dont get out of bed
it's nice to get some rest
i'll make u breakfast

tell the truth to me
should i stay or leave?
your pokerfacce is getting hard to read

living in a haze
when was yesterday?
you turn to me and say

"why do i exist?"
i could say the same
does anybody know?

i've been taking days off
and i'm scared when i stop
why can't we just live life?
if she's real then why
is it like this
when it could be different
for now, i'm living
for you

god (for you)

the night is ours
and the bonfire too
and it’s burning through

the space between
our eyes and shoes
and it’s new

as my sirens sounding
as my hope is drowning
you just do you
you just do

and if you took away college
the fear of making no profit
it’s just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

cause my sirens sounding
and my thoughts are crowded
with you
just you

and if you took away music
the fear of staying this useless
it’s just you
just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

don't wait

my only memory
is of you and i on the couch
autumn's first breeze and
september's sun down
if it weren't for the candles
we'd be the warmest thing in the room
cause you're too hot to handle
for somebody who knows how to lose

and i guess that's why a therapist
writes half of all my lyrics
i give credit where it’s due
if therapy is listening, i love you

now that i’m 18
i know damn well a rock can’t talk
but i saw that movie
and it changed the way i stare at a wall

i think you’re funny
but i’ve conditioned myself to laugh
cause i want you to love me
but humor's something i don’t have

and i guess that’s why a narcissist
writes half of all my lyrics
i give credit where it’s due
i know i’m always listening, it’s all i do
if therapy is listening
mary if you’re listening
i swear i’m always listening
it's all i do

my only memory

partridge sketchist remix

i probably stole these melodies from somewhere

tell me you’re listening
i keep you in foremost front parts of my mind
last night was different
you should promise the first time was the last time

you do things in the moment
when you don’t know if you mean them
when i let down my defenses
pull you out of the deep end
the breaking starts

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
that’s where it starts

sat on memorial benches in homestead
you joke that you’ll leave one for us when we’re both dead
and gone, ashes in homes
the spark on the fuse grew alongside your nose

and i know that’s impossible
so i'll be responsible and
take half the blame, i'll play your game
if you take back your bench, i’ll try not to miss

comfortable silence
the biggest smiles after a kiss
kickflippin sleeping over kissing learning hurting like little kids
i’ll try not to miss

oh why’d you do things in the moment
when you had what you called perfect
now i don’t know if you meant it
now i’m the one in the deep end
you broke my heart

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
can’t we restart

skatepark kickflippin except ive been sick for a week and almost lost my voice

faye, she has the
voice of a flute
she’s beautiful too

there’s a time for everything
and everything’s a time for me
to reflect, improve, and breathe
but i don’t do any

incoming a text on this foggy morning
i pull it up on the drive to school
he said “you’ve gotta figure out your life”
and i said “cool”

there’s a time for everything
and everything’s a time for me
to reflect, improve, and breathe
but i don’t do any

faye

super short wrote this super fast

living inside me
there’s a black hole
eating every feel

oh i want to be emotional baby
i want to cry all the tears stored in heaven
i want to be affectionate baby
i want to live in a pool full of emotion

living life blindly
how am i sposed to move
if my guide isn’t around?

do i need to find it?
what if my emotions aren’t even real?

oh i want to be emotional baby
i want to cry all the tears stored in heaven
i want to be affectionate baby
i want to live in a pool full of emotion

EMOTIONAL

i want you to sing so beautifully
light up the world with your harmonies
take all of the time that you need
no matter what I’ll be waiting

for you
it’s true
i’ll be waiting for you

sing to me sling x2
sing to me
[repeat]

abstraction and little things hold familiarity
i swear i dedicate everything to you sling

sling

melodies courtesy of harry teardrop and laundry day i think oops

well the west flew to mid-ohio
skater boys from new york have followed
and i wonder if they think of me when their ego dies down

what a rude thing to say about them
they’re probably facing the hell of parents
who are funding almost everything to get them moved out
i know cause another one moved in now

i see him kickflip out the window
he could really make a name for himself though
i see him kickflip out the window
we could really make out if we lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living next to me
so, when do we start?

when do we start?
can we start right now?
let's start right now

been a month and you know my dogs name
i found the place where you work on weekdays
and i wonder if you think of me when you wanna get out
i know, i gotta move on but i look out

and see him kickflip out the window
he could really make a name for himself though
i see him look up at the window
i could play it off well if i lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start? 

can you heal the way i feel
can you heal how i feel
can you heal the way i feel

When do we start?

rough just for today cover

it’s good to know
that you don’t know
that i know everything about you
do you even know what day it is?
you see the way
i see your face
i play all your little games
so don’t make me wait for this

just let me be your valentine
leave it up to me
to make a mess of what isn’t mine
now you cant ask me to be your valentine
if i dont try
to not cross the lines
i just wanna cross your mind
can you be mine?

silence is a virtue
and you’re taking advantage
my dreams will come true
you’re just leaving me stranded
stranded

just let me be your valentine
leave it up to me
to make a mess of what isn’t mine
now you cant ask me to be your valentine
if i dont try
to not cross the lines
i just wanna cross your mind
can you be mine?

can you say
“can you be mine?”
mine

if i don’t try
to not cross the lines
i just wanna cross your mind
can’t you say
“won’t you be mine?”

Valentine's day

some place afar
i wanna sit in front of a volcano

distant affairs
i wanna stop but its so hard to say no

and theres a crack down the road
i can see it from a month away

rush in
jump in
im ready to erupt
youre ready to erupt too

suffering
in the ash
but hey, its breathing
its what we do

rush in/volcano/milotic???

comm college has commenced
this time i'll try to make some friends
i've not talked in a while
and i've gotten nowhere with silent smiles

when walking by

hi i'm x4

this hallway's a work of art
the murals inside of your heart are reflecting all over the walls and inside your eyes

in your eyes

hi i'm x4

so when you're passing
(how do you do it?)
i'm asking
(how are you doing?)
it's past me
(how do you do it?)
x2

how do you do it?
how are you doing?
how do you do it?

hi i'm

well the west flew to mid-ohio
skater boys from new york have followed
and i wonder if they think of me when their egos die down

what a rude thing to say about them
they’re probably facing the hell of parents
who will sigh and fund their everything to keep them moved out
i know cause another one moved in now

i see him kickflip out the window
he could really make a name for himself though
i see him kickflip out the window
we could really make out if we lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start?

(when do we start?
can we start right now?
lets start right now)

been a month and you know my dogs name
i lurk the place where you work on thursdays
and i wonder if you think of me when you wanna get out
i know, i gotta move on, but i look out

and see you kickflip out the window
you could really make a name for yourself though
i see you look up at the window
i could play it off well if i lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start? 

can you heal the way that i feel?
can you heal how i feel?
can you heal the way that i feel?
come and heal the way that i feel
come and heal how i feel
come and heal me

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start?

When do we start? full demo

[part 1: food]

hey max, take your shirt off
it's overworn
aren't you almost 18?
relax, i wont judge
tonight i'm yours, plus
you've got a nice physique

now you're talking about hungry you are
"trust me, it goes once you start"
and you're walking around the fight i've endured
i guess i hide it too well

so i won't worry about
any name you call me
when you like how it sounds
so dont worry about any of my feelings
just call me food and eat me tonight
i can rid your appetite
just call me food and eat me

take off my wrapper
kiss my tender golden shell
just be careful, i'm soft
and i know it doesn't matter
but im not here to loosen belts
just to take some shirts off

now they're on the ground
and we're dancing in dark
trust me, i know you've got a good heart
you're a glutton and proud
i'm envious of everybody else
i guess we're going to hell

so i won't worry about
any name you call me
when you like how it sounds
so dont worry about any of my feelings
just call me food and eat me tonight
i can rid your appetite
just call me food and eat me

[part 2: alcoholic]

on my way home late at night
high school forefront of my mind
something about is making me numb
somehow i can't get enough

oh i just wanna put you down
but you're glued to my hands right now
grab another, further down the gutter

just noticed how often
these thoughts are in my head
something about 'em is making me think
i'm addicted to these feelings [x3]

you just wanna put me down
but im glued to your hands right now
its forever, maybe its for the better
cause its been worse but now this is better, right?
right?

cant stop drinking empty feelings
think this bottles deep as deep ends
cant stop drinking empty feelings
i think im an-
cant stop drinking empty feelings
think this bottles deep as deep ends
cant stop drinking empty feelings
i think im an alcoholic

oh i dont where id be without
everything i put in my mouth
i just wish we could put us down
but our bodies are glued to our hands right now

its forever
drown me out

food/alcoholic

ive been trapped in the thought of you
running fingers along the wall
desperate for an escape route
but i wouldnt be if we could talk

the words
of a god are the words down your throat
i worship more than youd know
the passage of time doesnt lessen it
and it hurts
that you dont have a single thing to say
cause i cant get through my days

i write out messages in my head
like you are ever gonna read them
like you know i exist
like you could feel that ive been
imagining my very first kiss
and nearly tasting you on my lips
youre foreverlasting
cause you're holding me
captive
in my own head

maybe its for the better
youre a bonafide skater and im the biggest fucking faker that youve ever seen
cause we dont go together
as if loves a fucking puzzle and im the jagged fucked up piece
well ive never been the best at connecting

i write out messages in my head
like you are ever gonna see them
like you know i exist
like you could feel that ive been
imagining my very first kiss
and nearly tasting you on my lips
youre foreverlasting
and when you smile theres magic

puff clouds covering up everything around
until its only you and i in our plain sights and finally im

encaptured in the room you call home
and now im trying on all of your clothes
some damn spell you've casted
yeah, you're holding me captive

what am i
if im not but a desperate self loather
and a victim to closure
im pulling in everyone close
if im not but a born hopeless hoper
im gonna live til its over
im pulling in everything close
youre more than a simple attraction
youre a misery magnet
im pulling in all of me close
youre more than beautiful passion
youre a lifelong distraction
and im always on the verge of implosion
you'll never feel what ive been
gonna live til its over
gottta keep my composure

i write out messages in my head
but you are never gonna see them
you dont know i exist
you'll never feel what ive been
the fascinations are persistent
taboo tattoo, youre permanent
youre foreverlasting
cause youre holding me
cause im holding you
cause im holding myself captive

captive demo

song i wrote 2 years ago i still feel somewhat related to

thinking why cant i just enjoy it
thinking why am i always envious
thinking why cant i enjoy it the fourth time around

why does everything have to be new
an awkward cadence, new tuning too
why am i always pushing forward til i fall down

and i miss playing when i was young
where imagination wasnt a sign that somethings wrong
and the shallow end of it all

why do i miss those feelings
thinking why do i miss confusion
healing doesnt come with age or an unfolded truth

and i miss playing when i was young
where imagination wasnt a sign that somethings wrong
and the shallow end of it all

break down
voice cracks my eyes lock aim and i cant get out
off track i rise and say im an enviee
enviee.......

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