v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

I can't breathe so I suffocate,
numb the pain like Novocain,
hear me out for the last time,
look to the stars its the same between you and I,

I haven't been the best friend, haven't been the best kid-
but I swear I changed.

Kids Forever ft. Strgurrl (prod. switch)

[+] I don't wanna die tonight so ill stay awake
* featuring @emofruits + @lilskeleskrrt * produced by @prodby2k6 + @rxhff *

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stay awake

+ spotify

stay awake (feat. emo fruits + skele) [prod. 2k6]

produced by nevrfall, artwork by @punimonnn on instagram

ive been grinding too long and im tired of waiting
on me
its all about who you know, and nothing else
i dont wanna spend the time to see where im headed
imma quit this shit because i dont like the setting
"you got a new fan", thats what they said, i appreciate it, but,
i..
ill never see the better side
this is a goodbye letter
it was fun, but i gotta get better
and you should know that i cant get it like this
so imma get it somehow else, i swear
its not what i wanted to do, but i have to
lifes pale like blue
youre someone i knew.

a goodbye letter.

track 2 
prod speedlmt 
mixed + mastered by me 

and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony 

ive killed 3 men for u my love
and i would kill again 
i’ve seen so many people run
i wipe my tears and repent 
and u tell me 
that i will be just fine 
but i wont 
unless you come here 
i promise i wont hurt u
and u tell me that i’m evil
i said i know
i’m obsessed with ur perfume

 and i’m right on ur street 
and i’d love to see u bleed
and i’ve learned so many things 
since we last met
i can’t wait to show u 

and i smile as you scream 
cus i’ve lost everything 
this means nothing to me 
so if u beg 
i’ll blind u with this irony

killer, pt2 (speedlmt)

(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

trying to connect the dots

prod. @solofttt 🖤
if you're reading this, thank you for listening.
it means, seriously a lot
thx, take care

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time (time)
and it's hardly fair; i'm breaking still
regardless if i've already lost my will
and if i should fade into a darker light
it just doesn't make sense how i feel alright
cause i know nothing's right

and i've known that since yesterday
i'm something that i haven't always been
i lock my door, and lower the shades
letting flow state straight into the pen
the floors creek, and my brain feeds
on a core memory i stowed away
but i come forth; take it head on
peeling flesh off of it's travesty
but the earth hurts; all i have is me
she's here too, but sorta overseas
you amaze me, rearrange me 
in a shape similar to something sweet
the window open on a cold night
honestly i love frostbite
numbing part of me, in which apologies 
aren't policy for the limelight
fight back
fuck off
i'm not going outside today
i woke up too late
to avoid the rays
now i contemplate when was yesterday
i contradict what i thought i was
what i am now's not so pretty
day to day feeling disgust
from the mistrust that i gave me
i had caved in; so shameless
but if you like my shit, put it on playlist
i am not in search of validation.
just something genuine

(6x)
i'll connect the
i'll connect the dots

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time
(all this time)

travesty awaits [prod. soloft]

[+] gotta keep moving regardless
* produced by jammy beatz *

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LYRICS:

[chorus: seejayxo]
im still smoking til its ashes
now im living lavish
Ion need to pass it
prolly thinkin that im average
thinkin that I had it
im only getting started
gotta keep moving regardless
say that im cold hearted
well u aint seen the scars bitch
I been working my damn hardest
you aint even artists
you tryna fit a trend

[verse 1: seejayxo]

when I tell her she goin bend
I could see you thru my lens
make a movie, you aint never knew me
I drop a hit and now ur bitch she getting groovy
4 grams in my blunt can barely roll it up
she said that she wanna fuck, so I let her fuck
need a bitch that know me but I don't even know me
look into the mirror wish that I could see the old me
do not let nobody know me
if u really love me then I guess u gotta show me
I been working on my lonely
play one of my tracks and now they all just try to bro me

[chorus: seejayxo]

[verse 2: wstdyth]

double dutch chains, rolling double dutches
too fast, can't be switching lanes, keep it 200 
speed wobble, dubstep bass in the whip bumping
i can see so easily ur fake, u should quit frontin 
touchdown, flip it in a day, that's a quick hundred 
hit it off, leavin home bass gotta keep running 
roll it up and take it to the face, i don't leave nothin 
i was feeling too stuck in my ways, hadda eat something 
smoking grass, grow between the blades, these ain't king trumpets 
my fits are always wet like everglades, hurricane coming
valentine's day, i got bouquets sent away
smoking california rolls at the stop signs every day

ashes (feat. wstdyth) [prod. jammy beatz]

prod. afterlife 

mixed and mastered by luke seeley (flowers for you)


dear my closest friend I’m writing cause I miss you so much 
Remember when we fell in love? it hurts me so much 
it’s been so long since I’ve last seen you but i long for your touch 
You’re the only one I wanna talk to til the suns up 


it was only one night but we could make it last a lifetime. 
You’re the color of my sky
The song I sing to tell myself that life’s alright. 
We haven’t talked too much
Don’t say I miss you enough 
But I feel the same, always on my brain, without you girl I’d go insane
I asked you if you feel the same
Lied through your teeth and said no on that day
Now I don’t blame you for all of your reasons for wanting to push me away
You’re saying that we can’t go back
As much as we wanna just redo the past
Baby youre right about that 
I just wish that we could forge a new path
Don’t see a reason to lie
Think about you all the time
wish I could take it all back
sorry I suck and I ruined your life

dear my closest friend (prod. afterlife)

@splashgvng @jolst

lyrics:

maybe i’m just sick of everything you said
i keep it all inside my head
you really make it bend
all the blood you bled is a river
nothing inside my heart could deliver
are we suppose to feel this way
you burned a hole inside my face
i’m a hungry soul
locked inside this hole yeah i want more
you said to let it go
i thought this time was gold now it’s all cold

you’re picking at my head i could feel that
(calm yourself we’re only here for the moment)
i’m stuck in a trance i can’t get back
(drown yourself in your tears yeah its fine)
here’s to how i’m left
(even without all the air from the outting)
oh dear you stole the rest
(nothing inside could erase what you started)

if anything gold could stay this year
i’d rip my heart right out my chest
if i wasn’t told to feel this fear
then maybe i wouldn’t be distressed about it all
i’m tired 
i’m sorry that i’m a liar
i’m trying to be better
but i guess it’s all for nothing

you’re picking at my head i could feel that
(calm yourself we’re only here for the moment)
i’m stuck in a trance i can’t get back
(drown yourself in your tears yeah its fine)
here’s to how i’m left

(even without all the air from the outting)
oh dear you stole the rest
(nothing inside could erase what you started)

maybe i’m just sick of everything you said
i keep it all inside my head
you really make it bend
all the blood you bled is a river
nothing inside my heart could deliver

you’re picking at my head i could feel that
(calm yourself we’re only here for the moment)
i’m stuck in a trance i can’t get back
(drown yourself in your tears yeah its fine)
here’s to how i’m left
(even without all the air from the outting)
oh dear you stole the rest
(nothing inside could erase what you started)

calm yourself we’re only here for the moment 

drown yourself in your tears yeah it’s fine

all 4 nothing (prod. splashgvng x jolst)

Lyrics:
i swear im really trying to get better every day
all the words i spit end up sound the fucking same
cause of all the stupid things that will always plague my brain
they just snipe out all the goodness but im OG in this game

but when i try to set the loadout all i ever get is errors
so i walk into the battle with this existential terror
and i know that i wont win because im not equipped like ever

so done with myself but heres your christmas song
i just hope that youre good and youre getting along
i know shits hard to see when youre lost in the fog
i just hope that my words can still help when im gone

keep your head up its not too late for you
theres still so much to see and still so much to do
i can help from above and make sure you get through
because life is worth living i swear that its true

its christmas again
i hope youre good my friend
i hope your soul will mend
i swear its not the end

i dont wanna ruin your good time
im just tryna save you from my mind
i know you wish that you were good, you were fine
ill just stay in my line, i wont talk, nevermind

"you should be happy so why are you not?"
i love all my people cause loves all i got

so done with myself but heres your christmas song
i just hope that youre good and youre getting along
i know shits hard to see when youre lost in the fog
i just hope that my words can still help when im gone

keep your head up its not too late for you
theres still so much to see and still so much to do
i can help from above and make sure you get through
because life is worth living i swear that its true

dear my closest friend (prod. afterlife)

skrwd

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