon,
I already feel
I sit there wondering how someone could hurt you so,
and leave no traces to blame it on anyone else but you
I thought I should leave so I don’t do something similar,
thinking I’m too dangerous of a woman, thinking too much of myself but knowing my sins
(but you said you liked me, so I stayed)
God isn’t perfect, so it couldn’t be God in your eyes, no, you’re so much more than a person
You’re an inspiration
I showed you the marks on my mind
So you showed me the marks on your skin
Asking are you allowed to be happy?
while you were doing it anyway
Stolen joy, guilt for every beautiful smile
It’s not fair, it shouldn’t be this way
Make it stop! I want to take it and put it all away
So there’s a part of me that hates the universe for making you feel this pain
And another part that loves it
for letting me have you lie next to me
I was so far but you brought me all the way
And no one ever did that for me
No one knew how, they were too afraid to try – I was too weak to tell them why
Too terrified not to terrify
I’m lucky as the hell you think you deserve
But hell would steam if it met the warmth of your heart,
so you see why they made heaven in the first place you perfect atheist?
And you may not love me yet but I know you will
Because you already feel all that I’m not supposed to feel
And I know you’re imperfect, but I love your flaws and the rest will heal
All that I can do is to love you still
And I may not love you yet
but I know I will

Perfect Atheist (spoken word)

Music (song and arrangement), Piano and Voice and Lyrics // Roni Cohen Skaly 
Mix // Harel Lahav
Mastering // Alex Wharton (Abbey Road Studios)
Violin I // Bar Markovich
Violin II // Nathan Cho
Viola // Una Palliser
Cello // Lydia Alonso
Flute // Tobias Wilson
Recorded in London and Tel Aviv by Mark Knight (Kore Studios) and Harel Lahav

Snow For The First Time

I truly considered it you see
You could have killed me
And I would be using my own kinetic energy to do it
I really don't understand people trying to kill themselves
If I tried, I would have succeeded, it's black and white you see, it's black and white for me.
I truly considered it
Up that very tall building in Ukraine
Eating something when you eat could have helped me
Letting me speak when you speak with each other could've been nice
Every time I tried to speak you raised your voice so I don't dare to show your friends the truth, the truth that I was smart, and uniquely thinking, but you just had to make me seem small. Invalid. Under human.

I truly considered it you see, up that tall building in Kiev I wanted to fall
I wanted to die I truly desired an end to us this much
And I didn't know how to leave you 
So I sat by the window looking down
Then you walked away
You just walked away 
And then I switched, I decided to be happy because you already thought I was crazy so starting to act crazy there and then was freeing
I just stopped taking life seriously
And we went traveling in a beautiful park and I was jealous of the ducks
I wished I could be a duck, you see, I wished to become a duck
Maybe then, you would let me go
And I could swim until I die naturally
But you went to the army to protect the country and yet me who was too mentally unstable to go I was the one to help release you to save your life because I actually gave a damn about you being suicidal with a rifle in your hands
Maybe I don't regret it but hooking up with my best friend 3 weeks later you could have avoided 
And 4 years later sometimes in my mind I visit Kiev
I visit that sad sociopathic boy who betrayed my soul because he thought in some twisted way that I betrayed his trust
But I can see it now, because you helped me become a narcissist and I am now doing the work and healing from it and I realize
That little boy was threatened by me
That 19 year old wanted me to be small so that he could feel big
But this time I know I'm valid, I know I'm human, I know I'm smart, I know I'm uniquely thinking and I know what I've made what I'm capable of and how jealous you were and how small you were feeling how vulnerable how twisted how lonely you were even when I gave you every drop of my time and my love and nothing that you did was justified
Nothing that I did could justify you yelling at me while I'm contemplating death 
And avoiding me of food of safety of respect 
But you see I've become a duck in a sense
I am free and I swim 
I swim until I die but surely I swim because I'm alive
And I don't want to be better or worse
I just want to be confident that I am safe that I am valid that I am human and should be treated as such, while being all that you tried to destroy.


Swim (words only)

Music by Skaly
Mix by Andy Maxwell
Mastering by Alex Wharton

Hopes

Music by Roni Cohen Skaly
For sync inquiries - contact A&G Songs or Power Haus Creative
**Artwork Credits**
Photo by Meital Azulay, Editing by Ariella Keinan

**Music Credits**
Singer / Songwriter / Pianist / Producer: Roni Cohen Skaly (AKA Skaly)
Cellos Arrangement: Yoed Nir, Skaly
Cellos: Yoed Nir
Mix / Recording: Harel Lahav 
Mastering: Alex Wharton (Abbey Road Studios) 

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**Lyrics**
Get it off your chest
Talk to somebody
Get it off your chest, my love

I haven't been there
But I will be there for you now

Get rid of the weight
Feel belong to my body
Get rid of the weight, my love

I haven't been there
but I will be there for you now

All of the beautiful nights we had
They won't become our past memories
I know your worth for me, my love
And when you make me feel like a stranger
I'll call myself and we'll be together
I would be okay without you too
But I want you

All of the beautiful nights we had
They won't become our past memories
I know your worth for me my love
And when you make me feel like a stranger
I'll call myself and we'll be together
I would be okay without you too
But I want you
Have I lost you?

Skaly

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