https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

They always hating I don’t listen to that nonsense
You’re looking at the world through the wrong lens
Surrounded by some people they some fake friends
You’re worth so much more 
Life is priceless

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand,
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

Never hit send
When does this end
Love from every angle got me bending like a square

Overflow the pot
Let it spill away
Inspire with the thought
I radiate the way
Treat it like a game
I level with the pain
I let the mana drain
Arcane up in my veins

Cast a spell
Unlocking all the fucking chains
Hundred fold
But I'm pushing through decay
Swimming up a hill
Fighting with the waves
Crashing down
I create away the day

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

The Bends

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - The Bends

These shadow walls
Are caving on me
Their cold withdrawal
Is more than I can take

Get me out of my head
Hoping I'll chain my sanity
Tears becoming regret
No one around so just breathe
I am my own
Darkest enemy
Can't let you go
Leave me with nothing

When I'm 6 feet down and all that's been said is done
skeleton bones are only collecting dust
As I feel like I'm dying again
Lay to rest a soul in violets
Then tragedy falls
A war of two hearts
Holes in my chest

I see myself
Crumble in place
The world moves on
Like I don't exist

Get me out of my head
Hoping I'll chain my sanity
Tears becoming regret
No one around so just breathe

I am my own
Darkest enemy
Can't let you go
Leave me with nothing
I am my own
Darkest enemy
Can't let you go
Leave me with nothing

Parabellum

Tsunami J. & Antent - Where Are You?

Featuring my homie: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

Like the band of four, leaving your home in the shire
we only had each others friendship, no other desire
except a ring, a burden around your throat
and the more you press on you find the weight chokes

leave your ghost by the bed, this paths not for the weak
hear the screams in the distance they're stabbing at false sheets
pull out your dagger as they pierce you through the cloak
yeah you watch it turn to dust but the struggle you won't be broke

hear the horns in the distance the north is coming close
feel the fear in the boots but the fire you gotta stoke
just to keep your feet going on, keep with the struggle right
you gotta keep on going, sadly there's no end in sight

and when you finally reach it you find you're on your knees
till you think the ones who love you wanna throw you to the fiends
like please get away how did it turn like this
one day i'll be smiling with everyone that i miss

i didn't understand back then whats up,
i'll bite my lip, take a knife through the gut
and when you see me smile please just dont say
i miss the person right here won't you stay

the dark flame came embraced all my face
if i turn yeah i'll see myself yeah replaced
and when you sing i'll try to rise up again
and then we'll see a perfect home through the lens

$lothboi:

I got to bone to pick
I’m tired of the holiness
The higher I be up the flying hit me with the turbulence

Surrounded by thought me
I might’ve had lobotomy
There’s something in my head that ain’t apart of what I want in me

I’m splitting like I’m missing
All the glue up on the leather

I’m hitting like a whippet
When I mix it all together

I’m fitting like a condom on a dick in chilly weather
I be slipping when I’m falling but a spark will make me better

(Spark Sound)
(exhale)

Leme hold a bit
Gas so strong
Bouta blow the bitch
Up

(exhale)

Leme roll this shit
Gas so packed
Bouta fold a bit
Yuh

Get a load of this
Man so up
Bouta jump and get stuck

Plan so fucked
Bouta duck
And get bucked

Man no luck
Just refuse
To get stuck

Waterford Ft. $lothboi

Ride or Die

LYRICS:

Put a collar on my neck for me to explode
You don't trust a single thing I say so I hold
Hands over ears just to block out the noise
My world is fucking painted red, triple vision watch the time go

Feel my fucking bones start to stretch out my skin
A fucking loner he can't communicate from within
So he's awkward and shy, doesn't have any friends
Until they fucking see him suffer feel so sorry for him and pretend

That  everything is alright, no you will be just fine
Fucking sick of hearing words of delusion it's like you’re in my mind
The world that I love floating straight up above
I'm watching hells jaw under as you give me a shove

And I fall, it didn't take long just to hit the bottom
Of the bottle on the side a cigarette to chase the lie
So nicotine a day keeps the hunger at bay
So I'll just starve myself alone in the anguish I'll fade

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

Yeah, Yeah

Watch the world around me swallow me whole
The sky cracks open blood tears flood the empty hall
Screams of a lover as she’s sucked in the void
Panic attacks take over when I'm stuck with a choice

Do I stay here or swim
I guess I'll never know 
Life’s a fucking joke when wake up and you just suffer
Getting jealous of another whose normal, so wounds we cover 

So the world doesn't see confusion comes from a lover
Who knows your not fine you're breaking, you struggle to get up
And you just smother out any tiny bit of her doubt
She hasn't got the strength to help so you just wait all this out

Until you make friends with the person down in your chest
They try to make you feel so better but they know you cave to stress
So a little bit of hate comes again with the waves
You starve your own body out just to block out the pain

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

It's Inside

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

prod @crcl

No way
Working 40 off a day shifts
No shame
Pushing 80 in my own shit

No fame
Boy it ain’t the motivation
Tell me that I ain’t shit
Induce a revelation

Ima aim
Ferda flame
Ima chase it

Ain’t no shame
For the blame
That it came with

Fuck a party
Ima lurk
Ima paint shit

On a track
Had to dash
If it ain’t this

40 in my hand
With the gang
We deface it

Dirty in the pound
Wearing black
Cuz the paint thick

Dirty in the mound
Not a the frown
When we face it

Dirty in the ground
With a crown
I ain’t basic

Down with a ship
Down with a bitch
Drowning

I found innocence
Round bit sin
Naughty

Divine imminent
Thrive in min
Stories

Divine in the sin
Die with a grin
Sorry

If it ain’t this
Hope you tryna live a bit
Living and existing ain’t the same, don’t you get it twist

Giving and forgiving keep you sane
Outa the abyss

Kindness to each other
Hit the bank, issa dividend

Yuh

Get your funds up
Watchu want son
Show some kindness to your devil
And the angels won’t run

Watchu find until you settle
Be the real tough love
Till the flower showing petals
And full moon sun

Revelations

MUSIC VIDEO

$LOTHBOI - Revelations [Music Video ↓]

SMILE :)

Every minute that we waste away
It is a life beneath us
The moment we couldn't lose
I've been waiting for the times we had,
While I'm reminiscing
Don't tear my heart apart

The sooner we only love and hesitate
Retaking the fall to know the full embrace
Running to save me with the novocaine
I can't stay (yeah)

One of us still need your Touch,
I'd be lost Alone
Embers of the roaring sun
Beautiful divine
Long night of real rage
You ran and I stayed for nothing
Can we leave scars alone

Atleast the worst has all died down
Exhausted from my dread
Hoping I can swim
But I might drown
The worst is yet to come

But I don't wanna seal my fate no
Evil tried to take my faith away
I need to be saved by grace, i've been so lost without you
Can't do this on my own
Who do you think you are?
(you'll never win)
Trying to kill my heart 

The sooner we only love and hesitate
Retaking the fall to know the full embrace
Running to save me with the novocaine
I can't stay (yeah)

One of us still need your Touch,
I'd be lost Alone
Embers of the roaring sun
Beautiful divine
Long night of real rage
You ran and I stayed for nothing
Can we leave scars alone

Novocaine ft. Luke Mara (prod. KRSTW)

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

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